March 26th 3:00 am

I can’t sleep there is too much on my mind I will explain more tomorrow but for now I will just think . 

 March 26th 

I wake up .the sun blinds me through the curtain and I slowly reach over to turn the alarm off my phone . the purple glittery phone case seems to lighten my spirits. It’s Monday and as everyone knows no one likes Monday’s , you know what also is on a Monday ... SCHOOL . It’s not that I don’t like school I do but at the moment I have too much on my plate to deal with . I don’t really know why I am writing this ,as every diary I ever got ends up In the bin . Also diaries are for secrets and I have too many off them . I’m going to treat this diary as a person in hope that one day some one will pick it up and read about my problems. U never know maybe I might turn it into a book . Nah .I don’t have the patience for that . 

 March 27th

I’m on my way to school and before I go I’m meeting this girl who gets on my bus. (Chloe) ,but she is not in my year . Let’s just say we are really close . At the moment she is dating some girl called (Eliza) . However Eliza is not the best she is always saying who she would date if she was not with Chloe and just doesn’t treat Chloe the way she should be treated. Now I’m not saying that I am jealous, because I told my friend and she said I sounded jealous. It’s just that Chloe means the world to me and I don’t want her getting hurt . I’m so confused. I know that I am straight ,as I have only been out with boys before ,but she is all I think about . And I care about her more then just a friend way . I care about her more as a love way . 

Ewww why would I say that ... Chloe is my bff (best friend forever) so why would I think this ? It’s just she has beautiful brown eyes that u could get lost in and her long brown curly hair that she all ways does so nicely falls into place and suits her like God had chosen her hair to be amazing  . Her smile makes everyone smile and  her personality is perfect. Like WOW . I think now u understand why she is stuck in my head . I would never be able to tell her this . Like would you ? No u wouldn’t. I wish I could though she deserves to know but I don’t want to ruin are friendship.but I think it’s important she know ... 

March 28th

I tried to avoid her today as I was to awkward. I carried this diary in my hand and I have only completed Maybe 2 pages ,so if she picked it up she would find out my deepest secret in seconds . I never wanted this to happen , I can’t even tell anyone . I go to a catholic school so they are all homophobic people and because off this my parents are also against anything different. I have told Chloe and my closest friend (Ben) but he just laughs and says stupid things .like “now we can both kiss girls “ ... or “I will make u straight “ .im so happy that my friends are accepting as without them I would have nothing . But I wish my family was .