Ill admit at first I was so nervous to start my 7th grade year since 6th grade didn’t go so well, I waited for my mom in the car. Time was passing by so fast, I was scared i didn´t want to be late of course its the first day! All of a sudden I see my mom walking out the door, I was relief to know I was on time. When I got there the doors were locked I had to sit down in the most disgusting green benches ( it had spiderwebs ew! ) I called my friend Sarah “ were are you i don’t want to be here outside alone “ I said, she responded very briefly “ I’m on my way give me second “ . I saw a friend from last year she was a year older then me, “ hey bentley your going into 7th grade right!? “ I said “ yeah I’m actually very exited “ my friend said “ i wouldn’t be so exited my sixth grade year was not the best “ she was bringing my hopes down. I got up and said “ ill see you around “ my vise principal told all of the kids that were outside waiting to come inside. I waited inside and i finally saw Sarah i was so glad i haven’t seen her over the summer she went to a trip to Italy. I started being a bad kid and i could see it myself it was at the point were i could have got expelled.  I insisted my mom not to move back to New Jersey my mom yelled “ YOUR MY DAUGHTER YOUR COMING WITH ME WETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!! “I felt tears running down my eyes i couldn’t believe her  the worst part is i heard her tell my grandma how i was such a disappointment. After that i got a diary for me, myself and i i wrote how my dad was never there for me and how my mom would always put her anger on me she would physically hit me. i graduated from middle school i was very lonely in New Jersey but i still kept in touch with Sarah we would FaceTime every night with her she had a boyfriend and i never really talked to no one but since i was going to school i thought i wouldn’t least have some friends but keep my circle small. Freshman year started, i was better in school but not at home. I wrote in my diary June 12, 2005 run away day. It was finally that day i was tired of it i had to at least let someone know but i didn't run away something was holding me back I don’t know what it was at first but i thought though my mom was very mean and aggressive maybe she was just like that because she wanted me to do good i messed it up i had to ruin our bond i fell asleep and tried to be more patient with her. My mom said she got a new job back in Wisconsin i was so happy i was finally going to see Sarah!!! I Landed in the airport i saw Sarah she was taller she had makeup on but she was always a dike in middle school i guess people do really change. Sometimes people ask me would you choose your boyfriend over you best friend i always say no i wouldn’t choose anyone but myself you can’t tust your boyfriend your best friend nor family like i said keep your circle small.