Things were blurry as I walked down the school hallway. It was like I didn't know what day it was, or where I was at. I tried so hard to stay in the middle of the hallway. Blue lockers lined the sides of the hallways. Teens were standing at them getting their things, or talking to their friends before class started. As I kept walking I noticed the queen bee of the school has not come to me. Maybe that is why it's so quiet this morning I thought to myself. Right after I finished that thought I spoke to soon. I and the floor collided like we were best friends. My books went scattered all over the floor, my glasses fell off my face and nobody was there to help me. Most of them were too scared to help. So they just watched, "loser" the queen bee spat as she and her crew walked away. I got up and put my glasses back on my face and gathered my books and ran down the hallway to the bathroom. Laughter everywhere as I ran away. I got to the bathroom, dropped my books and ran into a stall, locked the door and cried.
"Before we go on with the rest of my day, this is usually how my day starts out" I instantly stopped crying and stopped breathing once I heard someone come into the bathroom and went into the stall beside me. I was beginning to run out of breath and began to get lightheaded finally the toilet flushed and I breathed out. Then It stopped and I held my breath again until I heard the person leave. I breathed out harshly and hard. "Wondering why I held my breath?" I paused "Because if someone found out that this is where I run after this happens there will be people in here to beat me, anyways back to what I was saying. This school is your typical school; you have your bully’s, your queen bee, the Loser which is me in this case, your preps, your outcasts, your skaters etc...” The bell rang signaling class is going to start soon. I rolled my eyes. "So you’re wondering who I am, I’m Fabian, 6'0, black hair, layered choppy, don't even really know my real hair color anymore because I have dyed it so many times. Blue eye's fairly tan skin, I mainly wear black all the time, I have gauges in each ear and a septum, I work out as a hobby and listen to music, I'm built but not to built you could say. Also I'm gay and a lot of the kids here have probably figured that out already."
The bell rang again signaling I’m late "Fuck! well I got to go, watch my shitty life as it twists and turns, I did hear we were supposed to have a new student this year let’s see who it is and will he be my friend, bye loves" I ran down the hall and entered the class room.
Can this one student that's new have the courage to be friends with him or will he just be like everyone else in the school? Find out in Living a nightmare.
Fabian walked into the class room with his head down. "Fabian Chandlers you are late again!" I looked up to the teacher "I'm sorry Mr. Myers" "What is your excuse this time?" I just looked back down and said nothing to the man. “Detention- after School Now go sit down!" "Yes sir" I went down the row to my seat all eyes were on me and tears were building up. My seat seemed like it was so far away. I finally got to it and sat down and pulled out my book and turned to the page that was written on the board. I just stared at the book, not even listening to anything. I was thinking when I got interrupted by the teacher when he called on me. I snapped out of it "What is the answer chandler?" "Umm... 1972?" everyone laughed "No it's 37 this is math-not history, now pay attention" I looked over towards the window and there she was; Carla fucking summers. She looked over at me with a smirk like she had planned the whole thing out. Knowing her she probably fucked the teacher just so she could get him to go with the plan if she did plan it.
Carla probably fucked the teacher anyways to get her grade she has in this class anyways. She does not do shit in this class, and she does not even do the homework. You are probably thinking aren’t I being overdramatic the answer is no. She will do whatever it takes to get what she wants. I have seen it happen growing up. I saw her mouth "What are you looking at loser?" I just ignored it and looked out the window to the beautiful blue skies and birds flying free. Why can I not be free I asked myself. I continued to look out the window until the intercom came on. "Mr. Myers?" "Yes Mrs. Shaye" "Can you send Fabian Chandlers to the office with his stuff please" "Yes Ma’am he is on his way" "Thank you" then the intercom went off. Mr. Myers had a smirk on his face. "Hurry up Chandlers and don't forget detention after school" I walked down the rows and then all of a sudden got tripped by kae Anderson. One of the Barbie’s in the crew with Carla. Everyone laughed including Mr. Myers. I got up and darted out of the classroom, and down to the office.
I finally got to the office after it felt like hours. I opened the heavy metallic door and walked in. I walked up to the front desk and a lady with grayish hair, heavy set, 4'11, and green eyes. Blue shirt and a high rise skirt. She turned in her swivel chair towards me "Can I help you Mr. Chandlers?" she smiled. "Mrs. Shaye called me up here" "okay have a seat and I will go get her for you." I went and sat down in the black leather seats. As soon as I sat down someone walked in. I looked over and I saw the most gorgeous guy ever. He looked about 6'5, long choppy hair, leather jacket tight white T-shirt, black skinny jeans, and vans. Built but not too built, tan. I could not really see his eyes because of his sunglasses. Mrs. Shaye finally walked in "Please take off the sunglasses sir" he takes off his sunglasses and his blue eyes just shine like ice.
Mrs. Shaye held out her hand "You must be Rhiyland" "Yes Ma’am I am" he smiled as he shook her hand and I just instantly melted right there. He was so perfect and he made it known to. As they were leaving he turned to me and winked and continued to follow after Mrs. Shaye. Right there I died all the way inside and it felt amazing. "So, perfect" I whispered to myself as I got lost in thought thinking about this new estranged man. I waited for Mrs. Shaye about 20 minutes before she came back out, weird enough she didn't have "Mr. Perfect" with her. "Leave your stuff and come with me" I dropped my stuff and followed her. I soon got extremely nervous as we walked into her office. "Have a seat Mr. Chandlers" she said as she closed the door and walked behind her desk and sat down neatly. I instantly became shy and started shaking, I was so nervous I did not know what to do. I was literally 2 inches away from "Mr. perfect" and I was just freaking out.
Questions started running through my head; "what am I doing in here? Is Mr. Perfect the new student that people were talking about?" I was so lost in thought I didn't notice Mrs. Shaye calling me "Mr. Chandlers?" I was still lost in thought "Fabian chandlers!" I snapped out of it and jumped "Yes Ma'am" "Did you hear what I said?" "No ma'am" "I want you to be the tour guide for Mr. Parker here" " M-m-me" "Yes you, is there a problem?" "No ma'am." I heard "Mr. Perfect" giggle beside me and I melted inside a little bit. "Alright it's settled, here is your schedule and locker combination and locker number" She handed me everything. "Why are you handing me everything?" "Because that way you know where to lead him" I looked down at his schedule, and locker number. "all his classes are the same as mine and his locker is beside mine" "Yes we did that so he could be with you all the time so he wouldn't get lost or anything" "All due respect Mrs. Shaye but why me as the tour guide?" "Because you are a head of everyone in your classes and you could use some time out" Mrs. Shaye smiled and led us to the door. Great she made me sound like a total nerd in front of him, I put my head down as we walked out the office and down the hallway.
"Mr. Perfect" spoke up as I still had my head down. "Just to let you know I like myself a nerd just saying" my head shot up and I looked at him and quietly responded "what?" "Yea their cool" "B-b-but why---" "would someone like me think a nerd is cool?" I nodded in astonishment. "I use to be a nerd myself until I changed" I was shocked I didn't know what to think. "You were a nerd. There is no way" "Yes way here I even have a picture" He grabbed out his wallet and opened it and sure enough there it was, your average looking nerd. Glasses, short hair, sweater vest everything. He closed it up and put it back in his pocket. "I don't show anybody that picture but I just for some reason trust you and that is rare" I just stood there quietly thinking, "You don't talk much do you?" he asked me "Not really, well we might just have to change that" "what do you mean? "You will see just keep hanging with me and I will get you to talk" "But what if the queen bee sees me with you? She is going to hurt you and me worse" I realized what I just said and I regretted after when asked me the question. "Why does she hurt you?" he asked with his brows furiated. "Because I deserve it I guess you could say?" "No, no one deserves to get beat up" "Just leave it alone I’m used to it" and with that we kept walking down to his first class. This was Mr. Myers. I rolled my eyes as we got to the door, and then I knocked on the door, and waited for him to open the door.
"What do you want Mr. Chandlers" he said in a cold attitude "this is your new student, I’m just showing him around and he has your class first" he looked over beside me and saw Mr. perfect standing there. "Welcome to the class" he said as he led in Mr. Perfect into the class and was about to close the door in my face. Mr. Perfect saw what he was doing and caught the door before it slammed in my face. I walked in and I saw girls’ just giving him the godly eyes like they just met the love of their life and guys just giving him dirty looks because either their crush was falling over him or their girlfriend was falling over them. The first thing I had to worry about was Carla, I looked over and there she was falling all over him I knew she could get him and I had no chance. Face it he is probably not even gay and there is a chance he will fall into her little trap. They always fall and they never come back out. Every person I liked and she knew it, she would go after them and they would always go to her like she was some type of princess. But no not this one I will fight for this one I don't care if he is gay or not. I want at least one person to be my friend. "Class this is our new student, welcome him with open arms" Mr. Myers said as he smiled and I just rolled my eyes. "Well off to the next class" he smiled and said "See you tomorrow and I will see you in detention later chandlers" with that we walked out the room.
"Detention?" Mr. Perfect asked. "Yea I was late again but it does not matter" "Why were you late again" "you will probably find out tomorrow, so don't worry about it" He stopped me in my tracks and turned me around. "I'm going to worry about it because you are my friend and I’m not going to let someone hurt you" I smiled when he said "friend" nobody has ever called me their friend before and meant it. "Nobody has ever called me their friend before" He looked at me confused "are you serious" "yes I am" he shook his head "Oh yea I’m Rhiyland by the way" "I’m Fabian" "I like that name it's Unique" "thanks so is yours" He smiled at me and I just melted. I smiled back to him of course things might be turning around for me I hope it does because I can't take this life anymore. Maybe he was sent here to help me. I'm praying to god that is why he came here. It wouldn't matter anyways.
As I kept walking with Fabian and I figured out so much more, it just amazed me. He was so sweet, shy and sensitive. Not very talkative, but it’s okay I remember when I was like that. I know how it is. But what really got me was the way his teacher treated him, and the looks I saw some people give him. I was just amazed what made them not like him. I know I liked him and it was a lot. I felt like I could trust him. I don't know we will see how this will turn out. But somehow I have got to get detention with him. I felt so awkward walking into all the different classes because so many of the girls were falling all over me. I didn't really like that at all and it was kind of annoying. We kept walking until we both came to a sudden Holt. I looked over and it was the next class we had to stop at. Turns out this one is like some type of parenting class or whatever. Fabian knocked on the door and women about 5'3, brown hair, green eyes, white shirt, high waisted skirt and high heels came to the door. "How can I help you Mr. Chandlers?" she smiled. this one seemed so much nicer than the last two. "I have a new student who will be joining tomorrow" I moved aside so she could see me. "Well welcome" she smiled and led us into the room. Once again; dreamy eyes from girls. Then dirty looks from guys. Then once they saw Fabian it was like all hell broke loose in stares and I didn't like it. "Class this is??" "Rhiyland" "right, this is Rhiyland and he will be joining us for the year" She smiled and so did the other girls. Alright I’ve about had enough of this. One more class, then lunch.
"Well can't wait to have you join us tomorrow" she said as we left. When we got out the door I signed in frustration. Fabian looked at me and that was really the first time I ever saw his face. His blue eyes shined, but I could see pain in them, his beautiful features that made him look perfect. "are you okay" "No not really" "what's wrong because if it's me I can leave" "no it's not you" "what's wrong then" "I came here to have a new life and get away from girls falling all over me and other bull shit" "But no I can't do that here" "I'm sorry" "it's not your fault." We kept walking and then I decided to stop him in his tracks. "Can I ask you something?" "Sure I guess" I grabbed his arm and dragged him over to the lockers and sat down. He slid down with me. "Why are all the teachers and people give dirty looks and stuff" he looked at me and simply blurted out "Because I'm the loser of the school" He was about to get up but I held him down. "What makes you think you’re a loser, Is it because Carla says you’re a loser." He looked at me with pain and tears. "It's not true I promise you" "yes it is, I'm a loser I’m always going to be a loser and she makes it even worse because....." he trailed off. "Because what?" he didn't answer back he just got up and ran. I leaned my head back on to the locker and turned and watched him run down the hall. "Damn it" I whispered as I got up and then punch the locker. I ran down the hall and looked for him. As I got closer I could hear sniffling and then I turned a corner and found him lying on the ground.
I saw Carla round the corner with a smirk and then left. I was so fired up right now. If she was not a girl I would have done beat her ass by now. I kneeled down beside him "What happened?" he didn't look at me he just laid there. I picked him up carried him to the bathroom and sat him on the sink. He kept moving his face every time I tried to make him look at me. "Please look at me" he shook his head and continued to look down. I put my hand gently under his face and lifted it up. I immediately covered my mouth with my free hand; he moved his head from my hand. His eye was beginning to swell and he had a busted lip. "Did Carla do this to you?" He nodded. I balled my fist up ready to hit something or someone. I wouldn't hit him but I was too fired up. I went over to the wall and punched the wall. He looked at me "Stop" he whispered "No" I yelled, I looked at him and he was curled up after I yelled. "There is nothing you can do" "Oh you want to bet, I’m not going to sit here and watch them do this to you" "I've tried everything they won't stop her" "why is that?" "Because her dad donates money to the school so whatever she wants she can get with no problem." "Wow after all she still has not changed" "what do you mean?" Fabian asked. "Carla use to go to my old school before she came here, I use to be one of her victims" he looked at me astonished "What?" "She was determined to make my life a living hell, so she did everything she could. Whether it involved beating me or getting other people to do it for her, or calling me names or whatever" I turned and looked at him. "Does she know it’s you?" "No then I was the nerd in that picture I showed you. Fabian smiled, I could tell he was remembering the picture I showed him. It made me smile also. "I’m determined to try and keep that smile on your face"
Fabian turned his head so I couldn't see him, which meant one of 2 things. He was either blushing and didn't want me to see it, or he was trying not to blush and still didn't want me to know. We stayed in the bathroom for about 20 minutes before he decided to let me clean his face. "Why do you let her do this to you?" I questioned him as I put a cold paper towel to his swollen eye. He flinched "Sorry" he stayed silent. I put the towel down "Why do you let her do this to you?" I questioned him again, still no answer. I started to get frustrated and then he finally answered. "I don't know" he answered as he put his head down. "Things are going to change I promise you that." Then all of a sudden he just busted out "Just stay out of it!" he pushed me back, hoped off the sink, and then ran. "Fabian!!" I yelled as I ran out the bathroom, and he didn't look back he just kept going. Maybe I just need to stop trying to help. I walked down the hall; I had no idea where I was going. I guarantee you I was going to get myself lost. Then all of a sudden there she was, Ms. Princess. "Nice to see you again Carla" she turned around "sorry do I know you?" She said as she flipped her hair and smiled "Oh cut the crap I know what you’re doing" "What am I doing?" "Your making Fabian's life a living hell, just like you tried to make mine a living hell" she held her mouth open "Rhiyland!" she was stunned "Took you long enough" "Well haven't you just got hot and downright sexy. Nice change from a nerd" she smirked. She walked up to me and put her arms around me and started going at it. Just constant flirting, but I had enough, I pushed her off "Just stop!!" with that I walked off.
I walked probably the entire school trying to find Fabian, but he was just too impossible to find. So I gave up and just went to the cafeteria. I walked in and all of a sudden eyes from hundreds of girls. I didn't even get to the line before 10 girls came running up to me asking if I could date them. So I finally had enough "No!" I yelled "Have some class, I’m not going to date any of you, I have somebody" I lied but that was to get them to stop. They stopped and walked away disappointed, But I really didn't care. I saw Fabian sitting by himself. I decided to go over there, but before I could he spoke "Just go away Rhiyland" "Can we talk please?" "What is there to talk about?" "i don't know just anything" he looked up at me and pushed his glasses back up on his face a bit. "You want to go to the court yard?"" Sure I guess." We walked out the cafeteria all eyes on us, but I didn't care, let them stare. I could care less about the attention. I don't want it to begin with; I have always been the type that does not like attention. But I always get it and it's annoying. We finally got to the court yard, then we sat down at a picnic table and it all of a sudden got awkward. Fabian looked at me “I’m sorry I blew up on you like that" "Why did you? I was only trying to help" "I know it's just someone like you helping a loser like me I thought it was a joke and still is" " I may seem like I’m cool, and a jerk but the truth is I’m not. I know how it is to lose everything and need somebody." he looked at me confused "what do you mean?" “I live on my own right now I don't have parents; they disowned me and kicked me out" 'Why?" “personal, reasons, which they could not deal with. It hurts but I have to move on" "But they should not have done that to you though, that’s wrong" "It may be wrong but to them it wasn't"
We sat there in silence for a little bit "can I tell you something and you not say anything?" "Yeah sure what’s up?" "Were friends right?" "Yeah I mean you’re a cool dude why wouldn't we be friends?" "Because when I tell you I don't want you running away or something" "I'm not so just tell me" "I-I-I'm gay" Fabian scrunched up and closed his eyes. Inside I was happy, but how could I tell him I was gay also. I might not I might just keep it hidden. “That’s, awesome" "Really?" "Yes I love gay people they are so cool" Fabian signed out in relief. I thought it was cute the way he was so worried, I might tell him but it will not be now maybe later. I know I should tell him now, since he told me, but I’m too scared. Fabian looked back down “Why do you look down all the time?" “I don't know, I guess it's a habit" "well you better start looking up, because you look better" I joked. Fabian smiled and turned away "yay I got a smile" he turned away and I knew he was smiling a bit bigger. He finally turned back towards me. "What year are you in?" I asked trying to make conversation. "I'm a sophomore what about you?" “I’m a senior" "Wow I know you’re happy" "Yeah I guess you could say that" "Oh" "Why sound down?" “After you leave, I won't have a friend anymore." I felt bad after he turned from me and put his head back down. "I'm sorry I really am" "I know you can't help it, so I guess it's not your fault." With that he left the courtyard and went back into the school. I stayed there at the table for a few minutes just thinking. Then I decided to get up to go search for Fabian again. Why do I always do this? I thought to myself I wish I could make him stop running away from me and make him believe that what I'm doing is true and not just some joke.