Cassie woke with a start. She’d been dreaming of her first scan, again, a traumatic experience that still haunted to her. She wiped the crust from her eyes and ran a hand through her tangled, curly hair. She wanted to talk to her mother. The dream always reminded her how much she missed her parents.
She walked over to the desk where her bedroom monitor was. Her husband, John, had always laughed about that. It would have been a simple matter to place the monitor right into the wall, just like in every other room and every other house, but a side effect of being raised by her grandmother was a love of antiques, including that desk which dated back to the 20th Century.
“Connect, Collective, Marian Rhodes,” she spoke into the voice detectors. The monitor came to life, showing a small room with two chairs. A tall, thin woman entered the room.
“This is Marian, how may I… Oh, hi, Cassie! It’s pretty early in the morning for you! What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, mom, just had that dream again. The one about my first scan. It made me miss you.”
Marian sighed, “I’m so sorry, baby. I wish things had worked out differently. I miss you, too.”
A tear came to Cassie’s eye, and she wiped it away. “And we didn’t make the fertility lottery again this year, so we have to wait until next year.”
“Oh, sweetheart. How’s John taking that?”
“The same way he always does. Throwing himself into his research. I see him less and less as time goes by.”
“You still haven’t told him, have you?” Marian sighed.
Cassie could see the frown on Marian’s face. These interactions always unsettled Cassie. She knew that it was her mother in all the important ways, but that didn’t change the fact that the image before her was a reproduction, a simulation created by the computer. It was her mother talking to her, just as if she were physically there, but she wasn’t physically there. Her body was long dead and gone, buried over twenty years before. It was her mind, her consciousness that she was interacting with, living within the Virtual Reality world of The Collective. The fact that Cassie was unable to properly interface with the VR environment made it that much worse for her. Everyone around her could. Even her husband could. She was alone, and being that much different from those around her emphasized the loneliness, made the isolation that much harder to bear.
“No,” Cassie said, “I haven’t told him. How can I? How can I tell him, after eight years of marriage, that I’m a Simple?”
“Cassie, he’s going to find out someday. You know he is. You can’t hide it forever. What happens when it’s your time to be scanned?”
“I don’t know. I’ll figure that out then. Right now, he thinks I don’t do VR at home because of Grammy’s habits, and I want to keep it that way.”
“Well, you know I won’t tell him,” Marian said. “But I really think you should tell him. Soon.”
“I have to go, mom. Class starts soon, and the kids will be expecting me. Love you.”
“I love you, too, sweetheart.” The monitor went black, and Cassie turned to get ready for her day.
~
“Cassandra,” John ran into the room, breathless, the excitement in his voice obvious. John was the only one close to her that called her Cassandra. It had irritated her when she’d first met him, but it had grown on her over time. “I have amazing news!”
Cassie wasn’t even dressed yet when he’d come in. Her hair was still dripping from her shower, and she only had her underpants on. “What?” she said, a bit of panic twisting in her stomach. She pushed it down. Panic was not reasonable, John was excited, and that must be good.
“I’ve been chosen for early scanning.”
Cassie’s stomach crashed to the floor. Her mother had been right, she should have told him years ago. She had no choice but to tell him now. How, though? How would she tell him that she’d hidden something so important from him for so many years? She swallowed, suppressing the fear and panic that was trying to overwhelm her. This was great news for John, and it was a huge honor to be chosen to join The Collective so early.
“That’s amazing,” she said. “I’m so proud of you. When will you be scanned?” She tried to hard to keep pushing the panic down, out of her mind. John would understand, it would be okay.
“We have six months before scanning. The techs have multiple tests to do to prepare us for it.”
“Us?” Cassie squeaked, though she wasn’t really surprised. She knew that John being scanned meant that she was obligated to be scanned as well. It wasn’t absolutely required. She could turn it down, but she would essentially be an outcast if she did so. Not that it would matter. She couldn’t be scanned. Not now, not ever.
“Of course, us, silly,” John laughed. “You know it’s tradition. When a person is scanned, their spouse is scanned. That’s what happened with your parents, after all.”
“I know,” Cassie said, her words barely a whisper. “I’m just surprised is all. I wasn’t expecting this, and it’ll take a bit of time to get used to.”
“That’s why their giving us six months. Also, since you don’t do the VR interface as often as most other people, they’ll need to do a few more tests on you to prep for it.” He walked over to Cassie, and pulled her into his arms. “I love you,” he said. “This will be great.” He kissed her, running his fingers along the back of her neck in that way that always made her melt.
“I love you, too,” she said, sighing as he led her to the bed.