Ashley did not expect to fall in love, and especially when it was hard to maintain the regular physical relationship of holding hands and kissing like you could do in public school system, but in Ashley's case, she was restricted to the rules of her new private christian school, when there was no dating allowed, that was for when you are ready for marriage and also the six inch rule where there could be no physical contact with out being suspended whether it be a hug, kiss or sitting on the pews of the church with your legs closer than six inches and worst of all, not being able to have a sense of style or fashion was out of the question since uniforms is what were worn. Which were hideous and plaid pleated knee high skirts and white button up blouses.
She decides not to care through out time and does whatever she wants when she becomes more madly in love with Jeff, which comes with heart break, loss of friends, suspension and more

Starting at a new school isn't the best feeling at all, getting that uneasy feeling in your stomach mixed with butterflies, especially when I am comfortable attending the school that I am at right now, and especially if I am going to be attending a private christian school runned by Christian leaders.
Along with ridiculous rules like not dating the sx inch rule policy (no touching of any kind even sitting next to anyone you have to be exactly six inches apart), but I am going willingly, because of my brother. He is going into Kindergarten and is autistic and I want to be around him incase he needs family around while our parents are at work. My brother Josh is my love and I would do just about anything for him. So here I am holding his hand walking into the church following our parents into the principals office to get us situated for our first day.

Upon entering the principals office  Mrs.Cane sat us down and pulled out paper work for us to fill out and have myself and Josh sign and agree to the terms and rules, and she then took us to Josh's class first and got him settled, then it was off to my class we go. My heart was racing as fast as if I had just finished running a marathon. As we were coming close to my classroom my parents looked back at me.

"Do you want us to come with you Ashley?" Mom and Dad asked

"No, I'll be fine on my own, thanks." I said while Mrs.Cane ushered me into my new classroom.

All I could see were heads peeking up over the dividers that were wedged between each desk looking at me, the new girl. She brought me towards a lady who was obviously the teacher and briefly introduced me to her; her name is Mrs.White. Mrs.Cane left. 

Mrs.White asked everyone to turn around in their desks for a moment and introduced me publicly to them all and asking them to make me feel welcome on my first day. One girl I took notice of right away, she was waving her hand at me with a huge smile on her face while I was being ushered to my desk. At that point Mrs.White gave me my work books and showed me how the private school system worked on how we do corrections ourselves and by the time she gave me a thorough explanation of how things were done it was break time.

The kids in my class all ran for the door accept three girls and four boys stayed behind to wait for me; which was very nice of them, including that bubbly wavey girl from earlier.

"Hi I'm Jeff, Joy, Catherine,Dreya, Jamie,Evan, Jack" they all said their names in unison so it was hard to really catch them all 

The first day went by fast and everyone was very friendly with me including me in the lunch break and also the second break partway through the day as well. So I guess it won't be so bad going to this private school everyone seems to be friendly and I am making friends quickly.

It was getting close to the end of the day and I am doing my book work that I was given and was abruptly startled by being hit in the head by a crunched up ball of paper. Great now the kids are bugging the newbie after being nice all day. So I threw it in the garbage pale next to my desk. Then a moment later Jeff huddles down into my desk and says read this and don't throw it out this time. He passes me a scrunched up ball of paper. I open it up and it reads "Evan thinks your HOTTT!!!."

Oh great! I don't even remember which guy that is and all I need is to be distracted in school with some stupid puppy love thing that are always in the movies. I look around until I spot Jeff in his seat and he looks at me and a mouth to him 'Which one is Evan?" as I shrug my shoulders. He then points a few seats down to where this Evan kid is and then remember that earlier during lunch hour he wouldn't stop making eye contact with me whenever I'd look up from my food he was already looking at me. Kind of creepy if you ask me. Not in the least but interested, plus the no dating policy of school and my parents think I am too young as well, so I have some great excuses incase Evan tries to ask me out.

I write back onto the piece of paper "Sorry I am not allowed to date, it's my parents rules and the schools rule," then I try to think of an excuse to talk to the teacher and walk on by Jeff's desk and toss it at him. I already know the rule for asking for help means to put the Christian flag up on top of the peg post above my desk, but I play stupid and forgetful and say "Mrs.White, I need your help with some of the math I am doing." She nods and follows me back to the desks and quickly reminds of the flag system they have.  It works to my advantage since she is walking ahead of me, so I toss the paper onto Jeff's desk with out Mrs.White noticing.

It's the end of the day and everyone is gathering their things into their back packs and rushing out into the lobby of the church waiting for their parents. I go to Josh's class to get him and as we're walking to the lobby I see Jeff sitting on one of the benches and he tells us to sit down, because his dad teaches the high school class and he has to wait for his father's class to get out, which they get out a bit later then ours does. So we talked quite a bit and built up a good rapport. Josh is standing in the doorway and yells that mom and dad are here so I grab my bag and before I walk out the door Jeff says "There are a few other guys in class that like you, and they are all making bets and competing with each other to see who will get you as their girl first, just thought I'd let you know since we are starting to become friends, I feel I owe it to ya." 

 I look at him kind of stunned and then appreciate him telling me what's going on, so I am definitely staying away from all of the guys in class now that I know what they are all trying to do. I obviously can't trust any of the guys even if I liked any of them, because their feelings wouldn't be genuine since it is a bet/competion that they are looking to win.

Josh and I get into the van and rode a long way to get home. It's about a good forty five minute drive for us. I am exhausted from my first day in this new school, I have a whole bunch of feelings about it and the only way I know how to express myself is through poetry. So I sit myself down and write up until supper time and then after supper I continue until I am too tired to keep my eyes opened. I get off of my desk and change into some pyjama's.

It has been two months of being at this new school now and have maintained friends with everyone from the first day and that silly little thing that Jeff told me about the guys making bets/competing to try and get me I am not sure of, since they haven't really tried anything on me since I have been told. So who know's?
We pull up in front of the church and get out and I walk Josh to his class and then proceed to mine. I see everyone is already there, school hasn't officially begun so we all can chat amongst one another.  I am sitting at my desk talking with with the girls when Jeff comes over to me right away smiling at me.
"Hey, how are you?"
"I'm good and you?" I say in reply
"Not too bad....... we have music class and drama class today, I am excited, I can't wait to sing." he chimes
"Oh awesome!" I say in excitement, I forgot about music class and drama class today. Jeff and I have lots in common and we get along really well, we're probably more best of friends then we are with anyone else at school we are like two pees in a pod. We were talking about different christian song selections that we wanted to bug our music teacher to let us sing today and also got laughing about the play we were going to be putting on for Christmas, I could not help but notice Joy glaring at me in the corner of my eye's. I am not too sure what is wrong with her lately, but she has been distant and withdrawn from me lately and it seems like she has convinced the rest of the girls not to hang with me during break, but they all talk to me before class starts until Joy arrives to school and walks into class. Something is definitely up and I have no idea what it is. Mrs.White walks into the classroom and we all scurry to our desks and start doing our work. I had to go get my work checked at the answer key log books so I put up my flag for permission. Jeff was up there getting his work checked as well, he was standing beside me with his pace book and answer key, we whispered a lot to each other about singing and making plans to hang out for almost every break and lunch hour for the next week just to sing and have fun. Then we started talking too loud and enough for Mrs.White to hear us and she took away our first break for not obeying the rules, we're not allowed to talk while up correcting our work.

Break time came and everyone was leaving the classroom the boys and girls looked disappointed that we couldn't join them. Especially Joy, but I suspect it is more so she is sad about Jeff than myself. I think they are dating secretly, because they act a little more than just friends, although they have been kind of not so sweet towards each other the past couple of months. 

During break we sat in the classroom in silence doing school work and then I saw Jeff get excused to go to the bathroom. Afterwards when he came back he seemed even more like he felt relieved and free and in the best mood ever, he was the most happiest guy in the world. He had a look on his face like he was about to tell me something.

"Hey Ashley?" He asked while looking to make sure Mrs.White didn't see us
"Yes," I reply back looking up at him from my work book.
"I just did something amazing and I feel good about it."
"Oh and what's that?" I ask
"Well I was secretly dating Joy and while I was on my way to the bathroom, she saw me and well...... I pulled her aside for and I broke up with her." he said
"So I was right!" I say in excitement
"Right about what?" He asked
"I always suspected that you and Joy were sort of dating," I say
"Oh, well yeah, we were dating. I am no longer into her, I slowly lost my feelings for her," Jeff said
"How come... What happened?" I say
"I am starting to li-..." we were interrupted by our class mates coming back from break

They all rushed back into the classroom break was over for them and I watched them all pile on in and as Joy walked on by me she gave me a hurt look, which I did not understand. I went back to doing my work and as time passed when I had to go check my work Jeff conveniently had to have his checked as well. He was looking at me mostly staring into my eyes. Then before I went to sit back down he quietly whisper's to me "I like you Ashley, a lot." My mouth opened wide in shock, because he just broke up with Joy and told me that he liked me. All I could do was just sit in my desk turned around looking at him and he was looking at me and I was kind of in disbelief.

When I turned around in my seat no longer than a couple of minutes I had a piece of paper land onto my desk and I opened it up to read it. It was from Jeff saying "We have lots in common, we both love music and singing and drama class we just connect well with each other. I think that we're meant to be together,"

I throw the note in the garbage pale and continue my work all the way into lunch. Finally I am so happy to go break since I did not get to have mine break earlier. Jeff tagged alongside me as did the other guys and Joy and the other girls did too Joy and the girls only did so, because Jeff was hanging with me, whenever he detached himself from me so would they. After we were done eating I went to the bathroom and the girls were there and Joy spoke up to me and said "Did you really ask Jeff to break up with me, so that you could have him?"

My mouth just dropped in utter shock I could not believe what I was hearing coming from her and no wonder the look on her face seemed pained and directed towards me as she was walking back into the classroom after first break and I definitely get it now, she must have known that he liked me and when he broke up with her the way he did telling her that, I can see why she would be so horrible towards me.
"No Joy, I did not ask Jeff anything like that at all, is that what he told you?"
"Yes, he said that you really liked him and that he really liked you and that he did not want to be with me anymore and that you asked him to break up with me." she cried out in hurt and pain
"I did no such thing.... He came to me and said he had to tell me something.... then told me that he was datinf you secretly and decided to break up with you, because he no longer loved you and that he felt better making that decions.... I had no part in his decision for breaking up with you." I explained to her.
She cried in the girls bathroom and kept crying and said "Does our friendship mean anything to you at all Ashley?" 
I looked her in the eyes and placed both my hands on her shoulders and encouraged her to look me in the eyes and I said "Of course it does, I am glad to have made friends with you."
"Good, I don't want you to start dating Jeff. I am asking you not to as my friend."
"Of course I won't date him at all, besides I haven't gotten the slightest bit interest in him whatsoever." Which was some what of a lie, because I was kind of intrigued by the fact that Jeff and I enjoyed singing and drama class and just got along and never squabbled like most friends, before Joy asked me not to date him, I had already developed a strong liking towards him. It would be hard, but for the sake of her friendship with Joy I wasn't going to date him and especially not now since he lied to her about his reason why he broke up with her.

I left the girls in the bathroom I was a little ticked off and stormed out into the gymnasium and grabbed Jeff by his shoulders slammed him up against the wall, I was so furious with him I didn't know what was going to happen next. All I could do was stare him in the eyes with mine filled with tears. I went to open my mouth to speak, but my voice broke when I tried to say anything; due to how painful it was for me to find out what he told Joy. When I spoke again all I could say was "How could you?" and that alone was enough for Jeff to know that I knew what he told Joy. Then I stormed back into the classroom and I could hear him running after me yelling for me to wait and he could explain, but I did not want to hear it.
All the friendship and trust that he and I built up of knowing each other which felt like a life time has crumbled. I was hurt that he would lie to Joy and make me look like the one who has come between them, he should have been truthful to her about everything instead of making me look like the bad one. I just couldn't fathom making someone out to be so cruel like he made me look to Joy.
I was angry for the rest of the day about the whole thing and ignored him along with the guys and spent the rest of my day with Joy and the other girls. I wouldn't even think to do such a thing to anyone that I cared for. I was done, totally done with him and all the guys in the school, whether they were betting to see who will win my affection or not. I just need my girl friends, at least they friendship is bet and competition free.

It was now the end of the day and it was an awkward silence between Jeff and I as Josh and waited in the lobby for an hour for our parents. I was glaring at him the whole time,he got up and started to walk over to me and thankfully that is when my parents pulled into the church parking lot. I scurried out the door and before the door latched shut Jeff yelled "Joy is lying to you about everything, she refused to lose me and threatened to ruin my friendship with you even if she had to lie about it."  I rolled my eyes while walking to my parents van and got in and went home and just  tried to forget everything, but then I got thinking about what he had said wondering if it was true or not. I decided to find out and play the role of a hurt bitter friend towards Jeff around Joy and see if she was playing me truth always comes out, but I still didn't trust Jeff, because he could be lying not her.