Dear diary,

               Today is the first day I start new.No more mopping around,well that's what people say.Even though they don't know what happened and that's the way it's going to stay,hopefully.

"Hey honey Brady here's,time for school."

"Coming gram."

                   8:15

I quickly grab my bag say goodbye to my gran and gramp then run to out the house to Brady's (my best friend) car.

"Hey,took you long enough."Brady laughs.

"Sorry,well I'm here now,lets go."

"So,um you sure your ready to you know?"

I look straight at the floor and scream in my head.

"I'm fine just a new start,new me,new year what could go wrong,right."

"Yeah sure if you say,"

                   8:30

Finally the horror begins,me and Brady open the door and walk into the school hallway,we walk into our tutor.As soon as we walk in something's different,me and Brady sit down and I just keep looking around the room trying to see what's different.

"Lena,hey,hello,LENA."

"What?"I shout.

I just relised I was in my own world.Wait,I know huh that's what's changed.

"Look."I say 

"What."

"Over there look."

"What,oh wait he's cute,look there's another cutie,let's hope there in our tutor."Brady 

whispers.

Well they aren't that bad looking.One if them are taller and have light brunette hair,bit he's wearing like treachery style clothes,even though he's looks really young.The other boy has dark black hair,also wearing a floppy hat,and just wearing normal clothes.

"Brady,common there not that cute."

"Twins."

"What,honestly Brady you mumble way to much."

"No,the boys they look like brothers maybe twins."

"Yeah maybe so what?"

"One for you and one for me huh.Wait double wedding." 

We both just burst out and laugh.We both stop laughing after a while and I just feel happy for once since a while because of my situation,I then hug Brady.

"What's this for."

"Can't friends just hug."

"Yes but."

Then we get interrupted by a lot of girls whispering.We both stop hugging and look up.Its the two boys me and Brady saw.

"Look,huh the taller one looks more like a teacher."I whisper

"Well if he is,he's mine."

"Brady."

We look at each other and laugh,I then lightly push Brady.Then one of the boys start talking.Whilst every girl is day dreaming about the two boys,I get out my phone.

"Hello class.I am your new tutor or in some classes your teacher.I am Mr.banks,and this is a new student."

"Hey I'm Zack."

"Now Zack go and take a seat over there and everybody qiten down."

"Pst,Lena,look." 

I look up and see Zeck or Zack whatever his name is say next to me,but talking to this boy next to him.I look back at Brady and roll my eyes and go back on my phone.

 Right now me and Brady are in our  last class,English.Me and Brady are really good friends but a bit different.Shes more outgoing and I'm more well not.She likes party's,I stay at home,she gets in trouble,I keep quit,she confident,I'm shy but as she say 'we may be different in a million ways but together we are one.'

When she fist said that I laughed but now she says it when ever I'm down.

"So today class we are doing something a bit different."

Then the door knocks and someone comes in.

"Class this is our new student Zack,make sure to be nice and make him feel comfortable."

I then look up and see him sit on a table full of the coolest boys that I hate but Brady loves.

"As I was saying class but before I tell you something I want everyone to write a poem now IT doesn't have to rhym,just has to be something that means something to you."

Great this is what I hate having to write what we feel,I'm just a person who hates expressing their feelings.I look across the table see Brady day dreaming.I then get a message from my phone.I look around and see no ones watching so I text back,and it's Brady 

Hey this is sooo boring 

                            I know right 

Yeah but at least 

we have hottie n2

                        Hottie number2?

Mr.b n1 and Z n2 

Obviously lol 

I go to text back and I realise my teacher saw me and is coming towards me.I then look down st my book keep writing and hope she will forget me on my phone.I look up and see Brady counting down 3...2...1.

"Is that a phone I see?"

Suddenly everyone looks up and I feel so uncomfortable.

"No."

"Well then that must mean you have  really consentrsted on the written,so you can read it out at the end."

"What."

"Mind how you talk otherwise you'll have detention."

 I look back at Brady and see she's trying to stop her self laugh but I'm to fustrated to get angry st her.I can't read my poem out to everyone they'll think I'm insane.

""Right now class,we have five more minutes.I see your ready to go but before we do we have,Lena come up and read out your poem.

I go to start to read then my teacher stops me and points her finger at me to go to the front,now I'm totally dead.

Well here goes nothing.

"Love,life,laughter.We all feel it but when we do,does it feel right.We can all be happy but we can put a face on just because we laugh doesn't mean we are actually laughing.Some of us hide 

It better than others and the reast of us try but we break out.But there's always that one person who puts themselves above everyone and they put you down so much you feel so down that you can't even look at the mirror you know you'll just break down even more.You just try to think of every possible way to explain the way you feel.But there isn't an explanation.But in the end we all have to love ourselves,well at least that's what we say.

Friday 

Dear diary,

                   Finally it's Friday,the horror ends,kinda,Brady can't stop going on about how hot Mr.banks and Zack are.I don't see it also one of them are a teacher.She wants Mr.banks,then saying I should have Zack,but she also said which is classic if I can't have Mr.banks I wouldn't mind Zack.Oh I do love her but fhe is just,so special.

                8:12

"I'm here don't moan."I say as I'm in Brady car.

"Don't worry but if we get in earlier and get to see Mr.banks before anyone I need to talk to him." 

"Oh really you need to talk to him."

"What."

"Seriously,your obsessed with him."

"No I'm not."

"Fine,whatever."I laugh 

                    8:23

When we get to school Brady's so annoying going on about how she has to talk to Mr.banks.But when we finally get to tutor there's only Mr.banks and Zack.We walk in and she goes straight to Mr.banks,great now I have to go and sit down next to Zack on my own ,just kill me now.

"Hi,I'm Zack."

"Lena."

"So I just wanted to say I liked your poem the other day."

"Oh right yeah thanks."

"Can I just ask,what is the main big sport in your school." 

"Oh well it's football but there is other sports."

"Ok cool thanks."

"You interested?"

"I think I'll try,what about you."

"Uh well it's not really sports but I go to dance club,nothing serious but sometimes well go and cheer on the school so yeah." 

" The school very own cheerleaders."

"You could say that yeah."

I go to say something to Zack but then Brady comes back and pulls me to her direction,away from Zack.

"Heyyyyy"she screams 

"Hi,what were you doing."

"Oh nothing."

"Right."I laugh

"Excuse you your the one flirting with Zack." 

"Brady."

I turn around and see Zack glimpse over.But what I didn't notice is basically the whole tutor is now here,and probably heard Brady.

Huh now I'm in art,don't get me wrong I like it just Dont like the teacher.Shes just so old and boring.im also useless st drawing.

But the one good thing is once in a while we get into twos and work together to make a project.

Me and Brady have always been partners and it turn out amazing.

"So today class I am going to be   explaining the new project,but it is a bit different,it's going to be about emotions,so instead of you choosing partners I will."

Wow she is officially the worst.

1.its about emotions.

2.shes choosing the partners 

3.well I don't really no what else is bad but it still is.

One  by one I keep hearing people's names but not mine.Then Brady's is said,still not mine,then I hear my name but,I'm with Zack.I like Zack he's nice but I know Brady isn't going to stop going on about it.

It's. now the end of the day I'm ready to go home but I get a text from Brady.

Hey,dance practice is on,the football team have a BIG game soon and the boys said they wanted some support.Were on the field get ready see YAH.Xx

Guess I'm not going home anytime soon.Brady is the dance captain.So she dragged me to do it.I like it just the performing part I don't like.I go and get ready but then relies i haven't got my kit.I quickly text Brady,she decides to reply after a while and says she has spare in her bag.I get very worried as I'm getting dressed into Brady's kit because she wears stuff I wouldn't dream of.When I'm finished I look in a mirror and just look to much like Brady.

I'm wearing  tight black shorts,

and a black and grey stripped belly top.I do NOT like showing my body.So I get my jacket and do it up.

"There you are what took you so long."

"Sorry,can we just start."

I then see we are very close to the boys and get anxious,i look over at the boys who are playing football,then I see Zack,he's actually quite good.It seems as though the boys like him. 

"Hey Lena focus,also take of your jacket."

"Brady common please can I just keep it on."

"No,also the boys will like what they see especially Zack."

"I hate you." 

                    4:00 

Finally I actually get to go home,but before I get in Brady's car I hear someone call my name,I turn around and see Zack.

"Hey,Brady can you wait?"

"Yeah sure,don't be long."

"Hey what's up?"I ask 

"Oh nothing really I just wanted to see when your free to do the project."

"I'm free now if you want to?"

"Yeah totally,do you want to come to mine,I can drive us there,also my parents are out of town so it's quite."

"Yeah sure,just let me go tell Brady."

I walk back to Brady and she had such a big smile I know she'll think we're together or something.

"Hey,I'm actually going to go back with Zack and do a project."

" yeah sure a project."laughs Brady 

                    4:20

Now I'm in Zacks house,I don't really now how to feel.If it was Brady she'd be happy and probably asking if he's related to Mr.banks.We walk into the living room and he gets a beer.

"Want one."

I shake my head.

"So this is your house."

"Yeah,I didn't buy it but it seemed as it's mine."

"What do you mean?"

"You know I said my parents are out of town well,they're sorta always out.Theyre so busy with they're work,they don't have time for me."

"Oh I'm sorry."

"It's not that bad,it means I can do what I want whenever I want."

"The joy."

Zack laughs.

"What about you?" He asks.

"Me,well I live with my gran and gramps."

"That's cool."

"Well your the first who thinks that."

"I just think mostly all nan,grandads are going to be really nice,and not be to hard on you."

"Well that is true."

"I you want to get started on the project?"

"Yeah let's do it."

At first we had no clue what to do,it was actually quite funny.But then we came up with something I think is good.We thought we'd split the page.One side for one meaning of love and the other for another meaning.The right side is love,we're going to draw two people and explain a story with it.The other side is about loving someone who doesn't love you.We are going to draw a single person and how the feel.

We have been doing the project for so long we thought we'd just stop and carry on snither time.But Zack asked me to stay,I don't mind I have nothing else to do,also I'd like to know him better.

"So I saw you earlier,were you trying out for the football team?"

"Oh yeah,so you were looking at me huh."

"I was panning."

"Ok well I saw your dance team you going to cheer for the team non there next match."

"Uh yeah I think,will you be playing."

"Yes actually."

"You will not only have a cheer,probably all the girls."

"What,no anyway does you dance team have like a outfit for you cheerleading.

"Yeah,but we don't wear them 

a lot."

"Whys that?"

"We only cheer for a big game and are football team are good but not everyone,so we don't really get a lot of games."

"Hopefully that changes."

"Why because your here and can help us."

"No I like the thought of a full team of girls cheer us on."

"Really."I laugh.

"Yeah but there's only one person I really want to cheer for me."

I go to ask who when I get a text.

"Sorry."

I look at my phone and see it's my gran.I swipe across to text back,and then my phone dies.That is not good it's getting late I have no way back home,it's quite far,also my gran will be getting worried.

"Can I borrow a phone charger?"

"Yeah sure,come with me."

I go and follow Zack and i think we're in his bedroom.

"This is the only one I have."

He plugs it into the wall and then I try putting it into my phone,but it doesn't fit,it's the wrong charger.

"It doesn't fit."

"What do you need."

"My gran texted me and I can't reply,also it's getting late and I have no way home."

"I would take you but,I've been drinking."

"It's okay I can walk."

"No it's to dark you can stay here."

"Ok but my gran will get worried."

"Well your friend Brady I think I'm following her on instagram so I can text her on that,maybe she can somehow tell your gran your here."

"Ok that's a good idea,thanks."

"No problem."

After that we stay in his room and watch a film,suddenly I start to feel tired and I do not want to fall asleep in his bed,I'd rather sleep on the couch.