School....you'll find friends that you'll treasure forever. You'll love that you'll never forget and you'll find horrible teachers that will never forgive you it's a never ending story blah blah blah.

My backstory I am 16, I have found and lost my so called best friends I have found my so called soulmate and I lost him as well. For the teachers well they all hate me or love me I'm not sure there not very good at admitting emotions or recognising them anyway.

My mum has cancer

 (present tense because she still has it) really bad infact there isn't a way to describe it, bad isn't good enough but neither are detrimental or deleterious it is  1000% more worse or 'bad' than the word 'bad'

So because of it she has had five agonising operations but she can't have anymore because of the damage already done.

the risks are higher of her dying, if she has surgery again.

Nevertheless she lives with it unfortunately. Which to her and the rest of her beloved family is absolutely soul destroying. 

From this I have learnt for this that life isn't perfect, it throws things towards you to slow you down, in the race for life and it your choice whether you decide to dodge those things, and to risk falling over, or keep on running and it may or may not slow down on the whole because of a more permanent injury. 

My friends.

Emily, Natalia, Kati

My girls.

         Emily was Greek she had beautiful dark long glossy hair, perfect olive skin, big round eyes, a perfect nose and a kind heart she wanted to work for green peace and save the world as we know it.

        Natalia had stunning light brown wavy shoulder length hair with cute natural blonde highlights, perfect pale skin, blushed cheeks, perfect blue eyes and a body to die for she was so intelligent she was going far in this world.

        Kati had lovely dark skin, long curly hair and amazing blue eyes (which was very rare) her dark skin and her blue eyes looked so stunning. she had beautiful full lips she was so beautiful you had to look at her twice because she is that beautiful you couldn't take it all in on the first look and on top of all of that she had the voice of an angel. I loved them all equally and that was a lot of love (the reason it is all in past tense is because where not friends anymore I don't know whether this is true anymore)

My love.

his name is Ethan gardener. 

Ethan.

his eyes oh my god his eyes are as blue as the all the oceans in the world, when he looks into your eyes, your heart double beats, and it feels like the when you first met him, when you first looked in the is eyes, when you first fell in love with him.

But now it's different.

When I glimpse into is eyes in class or in the corridor. 

I remember then exact moment we fell out of love. 

 One year earlier.

12/5/16 

Today was a good day Emily got stuck up a tree I laughed so hard I fell to the ground we had to get one the the boys to save her which I think wasn't all so bad for them or her

 Ethan I love him so much he is the best boyfriend ever I love him so much oh I have already said that, I can't way for tonight because he is coming over for dinner with the family, he gets on with all of them so well, when he first came over I thought that he may as well come over now, because we are going to get married one day, we had already planned it it going to be a small wedding with all the close family members, although we both are really close to all of a family so it will probably end up being a big wedding, I'm going to wear a beautiful long, sleeveless white dress with lace details at the top paired with red heels to spice it up a bit, my vail is made out of white lace with red and white flowers at the top. Ethan will be wearing a tight fitting black with red lining suit with only the only bottom button done up with and white shirt underneath that will look great on him with all of with sexy abs he will have a red silk and handkerchief perfectly folded in his pocket. I will have his great grandmothers ring which is a white gold perfectly clear diamond ring and my initials will be in graves in to it with all the other gardener women that have worn this ring all ending with a G he will wear a white gold ring with my initials and his anyway getting off point dinners ready and he's here! 

 13/5/16 

11:14am 

Ethan's birthday if on the 17th of may and mines on the 17th of July and we are going to get married on the 17th of June anyway I have no idea what to get him I need to call a group meeting.

1:23pm 

So after the group meeting we collectively decided them I'm going to take him to see his favourite artist live Natalia can pull some strings with her big music producer dad to get two tickets for VIP front row seats with a VIP meet & greet them after perfect gotta go meet my mum and and her bestie for coffee. 

3:46

Coffee was great, better than I expected. Mum and Angela mostly talked, and We all had many delicious coffees, and then went through old picture albums, which was quite hilarious, let's just say there we're a lot babies in baths. after that Angela drove Mum and I home stayed for yet another coffee and then she left. Mum went up to her room and sleeped, and I also went up to my room and video called Ethan. My love