It's so very crowded in here I sometimes just wish

that everyone would be quiet for once after all

silence 

is golden and gold is quite valuable at the moment

or so I hear.

Love is an important foundation to any relationship as

research and 

studies show but I also understand that love is very hard to come by these

days because people are so busy and

tired and empty of feelings.

My head hurts and it makes me want to cry though not because of pain

but instead because it stops me from thinking so much

and I realize that the

silence

in my brain is more painful than the noise.

Sometimes I feel empty but that implies that I feel something

so that's something, right?

We watched the daylight disappear,

I saw you then, you looked free.

I loved you then, I love you now.

I never knew what would be.

i can't count how many times we kissed

that is such a pleasant fact to know

what happens when I smash the hourglass

what happens when we close the show

You fell again and again,

We fell down the drain with a drink.

You told me to stop, to sit, to breathe.

I didn't need it, I think.

i care so much about you dear

so much more than words can say

i'm worried i could never tell you

i'm worried i won't stay

I  think about you constantly,

Mainly out of a burning fear.

I'm scared of never holding you,

Just holding you, my chevalier.

it's not romantic, it's dumb

it's queer and strange and mad

it is by far the weirdest friendship

anyone has ever had