To be honest I've never actually talked or wrote about my feelings to anyone because I was told that sharing a "love" life or "missing" someone is a weak thing. Or why should I write about it? It's like that person cares about my feelings ? Why should I share my stupid love songs with someone... To show people that I am weak?! 

I wasn't always like that. I was a girl who was crying for almost every stupid little thing, and now I am someone who can't cry except when it comes to LOL. 

That's a good thing you are thinking, probably. 

But maybe it isn't, because you miss crying, you miss being loved and you can't express that because you were thought from a person that you loved to not be like that. And I feel stupid by writing my emotions but I need to share with you my story, my journey because I am afraid that I won't love anymore, any other human being because of the things that happened to me... 

Everything started back in Sarajevo, Bosnia and Herzegovina after one drunk night when I decided to leave my country. I was a rock girl, I was going out on the concerts, hanging around with bands and drinking beer. I broke up with my ex Bosnian guy who was a total "bitch" with me, but if you were asking me this in the real life I would tell you how awesome he was, and I would definitely skip the part where "I loved him" . 

We spent one year and 8 month together and I was crying for him like a baby 8 month more. I was tired of that life and Ive wanted to go out from the country. 

A month later I applied for European Volontery Service in Turkey, where I was supposed to work in kindergarten as an English Teacher and in rehabilitation center with kids with autism, Down syndrome and other mental illness children. 

I was accepted and in 10 days I was ready to go in there. 

It wasn't easy because my parents were telling me a lot of things like : you will be alone in there, you will be really scared or maybe even cry... Bla bla... 

My first time in a plane was absolutely scaring to death but I was feeling exciting and full of energy because I am going to live in another city and place which is far away from my family and maybe even discover myself. 

8 month of my life started in Balikesir.