The years before I became ill all I ever wanted was to be thin. To be thin and popular. That’s all that ever really mattered to me and it drove me crazy cause in my eyes i’ve never been thin. Looking back at how I used to crave having that picture perfect body makes me sick. I’ve been sick for almost 5 years now and trust me, there are more important things in life than having the “perfect” body. Health is something that growing up i always had. I mean I had colds and the occasional flu but I never had anything life changing illness wise. Then i turned 10, and my whole life changed. I became extremely ill both physically and mentally all caused by an autoimmune disease. Here I am now, almost 5 years later beating myself up over how unappreciative I was. Do I have the body I want? No, but nobody does and outside appearances are the least of my worries now. Now I have to worry about if i’ll have the energy to shower that day without falling over. I have to worry about if i’m able to manage the pain of eating food that day. Hell, I have to worry about if I can go back to high school again before it ends. So if you’re reading this, and you’re feeling down, or in a mood about something insignificant, take a step back and appreciate what you’ve got, appreciate being able to go out and leave your house, appreciate eating, appreciate being in school! it could all be taken away in a split second.