Stand to face me beloved
and open out the grace of your eyes
-Sappho Fragment 138
Your smile lights up the world.
Your eyes bare my soul.
Your hands are so strong.
Your voice is a song I long to hear.
I hang on to every word and every interaction.
I cannot lie to you.
I cannot resist the opportunity to see you.
Your stories pull my heart apart.
Your laugh makes my day.
Your pain makes me want to comfort you.
I wish I could tell you how I feel.
I know you wouldn't like it though.
You're such a wonderful person.
You're all I think about sometimes.
I am sorry I'm a weirdo.
I really feel like I love you.
You're my obsession.
I can't escape you.
God, you're the bane of my existence. You haunt my every moment. Every night you cross my dreams and everyday I wake thinking about you. I see you, literally almost everyday. All your little quirks are so fucking addicting. I need to see you smile. I want to hold you up and want you to shine. But it's all my selfish desire. I'm so crazy and you don't deserve my bullshit. I just can't help myself. You're just so awesome. So do us both a favor, stop feeding me and stop shaking my hand, stop meeting and acknowledging my gaze when I'm not even staring, just be an asshole. Please, I beg you. Just tell me to go away.
it hurts more than I can say.
Your smile lights the world,
but never shines my way.
This pain is more than I can take,
and it makes me glad I cant see you everyday,
It's not exactly you,
all the others were the same.
Of course I'd never tell you how I feel,
I cant possibly bear the shame.
I fall in love so far, so fast, so hard,
but you shouldn't feel guilty because it's not you, I blame.
Every girl has the same fantasy,
to fall in love with with her Mr. Right.
She wants him to love her,
to show her how special she is every night.
But I know this will never be,
because when you look at me, you cant stand the sight.
It has become and endless cycle,
this game I play in my mind.
Your name always changes,
as the last leaves me behind.
I always think I love you,
but i should have known you were just being kind.
It's always easier when you act like jerk,
when you say cruel things so spitefully.
It's easier to stay in my place,
when your dislike is so easy to see.
So the next time you want to be so nice,
Just remember you are talking to a loser like me.
Maybe someday I'll learn,
Its just not how the world works,
I don't know you,
You don't know me,
It only hurts me in the end,
and that is not likely to change.
as i walk alone
i am alone
as my heart wanders
i am lost
as i slumber
i am a dream
as my mind races
i am gone
as my blood runs cold
i am frozen
as my skin freezes
i am dead
as my spirit roams free
i am forgotten
as i fade away
i am no more