It was April 1st, 2019...Monday,  just another day. Or at least that’s what I thought. I was packing, getting ready to go on a 5 day trip to bude, Cornwall with some students from my school. I was going with my 2 best friends.

I got to school around 7, my hair was straightened, I had my comfy clothes on and I was wearing my signature yellow beanie. I was so excited for this trip knowing that it would be great!

We all got on the coach and set the off for our 6 hour journey. My 2 best friends sat together while I sat infront of them, and next to me there was the most amazing boy I had ever seen. He was short, his hair was a dark toned, his eyes were dark brown, shimmering and he had the most amazing freckles on his face. I couldn’t stop staring at him, and when he smiled at me, I could feel myself melting to bits.

Throughout the journey I worked up my courage and tried to talk to him, he was so sweet and his laugh was amazing! We were so alike! It’s like I found a male version of myself. We laughed and had fun the entire time until we arrived. I don’t even know... this whole time I’ve been afraid of love, but I think this time I’ve finally found someone who could love me...

When we got there in the afternoon we got shown to our rooms, I was in a room with my 2 besties. Boys were in a separate building from girls, of course. 

We went downstairs after we had all settled down and got ready to walk along the beach and explore! I walked with him, the whole time we were laughing together, making jokes, he was amazing. I haven’t known him long but this feeling inside me... it was like the best I could ever imagine. I wanted him to know, I had to say it... but I couldn’t.

I’ll keep this short, I’m Annabelle, most people call me Anna. I was supposed to go on a school trip to bude, Cornwall with my bffs. My love life so far had been really messed up, it was a vicious cycle of boys and people that didn’t seem right and that always broke my heart. “This one’s different! I swear!” But they’re all the same

I’m writing this because this trip had changed me and my feelings completely, if I don’t get it out I don’t know what could happen, I can’t hold it in any longer!

I don’t remember this exactly (bad memory) but I’m trying.

 The 1st full day of the trip, I woke up, my head was killing me, what happened last night? I don’t even know. Tuesday, April 2nd 2019.

I got up in the morning and went down to breakfast with my friends, we went down to the dining room and sat at a table in a corner. The boy sat next to us, we were all getting along really well, laughing.  The others were all eating breakfast, eggs, beans and toast, but I couldn’t eat, drink, nothing at all, this boy was driving me crazy! I was just sitting there, staring into his pretty, shimmery eyes. I can’t explain what he had done, the thought of food made me sick, I just wanted him and only him. 

Back to our rooms, getting ready for our morning activity, I felt dizzy, I couldn’t take my mind off of him. 

We had body-boarding first thing after breakfast so I put on my swimsuit and went downstairs with my friends. We had to get into wetsuits to be able to go in the ocean. Wherever I was, I was always trying to find him, just to look around and make sure he’s near me. Being the idiot that I am... I’m way too afraid to ask for his number or anything like that. I hated this feeling, it was killing me.

So body-boarding, it was like surfing but you don’t stand and the boards are smaller.

I couldn’t focus on anything the instructors were saying. He was precious, he was important to me, I don’t believe in love at first sight, but this time could actually be different...

We had so much fun in the water, I was with my friends, catching the waves and tipping over, it was amazing, but still nothing compared to him. I went to ask if he was alright, he smiled, I cared about him so much, he was so precious, perfect, I wanted him to know how much he meant to me.

Back In our rooms... he had sneaked into mine and he was just lying there, on my bed. He was so cute, hot, he was amazing. The way he laughed was the best thing I had ever heard. My heart was melting, we were all there, my best friends and the boy, making jokes, laughing. We had so much in common.