If I said I loved you, would I be lying?

pulling words from

an overwritten romance novel.

Would you know the difference

between reality and lust filled platitudes?

If I said I loved you, would you laugh

through a fatal grin

dragging my 6 feet down?

Would you straighten that crooked smile

and wear it to visit

yet another lover?

If I said I loved you, would you believe me anyway?

Would the ball unwind forming

a longer line of insincere confessions

without a priest to judge?

If I said I loved you, would I be

walking a tight rope

across an apparent  bottomless cavern.

Would you push me off?

listen to my descending screams

as I fall faster, faster, ever so faster,

and hit the bottom smashing into a million pieces.

If I said I loved you, would you run away?

never looking back,

escape from an embracing arms.

Would old dusty fears resurface

in an earthquake

leaving me as wounded as you?

If I said I loved you, would you stay?

rocking in my arms

until our heartbeats 

collide and synchronize

into our own speechless rhythm.

If I said I love you, would your hope blossom

and ignite a new life?

burning full of new possibilities.

Give me a commitment ring

you unconsciously know I would have chosen.

If I said I loved you, would you say it back?

through tear soaked eyes

and offer a hand longing to touch.

Would tears fall like raindrops?

but taste sweeter,

land in a deeper part of ourselves.

If I said I loved you, would, you tell me you still believed

in your childhood fairytale endings

and sing you favorite love song,

sounding more perfect

than a contestant from Idol:

carol our own duet?

Dedicated to all detained or imprisoned.

Tsnami Spirit

Inside

Watching wind stretching  free outside

I am looking beyond the prison bars

No barrier to this wind

Except, some of us are in metal and mental cages.

But, I am not, I have decided.

It’s only iron you know

Muscles taunt,

we could climb through it.

Except wire rips flesh;

but not the imagination-

it soars,

higher than the search lights.

Wishing we could walk through these walls.

Melt material substances with particle stares,

and walk through this wall,

as if I wasn’t really here.

Like I never existed

No life, no regime, before now.

No pain

Again a babe innocent

Outside and

Floating  free

Like dust in gails.

Watch wind rises up in mini tsunamis

Now freezing rain falls in torrents and blankets

A wet season, a new season dripping  possibilities

Feel its chilling blue beat against my skin

I release a clenched fist.

Knowing it’s better to be drenched, frozen and free

Than warm, fed, and caged.

JAPAN:  A  LOVE POEM

          Japan I love you

More than first lover’s fumbling kisses

More than young first time Mother

More than proud Father couching son’s footy

More than new babe looking up to parents

With an outstretched lotus palm.

I Love:

Your silent gardens,

whispering wisdoms-

Sanctuaries,

amidst the wild

perpetual quaking Tokyo.

Perfect symmetry

Nature manicured and tamed by peoples’ hands,

Yet in it

Now breathing new life-

Balanced, restrained, controlled,

Like your art of relating.

I return your respectful bows.

Feasts at your table;

sushi, sake, the unknown?, and silliness mingle

Shed weight of years past

Now lithe, light ready to float,

Through underground maze of subway,

And grunge and hip hop clubs in the city bowels

-spilling with rabid frothing punks.

Erratic razor hair

pointed rays of

a new rising sun

Screwing out music and dances

with wilder boys and girls

“kampai’our new primal scream

Spills over like endless river of sake in our glasses.

Submerged

Waking after seconds subway sleep

realising it was not a dream

Awake in mountain onsen

Purity, cleansing discovered

Warmth in a winter cold

human soup! Naked strangers.

Then , ready to go at it again

With and extended life

Reincarnated

with a new parent- Japan

a second homeland

Japan , I love you.