WHO AM I?

WHY I AM THE WAY I AM: A PASTOR’S STORY

BY

CASSANDRA MCCLINTON

TABLE OF CONTENTS (PG. 3)

BIO ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ PG. 2

CHAPTER 1

WHO AM I --------------------------------------------------------------- PG. 5 - 12

CHAPTER 2

THE INTENDED TARGET ------------------------------------------ PG. 13 - 16

CHAPTER 3

PROGRESSION THEN GRADUATION -------------------------- PG. 17 - 41

SPRUNG --------------------------------------------------------- PG. 38 - 41

CHAPTER 4

MY SPIRITUAL SPIRAL -------------------------------------------- PG. 42 - 61

CHAPTER 5

I AM DIFFERENT ----------------------------------------------------- PG. 62 - 66

CHAPTER 6

THE STRUGGLE TO OVERCOME ------------------------------PG. 67 - 73  

Yes, the question still stands for many of us that will dare to ask the question concerning the real man or woman or young boy or girl that we are or have been or even will be on the inside. This question I have been faced with for the most part of my life and although I have done my best to know the answers to everything about myself and my own life, I have been better at helping others to understand and fix their own lives. I’ve done this with no help on the things that I have needed to know concerning my own life. I have always been looked at as the young woman that has helped many simply because she knew who she was so she could readily identify the many different attributes, characteristics, demons, so on and so forth that hid deeply inside others. But if people only knew then what they have the privilege of knowing now, they would probably change the person that they did choose to help them. But it has been said and I do mean that I have said it myself to most all of the people that I have ever helped in my life, “Hell, half of the time I do not know who the hell I am, but when it comes to helping other people in that area, I am dead on the money”. I do not apologize for anything that I have ever assisted anyone with. I say this because for the most part all of the people that I have assisted in some way or another, they have turned out quite alright. The few that fell through the cracks, only did so because that is all that they really wanted for their lives. I write this book for me, and only me. LIFE BROKEN – WHO AM I? WHY I AM THE WAY I AM: A PASTOR’S STORY is the story that most people would not dare to share concerning themselves from where I come from. I share this story to help those that are wondering if they should tell anyone about what they are going through. I have yet to share this with anyone other than my daughter. And she understands that I am who I am because of the things that happened to me throughout my life. Even with the struggle that I go through on a daily basis to maintain the person that others think that I am or should be, the end result is that I am who I am and nothing with change that. The fight has to stop at I am who I simply am because that is what it is, but my story doesn’t stop at what you think about me. Trust that it will go on and whether I know now or later, one thing that I do know is that I am me and I am the best me that I can be. With or without your validation I am a magnificent me. I pray that you enjoy this look into the deeper most part of my life. I live it!