yes, this is the terrifying one, the bloody terrifying one. i have never been so scared of sharing as i am now, probably. this encapsulates things — maybe not all, but a lot — that have hurt me, broken me, loved me, tortured me, devastated me, trusted me, destroyed me, taught me, and most importantly, made me. this is all my tears, smiles, hopes, dreams, insecurities, failures and disappointments. this is all my happiness, sadness and anger. it's all the messed up things i've said, thought, and did, and all the messed up things i've never said, thought, and did. it's all of that, and everything in between.
“I don’t ever want to fall in love.”
“Oh, you will regret saying that.”
“Why, how do you know?”
“Because love is an honor.
One day, you’ll love someone so much
it’ll hurt so good, and you’ll be the happiest
you’ve ever been.”
“All that hate comes from fear.”
“What did it do to you?”
“Love [had] made me powerful.
Fear [had] destroyed me.”