Anthology Introduction

This is a collection of poems I wrote about finding my feet and finding a way. They are all things I have struggled to overcome but by writing them on paper I have been able to unscramble them and make sense of what is in my head.

The first is a sonnet Inspired by my horse Roy who has had a big impact on my life and definitely affected the way I am today. I am very grateful for the confidence and courage he has given me. I have learned that no matter how many times you fall, you will always find a way back to your feet and try even harder.

The second is a Free verse I wrote about my best friend Celina and inspired by other life events. It is about losing someone and justifying the pain you feel when they leave with the joy you felt when they where there.

The third is quite a dark and sombre toned Elegy that I wrote to help myself resolve a few puzzles I my head. It is mainly about a dream that I was trying to write down and as far as creative poetry goes, the words to this elegy just came to me and I wrote it all down in about five minutes.

My final poem is an ode to those lost and a reminder to myself that nothing heals with time, you learn to live with whatever life has given you but you come out the other side a different person and that is heard for some people to understand.

 To me, writing poetry has always been a good way to get things          of my chest and resolve my thoughts on paper. Lots of my poems are very personal but that is what makes writing so important to me. I am proud of all the poems in this anthology and feel they explain a lot about my character.

Sonnet introduction

This is a sonnet I wrote that was inspired by my horse, Roy.

I have been riding for a long time but have only had Roy for a year and a half. Already in that time he has become my rock and my lifeline. I have shared so many special moments with him that I don’t think people that don’t love animals understand.

I always feel happy, and for the moment distant from everything else around me when I’m riding and its one of the special things I like to keep to myself, but I know the only other one I share this with is Roy and that to me is what makes our bond so great.

In this sonnet I wanted to convey those feelings and show how much these things mean to me.

I feel the rhyming couplet at the end gives a strong finish.

SONNET TO SEE

I know no road that leads to anywhere,

Adventure and freedom he brings to me,

Hidden gullies for only us to share,

Enchanting places that with him I see.

For as the steady rhythm of his gait,

Does carry me into a hazy dream.

Where my worst fear is not of my own fate,

But to lose my partner, we are a team.

As we soar and thunder through open fields,

I catch my breath and do not think to cry.

He holds my secrets for his lips are sealed,

Balanced upon his back and we will fly.

My equine friend will always have my back,

And give me courage when that’s what I lack.

Free Verse Introduction

This is a free verse I wrote about losing someone and thinking back, was all the pain worth the years of knowing and loving that person and to me it is.

To have someone in your life, whether it’s a year or 12, if that person makes you happy, if they impact on you in a good way, it is most definitely worth the pain of losing them in the end.

This poem is inspired by a few different people and even animals I’ve shared special moments in my life with but it’s mainly for my best friend Celina. Who after 12 years of knowing her is leaving and not at all do I regret sharing those years with her, even if saying goodbye after all that time is going to be so hard.

The message I’m trying to convey in this poem is cherish those around you because you never know when they are going to leave.

THE STORM

Is it worth the storm of tears?

Days lost, Hopes shot

Is it worth it?

A few years, to live and laugh

To day’s dark, Hopes halved.

When every single second counts

Day’s bright, hopes high.

I think it’s worth it

To love a friend and share a smile,

These memories will last a while.

Elegy Introduction

This is an elegy I wrote about the chaos and confusion that sometimes goes on in my head.

I almost want to describe this poem as a dream or nightmare that takes place after a particularly bad day.

When you don’t really know what to think or what’s going on and all these thoughts just jumble in your head.

This poem is quite a mouthful and seems a bit cluttered but that was how I wanted it to sound. I wanted a slight mess of words that began to feel more structured and make more sense at the end. The poetic techniques I used in this elegy are a very consistent rhyme pattern ABCB DEFE GHIH JKLK MNON. The second line of every verse rhymes with the last line of the same stanza. There are five ;stanzas. There is an eye-rhyme in the first stanza; it is ‘lost’ and ‘most’.

FREAK

When all is gone,

And hope is lost.

When what you hate,

You get the most.

When courage leaves,

And trust deserts you.

When angers such

That tears just won’t do.

You turn your head,

To see a nightmare.

Those fuzzy feelings,

Extinct, not rare.

You cannot see,

You cannot hear,

This life you live,

You live in fear.

Your days are dark,

Existence, bleak.

You loved yourself…

You loved a freak.

Ode Introduction

This is a poem I wrote that is very close to my heart. It is a story of a difficult time in my life that I have struggled with.

As much as people have tried to understand my situation if often frustrates me when people claim to know how I feel.

I am a strong believer in every person feels and grieves differently, and for people to try to relate to my situation almost angers me because I don’t want anyone to ever have to experience a tragedy, and for people to try to feel those emotions so that that can try to understand me it to me such a silly thing to do.

The poem has a slightly non-consistent rhythm that I feel adds to the effect of the poem.

I UNDERSTAND

I remember every second,

The car trip and the walk,

The silence that could deafen,

With the ticking of a clock.

I remember the wreckage,

That day did to my heart,

I lost every ounce of courage,

And my life was torn apart.

How could you desert me?

Why did you have to leave?

Whole again ill never be,

My heart ripped off my sleave.

I know that I won’t heal with time,

Fresh in my mind I won’t forget,

There will be no silver line,

I wake at midnight soaked in sweat.

And when they say ‘I understand’

More alone is how I feel

When answers is what they demand

They don’t hear ‘my heart won’t heal’.