My name is Izzy. It’s rather odd to hear a person undergoing some hypomanic state talk to you about the secret history of the world, especially when that person claims to be the descendant of the ancient druids. Especially when this individual has been your good friend for a long time. But when my friend Alan asked me for an interview, I couldn’t decline. He had always been cool with me in the past.
“And so, at the beginning there were the druids. And there was also the sky father. The myth of Kronos castrating the sky father symbolizes the cessation of generation of the sky, which in fact is the deity of Marduk within the Babylonian pantheon. This represents an old reality that the Celtic druids were in fact opposed in might by the earliest titan, which is Marduk from a historical point of view, or the original sky father, whichever you chose depending on the abstraction level which you consider yourself at. It could also be God, given that the Bible is an infinitely self-referential object and consequently the most powerful text of the kind. Of course,”
And at this point he sighed, and smiled.
“Of course, you could say that the historical God is all of us, that the Bible predicts the future and the past because of its self-referential aspect, and that consequently, from a certain level of abstraction—maybe all—the bible holds the key to every problem and every situation in the world. Yes, this is what they believe in Judaism, and yes, it does make sense that the Torah predates creation itself, given that the general rule is the Bible, from an absolute abstraction point, can do anything. A bit like the way the Dalai Lama describes history and Chenrezig’s influence. Of course, rare would be the Westerners who would understand this…but still. Where was I?”
He looked at me, pensively.
“Oh yes. Right, the Bible is the beginning point of history, or all points of history, from an abstracted viewpoint, but this is obvious so we won’t waste our time explaining that. We want to get to the core of history, to the real beginning. From all abstraction points.”
“And how do we do that Alan?” I said.
“I just…I trust my gut. And listen to what the world is telling me.”
“Well then, what does your gut tell you?”
“Well Izzy, I feel like it begins…with the druids. For many reasons. I could explain them to you, but they won’t necessarily make sense to you now.”
“First, one of the key themes in Celtic and Neolithic art is the spiral, and we’ve seen before…quite a while ago in fact…that spirals are linked with one of the deepest abstraction levels and so—“
“Hold it. Remind me what an abstraction level is.”
“Sure. An abstraction level is basically a viewpoint for reality. If I look at your superficial details, and I don’t see that our common basis is the median type, then I might think you’re my enemy and dislike you. It’s much easier, if I’m at a higher abstraction level, then I’ll see immediately you’re the median type that is an average person, just like me. These are the concrete abstraction levels and—“
“Hold it again. What’s the median type again?”
“The median type is our human basis. What it means to be human, without the acquired characteristics. Hence, it’s basically the capacity to see the humanness of others, and so it’s abstraction. Abstraction is the quality of the median type.”
“Alright, and so you were saying those were the concrete levels, but are there non-concrete levels?”
“Yes. Two to be precise”
“Fair enough. You were going to tell me how the world began. Care to tell me how that happened?”
“Well, it begins with the Celts in my view. They had quite some power, and for quite a long time as well. Until that unfortunate accident with the Romans, but that’s just because they didn’t expect such an odd coincidence to happen. But besides that, a druid is basically a very powerful person within the abstraction realm. They’re so powerful that a simple gaze or a few uttered words could have immense consequences, they could alter the course of nations, or paralyze an individual. Basically, they could do a lot.”
“Is there any way you can explain to me how such a power would occur?”
“Yes, it’s very simple. Each location of the visual plane is connected subtly to a region within the psyche, or the brain though I cannot pinpoint the precise locations and whatnot. Consequently, a movement from bottom to top may create an equivalent influence within the psyche, but only from specific abstraction levels. Yet most people are subject to those little variations, and when they dream these are mostly undone, but in general no one is aware of them. Now, a person as powerful as a druid could, knowing the particular variations and the particular dispositions of the individuals they’re interacting with, with a single movement generate an effect within the person’s psyche—with a geas for example. But this is really an advanced level.”
“So then tell me how come you’re aware of this? What authority do you have to talk about these kind of things?”
“Simple. Every time I was in a hypomanic state, I would generate different mandalas within the visual sphere, probably because my brain would be activated in that particular way. Yet my brain, probably in a high abstraction level, would produce the visual effects of movements either circular or radiating or so on. Therefore, I came to associate certain areas with certain thoughts. This all happened automatically.”
“Could you tell me a few of the associations?”
“I know only that the top left is pretty good. It corresponds to the North-East and, if you don’t believe me, just look at Stonehenge.”
“Haha alright. So tell me then, is that the only reason why you think the druids were the initial beginners of the world?”
“Well, it’s complicated you see. From a non-abstracted point of view history begins with the earliest temporal component, for example the big bang. Now I won’t talk about cosmic-psychic correlations and why the big bang never existed but is just a projection of the psyche, but from a higher abstracted view history doesn’t begin at the big bang, but at the beginning of the psyche, namely the highest and greatest and best level of abstraction, according to the individual. Therefore, you can see remnants in the Greek mythology of Kronos castrating Ouranos, which is basically the druids (or a druid) departing from the sky god. And the Titans, for example Mnemosyne, often correspond with psychic components. So from one point of view, history begins at the highest abstraction level, and goes to the lowest. Basically the four ages of man kind of idea.”
“That’s quite interesting. Were the druids the only ones present at the beginning?”
“Of course not, that doesn’t correspond to historical, and thus non-abstracted reality. There were different peoples, in Africa, in North America, in Australia, all over the world. They probably could communicate with one another given they’re initially all at the highest abstraction level. For example, even across the ocean, without involving a canoe or anything, a mere gust of wind could communicate information.”
“Hold it. Wind? Communicating information?”
“Yep. Or water. Or any medium. If I wanted to get crazy I’d even say quakes or changes in the rotation of the earth or its magnetic sphere. But let’s limit it to wind.”
“How does a change like that happen?”
“Well, you heard the saying that a butterfly’s wings could create a ripple that would affect the rest of the earth? A bit like that. The rationale behind this is that not only does a high abstraction level individual have a lot of mental power to exploit, but a whole abstracted civilization would have certainly the capacities to determine something to change the course of the wind, or clouds, or anything. And the subtle influence could probably be picked up by the society across the ocean for the reason that, being both median types, they would have the same basic wiring at the deepest abstraction level, so a variation in natural phenomena, a signal, would essentially be easily noticed.”
“Yes, I think the pyramidal civilizations might have influenced, or been influenced, by the Mesoamericans.”
“Yes but Alan, there easier reasons to explain that then your complex explanation. We’re all humans, and so we all have similar mentalities. Of course building pyramids could have occurred within different minds.”
“True. I can’t prove anything. I could suggest that Quetzalcoatl is associated with the East and the Mayans expected his return. A signal coming from the rest of the world might have come from the East.”
“I think there’s also some degree of possibility that the aboriginal Dreamtime could be a beginning point, but I’m unsure.”
He spoke, and yawned.
“What are you thinking of?” I said.
“Stars in Babylonia.”
“What about them?”
“Stars, for some reason, represent the white region. The right one on the mandala.”
“For some reason?”
“I have different hypotheses about their symbol value as greatest abstraction. I know that Inanna, since her depiction is a thick star, probably represents projection, namely the red region. That’s because the depiction isn’t abstract, but quite concrete. I’m thinking you could plot all the major Babylonian gods in the mandala…but maybe not. I might be trying to look too far. So basically, the stars are symbolic of the white region because, in my opinion, they’re most distant. Consequently they activate the highest abstraction value. Or they might be most distant and thus activate the highest projection value, and that’s why we see constellations in them. Or, maybe we see the links abstractly, and then project onto them. There’s a million reasons actually. Maybe they’re dots stuck in matter, unconnected from each other…kind of like souls in a body…kind of like us. Stars are souls…to some degree of abstraction”
“Yeah, all I can safely say is they’re the right side. Probably because they’re so distant and made of light they’re the most abstracted and considered ultimately real. Or even for no good reason. Anyways.”
“The representation of a god, in Babylonian religion, is Dingir: pictogram of a star. Now, the reason for this is that a god for them is a natural emanation of the collective psyche. Basically, a population makes gods.”
“Could you expand on that?”
“Sure. At a certain level of abstraction, within a city or a population, there’s the emergence of gods. Simply like residual mind effects. What I mean is, it’s like a swarm mind kind of thing. The highest abstraction point of the population—and in a civilized city there’s not just abstraction eh, the more distance between the individuals, the most numerous the individuals, the more projection there is—meaning the recesses of the mind, generate an image of their mind. Basically they send out signals randomly, that looks like their inner mind, at the abstracted level. Everyone picks up on these and there’s a kind of synchrony. The final result is a projection, namely a god, which different individuals see or feel or whatever at different times in different situations. However, since the god is an abstraction related process, the details, the projections, make no difference. If you have one person seeing the god somewhere, and one person not, then it doesn’t matter because there’s conciliation within the inner recess of the mind. Except when the population is so large or so projection biased that you don’t see the gods visually anymore. The reason for this is the entropy within the population, and it’s a sad thing.
“So in the case of the Babylonians?”
“Well, initially you’ve got the four major gods Enki, Enlil, Anu and Isthar, each related to a location on my mandala. And the belts of these gods are probably the degrees of abstraction they belong to, but once again this is tough to analyse. Anyways, they’re a pretty primitive form of the mandala. Or they belong to an abstracted form of it. A more complex form is the Greek pantheon, divided in twelve. Now that is some fine tuning.”
“And so you’re saying that…”
“Pretty much that each of the Babylonian gods represents an aspect of the psyche, though it’s difficult to say which is which, besides Inanna which I’m pretty sure is bottom. I could still be wrong though.”
“If you had to guess?”
“Well. Enki right, Enlil left, Anu top, Inanna bottom. Fits with her descent in the underworld. But that might be left with the Netherworld. I don’t know. However, I do know, and I’ve just realized, that though the Greek pantheon is a mighty fine work it was preceded by the Zodiac, which is an even finer and more complex work( at certain abstraction levels). It’s so complex that even I can’t completely figure it out. Those Babylonians probably used the visual space code for some body parts of the animals, or something like that, or some defining accidental feature mixed with a projected feature…but the damn thing is complex. I can’t really understand and figure it out, I’m not at that level yet.”
“None of the signs?”
“Aquarius might be a visual combination of a circular shape plus a liquid shape inside, the opposite of an oven shape, a square shape with fire in it. I’ve got a crazy theory if you want to hear it.”
“Sure.” When Alan said he had crazy theories, they were really crazy.
“Well, the Syriac word for oven, Ker, holds all the connotations of an oven, but it also is related to the Hebrew word omer. I think that there might be a connection, the poet Homer being the opposite, or competitor, of the Aquarius sign. Which would make him the Leo sign. But this is all very complicated.”
“Could you explain a bit more?”
“Yes, the symbol of spilling water or liquids means distributing secret knowledge—waters of life for example—to the population as a whole. It’s like spilling secrets and whatnot. The opposite is an oven, holding fire within. Hence instead of secret knowledge, is the overt information—which is synonym for fame—and keeping it restricted to oneself. Therefore, Homer, in actually, is a poet, which in the history of the world have accumulated glory to themselves and propagated a fame type of culture rather than an illumination one. Oh right…a fame culture is a culture based on eminence and distinction, and an illumination one is based on sharing and collectivity. So, that’s pretty much it. Oh by the way, the Arian concept and the Indo-European language is most likely entirely constructed and doesn’t exist in reality. Just saying.”
“Well that’s interesting. Will you explain it later?”
“What were you going to say about Freud and Jung the other day man?”
”Initially, my gut told me that Jung was good and Freud was bad. From an appearance point of view, they’re two different people, with somewhat overlapping theories. From an abstracted point of view, they’re essentially two strong abstracted individuals who through compensatory mechanisms arrived at opposite viewpoints on the essential aspects of the psyche. Or perhaps their difference, from another abstraction level were in fact minor. In all cases, there’s the necessity to talk about a dream. Because on this point, they were both correct.”
“Well, the dream is both a compensatory mechanism and a wish fulfillment. You don’t even have to involve abstraction levels to mention this.”
“What do you mean?”
“A dream basically, from the point of view of the effects of the waking state on the mind, undo or activate the exact opposite of the waking state. However, since the waking state actions tend to resemble a certain brain activation—or visual space activation, whichever—then in the long term the actions resemble the average of the activation within the day, and within the year, and so on. Consequently, the dream of one night is proportional to the dream of your whole life. So indeed, dreams have two levels of interpretation. In any case, Jung was right saying it was compensatory, given that the activation of the dream involves a particular area of the psyche which is opposite to the sequences of actions and movements you’ve seen during the day. However, Freud was also right, that it was wish fulfillment, mostly because the mind tends to seek balance, and aim towards equilibrium for happiness. That’s its abstracted life ideal. Of course it’s not the ideal in projected appearance, but it is so ultimately, all abstraction levels confounded (guess I had to involve abstraction levels). Consequently, what you truly want in life is the opposite of what you tend to do within the waking state, because it compensates this way—and so the dream represents this, once again for the daily and the lifetime activation! Within a single dream, you could interpret, given you were a druid or something, the entirety of the person’s psyche. And it wouldn’t even be that hard! Royal road to the unconscious indeed.”
“But they have to abide by the light code.”
“Yeah, there evolves within populations, in the subconscious, laws which cannot be broken. Often relating to light. But also to hospitality. The laws of hospitality described for Indo-Europeans—which never existed most likely—are in fact a projection of some of those laws. Read Benveniste about hospitality. Dracula—major symbol for non-identity—is the subconscious projection of horror from both the conscious and subconscious point of view….wait let me explain this. Dracula is a horror story from a waking point of view, in reality. But it’s also a horror story from the subconscious point of view, because the waking, superficial mind fears non-identity. Hence the lack of an image in a mirror is a similarity. This means it looks physically like its metaphorical activation. This is a bit complex, but let’s just say no image in the mirror means no identity. Let’s also say Dracula, which is non-identity related, and Mephistopheles, which is also non-identity related, both within their respective works have some kind of hospitality law incongruity. Thus they’re major similarities. Major similarities. But this represents the fact that everyone’s subconscious is protected, especially mine haha!”
“Amazing….by the way I remember you saying that you think the distinction between fiction and non-fiction is usually fatal? Why’s that?”
“Yes, because it’s an incongruence. In this case, the deep parts of the mind, the abstracted level, finds the work to be real because it contains a lot of symbolic elements. In contrast, the abstract quality of the mind finds every work of non-fiction to be essentially unreal, devoid of symbolism. The consequence of this is an incongruence, and what is called non-fiction, to the mind, is fiction, while what is called fiction, to the deep mind, and is non-fiction. The consequence of this is that everything that we consider important such as psychology, history, and so on, every science has a bias within the abstracted level—or even subconscious blockades as in physics—and consequently science has become a dry area, where innovation is usually completely devalued, and you need to have a PhD to write something “of worth”. An individual, like myself, whose mind is calibrated to see associations between things would die in academia, at least from within, and ultimately should set itself to writing fiction because ultimately, the fictional things within fiction, those are ultimately real. At least from the abstracted mind point of view. To the human element of mankind.”
A star in the East
“But now, I’m afraid I’m going to have to break a bias which traces back its origin from Babylonian times, and which I myself was victim of. You see, when a similarity, which is a symbol whose image equals its meaning, meets an incongruence, which is a symbol for which image is the opposite of its meaning, then there occurs a very very strong association bond between the things mentioned, a bias or an unbias”.
“An unbias is the natural tendency of the mind. A bias is the opposite. They occur when similarities or incongruences occur. And the undoing of biases liberates great energy within the psyche and the world, but in fact it’s a bit like chemistry. Sometimes you have to go through a series of biases to ultimately reach the unbias you’re trying to achieve.”
“Got any example?”
“Sure. Suppose that at the beginning light and darkness are linked in the mind. This would be an unbias, because it would be the natural, innate association. If someone were to, by a process of different methods to undo this natural bias, which would be extremely hard, but possible, and by a different process create a new association that light and darkness are not linked…well since the amount of energy necessary used for these transformations is very immense, to convert an unbias into a bias tremendous amounts of energy are needed, and when you convert a bias into an unbias, tremendous amounts of energy are released.”
“What kind of energy?”
“Star stuff. Star stuff is energy within the psyche. This is the substance that composes the subtle body in Buddhism, or works of fiction, or the inner soul of the individual. Ultimately it’s the substance of the universe. But now I’d like to perform a prediction.”
“There will be many biases of this kind to be broken. There are four main biases associated with the four directions within the mandala, which the Babylonian linked with their gods, and which will find parallels throughout culture. I think the bias is one of turning clockwise the mandala ninety degrees.”
“What do you mean?”
“Originally the directions on the Mandala were at the right location, but with the passage of time, which is represented by a clockwise turning and so constitutes yet another immensely powerful bias, because it represents both the actual passage of time and the turning of the mandala ninety degrees clockwise. It’s a similarity and an incongruity.
There are twelve smaller biases which are represented by the Babylonian zodiac, each of the side being a particularly complex bias of associations. These too must in time be deciphered. And finally, there is one ultimate bias, one singularity at the heart of the cosmos, which will be figured out. This is the gut feeling that I have in my heart, and which I must have shared before I continued my reflection on these biases. Also, I must say that this is all the devising of the Babylonians. From the point of view, all these biases are composite of one great entity, Babylon.
Alan shows me a drawing of a woman, white in outline, with long hair, and a great star at her forehead. This is on a black background, with white stars.
“The drawing I’m giving you is the absolute essence of Inanna. The meaning is that she is a welcoming goddess, rather than an uninviting one, as people assumed she is. She is the goddess of what? Love. And this is the great bias. Inanna, the goddess of love has been combined with sexuality. A bias was formed. The depictions of Aphrodite and Inanna and Inanna and so on, if combined into one abstracted representation would have the features depicted in my drawing. Therefore she needs a new name. Let us simply call her…her closest name is Astarte. Let us call her….East.”
“You’re saying this is the goddess of the East?”
“I’m saying this is the goddess associated with the white region in the mandala, the East. However, Inanna’s image as a prostitute was superimposed on this goddess, who is the goddess of love. And consequently a bias appeared. Now, I’m not going to explain the similarity, incongruence, and bias anymore, so remember this once and for all and underline it in your book: Similarity = similarity on the apparent and abstract level. Incongruence = dissimilarity between the abstract and apparent level. Hence the opposite of similarity. Finally, bias is an oddity, the result of the star stuff chemistry that defeats the unbiases. A most powerful bias is Inanna, the sacred prostitute. Now it’s important to remember the Babylonians linked these symbols, which may seem like they made a symbol to bind people into making the association between love and sexuality, but in fact they just made the symbols not to bind people into making them, but because they knew people were going to make these associations and consequently they generated the biases so that someone could unbind them. It’s like gathering stuff together so someone can pick it up and throwing it in the garbage. Thus, the pyramidal triad, namely the Babylonians, the Mesoamericans and the Egyptians actually generated these symbols predicting that ultimately they would be deciphered. Excuse me for going all over the place but that’s how my mind works. Now, before I continue with Inanna I’d like to make a point on the Egyptians, the third member of the triad of pyramid civilizations. Which reminds me that those are three more biases to consider. Let us call them the Mesoamerican bias, the Egyptian bias and the Babylonian bias. All the biases are elements of the unconscious, I can feel it. They’re the influences of the Egyptians, Mesoamericans and Babylonian populations. One of them is light…at least I think so. Now back to Inanna. Time to break the first bias. Within the abstract mind, sexuality and love are linked. This is the cause of many, many woes to humankind. The reason why this is a bias is because sexuality and love are two forces which are ultimately completely opposite at the abstract level. I mean in all aspects of human life. The reason for this is symbol. They’re associated at a literal level. Love and sex usually go together within the human psyche at the literal level, but at the abstract level, love is only pleasurable with someone you truly love. The Babylonians knew because of their capacity to predict blurrily the course of the unbiases, that the mandala would turn clockwise with the passage of time, ninety degrees, and so they made their gods in consequence. Anu, Enlil, Inanna and Enki. They knew the unbiases would get corrupted, into biases, so they actually did not change the unbiases, because that would be impossible, but they altered them, swerved them a bit so that ultimately they could be restored to their original state. And this is what I’m about to do. So here is the debiasing of sex and love.
The easy explanation is that love is the abstract fusion of the two individual’s star stuff bodies, whereas sex is the literal penetration of two physical bodies. Now, star bodies typically repel one another, so in the case of sex, the individual is closest at the literal level, but if love is not present at the abstract, then their star bodies repel one another at the most. This is because this is an incongruence: at the literal level bodies are closest but at the abstract level the star bodies are furthest, which is the opposite in true love.
“Yeah, what the Buddhists call the subtle mind, or the mind of clear light. I’ll explain this later.”
“You mentioned you were going to undo a bias.”
“True. Because I haven’t spoken about love. I’m afraid I’m going to disappoint everyone who wanted an interesting explanation as for sex, in the case of love. In the words of Virgil, “Love conquers all”. Compared to sex, love involves complete energy, in all cases of its instances, when it’s true love. And the reason why it might not be true love is because of the implication of projection. But let’s first explain why it’s so potent, and it’s, in fact, one of the core Us.
“Remember that symbol. Capital U...Is a major unbias. Meaning, an innate characteristic to the human psyche. Not affected by biases acquired by the passage of time and civilizations. I have an eerie feeling it will come up often.”
“Can you tell me how many there are?”
Any case, love is the most significant thing in the world, if it’s true. This is because love generates a U, the strongest bond in existence. Remember, similarity and incongruence are equal in terms of energy, but biases are the strongest bonds in the universe, and in the case of love no one in the world could undo it, throughout the universe, throughout time and space. I guess only the power of star stuff might dissolve love…but then again I’m not sure. I doubt it. The unbias of by true love…is in fact…the strongest glue in the universe. It carries on to several lifetimes, because yes, there are several lifetimes, and not just this worldly existence.”
“And, said Alan, I’m going to unlock it from its prison….forever…
Remember I told you there would be one single singularity from which the universe exploded?”
“Yes. I distinctly remember that.”
“Well, my friend Izzy, meet Dumuzi and Innana, if you want, the first Adam and Eve. Except unlike Adam and Eve this is a true love story. It’s the first case of true love, and consequently, for the abstract mind it’s the beginning of history. This is the true beginning of history.”
“Interesting. Tell me about this story.”
“Well there’s not much I can say about the details for the moment, but the fact that their love was so strong it reordered the universe by its energy, in a way so thorough that even the influence of mythologies and deities, whatever the influence was, nothing could ever alter, from the beginning of time to the end of time, and perhaps across the different levels of abstraction, the love of Dumuzi and Inanna will keep going on. I imagine this to be their gift to mankind. Also, the first sign of the Zodiac is Dumuzi to the Babylonians. And consequently, when the first wheel of four directions has Inanna in the East, and the wheel of the Zodiac has ram—Dumuzi-- in the same location, then Dumuzi and Isthar are reunited. And their reunion means the return of new life, of the universe. With the complications of the Zodiac’s orientation and the dates and whatnot it would be hard to pinpoint this, but in any case.”
“How are you going to undo the first bias though?”
“The bias is already undone.”
“What do you mean?”
The Great Gap
“I’m afraid I’ve thoroughly underestimated the Greeks.”
“Don’t you always?”
“Yes, but this time it’s going to take a long and laborious explanation to tell you why.”
“I need to start with my country, or my province’s, more so, swearing system.”
“What about it?”
“It’s unlike most swearing systems in the word. It’s mainly religious in nature, whereas usually swear words are about basic things like fuck or shit and so on. The reason I believe the swears are so powerful and sacred in Quebec is that they’re all biases, similarities or incongruences. They link some reality with a deep inner reality. The words like cave, tabernacle, and calisse, all represent something which is hollow. This literal meaning of something hollow is something with the outer appearance or the exterior being sturdy, but the inner aspect is empty. And this is basically what we have at the Quebec level, because a swear is usually appearance related, like fuck and so on, but the inner reality is empty. It has no specific meaning. In Quebec, in this respect at least, it’s a similarity because indeed, swear words are empty but appearance or literal related, yet in their aspect the swears of Quebec are also an incongruence, because on the surface they’re meaningful words, sacred words, and what they represent is empty. So there’s that level of bias there. Or rather unbias in a sense. But above and beyond all that, the Quebec swears retain Quebec’s identity, which is basically the non-identity which we’ve talked about in the white region.”
“But wait,” he said smiling, “It gets better. I’ve found something anterior to the druids. Or at least as powerful in terms of MV.”
“Which is basically…how complex and incredible a situation is within abstracted history?”
“Precisely. I’d say this has a pretty high marvelous factor.”
“So what is the situation?”
“Basically, the Native Americans sacralised the land so much, they’ve created an effect greater than the limits of time and space, but which peers into the star stuff itself. In other words, they’ve managed to generate a sacralisation of their land, basically impregnate it with star stuff, so deeply that the winds, the rotation of the earth, the passing populations and the retroactive effect of history has not contaminated it, desacralized it.”
“Really. Now how did they manage to do that?”
“I have no idea. But I know that they had the same North East bias as Stonehenge, and so the North East of North America is Quebec, which they might have made especially sacred. In fact, this distribution might explain a lot in history, both the North American one and the Quebec aspect!”
“By the way I managed to find a way for you to sell my book and circumvent the laws of the unbias.”
“Interesting. How are you going to do that?”
“Easy, I’m going to do a Faustian bargain.”
“Faustian bargain? Is this still your terminology?”
“Yeah. It’s a way to circumvent the process of selling something to someone in order to gain fame and recognition, basically honor, for the object, and at the same time generate money for the object being sold. Basically I think it’s a method within the laws of the subconscious. I’m going to give it to someone who’s going to sell the book”
“So that they get influenced at the subconscious level rather than you? That’s pretty devious of you.”
“Not exactly, because the bias of selling one’s life work is actually less powerful than the unbias of friendship. Basically, the unbias of true friendship implies that the individual, because they accept to sell off a person—which initially at appearance value appears like a bad thing---in fact takes money for the accomplishment of that person’s will and so suffers for it, because money affects the subconscious—then because the bias of selling the life work contradicts the unbias of suffering for your friend’s will, then the cause is noble rather than based. I think many instances of this kind of Faustian bargain have existed within history.”
“Could you give me an example from history?”
“I think some people would figure out some of them on their own, but I’ll give a mild example, because those kind of situations of betrayal are often controversial. It’s difficult to tell what a real betrayal is and what a fake one is. But I’d say in the case of Brutus and Caesar, we’ve got the example of a genuine Faustian bargain, where the apparent reality seems like an ignoble act, but where the actual reality implies a noble one.”
“So Brutus was noble?”
“Pretty much, I think that Caesar had immense potential within himself, and he managed to defeat the Celts, which is an incredible feat by itself, but ambition was getting to his head, and I think Caesar was ultimately risking to lose his life at the unconscious level. What I mean by that is that he’d lose his soul. This is somewhat related to ambition, but don’t get me wrong, ambition is not a bad thing. The only case where it’s a bad thing is if it manages to seep into the unconscious soul of the person, the element in the body which reincarnates, and so if it does this, it will inevitably affect the person for a series of lifetimes. The manner in which such an event is produced is if the individual generates a bias. By bias I mean they generate a connection with abstract reality so powerful that it could hardly or with great difficulty be undone, and this connection has to do with ambition.”
“So what was the case with Caesar?” “Caesar … actually I’m not that certain about what Caesar did which could have generated a bias. It might have simply been that he was sponging up people’s subconscious energy. I’ll get back to you on this point, because I want to say something about the power of friendship versus the power of true love. Oh wait I have it! Caesar actually formed an equilibrium within the Roman people, which means that at the abstracted level, there was equilibrium within the Roman civilization—in appearance there was inequality, but I think ultimately at the subconscious level there was a repartition of subconscious energy --proportional to the efforts and actions of each individual rather than their status. Caesar was within that equilibrium, but threaten to undo this balance, because if Caesar whom had been invested the power of all the Roman people, would lose his energy, there would be a bias. Basically, Caesar’s loss of energy would have cause a loss of energy in all of the Romans, and given that this is grave injustice, and a subconscious massacre because ….this gets complex…. Because the actual loss of energy being unjust at the appearance level and the abstract level, it would be an similarity, and being an similarity it would cause more loss of energy, and so create another similarity, again and again until ultimately there would be an bias, at which point there would be a global subconscious massacre, an immense loss of energy.”
“And how would Caesar have lost his energy in the first place.”
“Identifying with a God I guess. Hubris.”
“If Caesar identified with a god, and people would start to worship him, it would introduce projection within matter. Because gods are in fact projections of the abstract psyche. Anyways, let’s just leave it at that.”
“Alright, you were saying something about friendship?” “Yeah, true friendship, like true love, is eternal. It crosses lifetimes. It’s normal then that Buddhists believe that true friends must have had known each other in previous reincarnations. And just…mathematically it’s quite obvious. If there is such a thing as reincarnation, and the bonds of true love and true friendship defeat time and space and even perhaps star stuff, then I guess people are bound to meet again eternally with the ones they love.”
“And what about the evil people, who hate?”
“There are no evil people.”
“Can I ask why?”
“Alright, well in any case, true friendship is eternal. And it generates a bond slightly less powerful than true love. Consequently its impacts could be felt all over the world, and across generations.”
“Do you have examples of true friends?”
“Yep. The pyramidal triad are three good friends.”
“But these are civilizations, not people.”
“Well that doesn’t change anything. The representation of triune gods within history mimics the bond of true friendship. In fact, I told you I marvelled at the Greek mainly because their pantheon might be the most sophisticated representation of the gods ever devised. With a twelve sided circle, six female gods on one side six male gods on the other, you have the representation of the bond of true love. Each quarter of the pantheon is the representation of the forces of friendship. Top and bottom …we’ll get to that some other time. And this is not all, their pantheon has so many features…I mean…it’s probably the higher marvellous factor laden object I can think of at the moment. I guess the most incredible feature is…or are…the fact that it depicts the gods predating human existence in their physical accidental aspect, and also the physical image of the median type of the future. So they probably had mastered the art of …I don’t know…seeing the accidental features within projection in the past or future. Kind of like if you had telescopes but with intense precision and detail. Whereas the pyramidal triad have blurry telescopes.”
“Care to expand?”
“In one case they see the distant future and past clearly, in the other blurrily.”
“That’s really interesting.”
“Well, there’s also people who can see their inner abstract reality clearly or blurrily. But the introspective tendencies belong to the Eastern civilizations, which we’ll keep for another book. The Greek gods are…to surprise you…not actual projections. They’re actual gods. They actually exist.”
“You’ve got to be kidding me.”
“Not at all. My guess is that within the system of the earth and the stars and the whole universe perhaps—because who knows what it’s really like—there are patterns emerging. These emerging patterns of information are living entities, they don’t need a body or anything. So basically before man existed you might, were you to be alive within that time, see Apollo actually chase nymphs around, and given your mind could see those patterns, would it have high enough abstraction, it could see them. Just like the Greeks saw them. Just like the Roman sort of saw them.”
“You’re saying these patterns of information are devoid of human beings, meaning they occur within nature by themselves?”
“Yeah, but the thing is you need a human being to give them a human interpretation. So…you should see this as a computer program. Or no, I hate technology. See this as a cave painting. Depending on how clearly or how blurrily you see, you’ll see different things. The actual pattern within nature doesn’t look like an actual person, it’s probably some rustling of the waves or some clouds gathering or something. But in any case, the Greeks loved harmony, and I think they chose to view the world in the most beautiful way. The pact they did with East—who is Aphrodite in her early form—in the form of Paris demonstrates that they would be the ones to possess beauty. At what cost? I don’t know. But that’s the significance of Helen in the Trojan War. By the way, the Trojans might have lost the war at the literal level, but they won it at the abstracted level.”
“Who were the Trojans?”
“My guess? ….Nah, I’ll keep you guessing. Let’s talk about aliens instead.”
“Aliens freak me the fuck out, and I seriously hate talking about them.”
“That’s why I should dispel your fear of aliens forever. Aliens are a mere projection. The name itself means “not-internal” so you can see the similarity here. They’re a projection of the collective psyche, of the modern age. Basically, they’re gods but of the modern times.”
“Why do they seem so freaky then? And what about the probing dude!?”
“Remember Nietzsche’s comment that when you look into the abyss, the abyss looks into you? That’s pretty much it. Probing is a metaphor that the collective psyche is seeking into individual psyches in a desperate search for a solution to the riddle of the past?”
“Or right. I got to explain this first.”
“You know when people say aliens built the pyramids? They’re right. When they say they built Stonehenge? Probably wrong. People just generalize man! Anyways, given that the pyramidal triad’s faculties of projecting into the future was so powerful, there occurred an even which we could call….the Great Gap.”
“Basically, when a civilization becomes extremely good at predicting the future, it becomes influenced by its projections. This is sort of like a Wall Street prediction kind of thing. The Egyptians, taking just one example, might have projected into the future in the blurry way as they do, and hypothesized the future, but the Great Gap occurs when you start making decisions based on those projections…and ultimately in doing so you alter your projections…so the Great Gap is the period where the channel was open between the Egyptians, or any member of the Pyramidal triad, and the present. Well. The present in the sense that….wow this has a really high marvelous factor…the present in the sense that the pyramidal triad built the course of history.
“Built the course of history?”
“Imagine this. A person imagines in the future that there will be people who have an elaborate technology. They wonder how to extract their psyche so that they can prevent this technological aim towards self-destruction of a civilization. Consequently, they want to understand their psyches. For this, they need to examine the source of information which they have, and since aliens are projections in condensed form of the collective psyche of the modern times, they learn to send aliens within human psyches to search for solutions to the eventual disconnection of mankind with its essential nature. At the same time, they learn a lot from their models, so effectively the aliens of the present, and the past, are one and the same from an abstracted point of view. Ultimately, the information the Egyptians gathered from the “present” help them build their civilization, but the fact that they used such information to build their civilization created the present, which they used to construct their civilization, and so on. And an example of that fact, is the shape of the alien and the shape of a human being. All this happens because the present and the past are open, simultaneously influencing one another.”
“What do you mean?”
“Here. Add this diagram to your work.”
Alan hands me a symbol which looks like a circle with a cross under it, basically the symbol for a woman. White outline, black background.
“Now,” said Alan, “The diagram looks like a human being. You have a head, outstretched arms as in the case of East, and a spine. It really resembles an Ankh, though the ankh is more oval like, stretched out as with the head of an alien. The Ankh therefore represents the essential element of the human, and a combination of the shape of actual humans from an abstracted point of view, plus the shape of humans from an abstracted point of view projected into the future. This is probably because, since the Egyptians had blurry foresight capacities, they imagined within their religious mind that the human being would worship aliens, or that aliens would have overcome human beings. The metaphor in this case is as follows: the essential psyche elements of the human beings are the acquired characteristics, which is represented by technology. Technology is a bias because it literally dumbs down human beings—with more acquired characteristics the less innate elements are left—so there’s congruence between the image of technology and its effects from an abstracted perspective. This is why the Egyptians or the Mesoamericans or the Sumerians tried to avoid it, to avoid its development. In all cases, the ankh held power over the individual because it looks exactly like its abstracted shape (including the projected alien element). The appearance and abstracted values are 100% same. This is only possible within the knowledge of space orientation of the Egyptians.”
“This reminds me, there are universal shapes, universal symbols by which I mean universal SIMILARITYs. I’d tell you the number nine, and the phoneme “An” as in Ankh.”
“But enough for today, I’ll just tell you some cool facts about me to end this session.”
“As a child, I’d write the letter I, which is the depiction of myself, as a 9 shape. Similarity much?”
“Well Alan I gotta go…but damn I’ll be here tomorrow!”
THE EQUATION IN DARKNESS
Izzy is not here today. I conjectured that the distance Izzy had from me, because his physical body was distant from me and our star bodies are bound by friendship, because of all the conversations we’ve shared, retracted my spirits, and so that is why I started thinking about gloomy things. Dawned on me that there was still a force at bay, I realized its existence. It is called the dark body. This is the force which seizes individuals and, being constituted of the opposite of star stuff, manages to put them into error. I must say, I doubt that it is actually evil, it is just an absence of star stuff, and consequently it involves people doing things under an influence which is devoid of good, of star stuff.
Everyone is filled with a light body, the same thing that Buddhists call clear light. This is like the body within the body, except it’s a pattern which exists outside of matter. It can travel anywhere, almost at any speed, and with this light body the individual is able to affect the star stuff via a distance. Indeed, it is the light body that joins with another one to create the true love effect, the explosion of influence that true love generates because the bodies, usually repellent towards one another, like atoms in fusion merge together and generate an immense amount of star energy. I wanted to find this dark body, and understand how it had affected history, and at what times. I knew already that most likely Hitler had been under its influence, and the remnants of its disintegration in World War II had caused a division in the world, a change within reality. Indeed, within the war the world was becoming more and more literal, so much so that it approached the point where it would be entirely constituted of literality. This is such a rare situation that the repercussions are still felt today. However, to understand the effects of this Dark Body, I needed to look into the library of the world to understand what the Buddhists and the enlightenment thinkers’ messages, combined into one supreme code, could do to help me contract and imprison the dark body within a prison from which it would never again emerge.
I started browsing the internet. I got to Rousseau, whose Education bears my name and which is most likely addressed to me. However, reading it would be too long. I just surveyed it and shifted to the other thinkers. Voltaire had written Zadig, Candide and Ingenu, which combined are a biography of my life within abstracted reality. Candide referred to Leibniz so I checked it out, and his works are indeed full of star stuff. They will most likely be read in the future to create a golden age. Now, I shifted across these thinkers, and Goethe appealed to me most, because he managed to salvage the shape of beauty for posterity, wrap it into a bias which would never be undone. Rousseau’s noble savage was the same abstractly as the Tathagathagarba doctrine of the Buddhists, except adapted to the Western mind. Ultimately, I read Wittgenstein which is the equivalent of Nagarjuna, or the opposite, in abstract terms. I remember the initial time I had read Wittgenstein and realized an ultimate illumination. People thought I was crazy, and so did I. But all this is irrelevant. I had discovered, within my research, the individual responsible for the second bias.
Though the light body tried to stop him, the dark body got to him first, and found the individual that would help it achieve its plan. Within popular culture the symbol for his dark illumination survives. The apple that falls on his head. The coming of the dark body within Newton. Indeed, the apple is the symbol of evil within many realms of abstraction, seen within the judgment of Paris, or the apple of Eve, and so on. The apple is a sign of evil in Latin, which bears the same name, malus. And more so, the Greeks word links it to darkness, melon, the same root as melanin. The reason for this is the apple is a typical fruit, and fruits are considered sweet by nature, and so something which is sweet is an bias. Sweet words, as depicted in Homer, are said to be fair and interesting, like flowing honey, but in fact honey is something used to coat something bitter. So the incongruence or bias here is that honey seems sweet, but its intrinsic nature is linked with something bad. Hence, the apple, sweet because it represents the average fruit, represents something which has innate darkness which will be given to an individual unknowingly. The apple is the symbol of evil introducing itself within the world innocuously, and so Newton, unaware of its influence, was affected by the dark body, as symbolized by the bias of an apple falling on his head.
Newton had many contributions which are preventing mankind’s further development. Even Einstein could not tangle with the implications of Newton’s laws. And the quantum physicists…they just tried to circumvent the problem altogether. Indeed, there are two main areas where Newton caused a disruption within the star stuff: color and matter. On the one hand, he inverted the true nature of light, and on the other, the associated movement with matter, and movement being associated with the spirit, caused the star body to be bound to its matter body within the psyche of almost the entire world. Now what is meant with inverting the nature of light will permit us to break the second bias. People view darkness as an absence of light. This is a bias because actually, darkness is something distinct from light, as Goethe try to put forwards to prevent Newton’s explanations. Indeed, if darkness is distinct from light, within the inner psyche, the abstracted realm, this is seen as the possibility that there is a division between the star body and the actual body. In fact, there is none. Only the star body exists. Only the star body is real.
The explanation for the bias breaking is as follows. What we see as white light, is in fact black. The whiteness is a projection stemming from the abstracted universe within the individual, and the colors which we see are in fact opposite. I’m sometimes tempted to say that the cave paintings where the individuals are white with a black outline, and in very crude shapes, is a representation of this. But an easier comparison is with the night sky. And speaking of night sky, here is the breaking of the second bias. Meet Anu, or as I call him, West.
The image Alan had drawn was white stars on a black background.
You’re going to tell me that there is no figure within this image. That it is basically just a bunch of stars. And you’d be right. This is because Anu is merely star stuff. It’s star stuff –itself-. AN within the abstract world means sky, and U means a great unbias. The letters conserved their unbiased value even in our times. Consequently, the god is bound just like Inanna. But through what association is this achieved? Basically Newton’s laws concerning light inverted the colors we’re supposed to see, so that the night sky, in appearance, is seen as black with white stars. This means that my representation within the psyche, within abstracted form of the night sky, the drawing I just did, is how the abstract eye sees it. However, since it’s also how the projected eye sees it, there’s presence of an similarity. Basically, the abstracted eye sees the sky the same way the projected, appearance eye sees it. In reality, though, if Newton’s plan had failed, we’d see the night sky as white with black dot within the projected eye, and black with white dots within the abstract eye. This means that in fact, it would be an incongruence. Given that would be the true way of seeing things, that vision is an inversion of colors, not only of shape—vision is an inversion of anything within the brain—then the incongruence would also be an unbias because it would correspond to reality, in the form of an similarity. However, currently our vision is built upon the laws of Newton, and since colors are all relative and personal no one has seen a difference.
Leibniz tried to stop him for matter as well, trying to undo his achievements with integral calculus. Indeed, the great achievement of Newton is the theory of gravity, saying that mass attracts mass. But within the abstracted realm, the opposite is true. We’ve seen that the star stuff, which is ultimately real, cannot penetrate another star body, unless motivated by the power of true love. Consequently, the fact that star bodies repel each other is incongruent with the fact that mass apparently attracts other massive objects. The worse part of this is that from an earth point of view, objects are seen as falling towards the ground. Who could deny that? Well, that is what I’m about to do.
Objects, within projected reality, are seemingly seen as falling to the ground, and seem to be attracted to the earth. You’d call ultimately crazy anyone who’d deny that. And so sometimes there were a few deviations in this law, sometimes the church would assert that objects which are heavy fall faster than light objects, which permitted light objects to have some kind of protection from the law of gravity, which to some extent precedes Newton but in fact was perfected by him. So basically, people would think heavy objects fall and light objects fall with less speed, which creates some sort of relativity within gravity, and restricts it. But if in abstracted realm, objects don’t fall, what goes for the law of motion? Do objects simply stay still? The answer is as anyone who is slightly crazy might expect. It is not the objects which move, but us who move and the objects which stay where they are. Here’s the idea. We’re made of star stuff, of movement. Anything made of star stuff is basically motion, movement. Objects, because they’re not alive, do not have movement, and they stay where they are. On the projected level, we could easily conceive that objects don’t move and animals and living things move. But this is an bias, and incredibly strong bias. This is because objects within the abstracted realm don’t move and star stuff, living things, move as well. There is an immense concordance in this aspect between the actual world and the abstracted world, and I think this might be the fault of Newton. Which Einstein tried to undo. Let us examine the subject more deeply.
So we’ve said that within the abstracted realm, objects don’t move. That implies that if you look somewhere, your mind compensates for the immobility through depth and the vision is always compensating for the object’s immobility. However, since our star bodies are always moving, there is always some kind of compensation to stabilize objects. This doesn’t apply for stars, because in effect, they twinkle. That is because the compensation of our star body cannot ultimately compensate for such distant objects, and so they move around a bit. Yet, for objects which are near us, which are subject to a different kind of gravity, the star body easily compensates and sees objects as stable. How did Einstein have anything to do in this? Well, Einstein is a massive genius, literally and abstractly. He thought that if things were to approach the speed of light, the laws of gravity and of color wouldn’t apply. They would change, and basically when you reach the speed of light you’d see colors differently, time could stop and so on. I could get into the precise mathematics, but Einstein basically introduced the notion into literal reality that when you get to a certain speed, everything changes in terms of laws. Of course, his explanations are symmetric and beautiful and mine might be too if I was given enough time, I could probably demonstrate how he achieved that, but within this particular text, I don’t think I have enough time. I can just basically say that Einstein changed the course of history. This leads me to the equation which everyone knows about. Remember how Inanna was first rotated clockwise and imprisoned? Well, the light symbol is the U in AN-U, and so rotate the U it clockwise and put it in a square and you might get an element familiar to…
However, I must break the second bias. That is, the little two, the square imprisoning the light.
Energy = mass x speed of light.
“What?” Exclaims every scientist, “That must definitely be wrong! The equations created all kinds of things and they even created nuclear fission (which is basically the same effect as true love in an bias kind of way).” I don’t care. The reality is that E= mc.
E=mc. Energy equals mass times speed of light. Implications? (And I’m sorry, these might apply only for the abstracted realms at the moment. I’m not very good at influencing the material realm directly).
E/m = c. When mass equals 0, the speed of light should tend towards infinity, meaning the movement will be highest. Indeed, what is most made of star stuff—of which the physical nature will be revealed most likely at the end of this book—has the most speed.
E/c = M When the speed of star stuff is zero the mass is infinite. Therefore objects devoid of star stuff, within the abstracted psyche, should in fact not move at all, and the objects which have no mass, human beings, should have infinite speed. And lastly, let’s consider the equation as it originally is.
There are two incongruences with this equation. 0=0x0. 1=1x1.
From the abstracted perspective, E=mc, when e=m, m=c, and c=e, means that everything, star matter, movement, stability…all of it is the same. From abstracted point of view, this means enlightenment, seeing things as they really are. From the literal point of view…let’s examine.
0=0x0. Everything gets destroyed. Sum on the right equals sum on the left. 1=1x1. Everything is equal, but the sum of the elements on the right, linked with East, when added together, surpass the element on the left.
Wait. I think I got this figured out.
“So Alan, I read what you wrote about Newton. That’s fucking crazy man…but what happened with the equation? What does it mean?”
“It means this Izzy. Add this diagram to your interview.”
The diagram is a three sided star, with a black background and done in a white outline with smaller stars around it.
“I’ve got two interesting thing to talk about today. We’re going to reconstruct ancient language, as well as how the individuals perceived matter.”
“Really now? So how did individuals perceive language?”
“It’s rather how we perceive language. There’s distortions in the notion of sounds. And these distortions have made one insensible to the previous way words and things were pronounced with sound. For example, there doesn’t really exist the vowels E and I. The only vowels which really exist are the A, the O, and the U. And we’ve seen before that the U has retained its shape in some instances, but the vowel I is really devious, for the simple reason that in English at least, the I also means the individual, and it has the same sound as the eye, which is a metaphor for the soul, and consequently at the abstract level, vocally, you have this sound which doesn’t exist, and it’s linked with the concept of selfness. Which is basically a major incongruence, or congruence…well in any case a bias. I remember the Dalai Lama saying that people prone to saying “I” were more egotistical. That’s a good example of similarity at the abstract level. However, what I wanted to say is that these E and I shapes are both false, and the worst example is in the French “Je”. Which means me, or I. In this case, the I and the E are used for the designation of the self, but more specifically the I has a little curve at the bottom, the “J” here is like an I with a U under it, and consequently, you add all that together and you have the two non-existent Ent vowels which we shouldn’t be able to perceive, and the trampling of the I over the true beneficial U which we’ve seen before. Notice that also, the word Indo-European, which I mentioned doesn’t ultimately exist but is a completely constructed, biased innovation, has the vowels I and E.
Now let’s examine it from the point of view of the vowels A, O, U. Basically, the O stays the same in both languages, O is O. Whenever we pronounce an E, they would have pronounced it an A. Whenever we pronounce an I, they’d have pronounced it a U.”
“So what’s…let’s say…your friend Karl’s name?”
“Man, you didn’t leave me time to explains the damn laws! Haha. But KARB ”
“Because there’s ultimately no L to their original language, it’s not pronounceable. To them”
“So what would be Enlil, which you mentioned?”
“ANBIB. Basically AN, heaven. And BEB, book. As in Biblos. Or child. Baby, Bebe. So we have here the book or the child of heaven, which might happen to be one and the same.”
“The child of heaven is a book?”
“We’ll talk about that later.”
“Wait, what’s Inanna? That would make…umamma?”
“Pretty much. Hence that would make MAM. In the other case we have BEB. Of course the true way of writing these would probably be MM and BB. Anyways the meaning is mother of Heaven.”
“AN, heaven. U, light.”
“And what does Enki mean.” ANKA.
“Shouldn’t it be ANKE?”
“Well, in this case I think that the initially “I” in Enki is wrong. Therefore, you have Enke or something which creates Enka.”
“What does that mean?”
“Brother of heaven.”
“So what do you mean? Ka is brother?”
“Yep. So basically let’s re-examine the meaning of Karl’s name Izzy.”
“And the RL?”
“I think you have to look at the whole aspect, which would have been written Karb. As in carburator. Or carbon.”
“And what’s the point?” “Well the meaning is brother, and the actual effect of carbon is linking in four directions, consequently linking in the most amount of directions if you consider that the other forms of linking are unstable. All this to say, it means brother.”
“I don’t see why my name should have anything to do with who he is.”
“Well, from the literal point of view it is ineffective. From the abstract point of view, it means everything. It can shape destines.”
“I won’t argue with you for now. I’d just like to expand on the diagram I made you draw at the beginning of the interview.”
“What about it?”
“The druids had a symbol called a Triskelion. This is basically, as we’ve said, the symbol of three elements linked to each other with spirals, which are one of the deepest most powerful abstraction symbols. These symbols occurred within the Neolithic period. Basically, from what I told you, could you play my role and guess a little riddle I have for you?”
“What is it?”
“Do you know the periodic element table?”
“I do as a matter of fact. For crying, I’m in engineering!”
“What is the link between a triskelion, three sided element, and the Neolithic period? What do these have in common.”
“You make it difficult for me not to answer you.”
“That’s right. And lithium is the stabilizer by excellence, and simultaneously derived from the word for rock, which is a symbol of stability. There’s great congruence.”
“And the congruence is why it would work?”
“No it works for chemical reasons. I’m not going to deny the whole validity of chemistry. Maybe at some point I will, but not now.”
“And so what’s the relationship between the three that you’ve mentioned?”
“Simple, the symbol that I’ve drawn initially is a three sided star. This was the symbol, or rather the abstracted symbol, of the earliest civilizations of mankind for the electron.”
“For a particle in physics?”
“The electron is not a particle, it’s a combination of a particle within the literal realm, and the abstracted realm. What this basically means is that the electron, as opposes to physical objects, behaves within the realm the literal realm and the abstracted realm.”
“What in the world does that even mean?!”
“It means the laws of both worlds apply to it. Electron is in the middle see? How could I explain this? An electron is a particle which is half way in one reality, half-way in the other. The proton seems like it composes mass, but in fact it is really star stuff. While the photon, which seems light it composes energy, is really…I think it might be the dark body.”
“Yes. When Einstein invented his laws, and thought of the photon, there was still an Element of Newton’s physics within him. Consequently, when he thought of the photon he introduced the element of matter within light. Which is basically the fact that the photon has no light, and behaves according to the laws of the subconscious, but it is not light! It is not energy!”
“What do you mean?”
“The proton is pure energy. I’ll explain. Protons fuse together, but they need electrons to do so. Protons by themselves would repel one another, having all positive charges. They’re more akin to star bodies in this respect than to light, which tends to fuse together and form a wave. However, the protons have a shape which humans literally see as big and bulky, and very mass like. In reality though, they’re star stuff, so they have no mass, they’re pure energy. Electrons, by orbiting around the proton core act like guardians. In fact, because the electrons I’ve mentioned are within the middle, and they can go anywhere, they tend to act like guardians, in the sense that they put the protons together, and keep light apart. Or they try to. I must admit, there seems to be a huge bias towards the victory of light in this case, because protons are confined within atoms and encrusted deep deep in matter, which is usually the destiny one reserves for something evil. Light, on the other hand, is free to go wherever it pleases. Hence, protons are like….I hate to make that comparison…fallen angels.”
“What? Isn’t a fallen angel a bad thing?”
“Yeah, that’s a bias. A fallen angel is seen literally as a devil, but in abstracted point of view they’re the star stuff which sacrificed itself to go within matter, and equilibrate the cosmos. So there’s incongruence.
“How did that happen?” “Easy. Though this time, I think it predates the origin of human beings. This time, we’re going to have to delve into…the real deep recess that is the absolute, literal, 0 abstraction beginning of time. The symbol which all life tries to imitate and honor.”
“Wow. This …. Intense.”
The Tragedy of Enki
Long ago, somewhere somehow, there were three friends. One of them was Enki, the neutral god, depicted in green. One of them was Anu, depicted in blue, and the other was the woman Ishtar, depicted in Red. These three friends were at equal distance from one another in terms of friendship. So this basically looks like three lights within the dark, forming a triangle. Now, for some reason, the Red light, Ishtar, and the blue light, Anu, started having feelings for one another. But Enki was in the way, because these lights had to be at a certain distance from one another, Enki’s position near them prevented them from getting any closer. Consequently, Enki was faced with a choice. He could either stay where he was, but prevent the love between Ishtar and Anu…or remove himself and fall within darkness forever. Because Enki had a noble heart, he decided to remove himself from their way. And without saying goodbye, he let himself drift into the darkness so that Inanna and Anu could combine their loves. Consequently, Enki disappeared within darkness, while Anu and Inanna exploded into light. Therefore, the star body of Enki dissolved, almost completely, were it not for the fact that his noble action, triggered the friendship unbias within the star body, and at the same time the love unbias explosion created by the union of Ishtar and Anu projected him to the deep recesses of the universe. While Ishtar and Anu’s love rearranged the cosmos in the best possible way, Enki’s star body, which was reduced to that particle containing only good intention, like a snowflake, went across the motions of space and time, across the whirling of the creation of the cosmos, and eventually landed within an actual body.”
“Which happens to be?”
“Well…this is odd to say.”
“I think that it’s me.”
“Haha! You? Alan…you’re saying you’ve got a good intention? I’ve seen you many times get angry or annoyed or disgusted at so many things.”
“That’s true. And it’s normal?”
Alan looked sad.
“Normal? How so.”
“Because Enki’s life is basically, because of the sacrifice he made so long ago, the most miserable life you could ever imagine. But I don’t say this because I’m unhappy. I certainly look happy. But within the population of the entire world, I’m most likely, the least happy. This is because of the nature of happiness.”
“Happiness is basically proportional to the things you experience within yourself which are capital Us, meaning for example true love and true friendship. This is at the actual and abstracted level. And in my case, I have neither, but I’ll look happy and say I feel happy anyways. Probably because of the pact I made so long ago during creation. But while people can feel the happiness derived from their star bodies, I cannot feel it. I’m under the star reality I describe, and though I can feel it, sense it, I’ll never experience it, which is what the star body ultimately wants.”
“So you’re stuck in matter?”
“Pretty much. And I’ll never experience true love, for the reason that true love is inaccessible to me, given that I’ve been so close to the explosion of true love generated at the beginning of creation it feels like nothing in comparison. I’m stuck in matter, unallowed to experience true love. I’m not allowed to have true friendships either, literally and metaphorically. I mean, I can have friends, but ultimately, because I’ve experienced star body true friendships at creation, they pale in comparison and are worthless. I can never develop compassion, which was my hope since I was a child, for the simple reason that if I cared about someone else, I would necessarily cause their star bodies to care about me, and that would associate them with me. Consequently, they would be tainted at the star body level, and so this is why I’m stuck in matter but every time someone shows interest towards me, I must ignore it, literally and from the star body point of view, because if I noticed their interest it would show a sign of interest in my subtle behavior and people would become infinitesimally slightly closer to me at the star body level, once again causing them to share the characteristics of my star body. I could show you what I think it looks like, it’s pretty easy.
The drawing was of a black silhouette with a white dot for a heart.
“That looks like a person with no heart.”
“Pretty much.” He look sad once again. “That’s because people can sense when people are heartless, and their perception of people with no heart is this one. From a literal point of view, if someone saw my internal appearance, and most people can sense this without problem, you’d get a literal person seeing this image within their psyche when they look at me, and interpret it as a person with no heart, because they’re not familiar with the star body. If you get a person whose experienced with the star body, it’s going to look like a white person with a black heart, and since they’re not good with the literal level then it implies that I’m cursed, because of my choice so long ago, to look like a person without a heart at all levels. At the literal level, I’m actually a person who doesn’t keep friendships and who fails within love. I tend to dislike children though spiritually they’re the closest to me. I tend to get annoyed at my family, because they’re the only ones who really understand me, who I am inside. I can never thank them or be kind to them, unless I compensate it within the star body….you see, my family can sense that I’m this way. But they’ll never be able to express it, and my mother, my father, and my brother will never realize who I am. That’s because since they’re the closest individuals to me, they could never bear to realize that I suffer eons after eons, and that I’m damned to be unhappy even despite reincarnations again and again. Thus their star bodies are in denial, and I, damned, must play along and hide my identity to them. I’ll never know the joy of feeling a star body bond with my parents, and though my brother understands me…because he’s known me for so long….he must avoid telling me I’m right, or understanding my ideas or my fiction books because if he would do this, it would modify my inspiration….because basically inspiration given is a debt. Towards the individual who’s given it…and since my inspiration must remain unaffected by anyone, his duty, subconsciously, is to reject my ideas again and again and again. And I wonder, sometimes…even if the whole world would acknowledge the spirit world and abstraction…even then my brother might deny me…because it is in his subconscious to do so. My own brother could, on appearance, one day perhaps, accept my ideas. But I know he won’t recognize me in the spirit body. And that is maybe why I feel so grateful towards him, and I value him so much. Because at the star body level, he has permitted me to suffer, so that I can remain who I am. He has helped me many times at the appearance level, and the spirit body level too. I know he has. And consequently, I can be grateful to him. But it is still not the typical spirit bonds that brothers usually have. I think deep down, he knows this. And Calvin and Hobbes…and sue me if that title is copyrighted…is popular because it literally is the story of me and my brother. The story of us growing up, in terms of actual body and star body. Yes, Calvin original is a school about predestination and total corruption of mankind, which is basically me at the star body level, I am ultimately a pariah. And Hobbes…well he views human beings as objects, which is basically how Calvin views Hobbes. And so this is the ultimate incongruity and similarity, Calvin views Hobbes as an object, at the literal level, but at the abstract level Calvin views Hobbes as a real, living tiger. From the abstract view, the opposite is true. I too often treat my brother as an object for my theories and my ideas, which he knows deep down he must ultimately give negative feedback on, rather than acknowledge them, and so in reality, from a star body perspective this is a nightmare, because I use my brother to express my ideas, but we both know deep down, abstractly, that this is just the situation we’re in. Literally, because I’m bipolar, and at the star body level, because I’m Enki. Or I’d rather say. Alan….”
“You…you mentioned you couldn’t reincarnate, is that true?”
“Ishtar starts bottom rises East, Anu starts top falls West, and Enki…Alan…just goes from West…to bottom red. Meaning, straight to worse worlds, again and again. The little particle of light which is my heart when I die…usually when someone dies the star body, in the shape of a human being, manages to decide what they’ll reincarnate into next.”
Beauty and the Beast
“Oh, I don’t believe you” said Izzy.
“Of course you wouldn’t”
“I’ve heard you say moving things too many times to think you’re damned.”
“And yet it’s the case”
“What about all the prophecies? What about Quebec, what about Voltaire …and Leibniz. They all point that you’re good. What you’re saying is the opposite of what Leibniz says. Maybe you should give him a read?
Indeed. Best of all possible worlds. Izzy had left. I can imagine that the world is the best, but why would the most self-sacrificial person be the most unlucky in the best possible worlds. The monad. My star body is a Leibnizian monad. This guy seems to have it figured out. But why does the myth of the green, red and blue light explain so many things. Are not love and friendship the most powerful forces in existence? Maybe Leibniz has an answer. After all, Candide ridicules it, which from the point of view of abstract reality means he liked it. In fact, he may think it’s the key to saving the world. What’s special about it? Of course hope is involved, but how does it actually work within the star level? Let’s see what Leibniz has to say about this. Small perceptions we don’t notice add up to large perceptions. This phrase of his at the surface seems like monads again. Unless he’s alluding to something else. Unconscious images? Perhaps those are perceptions which dreams eliminate. I don’t know. Even marble has ideas. This statement seems odd. But could he mean star stuff? This book disgusts me with all its statements about religion. Why would Leibniz be such a religion person? I guess it relates to his time.
In fact, he is going against the spirit of the times when invoking god, the enlightenment being a pinnacle of reason. Perhaps he was trying to create a bias? Or an unbias? If one associated reason with god, then ultimately individuals would link rationality with god, and so the concept of god would be paired with rationality. Which is odd because god is not a concept, it’s the universe. In fact, Leibniz associates more than that. He basically creates a bias through his work, between reason and god, but also an unbias. From an abstract point of view, reason doesn’t exist within the recesses of the mind. From an abstract point of view, god is everything. Hence he associates abstractly nothing with everything. Basically this is a paradox, and the paradox reiterates to infinity. That is the first clue. Let’s see what else he thinks about it. Extension resides in something imaginary. Is Leibniz saying that the paradox of something and nothing which means infinity…is imaginary? Like a dream. Leibniz must have been talking about hope, because he always does. This is confusing.
Given that he almost only speaks about that and about the best possible worlds, then couldn’t we say that the dream, being a wish fulfillment and its realization, imply the best possible motion within the star realm? Leibniz and the dream. Are they related? In appearance, they’re completely unrelated.
This is so odd. I feel there’s a secret. I don’t understand. Perhaps his biography will enlighten me. Well. Nothing in his biography. Perhaps in integral calculus. The notation of an integral, in the notation of Leibniz, is in the shape of an elongated S. Basically, this symbol…proper to Leibniz…might hold the key to his message. Integral calculus involves derivatives, which is calculating the tangent of a curve. Abstractly, this means applying a line to a curve. So when Leibniz noted the little S, he introduced the idea of a wave.
Indeed, the tangent of the curve seeks to establish the direction at the surface, but an integral, the little wave shape, is to determine the area under the curve. Hence, from an abstracted point of view, motion under the surface. Therefore, what is above the surface is the tangent. A wave usually is above the water, and not below. But Leibniz associates the wave, usually above, with determining what is under the surface. I think we’ve undone another bias. Let me explain.
Once again, the culprit is Newton. He is credited as the inventor of calculus, but only Leibniz’s notation creates a similarity between literal and abstract. Indeed, he involved waves for what is under the surface, which is what abstract, natural vision is like. Let me explain.
Our vision sees things as wavy on the surface and stable within. In the other case, the innate case, you’d see something stable on the surface but moving within. A TV is a biased symbol because it looks like a rectangular thing but with moving images. This screws up your abstract view of things, and is bad for you. On the other hand, you’ve got simple pictures which are viewed as moving within the abstract realm because your perception is altered and the images seem like they move on a painting….I’m sorry for going fast, but I must condense this information having realized some more important thing to tell you…Dreams, are composed of moving images. But this is because of Newton. If he had not inverted the surface and inner motions, we’d dream in single images, and consequently we’d be much happier, all our dreams would get realized. Anyways, the reality now is that Newton destroyed our dreams from the point of view of both literal and abstract reality, and not only our sleeping dreams, but our actual dreams as well. This is because when we dream in moving images, we usually forget most of our dreams when we wake up. Hence we cannot remember our dreams, or our childhood dreams, and so Newton disconnected us from ourselves, both by his works on colors, on motion, and about the surfaces. But we don’t need to be saddened by this, because Leibniz is about to bring them back.
Simply put, hope for something and you generate some energy within star stuff. Hope is a stronger bond than love or friendship, but it depends on the circumstances. If you hope for something noble it will come most likely and hoping for something evil won’t. Basically, you’re childhood dreams have more energy, because children are nobler deep down. Thus, childhood dreams are strong bonds, and they usually hold the individual together. Rather, they literally hold the individual together. Star stuff repels itself, and so in the case of the individual soul being made of it, holding it together is done by the force of hope. Therefore, childhood dreams are a strong bond because they abstractly hold the individual together. Now, since hope holds star stuff together, I think…I might not…I might just not be damned after all!”
“Izzy you remember what I said about myself last time, about being the most unfortunate person in the world.”
“Yes for sure!”
“I think I can change that.”
“Because I’m a speck of star stuff within a dark body, basically just a heart, the hope within myself is exceptionally strong because it can hold this star stuff together.”
“Consequently, if I was ever heart broken, on an abstract level and literal level, I would lose hope and my actual star body would break.” “And what would this do?”
“Basically by releasing energy my heart would expand, and I might actually create a full human star body in doing so!”
“But you forgot something Alan…you can never love.”
“Well what if it was for a noble cause?”
“Dude love cannot be forced remember? You can’t create heartbreak or love voluntarily no matter how you try.”
“So I’m damned?”
“Then what can I do?”
“Just be yourself.”
“Is there anything else we could talk about? Perhaps creativity? How it works abstractly? Maybe I can help a few people in that way.”
“Cool, what about it?”
“Creativity occurs when the star body wants to rid itself of external influences. When the star body into contact with star stuff of different colors—“
“Yeah, there’s a variety of colors of star stuff. Everyone can tattoo and modify their star bodies. Hence the influence of other individual star bodies gives us colors on our star bodies. Ultimately, sometimes it’s time to wash them off, and this results in creativity.”
“Interesting. What about you? You’re one of the most creative people I know and you said your body is a dot. What does that imply?”
“Well, you forgot I’m a dot because the rest of my body is darkness. Basically it’s like my body is a black canvas, and other people have a white canvas. Consequently the colors which are esthetically pleasing to other people are the opposite for me. But since most people wear them, I through contact receive the opposite, and look haggard in terms of star aesthetics.”
“What does that look like?”
“Who knows, I can’t see myself! Haha!”
“Alright what about creativity?”
“Right, the more the star body of the individual meets other star bodies, the more colorful it becomes. The more creative the picture when they wash it off”
“Oh right. But how about you? You barely see anyone how are you creative?”
“Well my star body is blackness. Therefore, whenever my body which is white stuff is activated, it emits light rather than heat, of a rainbow color. With usual individuals who have a white star body, they reflect rather than generate that rainbow color, so they just exchange colors and reflections.”
“I don’t reflect though, the light which enters my star body becomes heat, and since my body is dark, it absorbs it, and ripples to my heart which emits a rainbow colored glow.”
“So you’re rainbow colored?”
“When my heart gets activated.”
“Interesting. What about creativity?” “Well the same principle is at work here. Whatever captures my heart emits rainbows and so colors me in rainbow light, which I eliminate by writing.”
“What about solitary individuals usually they’re the most creative?”
“That’s because their star bodies don’t tackle with other star bodies, and consequently they become really sensitive and soft. Consequently, a trifle can make them warm and generate different kinds of light patterns.”
“Very interesting. What about…say…someone like Picasso?”
“Picasso is an exception. He didn’t need to be solitary or seem unhappy. The situation here is that when a star body can remain completely motionless and solitary, and still fill itself with colors it expends no energy to be creative.
“How does it do that?”
“It manages to go faster than light. Since Einstein’s laws are still active within the abstract realm, the individual going faster than light slows down time and it seems like everything is moving around them slowly. Hence not only can the individual selectively pick out colors from the star world, but they can ultimately use colors which the star body doesn’t usually see. So Picasso did what Einstein described but at star body level.”
“Hot damn! What about you? You’re really creative too.”
“Nah, in my case I’m burning childhood dreams.”
“Because my childhood dreams are not inherent to my being—since I’m a dot of star and within it is just a single sacrificial good intention, all my childhood dreams are worthless, because they’ll never realize. They can go to waste, and so I burn them within my black body, and consequently these dreams eventually get dissolved and turn into art. Into massive amounts of light.”
“So your childhood dreams will never realize?”
“No. Unless, hypothetically I’m heartbroken.”
“So you’re creative because you’re burning hope?”
“What’s the point?”
“Who knows? I just like being creative.” He smiled. “Wait a sec…
it’s a bias don’t you see? It’s been a bias all along!”
“Is it still Newton this time.”
“I had been blinded to the obvious fact that the dark body had seized him. As well.”
“The plays of Shakespeare are the epitome of literature in the Western canon, and from the abstracted realm, there is one play which stands out above all the rest. I think you could guess what it is?”
“Romeo and Juliet?”
“What about this play?”
“Well like his other plays he managed to bind two things together.”
“Basically the idea of a bard is someone who praises or blames an individual or an idea. As the greatest playwright, in the Western canon, he is praised rather than praises. This generates an incongruity at the abstract level and so he remains potent, and filled with the dark body.”
“How so, his lines seem pretty harmless?”
“Yes. Most of Shakespeare’s metaphors are memorable because they’re cliché. Which is basically a phrase or image which people view as a “deja-vu”, basically because they indeed saw it before, within the abstract realm, in an innate way. Hence, incongruence here. Abstractly what is cheesy is ultimately what is real and good. Thus true love, true friendship, are clichés because they’re innate and form laws of the subconscious. What Shakespeare did was an inversion.”
“The clichés come from him. He linked good things such as light and beauty, in the case of Juliet being compared to the sun, but because he re-created something innate perfectly, there was congruence between the innate clichés and the clichés Shakespeare did, and so because usually no one would dare to reproduce within metaphors or associations the real associations within the innate part of the psyche—but Shakespeare did—he created an event which was a dark force in literature: the flooding of the true innate clichés and the false ones. So in a sense, he opened the door for people to depict the star realm within fiction.”
“Wow…could you give an example?”
“Sure. Typically, in the history of mankind, the star body realm was always depicted in a way which only alluded to it, never literally, and by individuals who had a pure heart and would never think of introducing false elements within their work.”
“What about Homer?”
“Homer, when he makes a comparison to something within the star realm, always does so with a conjunction of the kind of “like”. When he makes metaphors unrelated to the star realm, he simply says the metaphor without comparing it. But Homer is a complex topic.”
“But there was a force which tried to generate the opposite of Shakespeare’s effect on the world. And this force consists mainly of three notable individuals. Or four rather. The Grimm Brothers, Charles Perrault, and most notable of all, Hans Christian Andersen.”
“The authors of fairy tales?”
“Pretty much. They actually invented fairy tales, and their invention was so thorough that it generated an impact which went backwards in time and made different cultures insert fairy tales within their novels or their works.”
“What makes fairy tales able to do that? Wouldn’t that require massive amounts of energy?”
“Yes. And so the energy the authors of fairy tales used were the elements of all instances of star stuff within the literal world. They’re a bit of stories, a bit of fables, a bit of legends, a bit of everything. Consequently, they’ve gathered all the elements of all the different elements of fiction. They’ve even done the unthinkable, so desperate was their situation…they’ve borrowed the elements of tragedy. And doing that was their ultimate move, because it created a bias, an incongruity and a similarity all at once!
“How do you explain that?!”
“A tragedy is basically a story which ends particularly badly, and everyone who goes to see it knows it’s going to end particularly badly. If the authors of fairy tales borrowed this, they created the possibility that the dark body could enter their creation via the tragedy—which in fact was used by the Greeks to expel the dark body from their star bodies, catharsis--. Hence, what happened is that all the tragedies of the Greeks are filled with the expelled dark bodies of all the Greeks, who’ve fought the dark body since they had been born as a civilization. Hence, the fairy tale authors were desperate when using the element of tragedy, they debated long before thinking if they’d introduce the tragedy element within their works, which they were writing for children!! For crying.”
“They risked exposing children to the dark body?”
“Yes. They felt that they could only defeat the dark body ultimately generated by Shakespeare by risking it all…because the authors of the fairy tales had one thing in common.”
“What was that?”
“They believed that the power of hope was the most powerful force in the universe. Not knowing whether their plan would work out, and having to toss a coin between the powers of hope being the –ultimate force- in the universe, and between it being only secondary to a stronger force.”
“So basically they made the bet that hope would be the strongest force?”
“And why was Andersen the most notable of these individuals?”
“Basically, you just look at the fairy tales he’s written. And he’s written the one tale which countered Shakespeare’s anticipated attempt at creating literal fairy tales, which we see in Midsummer Night’s dream.”
“Wow, and what is that?”
“Can you explain this?”
“Of course. Have I ever disappointed you before in my explanations?”
“Not really…you haven’t.”
“Good. Midsummer night’s dream is a play wherein the fairy realm is seen as contiguous with the actual literal realm, and influencing it. Meaning, there’s the acknowledgment of the fairies, they’re seen and there’s a conjoined influence, whereas in Thumbelina, the individual, the protagonist, about the size of a fairy, but isn’t a fairy, loses hope no matter how many times she sees the fairies. She is in complete disbelief, and it is her disbelief which causes her ultimately become a fairy herself.”
“Yes. The problem is that with Shakespeare, you either see what he’s written and you believe something can be that good, which means that it’s the opposite of the abstract realm reaction. In the abstract realm, something which is “too good to be true” is literally too good to be true. Hence, within the abstract realm you’d see something good, and your disbelief would cause it to happen. The belief would not be overt, you’d disbelieve it and consequently the good thing you saw, which you wish for and which would happen to you…if you believe it, it goes against the laws of the subconscious and so it’s less likely to realize. However, if, as Goethe said you “Dream the impossible”, then when you see something and you don’t believe it, but in the bottom of your heart there’s still a part of you which yells out “I believe!”, in that case there’s an incongruity … and because on the literal level you don’t believe but at the abstract level you believe…then energy is generated and you’re likely to realize this hidden wish…Mainly because it’s hidden. Oh right. I forgot. Wishes cannot be expressed. Once they are expressed they loses their power as wishes.”
“You mean they should be kept secret?”
“Could you explain this to me from an abstract realm point of view?”
“Sure. From the abstract point of view a wish is a spot within the body where star stuff has accumulated. Hence it’s like a second heart. Basically, there accumulates a spot within the star body which becomes denser, and so what happens is that it alters the reflection of light when it enters the body. Or when it exits the body.”
“So how does that create a wish?”
“Basically, the wish can only operate when it is hidden, when no one knows about it. Hidden even from yourself. That is when it is most powerful. And so if there is a stone, or contracted star stuff spot within the body, it cannot be seen at the surface, since the inner aspect of things are in motion, as we’ve said before, but this wish is basically a contraction within this motion. It’s like a fish in the sea. Oh yeah. Important point. A fish is the example of a wish.”
“Wait what? Why didn’t you mention that symbol before.”
“I didn’t think it relevant. A fish is the symbol of a wish because it is a solid (movingly solid) thing within the sea, and because the fish moves in a wave like way, it’s like if it was the same substance as the sea. So the fish is in fact a wish.”
“But I don’t see how it relates to wishing or dreaming?”
“Simple. Water always represented the unconscious, and so fishes are the living things within the subconscious. Therefore, Carl Jung’s archetypes, within the abstracted realm, would be seen as fishes.”
“That is certainly odd.”
“Yes well, archetypes are wishes of human kind. People say they’re innate characteristics, but in reality they’re not. They’re just expressions of wishes, and so they’re really powerful. They transmit from one subconscious to another, just like fishes spread from rivers to the sea.”
“Are you sure about this?”
“From the abstract point of view, I’m fairly sure that fishes are subconscious elements. April fools implies putting a fish behind someone’s back without them noticing. Consequently this means the person manage to trick the person in the trickiest way possible. It’s basically implanting a wish within someone without their consent. And since wishes are made of hope, this is practically an impossible task.”
“Could this be possible within the abstract world? Could someone impose a wish onto someone else?”
“Not at all. How could that be possible? It’s not a wish unless you generate it. And that’s part of why wishes are so powerful. A great part of why this is the case is merely that since you yourself have to formulate a wish, it’s like a signature.”
“But you were saying something about fairy tales?”
“Oh yeah. Basically these developed, and some motifs are definitely representative of the Us, the unbiases, big time. True friendship, true love, and so on…these survive within fairy tales. They’re basically crafted from an unbias point of view, but from within the literal world, not the abstracted one.”
“Hence they bring the abstract world within the literal one?”
“What’s your favorite one?”
“Well…I might be biased but Beauty and the Beast.”
“The individual which can never find love, and which sacrifices itself …come on.”
“Yeah, but Alan, ultimately everything turns out all right!”
“If life was a fairy tale, it would be the case.”
“Nobody would believe me Izzy. I can see the abstract world, but never be a part of it. Fairy tales are denied for me. I can just…write what I see.”
“Alan,” said Izzy, “I’m confident that you’re going to turn out all right. You must.”
His Finest Hour
“Izzy, today I don’t have much time to talk to you…for the reason that I’m supressing my hypomania voluntarily to tell you exactly what’s happening from a real, literal point of view.”
“Fair enough what is it?”
“From a literal point of view, you and I are just fictive characters within my novel. I’m writing this on my computer, rather quickly in fact.”
“Oh man…you’re going to tell me that we don’t really exist? And this world doesn’t really exist?”
“No. I’m going to explain how it does exist in reality.”
“What’s the reality then?”
“I’m usually hypomanic when writing. When this happens, I can associate things very rapidly. I’ve been doing that since the beginning of this book. However, these are not just random associations. You’d think that the druids and the beginning of history are unrelated, or that Goethe and Newton have nothing to do with one another. You’re right. And wrong. What occurs is that each of these entities is associated with another for a specific reason, mainly that druids are ancient, mysterious, and so on, and Goethe is rather mystical whereas Newton is more concrete and linked with necessity and causality. The reason why I make these associations so easily is because they really do exist. In the sense that I’m going to associate, say, true love as a good thing and darkness as a bad one. These are really primitive within the human psyche.”
“So you’re just basically making very standard associations.”
“Yes. And the thing is, because they’re so standard, anyone can make them. Even if they don’t know Goethe or druids that well, just looking up on them, or being reminded of semantically related things might activate the same meaning I had in mind when I wrote my book.”
“So there are no star bodies?”
“Of course not. None of this stuff exists. But star bodies reflects a certain association within the psyche which does exist.”
“And so the way I’ve written my book is by different associations, kind of like Homer. I’ve associated fairy tales with good and tragedy with bad.”
“Which existed already.”
“Yeah, but in this case I’m generating associations that people aren’t likely to forget. Somewhat because they’re either so odd, yet so normal at the same time. I mentioned we remember more incongruities.”
“So your book is a bunch of incongruities linked with positive symbols, so what? Does it matter?”
“No. It’s just that since I’m in a hypomanic state, I’m in a really anti-negative emotion mood, and all the associations that I’m making become really positive. Hence anyone reading this book is going to make the same links and ultimately….well…become in a good mood.”
“The good mood won’t be temporary. If they make the same associations, since they’re so general and absolute, they won’t get undone, but always reinforced by the environment…because I’m linking things which are always good rather than relatively good.”
“So ultimately they’re going to be rid of negative emotions altogether.”
“You’re saying this book could enlighten everyone?”
“Maybe not. I dunno. I’ve been studying Buddhist psychology and texts all my life. Maybe…”
“Dude, this is seriously hypothetical.”
“I know. I’d have to explain this from a scientific point of view for those who don’t believe.”
“It’s going to be hard because what I call the “dark body” is just causality. And since I’m explaining causal things at this point, which I usually never do or are able to do in my whole life, the causal regions of the brain are going to be activated in me and I’m going to lose a bit of inspiration, since my inspiration is linked with everything which is opposite.”
“Well better go quickly then!”
“Alright. I’m going to explain how exactly everything that I mentioned is possible. Wish me luck.”
“Alright. So basically, the brain is formed of neurons. These neurons interact with one another through links, through synapses. When you activate a neuron, it fires most of the time into the connected neuron via that synapse. Hence, because these neurons which fire together are more often activated, or activated at a same time, they become more wired together. When ultimately a region of neurons becomes heavily linked together, its starts firing as a circuit. What this does is that the neurons which previously were independent of that circuit, but which are in the same region, become connected with the circuit. Consequently, if I’m personally firing within a circuit which is heavily linked, meaning I’m generating associations which are quite universal and quite distant from one another, most likely I’m linking either the brain together or the regions which are heavily linked together. Hence what’s happening with me is that the brain regions which are general are firing more than the brain regions which are not general, and so there’s a pattern generated here, basically that what is becoming more activated is becoming more activated, and what is less activated becomes less activated. Ultimately, I’m in a hypomanic state, and distant brain regions, because the general areas of the brain become more linked, distant elements can activate one another. Regions which, though they never touched before, now touched.”
“That’s great but it proves nothing.”
“True. It merely suggests something. I’d have to go even further into the causal aspect of things to find a real proof. This is extremely hard for me, I’m never able to prove anything. No matter how hard I try. But I’ll try still.”
“Basically, I’ve been always trying to figure out things. Trying to make theories. I’d always go up to my brother and show him these ideas or diagrams, and he’d always deny my ideas, and tell me something opposite. I think it’s probable that since this is a general tendency in me that that’s what I do when I go manic. In fact it is what I do.”
“Better. But a proof is still lacking.”
“Sigh…alright. Let me try again. Proof. Proof. I’m afraid I’m having a hard time finding proof for my theory. I can’t prove it”
“This is ridiculous. You can’t even prove one element of your theory?”
“No, just thinking about proofs makes my head whirl.”
“I dunno why.”
“Then can you tell me anything you can predict with the facts you’ve said in your novel?”
“No. Any answer I could give you would be hypothetical. This is just a novel. I’m writing this novel…and sometimes I think it could be true, that it could actually enlighten people…but I can never prove anything…not a single thing.”
“How would the enlightening happen?”
“People would read the novel and they’d make the same associations as me.”
“Sigh…then these ideas would be linked within their mind as well. And given that these ideas are really general they would spread easily and since they’re related to positive things they’d make people happier, or make better choices…I dunno.”
“Okay, and can you prove this?”
“Fuck, how would I ever prove this?!”
“Well something you can’t prove isn’t really worthwhile.”
“Izzy what the hell are you talking about you’ve listened to me the whole time and you were amazed by everything I said. What’s gotten into you Izzy.”
“Well I’m starting to doubt your ideas.”
“Izzy…we’re fictive characters in a book, how can you doubt my ideas? I’m writing what you’re thinking right now.”
“Haha, Izzy are you just doubting for the heck of it? Is this a silly questions game? You’re actually making nonsense into my book, you’re not furthering the plot or anything.”
“I still want proof. It’s too late now. You said you’d give me proof, and I want proof that your book is really going to help mankind through it’s ideas.”
“I think I understand what’s going on here.”
“The more I try to explain, the more you compensate by doubting. Basically you’re a representation of the doubt that I have myself, and which I must overcome to go further.”
“This is funny Izzy, because when I usually tell you, in the real world, about these kind of things you say things like “Perhaps” or “It’s hypothetical” as well. You never confirm what I say you just deny it, you never accept the things I say. Except when I was manic. At that point you accepted everything I said, and you swallowed all my theories and everything I said. I wonder how that’s possible.”
“Who knows? I think that’s hypothetical still.”
“Haha, wait a second. I feel like I’m figuring this out. It’s quite simple in fact…whenever something in my mind seems like a hunch, I go for it. I don’t think, I just write it down.”
“And so what happens it that my first gut instinct…becomes the subject of my book. And I can write for hours on end.”
“How could your gut instinct be right, hmm?”
“Simple. You remember I said that the neurons get linked in a general way? Well in my case…I don’t know.”
“See? You have no clue.”
“Haha, Izzy, the fact that you’re so opposed to me makes me think I’m right, and the fact that you’re against me makes me think more and more that I’m actually correct. You’re like a thermometer for my inspiration.”
“If you’re enthusiastic, it means I’m most likely wrong, but …wait a sec…when you’re enthusiastic it means I’m most likely abstractly right, and when you’re pissed off I’m most likely literally right.”
“I thought you’d explain this without referring to abstraction and so on.”
“Ok. Here’s a go at it. Since our minds are really similar…”
“SINCE they’re really similar, whenever I get real inspiration you get inspired too. But whenever I’m literal, and I actually am literal…in other words, when I say theoretical nonsense, you get pissed.”
“Alan that’s fucking stupid, it’s not true and it doesn’t prove anything. You’re saying nonsense and wasting time!”
“You got pissed right now because I said that. Meaning its most likely true. Literally true.”
“This is becoming like a stupid game. And you’re still not proving anything.”
“When it comes down to an argument, you and I get annoyed.”
“You’re just describing what I’m doing!”
“That’s it! That’s fucking it!”
“Description. You get pissed when I describe stuff. This explains everything, I finally have the proof I’m looking for!!!!!”
“Simple. What happens in the brain when you describe stuff?”
“I dunno. You tell me.”
“You’re not altering the object which you’re describing. Therefore, when I’m trying to give a theoretical proof about something, I’m actually trying to give a description of something. That’s what a proof is in my head. A description.”
“So the thing you need to ask me to understand why what I’m saying is true cannot be a proof, or something with some kind of purpose, because I’ll never be able to give it. You need to ask me for the opposite of a proof.”
“Okay….what? Okay. Make up a reason, invent a reason why people could be enlightened by your book?”
“Haha, Izzy I finally figured this out! This is the same principle as being asked nicely. When the mind is asked for proof, or anything like that, it responds as if it was insulted and does not give any proof because it feels like what it said or should say was self-evident. Now if you ask me to invent a reason why people could be enlightened, well, I’d tell you … this is actually the same thing as asking for proof though. I can’t just invent a reason on the spot because that’s like why poets aren’t able to be spontaneous on the spot.”
“For god’s sake Alan, what do I have to tell you to get a damn idea of why people would get enlightened by reading your book?”
“Hmmm…How about you give me an idea why?”
“Me? How would I know?”
“Because you’re Izzy. You’re my friend. You’re bound to have some clue, after all, you think quite like me.”
“Well, maybe people would get enlightened from reading your book because … because your book interests them?”
“Yes…and what would that do?”
“Well since they value the book they’re likely to value also whatever’s in the book?”
“And then Izzy?”
“Then they’re likely to value things like true love and true friendship because you talk about them?”
“Sweet, and then what?”
“Alan, why the heck are you asking me to figure this out? Just give the answer.”
“Fine. I can’t give you proof myself, I can’t be asked to make something up, I can’t ask you to figure it out…”
“This is getting long, dude.”
“I dunno man! I can’t figure this out. I can’t give you any proof.”
“Do you realize how much nonsense we’ve been saying thus far? All this for a fucking proof that probably doesn’t exist.”
“Dude, it’s not wasted …. Wasted speech…wait a second. This reminds me of Plato…and idle speech.”
“Fuck man, changing subject again? Why the hell are you going through this, it’s not worth it. We’re wasting our breath.”
“Clearly, there’s something worth it here Izzy, we’ve talked this far and the proof escapes us continually. I don’t want to say it doesn’t exist, and that there is none, because I’m confident there is one.”
“WELL GOD DAMN SAY IT FOR FUCK’S SAKE!”
“That’s the first thing that came to my mind. And consequently, from my earlier point of view, it should hold the answer.”
“Aliens?! The fuck Alan you’re proof that your book is going to enlighten everyone is that we’re aliens? You’re ready set for the loony bin!”
“No. Aliens probe things. Thus, they alter the object they’re interacting with. This is the opposite of description. And consequently, it’s the equivalent of proof, since it’s the opposite. The answer is this Izzy. And I was not wrong earlier saying that I would be right given I’d say the first thing that would come to my mind. Therefore, since I generated the answer “alien” and must stick with it, here’s my explanation for why people would be enlightened when they’d read my book. And I’m telling you now, it will be ultimately the answer.”
“Now you’re talking Alan!!”
“Yes, now shut the hell up you’ve pissed me off with your incessant questioning, which at the abstract level is fucking insulting, but anyways I’ll give you the literal explanation as to why the answer is aliens, and why I’m going to enlighten everyone with my book.
The human mind deletes everything that doesn’t fit its own conceptions. This is because the regions associated with one another, when they consider alien elements within them, which is elements which are linked in a way which ultimately goes against the global pattern, they’re simply removed. Eliminated. Like a single wave within a storm which, ultimately, takes the shape of the massive wave at the global level. Hence these random neurons cannot actually survive within the global associations which people make, within the networks. An explanation to something, a causal explanation, is in fact a wayward neuron within a given region of the brain. So that say I give you the causal explanation “This table fell because it was badly constructed.” The explanation, because it was badly constructed, is causal. What I’m trying to say, the explanation in brain terms for proof is a neuron which is wayward. The proof for this, and this time I’m actually going to suggest a proof, is that when global associations are formed within the brain as when people are manic, the wayward neurons, given the individuals activate the general patterns within their minds, should disappear. Hence, individuals should temporarily forget the causal way of thinking, and think merely in associative terms. Is this what actually happens?”
“Is it? For sure people don’t forget causality when they’re manic. They can still behave and so on.”
“The explanation is that wayward neurons are subtle elements, they’re actually like particles within waves. The stronger the wave, the less these particles will exist. Hence this is why, given a strong enough brainwaves, Buddhists become extremely happy: they eliminate more and more subtle wayward neurons.”
“So what happens in your case?”
“Same thing. Eliminating wayward neurons.”
“And the more subtly you go the more you destroy these subtle elements?”
“Yeah. The Buddhists say something really similar. Basically subtle negative emotions, which are related to causality in my view, get destroyed after a certain activation of the subtle body, winds, and so on.”
“Then the less people are linked, the more they’re within a state of activation that doesn’t involves wayward neurons…or the more these wayward neurons disappear. And ….there is such a thing as a state of just anger.”
“Yes. Anger generates a really strong wave. Hence I’m currently thinking that if there were to exist a single, subtle, ultimately powerful wayward neuron…basically the root of causality….it might be wiped out through just anger, basically anger combined with a good intention.”
“How do you explain that? In literal terms please.”
“Well, anger is the only emotion which can target the deepest wayward neurons in the psyche. This is the wrathful deities in Buddhism. The signal for anger is like a wayward little wave, like a sword if you will.”
“Like a sword eh?”
“Yes. In the sense that it’s focused, and that the ultimate basis of causality is like a little root within the psyche, like a wayward neuron.”
“But the Buddhists say that to destroy the root of afflictive emotions you need to eliminate all anger!”
“Yes…but they don’t eliminate all afflictive emotions. I’m thinking of something which could eliminate them all…within the entire world…for good.”
“If someone were to generate just anger, directly at the wayward neuron within their own mind, they might remove causality from their own brain in the most subtle region.”
“Why just anger?”
“Because in fact anger combined with a negative motivation might do the absolute opposite, it might just create causality within the psyche, or a bent towards causality and negative emotions ultimately.”
“Okay. So you think just anger can do that?”
“Yes. And as for the proof that this is the case. Basically I said the aliens were the key. Or an alien. So let’s go back to that theme. Introducing something alien within the individual. Wayward neurons. Oh right. Causality is a wayward neuron, and these are related to negative emotions. So in principle, to generate a cause you have to generate a negative emotion, and to generate a ton of causes you need to generate a whole bunch of negative emotions.”
“How is that possible?”
“You have to be focused don’t you? To generate an explanation. If you’re talking about a simple cause like “Why did the postman come today?” You have to at least go back within your psyche, within facts, and consequently, reminisce of the possibilities…it’s all laborious. You tire your brain this way. You make it more divided.”
“But what about scientists?”
“Man, what I mean by cause is very specific! A cause is something which generates an actual effect. That is, by definition, a cause: it has predictive ability. If it generates no effect, it’s not a cause. Basically, cause and effect. And remind yourself that understanding how to eliminate negative emotions in Buddhism, is basically understanding cause and effect. Shunyata. Hence, related to the aliens, anything which effects something else, alters it, is in fact likely to generate a negative emotion.”
“Hence you’re telling me, Alan, that your book, being pure hearted, cannot alter anything? Meaning that you’re writing this for nothing?”
“Well, it’s rather the opposite I mean.”
“Within the conscious mind, altering physical objects….violence…all that…those are related to cause and effect. Even tool making.”
“Alan you seem like you’re figuring out a lot which makes a lot of sense, and your sight is becoming more sinister.”
“Izzy….I’m going deep into the wayward neuron level….I’m generating negative emotions…and I do this to explain my point.”
“Alteration of physical individuals….hurting…fighting…war…all negative, all modifications of physical objects…all negative….causality…causality…tool making…deep down….deep association…making a tool to hurt………ugh…..anger……red…black…causality….is generated by violence…. …first tool…first murder…how………..how……….question how…..was…..initially……..how to kill….ugh….
A pair of eyes was looking at him.
“What’s your name? I’m AJ.”
“AJ? What does it stand for?”
He was awakening in the middle of a hospital.
He looked at her. She was a brown haired, semi-tall girl, in a nursing gown.”
It came back to me. Attempting to delve deep into the causal nature of the psyche. What a mistake that was! Now I realized where I was. The hospital. I’d been here before. Different people this time….and a different ward too…but something else. Something else could be sensed here. Interesting. I didn’t expect it here. What’s it doing…
“What’s your name?”
“Alan. That’s a cool name.”
I look at her. Wait. Right. It’s here. I can sense it somewhere on these floors.
Izzy arrives at the doorstep, and looks at me. AJ looks at him, quizzical. “Alan! You’re alright. Dude that was some weird stuff going on, you were talking about a murder and causality…and all kinds of stuff, what do you---“
“Izzy. The dark body is here.”
“The dark body? Here? What would it be doing here?”
“The dark body? What’s that?”
We both look at AJ. It’s an odd feeling to see a woman about my age, in her hospital gown, asking naively about what the dark body is.
“Never mind that.” I turn back to Izzy. “Izzy, do you know what that implies?”
“That we ought to be very careful?”
“Damn it. I ought to have told you about the realities of the star world sooner, we’d have been prepared for this.”
I look at him.
“Izzy, here’s what you’re going to do. You’re going to go around and try to gather information on who’s who here. See if anyone looks odd…damn it, that’s pointless”
“Because the dark body doesn’t appear on the literal level, you can only perceive him on the abstract level…but I can’t perceive him precisely, only vaguely”
“Since my star body is a speck of starlight, I cannot sense from what direction I’m receiving the emanation of the dark body. Basically I can tell its distance, but not its direction. And I know it’s close.”
“Within this hospital.”
“Yes I said?” A doctor in a white gown came up to me.
“It seems that your lithium levels are rather low. We’ve measured your levels when you arrived here, since we have your data within our files, and ultimately it would be best if we increased your medication. Are you alright with that?”
Izzy looked at me. Even he understood the significance of this. From the literal level, I was in hypomania. All this story is possible because of this literal level detail. Consequently, increasing my medication meant the possibility that I wouldn’t be able to access the other worlds, the abstracted world for one. Hence I didn’t exactly know what to reply. Izzy looked at me and smiled.
“It’s okay dude. Take the medication.”
“Fuck, I don’t want to take the medication. Izzy…Dr….Dr?”
“Dr. Ranvier. Well, you see we realize you’re not in a full blown manic state, but we suspect since you’ve been talking in your sleep that, and given also your medical records, you might be in a hypomanic state. We wouldn’t want you to fall into a complete manic state, so we might as well increase your medication now. What do you think?”
“Can you oblige me to take my medication?”
“Well…I’m giving you the choice. You’re not obligated to do so.”
I looked at Izzy.
“Hell no. I’m not taking the medication.”
I looked at Dr. Ranvier, whose face was blank.
I stared at Izzy. I had just said the dark body was close. And now Dr. Ranvier here…wants to increase my medication? This was necessarily a trick. Or some clever ruse of the dark body.
“Take the medication Alan,” said Izzy.
“Yeah take it.”
Shit. I knew this was going to happen. Well Alan, you got to make a choice. Is the dark body within your friend, Izzy, or within the Dr. Ranvier? Or even within that AJ girl there? Damn, you’re becoming paranoid.”
“Well?” said Dr. Ranvier.
I looked at Izzy. Why would he be suggesting me to take the medication if he wasn’t the dark body? Let’s see, let me think this through. If Izzy wants me to take the medication, and he is the dark body—think fast Alan—by agreeing to him you’re going to generate a friendship bond contract and perhaps create future problems…but if Dr. Ranvier is the dark body, then … but both of them want me to take the medication. It’s either I accept or I refuse… this is so confusing.
“So?” said Dr. Ranvier.
“Sigh…I accept. Give me the increase in medications.”
Izzy smiled at me. Damn. I might have made the wrong choice. It’s so hard to think…
“Good choice Alan.”
Because I couldn’t trust Izzy, at the abstract level the friendship bond was affected. Friendship, being based on trust, ceases to exist at the abstract level when trust is broken, and in this case, Izzy was a potential suspect. I had told him about the dark body…but what if he was the dark body? In fact…if he was…just looking at me he could hear my thoughts. He knows what I’m thinking right now. It doesn’t matter if I hide my opinions from him or not. But he might not be the dark body, and in that case he cannot hear my thoughts.”
“Alan are you alright? You look like you’re a bit ill.”
Paranoia. The closer the dark body is to me, the more paranoid I become, the less I can trust myself and consequently the less I can trust my friends because they are like me. That is a fact of the star world: when the dark body is near, I become distrustful…and so my friends cannot help me. This relates to the friendship bond. Initially, I thought I couldn’t form close friendships at the star level, and that is still true. Neither can I feel true love. So how can Izzy be my friend? Simple. We’re friends at the literal level. Because of this bond at the literal level, I can chat with Izzy and so on, and he believes what I tell him about the abstract world…but neither of us can perceive it. It’s quite odd in fact. Izzy believes in the abstract world mainly because he’s my friend. But it’s not a true friendship…well it is…but not at the star body level. Anyways. How will I manage to escape from the dark body?”
“What are you thinking about? You look really bothered”
It could be her.
“Hmm. You know when I feel really bothered I just think of what I want to do in the future.”
“Ideally get out of here haha.”
“Why are you in here in the first place?”
“I have trouble…remembering things.”
“Yeah. Basically I forget … people.”
“Oh…I’m sorry to hear that.”
“But how come you remember me then?”
“I remember names. I remember Dr. Ranvier’s name for example.”
“And you can remember my name?”
“Yeah. But I can’t remember who people are you know? For example, I know Dr. Ranvier is a Dr. because I call him doctor Ranvier.”
“Interesting. So basically they’re keeping you here why?”
“They’re doing some tests on me. They’re trying to figure out what in my brain is making me forget things…”
“I see. Do you remember how long you’ve been here?”
“Feels like forever.”
I looked at her. He looked pensive. The dark body was probably not her. Unless of course it managed to make itself looked insidious. But there’s another reason why the dark body is not likely to be her. The dark body, would it have been AJ, could have eliminated me from existence at this actual moment. The reason why Izzy and Dr. Ranvier, whichever is the dark body—if it’s not some other patient—is because I’m doubtful as to which of them is the dark body. Basically, the dark body has one method of killing: it must reveal its identity to the individual it’s going to kill, from the point of view of the star world. When it reveals its identity to the individual it will destroy, the individual perceives the sinister intention, and consequently, develops that intention within themselves. So it’s a bit of a vampire thing. Once affected by the dark body, you become part of the dark body, and it is composed itself of the souls which it destroyed in previous reincarnations. Reincarnations of its victims though. It doesn’t reincarnate, it has remained as it is since the beginning of time itself. Immaculate darkness…but filled with star bodies it has absorbed. Does that mean that Newton and Shakespeare are within the dark body? Not necessarily. They could have been possessed by it temporarily. The dark body targets only the hope of the universe. In my case, because there is a chance that I defeat it, the dark body targets me. It’s basically like…opposites attract. I want to destroy it. It wants to destroy me. Hence, the possibility that I destroy it for good remains possible…and the possibility that it destroys me for good remains possible. This is merely for the reason that the closer I get to it, the more excitement is generated within me, and consequently the desire within it increases. This happens until a paroxysm is reached….and then one destroys the other. So the possibility of ultimate destruction is very real, from either case. Anyways, Izzy and Dr. Ranvier could be the dark body, because they couldn’t have killed me before. It would have needed to reveal its identity, but in the process would have killed individuals which are innocent. Such as AJ. The dark body must be alone with me to reveal its identity to me, and consequently, as long as I remain within a location which has a lot of people, I won’t be affected by the dark body’s influence. The dark body is really the typical imagination’s representation of evil. That’s why people hate being alone, and why people fear the dark. Every fear of mankind, is in fact, a fear of the dark body. People who fear the dark are afraid, from an abstracted point of view, of the absence of light. Which is basically, from the abstract view, the dark body. It’s the only dark matter in the star body universe. Afraid of being alone because the dark body could get them. Afraid of snakes and spiders, for the simple reason the dark body, if within them, could reveal its identity simply by presenting it…let me explain this one. The dark body usually needs to generate a given symbol to reveal its identity. For example, it may show a specific eye, or a specific thing…that creates what is called the dark epiphany. If the dark body were to reveal …say…a smile…and from the point of view of the dark body the symbol it uses to kill a star body is very typical…. In fact, what can I say? Anything you can conceive is probably a manifestation of the dark body, and the laws which regulate the dark body’s influence. And this is what I’m fighting against.
I fucking jumped.
“Yes, Mr. Ranvier.”
“We’re going to increase your medication now. Would you like to come into the other room with me?”
Other thing. The dark body must always ask permission to the individual to do anything. This is because it is evil at heart, and wishes to build compliance as much as possible so that the individual feels like it’s responsible for its own demise. Hence as long as I would refuse going anywhere from either Dr. Ranvier, or Izzy, I would prevent the dark body from affecting me. From capturing me into a solitary location, and killing my star body. Hence, as long as I’m against every single proposition I’m going to be safe. Unless…of course, the dark body manages to trick me. There are a few ways it can do this, and since it’s listening to my thoughts, I feel completely idiotic for reminding it of these methods.
First of all, if the dark body manages to make me contradict an earlier statement which I said to the dark body, then it may gain an advantage. For example, if I said “I don’t want the drink.” And later said “Give me the drink.” I would be contradicting myself, I would have said something then another and so consequently this allows the dark body to disregard both statements. The dark body in fact remembers all the statements I make. Verbal ones, not my thoughts. If I said ten years ago that “I like soda.” then the dark body remembers this, and consequently if in the same circumstance about the same precise object I say something else, then there will be a contradiction, and it opens the door for the dark body to show me its identity. Consequently, rule number one, if the dark body makes me contradict an earlier statement I made, even if it wasn’t triggered by his influence, it opens the door to a symbol showing and a dark epiphany.
Rule number two. The dark body knows exactly what I’m thinking, therefore it’s very crafty and can know exactly how to introduce himself to me and create a dark epiphany. Therefore, the more I think about the dark body the more the possibility of creating a potential dark epiphany occurs. Notice that avoiding thinking about the dark body does the same effect. Hence the dark body, whether I think about him or avoid thinking about him, possesses more dark energy. The only way to avoid this is to not pay any attention to whether you’re thinking about the dark body or not. Meaning that if the variation in my sentences is random enough, basically if I don’t care, I’m avoiding the dark body. But if at any point a pattern can be understood…which means if at any point the dark body could sense that I’m becoming scared, then it opens a portal towards the dark epiphany. And basically, the way you know if I’m scared, is that I’m going to have forgotten entirely about the dark body, and so won’t be thinking of it. That’s when it can strike. And also, when I’m thinking about it too much…its not that talking about it generates actual negative energy, it’s just that talking about it generates a likelier probability that I will feel protected and forget about the dark body. Hence, every possible rule towards something frightening or fearful seems to apply to the dark body. But don’t worry, there’s only one last rule regarding the dark body.
Third. Final. Most important rule about the dark body. The dark body has a name. I don’t know it, nobody seems to know it. When you’d destroy the dark body, you do so in only one perspective of the universe. But if you manage to figure out what the dark body’s name is…then you might destroy it for all time. And it has a name, a name which is consistent throughout the whole of history and through all abstraction levels. Therefore, to really destroy it for good, you’d have to learn the dark body’s name. And for example, if the dark body possesses someone, it doesn’t imply that that person’s name is the dark body’s name. To destroy it, you must find the original body of the dark body, and utter to it its original name.
This is because the dark body is able to commit these atrocious crimes only because it has forgotten its original identity. No one knowing themselves could commit such things, and, when the dark body ultimately hears its name, corresponding to the original person or thing it came from, or is in the form of, then … it remembers its own identity, suffers a personal dark epiphany of the worst kind, and dies.
These are the laws of the dark body. Which reminds me, the dark body cannot come and affect you in your sleep, as sleep is both protected from the dark body and also you cannot be shown a symbol within your sleep which would reveal its identity. That being said, sleeping is what I’m about to do.
“Wake up Alan.”
“You wouldn’t want to keep us waiting.”
“Yes…that would be most ungentlemanly of you.”
“What? Who are you”
As I open my eyes, I realize that I’m in a realm composed entirely of white light. My eyes take time to adjust…but I see blurrily a green, a white and a red shape.
“Finally, you’ve woken up,” says the green shape. “We’ve been waiting quite a while for you. To be precise we’ve been waiting about…well…my watch is about precise to the nearest millennia…so I’d estimate it to about….the beginning of time.”
“Where am I?”
“In the abstract realm my dear,” says the red shape, in the form of a woman. “You’ve arrived here just after you defined the rules of the dark body, as we planned.”
“But, the abstract realm is not really abstract. You should know this Alan… the forces you describe can relate to the real world and vice versa…my god, a book about the abstract realm…how tedious!”
“Yeah,” said the red shape. “Next time you ought to be kinder to your readers.”
“Who are you all?”
“We’re the projections of your psyche,” said the white one. The lady over there is Ishtar, the green buffoon over here is Enki…and I…am Anu.”
“Are you really the projections of my psyche? Because you seem very real.”
“No. Projections of the psyche means nothing really, reality doesn’t work that way. We’re actual individuals. To be precise we’re….energy. That is what would make the most sense to you. But this doesn’t mean we cannot affect your reality. We are most effective.”
“Yes Alan. You’ve been chosen! How cliché!”
“Don’t play dumb darling. You’ve sense it since you were almost born, since you were a child.”
“Chosen? What the hell are you talking about?”
“My he’s an interesting lad isn’t he!” said the green form. “He’s wondering at the moment why we’re so mean to him, but he’s all figured it out, he’s just playing stupid.”
“Give it a shot Alan,” said the white one. “Who are we?”
Alan looked at the three shapes. And he finally understood. But it shouldn’t be possible. A hope came into his being…he had been chosen.”
“You must be Enki, Anu and Ishtar! And you’re the projections of my psyche!”
“Exactly as we told you. By Jove, this child could be a true imitator, so much he repeats himself…kind of like in his book,” said the green form.”
“But have you figured out why we’re mean to you?”
“Yes. You’re the projections of my psyche, and consequently, you take the shape which is within me at the moment. So basically, you’re taking the form which I imagine you’re like.”
“Well done boy! And what does Enki look like to you?”
“Enki is the green shape, because I associate Izzy with that color, and he’s also a secondary god, not the most powerful…basically. But he’s a great friend. Everything I see Izzy as. But Izzy isn’t mean though.”
“So why am I mean if Izzy isn’t mean?”
“Basically…I’m not sure. Why are you meaning?”
“The child can write within the stars but he cannot figure a simple riddle! How fortunate we are to have chosen this one eh Inanna?”
“Very,” she said. “Perhaps instead of saving us all he’d rather settle for a Pulitzer prize. I should’ve worn my hair up for the occasion, we’re all going to appear in a magazine!”
“Alan, you know very well that whatever you write is going to link itself together in the end…so since I know that you’re writing this as we speak, why not cease giving these projections credence, and further the story a little bit?”
“But…yeah, from a literal point of view that’s what’s happening…but …so…I’m basically just talking with my book?”
“Wrong again kiddo, you’re talking with yourself?”
“We’re your projections remember?”
“Yet, I don’t feel like I’m influencing you at all. I’m just writing.”
“Inspired child! That’s a good omen Inanna.”
“Yes,” she said. “It means we’ve chosen the right one?”
“Can anyone please tell me what this is all about?”
“Alan,” she says, “Your psyche is a blank slate. When you project any form or anything onto the page, it’s not colored by any perceptions or bias which you could have within yourself. You’re just portraying us as we are.”
“You’re blue, red and white?”
“Not at all, but we’ve searched for eternity for someone who could represent us without altering our true nature. Someone who doesn’t have the seed of causality and violence within them.”
“Someone with a pure heart?”
“There he goes with the clichés again! No, my boy, not a pure heart. And empty heart, one which can go both ways, depict us in either our mean aspects…”
“…Or our friendly aspects”
As she said this the red figure became warm and friendly, the white figure shone slightly, and the green figure smiled.
“We’re still the same people Alan.” he said.
“But you’ve shown us exactly how we are in your psyche. If the story goes one way, the depiction goes one way…but the beautiful thing is.”
“Your mind is blank Alan,” said the white one.
“Yes, you will, in time, create the most marvelous stories, that mankind has never seen before.”
“Because I’m blank?”
“Indeed. Because there’s only one force within your psyche, only one true desire. Coherence.”
“I don’t feel like I’m quite coherent, as a matter of fact I think I’m absolutely incoherent.”
“In appearance yes! But whatever seizes your mind at a given moment causes a pull within your psyche, and the whole thing gets restructured,” said green.
“You’re like a metamorphosing blob Alan” said Inanna.
“I don’t see what this does concretely.”
“Everything you say or do can be put within story form. And everything which affects you also. You’re like…a channel. And we’re going to make you extremely powerful,” said red.
“Simple,” said green. “Imagine a mind which has ultimate connectivity, whose every wish becomes a reality. As soon as a desire evolves within this mind, the whole of the psyche starts reorganizing itself to fulfill this desire in time.”
“That would be awful!” I said. “That would imply you’d get everything you want.”
“Not exactly,” said white. “Your mind doesn’t want to get everything it wants and so alters history to create challenges for itself. So basically it generates wishes and thoughts so that it doesn’t get ultimately what it wants.”
“So that means….I could control the entire world….but then that also means I’m all alone. No one would have free will, and I’m in control of the destinies of everyone and also….”
“Jeez, talk about a megalomaniac. Slow down dude. The force within the world is coherence, and consequently you got to learn to be a bit coherent if you want to succeed around here….I heard that becoming a god is rather tough—not much competition, but the competition there is is radical if you know what I mean!”
“You think those gods you mentioned at the beginning of the book are projections? Think again darling, they’re actual people,” said red.
“Yeah, when a human being’s mind reaches a certain level of coherence, it starts to affect everything around it. At some point it doesn’t even need a body anymore, because it shares the body of multiple people, and that’s why you thought it was a projection.”
“So you’re telling me that these gods start of as individuals?”
“Yep. So as a human being, you’re not alone. As a potential, potentially non-corrupt candidate for godhood, you’re not alone either.”
“So could you tell me who the gods are within our times? And why wouldn’t they call themselves gods?”
“You fool!” said Inanna. “A slew of individuals have realized what you’ve realized right now. A ton of individuals are actual gods. There’s just one single, crucial difference between you and them!”
“You’re able to express it. No one else can. Alan, I know you’re starting to understand now. Listen to me. And I do mean the Alan which is writing this right now in literal reality.
I’m Inanna. I’m introducing myself to the times of your world via this dream. The real Innana. This feels like it’s just a book, and yes, it is a book, but if I don’t intervene then I’ll have lost my chance, perhaps forever.
Long ago, there were a people known as the Babylonians. They lived around the time where writing was invented, perhaps slightly after. Because they had built an empire which valued collectivity, and seemed coherent, they prospered. However, at some point in history, the connectivity they generated started becoming too great, and wars and troubles ensued. People wanted power, and ultimately, connectivity was broken because at the collective level, it broke down, at the price of increasing at the individual level. Now what happened was that there is an individual whose connectivity was so great that he thought he could save the world. Alan doesn’t want to say who this is, but I’m sure everyone can figure it out by themselves. Alan doesn’t want to feel grandiose, and I understand him for that, he is afraid of not being to publish his book, and the happiness which he wants within this life is threatened…his whole book in fact is threatened just because of what I’m saying right now. It was meant to be a fairy tale, but …what I’m doing is like an advertisement between television commercial programs. However, it must be done. Alan knows if he leaves this in the book , publishers will refuse it. But he trusts me. So I know he’ll leave it.
Alan wanted to explain the laws of his book and so on, but I think I’d be better at it, so Alan is letting me explain them for him. Basically, this book was written in the timespan of about three days. Alan wrote 10000 words per day, and did not know where those words came from. They were inspired, spontaneous. The answer is that he had help from us, Enki, Anu, Enlil and Inanna. I’m certain, I can feel it through Alan’s reaction of wonder that you all want to know who exactly these individuals are.
Let us begin by Anu, the god which is invisible and which is in the sky. Basically, this god is the sky. You see, we Babylonians have a reverence for the sky, and so we’ve projected most of our gods in the form of stars. We’ve drawn the map of the cosmos, and the whole universe which your scientists think they’re discovering is in fact generated by the Babylonians. Consequently, we were able to generate a true picture of reality within the sky, and we knew that every time human beings would look at the sky they would be calibrated towards goodness through looking at the position of the different stars. This sky map alters the world, and Alan was right in saying Anu was the night sky. Newton doesn’t have anything to do with this, Alan thought he was invested by a dark body….but I’m sorry to ruin your plot readers, but Newton was never invested by a dark body. Alan saw him as evil because he’s related to causality, and Alan thought that casusality is evil. However, there is an evil, which we’ll describe if we can.
Enki is the god of flowing waters. Streams basically. And Enlil the god of winds. Now, in our language, which Alan is progressively deciphering, streams basically mean actual currents, currents within the real world….so someone in charge of affecting the real world….wheras Enlil means the god of winds….which is basically the god of the bible, who affect minds. Alan is really annoyed right now. The book, in his eyes, has absolutely no chance of being published. He is losing faith, and he wonders what I’m going to say next. Up to this point, Alan thought he was Enlil, but that’s not the case because Alan is a completely different person than all of us, who are the Babylonian gods, but Alan is special in his own way as you can see. He thinks himself supremely powerful, and a god, and it might be for us actual gods something you’d call “cute”, but he’s not entirely mistaken in thinking he’s quite efficient. You could say he could be another Homer if he’s lucky. And Alan is annoyed once again, having hoped to be a god….but he has no chance of becoming a god. 0%. None. Alan get this out of your head right now! In fact, every other being on the planet has a chance of becoming a god.
Yep, the reality is to become a god your brain has to have some kind of essence, some kind of signature, so that you can manifest yourself via some form. Alan doesn’t have this (sorry to disappoint you again). So all Alan can do is “channel” our energy and write books. And don’t worry readers, Alan is not a sad person, he complains a lot but he’s ultimately one of the happiest, and deep down I’m sure he’s content of being who he is.
Now, back to the real problem. We Babylonians would like to form a new civilization. We’d like to correct our past mistakes, and to do so, we’re asking for mankind’s help. Read Alan’s books and try to avoid making the same mistakes we did. I think that was enough, because Alan’s mind is going into a different state, and he’s not utilisable for channeling any longer. Oh…before I go, quickly…I’m Inanna. And I’m the goddess in charge of ….luck…farewell.”
“Fuuuuuuuu…….” Thought Alan upon awakening. “I can’t believe I just wrote that. Within the literal world, I just screwed my whole book over. And now within the abstract world....in my book…my whole plot is ruined.”
Alan heard Inanna’s subtle voice in his mind. “You have my luck Alan. Write the book, it will turn out ok.”
“So anyways,” Alan thought. By the way I’ve changed the narrator to the third person. Anyhow…man how am I going to pull this off? It seems impossible…Right. The dark body… which ….exists? I guess it does. I don’t know anymore. She ruined the whole book! Damn it…”
“Screw off Dr. Ranvier, I’m not in the mood to be asked about medication again.”
“Mr. Thompson you have someone to see you?”
“Come in Izzy.”
“It isn’t Izzy.”
Alan looks at his side. It was his brother, Lawrence.
“Yo.” he said.
“Lawrence, you came to see me!”
“Yeah. How’s it going man?”
“Good, not much is up. Just in a hospital bed. You?”
“Mom and dad are worried about you. They say you’re in hypomania again.”
Lawrence. The dark body. If there was a dark body….sigh. It wouldn’t be him, because the dark body cannot go within your family.
“Well Lawrence, what can I do about it hmm? I’m hypomanic, its in my genes, so I can’t really change that can I.”
“Guess not.” Said Lawrence. He looked at my papers on the desk near the hospital bed. “You’ve been writing a book I see? What’s it about.”
“Stuff. It’s rather complicated. Too complicated in fact…at this point….I think I should just destroy it. I should throw it in the garbage.”
“Because it’s incomprehensible?”
“Tell me a bit about it.”
“Basically, it’s about me…and my friend Izzy…who doesn’t even have much of a purpose in the book, it seems like he’s just interviewing me…and I describe these mental states like the literal level and the abstraction level and so on.”
“Nah It’s complicated man.”
“Oh yeah? Well. Have your friends come to see you here?”
“And how’s he doing?”
“Haha. You don’t want to know. We’re having some…interesting times…me and Izzy.”
“Why do you say that?”
“Well the book is based on real events, so basically…me and Izzy right now are… “Pretending” that we’re chasing this dark body…”
“So you think there really is a dark body?”
“I dunno man!! I thought there wasn’t but I’m starting to think there isn’t.”
“I have an idea for your book, though I don’t know much about it.”
“Yeah? What is it Lawrence.”
“Maybe you could write this down…as in, the fact that I came to see you here. And then you could say that Lawrence came and talked to you, and you wondered if he was the dark body and so on.”
“The dark body cannot be you; he doesn’t go into family members.”
“What if I wasn’t really a family member or something….what if I was just…like…part of your imagination.”
And that’s where I got scared. Lawrence would never have said something like that. There was just two possibilities. Two distinct possibilities. A) He was the dark body, and indeed a projection, and I was about to die. B) This was Lawrence, but since Lawrence without even relating to star bodies always compensates me…it would mean that literally, Lawrence would have compensated my absence of fear of the dark body, causing my novel to have a plot once again…or at the abstract level, Lawrence was a projection, but trying to scare me into believing in the dark body existed. Or maybe it was just a clever way of convincing me that the body existed. In all cases, thanks to Lawrence, the possibility of the dark body has become real again. Let us see why.
I thought it didn’t exist because Inanna came into my dream and undid my hypothesis about Newton. She even said that the dark body didn’t really exist. I thought there was no way I could ever be convinced that the dark body existed. But now that Lawrence came…I came to see what Inanna was talking about all along….I can modify reality.
Whoever hears or reads this: I can literally modifiy reality. And I know that people are going to think that I’m becoming grandiose again now that Inanna’s message is over, but it’s a fact. Because I wanted to be scared by the dark body again, I became scared by it again….
Hence, my wishes come true. But I’m supposed to have one single wish, because my heart doesn’t have enough space for me to wish multiple times? How could my wishes become true? How could whatever I want to happen, happen? In fact, it’s not my wishes. Its someone else’s wishes. So perhaps I’m not writing this book of my own accord. Maybe I’m writing this to enlighten everyone, like I said I’d do. And this doesn’t count as a personal wish. In any case, if, since I manage to alter reality, the dark body wins this round….who knows what would happen. Actually, that could never happen.
I was really torn. Either I introduce the dark body into reality, by talking about him, which attracts him as well, and so everyone who reads my book are going to be pissed off and genuinely scared—at least those that are superstitious…or I say the dark body is in fact false, and then people don’t really care about the story because there’s no real danger.
The reality, the choice Alan made---and Alan started realizing that he was so deeply into the narrative that he was inverting pronouns between the third and first person---was the following one. If the dark body won, Alan would forsake his book writing skills, and never write another book. And Alan bet with the dark body that Alan and the dark body would each behave independently within the psyche. A new deal was formed. Alan had to write in the literal level, or behave in the abstract level, without planning his book. Basically Alan would only have inspiration when he would be at a computer or a notebook, and when he was writing the actual story. And Alan could not erase what he was writing unless he thought, and the dark body thought, that Alan’s work sucked.
Alan was now an inspired poet. He would write whatever came across his mind, and the possibility that the dark body won and destroy Alan’s inspiration forever was very real. Though Alan would be the only one to lose if the dark body came over him, the universe, or rather mankind would lose the possibility of Alan generating enlightenment through his books, and creating a perfect situation for mankind. This was a deal pleasing to the dark body, and it was also pleasing to Alan, for the simple reason that Alan, like the fairy tale authors, believed in the power of true hope over evil. But he wasn’t sure. Only time would tell.
Alan was still at the hospital. If there is a reader who has followed extremely carefully, and could understand why this was the case, let them know: Alan had written an ending, and as usually happens he was going to improvise instead. But, by the laws he had generated, had to stick to this particular ending. He could not improvise anymore, even if he tried.
Alan had accepted to take his medication when Dr. Ranvier came and asked for him to take them. He was then taken to a solitary room, and he knew that Dr. Ranvier was the dark body. Hence, as the dark body was turning towards Alan, suddenly, time stopped. “We can’t let this happen,” said a voice inside Alan’s head. If you looked inside Alan’s head, you’d see a vast space of light. The individual whose voice had been heard was the Dalai Lama. Under his star form, he had uttered that. “Yes,” said Innana, as a red glowing shape. “If he dies, we lose our chances to restore our civilization.” “And we also,” said Homer, speaking for the ancient Hellenes. “Us too,” said Virgil, representing the Romans. “And I would never redeem myself of my guilt,” said Goethe. “Nor Newton and Shakespeare.” “And this would stop us from restoring our kingdom,” said Arthur.” And then, dissimilar voices within Alan’s head arose, each claiming some benefit in Alan’s survival. “Well, said the Dalai Lama. “We each want our own interests, yet we must work together. So, we must defend Alan from the dark body that he created. “Agreed,” said Inanna. “Thus, Alan must use all his faculties, all of us, to destroy the dark body.” “But what the sum of all of us look like?” said Arthur. The shape will necessarily have a bias. “Let’s let Alan decide,” said Homer. “He’s been a good judge so far,” said Virgil. “How do we do that?” said Enki. “Easy,” said the Dalai Lama. “We retract our influence from him.” “How so? We are his mind,” said Goethe. “You should know,” said Virgil. “You’re a genius after all. 210 IQ?” “Well, I suppose we can temporarily suppress our influence simultaneously,” said Goethe. “But,” said the Dalai Lama, “if we do so we need trust. Genuine trust.” “How are we going to do that?” said Inanna. How can we be sure someone won’t leave their influence?” “We cannot be sure,” said Homer. “Alan will favor who he loves the most in all cases, and influence this series consequently.” “So we just let Alan write?” said Inanna?” “Yes,” said Enki. “Without altering his writing. We must, for now.”
Alan’s inspiration fell to a blank. He was basically just writing whatever came to his head. But nothing came. Except meaningless sentences. He realized he had a real choice in favoring whoever he wanted, and could alter the course of his books, and more. But who to choose? The Greek? The Romans? Not them. Every time Alan mentioned a civilization it couldn’t be them, because the answer needed to come in an inspired epiphany. Alan’s influences needed to reduce their power to charge up, and ultimately release energy in the form of one massive inspired epiphany. The epiphany would take the form that Alan mentioned last. Hence, Alan was careful in not naming the the wrong component of his psyche. So, the Greeks and the Romans couldn’t be the ones favored by Alan, because he named them, and so eliminated the possibility of it being them. Then who? Alan couldn’t decide for the rest. Alan’s mind was racing but empty. His inspiration blocked again. He knew he must chose. Not Inanna. Neither Enki or Enlil. As he suppressed their influence, he lost their favor temporarily and his writing changed a bit to reflect who was left. Alan was left, and because he named himself it meant there was someone he trusted more than himself. This individual was now more in charge of writing than Alan himself. Since Alan did not himself know who this was, he wondered. Aliens? No. Naming them eliminates them. It’s the person Alan literally least expects, the last one Alan will think of. Literally. “I have no clue,” thought Alan. It needs to be someone I like, yet haven’t thought about. It’s not Lawrence because he’s the first I thought of. If not Lawrence, not Izzy, nor AJ, then who? Every time I name someone, their characteristics are primed in my head, and so there’s a narrowing down. Earlier I thought of this scene. I had concluded the character I revealed at this point would be childlike, a symbol for all children, and recognizable across all culture…but that I would not know until the end and when I revealed him there would be a burst of inspiration. Ah. So it’s a he. “Not necessarily. It might be an it.” Alan had not planned this voice intruding at this moment. He knew what that meant. The story had change again. The plan he had written down was invalid. Alan had suspected that when he rewrote the lines about him thinking about the character. If he had planned the character all along, in the hope of priming things, why would he have named things he thought was good? Ultimately, that would generate an inspiration of a nature involving ultimately bad things. What he should have done instead, was think of all the things that he thought was bad, and prime them, so that the ultimate inspiration would be good. Basically, Alan would activate a defense mechanism that would ultimately repel the dark body. This mechanism was activated only when dark elements were primed in his psyche. So basically, the dark body turned around, and, exactly as Alan had planned since the very beginning of this book, and even without the book, meaning in the real world where Alan is an author, and even the abstract world where things look like their opposites and there are star bodies—Alan’s mind was special. He didn’t even know he had planned this, but it was planned in the three realm mentioned, and know by someone since the beginning of this book. It could not have been Alan because he’d have known the plan and ruined everything, contradicted it. No, it was something much more elaborate and wonderful than that. As the dark body generated symbols of evil to try and create a dark epiphany within Alan, Alan’s defense mechanism against evil things was primed, and so since no part of Alan’s psyche new this, neither the Dalai Lama, or Inanna, or Enki, or anyone at all…this part of Alan’s psyche which had planned basically…the whole book, and was generating curiosity and wonder in the mind of all of these individuals, all of the onlookers basically generated curiosity which moved towards one single shape…the Romans…the Greeks…their gaze was set towards Alan at the hospital. Mouths were gaping. No one could believe it, a plan had eluded all of them. And this character would be, because of this plan, closer to Alan than all the other characters in the story and have a covenant with him as a writer, as a person, and as a star body. So much surprise and so much amazement was generated that this creature would be the embodiment of surprise and amazement. And when Alan saw the symbol of the dark body almost touching him…the dark epiphany became clearer and clearer…Alan’s heart was palpitating by fear of dying and having written all this for nothing. Hence he really really hoped that there was some creature in Alan’s psyche to counter the dark body.
And there was. Basically, Alan had generated the fairy tale authors’ motif by betting on hope where basically, there was none. Alan had absolutely no hope because he didn’t know what the creature was going to be, what he was about to write. He still didn’t know what was going to happen. And so Alan’s fairy tale aspect of the mind was activated, which happens when Alan hopes blindly. Was he going to die?
Alan was still unsure. The dark body generated his dark epiphany, and the symbol which he used to generate it…was a snake.
Everyone in the multiverse slapped their forehead.
Alan was a bit confused?
“Why is there no epiphany? Neither dark nor bright? Why didn’t I die? Why didn’t I generate some creature to destroy the dark body.”
“You did,” said the snake. “It’s….ME!”
“I did? Who the heck are you?”
All snakes are evil, in people’s minds. But there’s one snake that’s good! A lucky snake. An agaithodemon. A genius.”
“So what snake is this?”
“The rainbow serpent.”
The dark body, upon hearing this, let go the snake out of fear, and ultimately vanished completely from the face of the multiverse. So powerful was the Rainbow serpent, despite its cute appearance, the dark body was excluded from Alan’s book, and Alan’s series. The dark body…was no more.
“Alright now let me resume this cutesy snake form to resume my true form.”
Alan’s heart got a bit scared, because big was a bit of a euphemism for the Rainbow Serpent. His eye became… “The Sun.”
All of Alan’s psychic components were all listening, within Alan’s mind, to the Rainbow Serpent.
A deep voice resounded throughout Alan’s psyche, within the realm of white light.
“Alan’s story…was interesting.” Said the Rainbow Serpent. “It started off slow, then everybody became involved. So it’s natural that I became involved. Who am I? Most of you have specific roles…the Dalai Lama wants world peace, the Babylonians want to restore their civilizations, the Lion and the Wolves want to undo prejudice, Arthur wants to collect the artifacts, Goethe and the others want to redeem themselves…Homer wants to restore Greece, and Virgil Rome….but all your desires are quite petty when considering the purpose of the whole universe. Alan wanted this to end as a fairy tale, but I’m afraid I’m going to have to make it end as a tragedy. At the beginning, Alan, you thought all the forces within you were opposed. But because there is an enemy stronger than you all about to destroy the whole multiverse, I thought I would manifest.”
“So you’re an Alien?”
“Not exactly. Aliens imply that they come from another universe. I come from within your universe, which is in fact divided into three. The Babylonians somewhat saw this with their sky division, and so--“
“See Inanna? I told you we’d be good in the end!!”
“Enki….someone else is talking…shh…someone big is talking.”
“It’s ok.” Said the sky serpent. “I’m not a wrathful deity. But I am, by Alan’s definition, a god. A real god. Perhaps even the only god.”
“Enki…lies! I am a god as well. We’re all gods!”
“Enki!!” said Inanna.
“Let him speak Inanna.” Said the serpent. “I’m quite humble about who I am,” said the serpent. “Let me take a smaller form.”
The serpent appeared the size of an individual
“What is this enemy you speak of, which could destroy our civilization?”
“The answer is…civilization.”
“What do you mean?”
“When a civilization gets too populous, too technology based, too complex basically…then the force which makes everything work out, basically me…fails to get activated. And life is not under protection anymore.
At the beginning of time, I visited the Australian indigenous peoples, their land, and I sacralised it. Wolf here thinks that Quebec is sacred, but that’s nothing compared to the sacralisation that I did in Australia. From a point of view of the world, it’s opposed to Quebec. Indeed, I sacralised it not with star stuff, but it’s even stronger form…dream. So much had I sacralised it with dreams through my travels that the names Rainbow Serpent and Dreamtime are still used today, which are my original names and the names Alan used in his book, or in his mind. You see, the indigenous populations of Australia don’t refer to me as simply a myth in the past, but they claim I’m within the future, in the present, in the past…everywhen. Alan has finally figured out the symbol of a deity within his psyche, which was his ultimate endeavor. And now, he must try to prevent the formation of civilization. He must try to restore the dreamtime which once was. I have faith in this child. I have ultimate fate in him, so that neither evil, hardships, nor anything could prevent him from writing his books. He is not under your protections…though he is…but ultimately, under my protection.”
“But what do you ultimately want Rainbow Serpent!”
“I want the dreamtime to continue. I want there to be something…rather than nothing…I want people to live in happiness, in stories, and I want there to be life…I want children to have hope, rather than fear…and for there to be plenty rather than nothing…ultimately…I want civilization to die…so that life, may go on.”
All hearts were moved. There was a common force animating them all.
The stories, ultimately would go on.
But not in this book.
In another book.