These feelings have been here since I was born

I have not had a damn break my whole life

why can't I just be normal?

who decided to put me through this hell on earth?

When I just want to be happy?

These thoughts roam my brain and I cannot find a conclusion. What is the point of living on this god-awful Planet if I'm going to live this way? why should I be held responsible for feeling like I want to murder my own body and  mind, if deep down I don't want to leave this planet. I just want to feel normal and happy and 

My heart was shattered

Broken in two

But now it seems

I just cannot forget about you

You mean so much to me

I don't understand

How you can look at me

Like I am never even there