You know, it really is not a nice feeling, to feel so unwanted. 

So unwanted that you know the person you love, simply couldn’t care less about you today.

Because his whole universe, his life, his problems, and his family; are more important than yours today. 

And that he could not even waste 30 seconds of his day to send a quick little text saying that he’s thinking of you and hopes that you’re doing ok. 

You won’t ever love me. Will you?

I think you know that, as much as I try to defy it. 

I think we both know that it is set for doomsday. Disaster ahead. Abort mission. Houston..we have a problem! Turn back, wrong way! 

But I still. can’t. turn. away. 

And I can’t walk away. 

You have to let me go first. 

Cos if you leave me waiting for too long, or let me turn & walk away— I promise you... 

I won’t be turning back around.

I won’t be coming back again.

You will lose me.  

(So choose me, before you lose me.) 

I hope you know that; when I’m done fighting.. I’m actually done?_____________________________________________________________                 BUT... I LOVE YOU!                

         “Does she make you feel wanted?                             

                Is she all you wanted?                                     

                  Cos I wanna know

                       Yeah, I wanna know!”

[Music Lyrics taken from the song- 

“Cos I wanna know” By: NOTD]

Feeling so special; treated as if you were the only, and the most beautiful girl in the world, one day. 

To being completely and utterly ignored, the next. 

It is so confusing.

Belitting.

Betraying.

And just downright-fucking rude!...(excuse my French).

I know I don’t deserve much in this world but I do know that I DO NOT deserve to be left hanging like that. Like wet washing hanging in the wind, waiting to get dry before wed think of wearing them again. 

Left wondering 

• What? Or if? 

I had done something wrong?    

• Or said something wrong? 

• Or not done?

• Or not said something?

 And yet here I am, still. 

Standing here still.

Standing here, in front of you; begging for ur time. 

But only for now, am I a glutton for this cruel punishment. 

Cos’ this old duck is waiting for her “Prince Charming” to come back in to her pond, for another round of “Lillypad-bumping”? 

That I know you like..

SO much...

At 3am. -

“wink-wink

“nudge nudge