You know things in your life that you know you really hate. You would think they have a good sides to it, but you always know they aren't going to change. 

Like my careless family. I have a fraternal sister Lacy, she's a pain in the a**. She's always miss perfect. I know my Father would have loved only having her. He says she fits "more better" in the family. My Dad gives me BS every single f***ing day.

 He deserves to be punished for it. Though for some reason, he doesn't. I Love for my Mom, the only person who actually loves me. The one who needs me. The person who wants me. 

Teachers, family members and neighbors all ask my mother why she still keeps me. They ask her why she doesn't think like my father and sister. 

My father is horrible. The rudest person I've ever known. He's worse than my sister. Oh and as it's not hard to tell, I'm so jealous of my sister. She has everything payed for her. Everything she wants, she gets it. She gets to sleep in a 34 square bedroom, on a humongous master bed. And she has billion dollar paintings in there. While I get to sleep in the basement, on the floor, in a sleeping bag.

Am I that hard to live with?! I mean I've done absolutely nothing to them. Are they that bratty?! Or are they just that stupid?! 

I think about running away, but it's to hard to say goodbye to my Mother. She's the most kind person ever. I have no idea how a great women like her ended up with a jack a** like my Dad. 

He's such a complete idiot. He cheated on my mother with this 19 year old chippy. I don't know how my mother forgave him. Guess my Mom isn't the smartest as well. 

I just wished she noticed what goes on. She'd stop this. Only she. 

My Dad says if I tell her what goes on, he'll literally throw me under the bus. Like literally. 

I was so close last month. He laid me down on the road. He picked me back up though, while he heard my Mom coming down from the corner.

If he really hates me that bad, he should've just let me go right before my mother's eyes. 

It probably wouldn't even matter though, since my mother forgives him for every dumb a** things he does.