I Promise, Love

 

Tablo reader up chevron

The past


Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.                                 

                                                                        H. Jackson Brown, Jr. 


     There we sat on the blanket covered ground. The whispering of the wind and our gentle breathing. I remember it begin Fall because of the nice orange color leaves that causally fell to the ground. I, Joe, rest my head on Mary Ann shoulder. Both of us looking forward at the pond as the baby swan followed their mother. Children running up and down the path as parents tried their best to follow behind. That day everything seemed perfect and peaceful. Nothing could destroy this scene is what many of you think. But you only see what was on the outside but not what was on the inside. Inside I was sad, depressed because today will be the end. There will be no more Mary Ann, no more happy children playing, and no more swans. All that would be left will be faded memories and broken promises. Today I leave Mary Ann with sad dreams of what we were or were supposed to be.


     I felt my phone ring in my pocket. I refuse to more and look for it. I wanted to enjoy every moment while it still stood in front of me. Mary Ann rested her head on top of mines. My forehead slightly wet from the tears that fell from her cheek. A few moments of silence will go and you hear her sniffles. Trying her best to stay quiet so I won't hear. That was always her personality. She never wanted anyone to know she had feelings. She wanted you to think of her as some dull person but that was never her. My phone continued to ring until finally, Mary Ann told me to answer it. Lifting my head I grabbed the phone out my back pocket. It was my mother telling me she was ready. Without saying anything she knew and decided to stand up. She reached her hand out and I gladly grabbed it. As I stood up Mary Ann kissed me on the lips and walked towards the car. Still standing where I stood I took a final looked at the view. Our relationship was weird but we never question it. I was a girl and she was a girl also. I was a shy, quiet, hipster as Mary Ann was you outspoken, keep to herself, grunge lover. We were so different but so alike in many ways. You can say we were never in a complete relationship as we never went on any dates. Mary Ann would always kiss me and do different signs of affection. But we never claim either as one. Even though we're not together I still love her as if we were.


     Mary Ann honked the horn car scaring me out of my daydream. I walked towards the car with my head hanging down. Getting into the passager sat car, I looked out the window as she driven. My hand rested on my lap as my leg jumped up and down. Mary Ann yelling at me to stop I continue to nervously move my leg. She grew annoyed as she rested her hand on my lap. Just the warm touch of her hand made me stop. Through the whole ride, her hand rested on my lap. Soon we arrived at my house. She parked the car and look at me. Looking back at her in her eyes I lean forward towards her. Looking at her lips I slowly begin to close my eyes. Mary Ann moved her head to the side leaving me embarrassed.


 "Get out the car."


 "Why are you such in a rush to kick me out?", I barely whispered.


 "The quicker you get out the quicker I can cry in peace.", She said as she looked out in front of her.


 "I promise you that I will come back.", I said as I open the car door. I step out the car shutting the door.


     "Don't make promises you can't keep", she said as she drove off before I could fully step back. There I stood on the sidewalk looking where the car use to be. Everything was moving so fast and it was spinning out of control. As Mary Ann went everything went with her. I walked towards my house with tears falling down my face. Although she didn't believe I promise that one day I will come back and see her again. But this time she will be mines and everything that happened before will be nothing but the past. I PROMISE.

Comment Log in or Join Tablo to comment on this chapter...

The present

 

Comment Log in or Join Tablo to comment on this chapter...

The present


"Happiness is a simple game of lost and found: Lose the things you take for granted, and you will feel great happiness once they are found." 



                                           ― Richelle E. Goodrich, Making Wishes


Driving through Eastwood, Maryland was different this time. Once was a town that was nothing and only believes what the bible said. A little country town is known for its Harvest festivals. Now it's a town that surrounded by parks and fancy restaurants. The change sent an uneasy feeling through my bones. When things change around you, you're bound to change with it. Old memories played through my head like an old film. While the memories played a familiar face appeared over and over. Her bob cut hair and beautiful smile. How her green eyes away sparked when she smiles, and her dimples that were deeper than any ocean. The way my names slides off her tongue with such grace always made me smiles. I've missed her more than I miss anything. Every day I would check her social media just so I can remember her face. Just so I can hear her voice and laughs one more time. Finally, after 6 years I can see it all again in person. The rush I felt to see her again was the rush a kid feels when it Christmas. 


Finally, I turn down the street that Mary Ann lived on. Earlier today I found her parents number and called to see if she was still there. To make it even all better they were still the same places as I left. I parked the car in front of the house and turn off the engine. There I sat nervous and scared, hoping and praying that even thing goes a plan. Praying that she remembers me or even that she still loves me the way we used to. Back then we were 17 and didn't understand what love was. Our hormones were controlling our hearts. But you never understand love until it leaves you then you realize what love truly is. Taking a deep breath in I open the car door and walk towards the house. Their neighborhood was the same following their house was also the same. I ring the doorbell waiting eagerly. Growing impatient I door on the door hearing the knock echoed through the dining room. Shortly, Mary Ann father opens the door with a big jolly smile growing on his face.


"Afternoon Mr. Williams.", I said as I return the smile. Before he could answer Ms. Williams came from behind the door. As soon as she saw my face she begins to scream scaring me and Mr. Williams. She hugs me tightly as her perfume filled my nose. She was always the type of women who loved to hug. No matter who you were or what you're doing she would hug the life out of you. Before it used to scare me but now it felt right and deep down inside I wanted one of her signature hugs. She grabs my hand leading me inside the house. Still smiling she asked me how I was doing. Soon the small talk disappeared and silence filled the house.


"Is Mary Ann home?", I asked before it could get too awkward.


"Oh! She went to walk the door an hour ago she should be back soon. You could wait in her room and surprise her," She said as she holds Mr. Williams arm. Accepting her offer I walk up the familiar stair that leads to Mary Ann room. Everything was the same. Her one black door that sat awkwardly to the white interior of the house. Opening the door I was smack with the smell of vanilla and woods. That was always her signature smell and it was a smell that I always know. I shut the door, sitting on the bed taking in everything. The Arctic Monkeys and  Lord Huron posters that covered the white walls, with additions of news bands. Her room was the same even the burn mark on her window from when we first smoked a cigarette together. This room carries more events than any history textbook from history class. Our first kiss, our first touch, our first goodbye, even our terrible fanfictions. All of this started in this room and somehow it still feels like the old times. Sitting in her room makes everything same again. That 6 years was only 6 days. God, I missed this place I said as I fell backward on the bed. Minutes passed until I heard the bedroom door open with a creaking sound. Immediately I sat up looking at the door preparing myself for anything. There stood Mary Ann in overalls, black beanie, and white converse. We both remain silent as she dropped the water bottle out her hand. Only seconds that felt like hours I decided to say something.


"I missed you", I said as tear begin to roll down my cheeks. Trying my best not to cry the tears fell harder. Tears fell down Mary Ann face as she wipes her eyes.


"I missed you too", she yelled.


"Please do something", I said as I looked at her through my watery eyes. Instead, she ran towards me hugging me tightly. At that moment everything was in slow motion. There we sat holding on to each other for dear life with soak shirts. Mary Ann broke the hug first and started kissing me. Her lips felt soft and covered in strawberry lip balm as she kissed me softly. Finally, she broke the kissed and she moved towards my right ear. 


"Please don't leave me again", She whispered. She kissed my neck causing me to gasp.


"I can't be here for long but I'll say while I can", I whispered back. Again she whispers "Please don't leave me again."

Comment Log in or Join Tablo to comment on this chapter...
~

You might like Jenell Shaw's other books...