When that person told me my secret admirer, I was "shocked" but excited in a way. But when she told me that there was a top 3,I was jealous, but glad that I was the frist choice. 

 But the scary thing was that she was on the list and second, and they talk, laugh, smile together and that's what makes me scared that he would go for her and not me. Cause he's only in two of my High school class's which makes it hard cause we don't talk very much. 

 And the worst part of it all is that the only time that I do get to talk to him is when he is in my class and that's not very much either, cause there is always someone in between us or he doesn't set near me. And that's when it feels like there are a thousand people are in between. And not even that, she could be closer to him then anyone that he knows. Which scares me the most because I have liked him since your 7. And asked him out befor and it didn't go very well