"ANNA COME HERE." I yelled at my sister.

"I'M COMING." I heard footsteps. I've been stressing about this all week and now it's the night before Magcon and I still don't have an outfit.

"What?" Anna said standing in the doorway. I just looked at her with a distressed plea.

"Anna please help me I need something to wear. I'm going to be meeting Jacob frickin' Whitesides I can't look like, well, me." I explained. She huffed and walked to my closet, looking through it. She pulled out my dark purple crop tank top, black skinny jeans, black and grey flannel, and grabbed my grey bandana.

"Wear this with your black vans. Those will look cute." She told me. I got up from my bed and hugged her tight. She chuckled and hugged back.

"Thank you so much Anna." I smiled. I let go of her and then shooed her out so I could get ready for a shower. I got out my black vans and put them next to my outfit.

"Oh I can't wait!" I squealed. I went to the bathroom and took a shower. I did everything necessary and laid down in bed. I got on twitter and tweeted.

@jacobsgirl_xo: can't wait to meet @JacobWhitesides tomorrow<3

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I woke up to the beautiful sound of Jacob Whitesides singing "You & I". I picked up my phone and went to twitter checking for notifications then exiting out of the app. I looked at the time.

8:17 am.

I knew if I didn't get up now I would never get up in time. So I begrudgingly got up and went down to the kitchen. There stood my mom making breakfast.

"When will the food be ready?" I asked suddenly very hungry.

"Good morning to you too," I gave her a hard glare, "it'll be about fifteen minutes." She finished. I groaned. I walked back up to my room and looked at the outfit in front of me. Anna really does know what she's doing. I started to panic. I walked, more like ran, to Anna's room to see if she was up.

"Anna what should I do with my hair? What make up? Oh god I'm screwed." I asked seeing she was up.

"Mariah calm down. Just do a bun. It'll keep the hair out of your face and off your shoulders so you won't get too hot. Do natural make up. You don't want to seem fake." She said.

"THANK YOU ANNA I LOVE YOU." I yelled running back to my room. I looked around then my stomach rumbled. I ran downstairs and sure enough the food was ready. I sat down after I got all the food I wanted and ate. After I ate I ran upstairs and checked the time.

9:02 am.

I decided to get dressed because it's a two hour drive to the hotel. I put on the shirt and jeans with my black vans. I tied the flannel around my waist and put my long dirty blonde hair into a bun, redoing it about four times until I was satisfied. I went over to my mirror and did my usual routine making my green eyes stand out in the natural make up. I put the bandana around my head and couldn't help but think of Taylor Caniff and smirk a bit. That boy. I made sure my phone was at one hundred percent and put my phone charger in my purse. I checked the time again.

9:57 am.

"MOM CAN WE LEAVE NOW I DON'T WANT TO BE LATE." I yelled running down the stairs. Anna and my mom were sitting downstairs.

"Give me around five minutes." My mom said.

"I can't wait." I giggled. Anna just laughed.

"Are you coming with?" I asked her seeing she was dressed.

"Yeah I want to go shopping." She told me. I rolled me eyes.

"Okay let's go." My mom said walking out and I jumped up, made sure I had everything I needed and ran out the door.

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"OMG I'm here. Oh god I can't wait I'm so excited." I was just rambling as Anna and my mom just laughed at me. Whatever. I looked around in awe. Nice hotel.

"Okay so I have three hours 'till I go in. I'm gonna go wait in line. You guys can leave. I can handle myself." I said practically pushing them out the door. I don't want my family here, that's embarrassing. I walked over to the line where it already was crowded with girls and got as far up as I could. Now I have three hours. Great.

I spent two hours on twitter and then the screaming started. I looked up. Holy crap. I was looking straight at Carter Reynolds and Hayes Grier. They were on the lowest balcony of the hotel and I was right under them. I opened my camera and took like a million pictures. I swear Hayes looked right at me at one point. Soon they all came out and I saw the love of my life.

Jacob Whitesides.

He walked out with Mahogany and the Jacks but all I saw was him. His gorgeous smile and the cute little crinkles he gets by his eyes when he laughs. I love him so much. I took so many pictures and was screaming until my throat hurt and the event hasn't even begun yet. I looked at the time.

2:56 pm.

Holy crap we get to go in four minutes. They had already all went into the room so we were just jittery waiting to go. They opened the door and started letting us in. OHMYGOD I am not prepared for this. Jacob Whitesides is in there, I need to calm down right now or he'll think I'm weird. My hands were so sweaty and the butterfly's in my stomach were going crazy. As we all got in a big line formed and there he was. Standing meeting all these girls. I wish that was me every time. I was moving up and soon there was one girl in front of me.

"Okay. You can do this. He's just another human being. A beautiful, perfect, famous human being." I said to myself. Well that pep talk didn't really help. Oh no, it's my turn. Crap.

"Hi Jacob." I breathed. My eyes watered. Oh crap not now, Jacob will think I'm weird.

"Hey what's your name beautiful?" He asked. Crap.

"Mariah." I said.

"What kind of pose you want? Wait I got it." He said like a little kid who just thought of the best idea ever. He put me in front of him and wrapped his arms around my waist, lacing his fingers together. We smiled and then we stayed like that for the second picture but right before the flash went off he kissed my cheek. Holy crap he kissed my cheek. That's when the tears came.

"Hey baby girl what's wrong? Don't cry please." He turned me around and looked at me. He hugged me tight as I wrapped my arms around him and buried my head in his shoulder. We pulled away and I wiped my eyes.

"I'm just so glad I get to meet you. I absolutely love you and you've made my life just by being here today." My words just tumbled out, me not being able to control what I was saying anymore. He hugged me again and then signed the shirt everyone was getting.

"I will find you after the meet and greet, Mariah." He said in my ear as I was being moved along by security. I smiled at him and he smiled back. Yeah right. He probably has already forgotten about me. He won't come find me. I walked around and then got pushed up to the front of the crowd forming in front of the stage. I had to push on the gate towards the end of the meet and greet or else I'd be crushed by everyone else against the gate. The announcer started calling everyone out. I waited for Jacob.

"Here's Jacob Whitesides." He yelled. I screamed and was having an internal fight on if pictures of Jacob were more important than keeping my hip bones from being ground into a fine powder. I took out my phone and got about three pictures before I put my phone back because my stomach was against the top of the gate and it hurt so bad. I know I had a look of pain on my face. It was Jaocb's time to sing and I was thinking whether or not I should do that again when I saw a security guard coming down from the side of the stage.

OMG what is he doing?

He stopped in front of me.

"C'mon they pointed at you." He said smiling and chuckling a bit. I walked down to the side of the gates and saw that they chose about seven other girls along with me. We went up on stage and Jacob walked over to me and very subtly winked at me.

I'm frickin' dead. It's over. I'm just dead.

We danced and I swear to god he was singing to me. I took a chance and mouthed to him, "are you singing to me?"

He nodded his head. He walked over and stood in front of me. He looked straight into my eyes with those warm chocolate brown eyes.

"You and I.

We don't wanna be like them, we can make it till the end.

No nothing can come between you and I."

He sang right to me. He sang the whole song to me.

"You and I.

Ohhh, you and I." He ended the song. He smiled at me.

"Told you I'd find you after the meet and greet." He said hugging me from the side. He slipped something in my bag, I could tell the way he slumped a bit and leaned. I went back to the crowd and looked at it.

His number. His frickin' number. I put it in my phone and the rest of the event went by in a blur. People were dispersing and I was walking to the exit. I called my mom and she said they'd be on their way in about twenty minutes and they were about thirty minutes away when they don't get lost so I had a good hour until they got here. I sat down on the ground outside of the ballroom and plugged my phone in considering it was at seventeen percent and a plug was right there. I looked around and gasped. There he was standing looking around at everyone below. I waved at him and he looked in my direction and his face lit up. He ran away from the ledge.

Oh.

Then all the sudden I heard footsteps pounding down the stairs. I looked over and saw Jacob running down the stairs. I got up with a huge smile on my face. He ran over to me and gave me a giant hug.

We talked for an hour straight. He's even better than I thought he would be in person. I got a text.

From: Anna

We're here. Come outside now we're right in front.

"My mom is here." I stood up and unplugged my phone and he stood up with me. He handed me his phone.

"Put your number in." He told me. I blushed and put my name as "Mariah from Magcon<3". We hugged again and he pulled away a bit. We looked at each other for a bit. He leaned in and kissed my cheek.

"I don't want your mom to get mad but I don't want you to go." He said disappointed. Holy crap he doesn't want me to leave, his kissed my cheek, he likes being around me. What the fudge?

"I'll text you all the time, I'll FaceTime you, I'll call you. I'll tweet, DM, everything. We won't lose touch. I promise." He said holding out his pinky like a child. I wrapped my pinky around his giggling.

"Okay Jacob. I really gotta go now." I hugged him one more time mumbling bye. I waved as I walked out the door.

We can just say, he never broke that promise.

There he was.

Sam Wilkinson.

A geek, nerd, loser, anything the bullies can think of. He was standing there in the hallway at his locker avoiding eye contact. He was rushing and I knew exactly why. He wanted to get to class before Austin, his bully, and his posse comes to beat him up. I watched from down the hall, no one noticing me.

He doesn't escape.

It was like slow motion when they pulled him back from running and slammed him into the lockers. I could see the pain on his face. He fell to the ground and they kicked him. When they were done they walked away laughing as if this was all a big joke.

I could tell it wasn't a joke.

Sam was breaking and I could see he was close to snapping.

Lunch was the same. He was so used to this that when he paid for his lunch he sat down, pushed his food to the other side of the table and waited for Austin to come and dump it on him. After it happened he went to the bathroom and put on clean clothes. He always has clothes because of this. I could see him crying in the stall after he changed.

I could see him make the worst decision of his life.

I wish I could've stopped him.

But I couldn't. He doesn't know I exist.

He went home that day in tears. He was planning tonight.

Write the notes tomorrow. Do it on the weekend.

The rest of the week was terrible. I should've know this would happen soon. That day in the hallway the way his eyes just had no emotion. He was so numb that he didn't know why he let this go on for so long. I've always hated that hallway. Too many memories.

I watched as the weekend came and he placed his parents' note on their bed and Austin's note on the kitchen counter. He went back to his room.

I watched with such helplessness. I hadn't felt like this in such a long time. I actually started crying. I wanted to scream out no. I wanted to tell him it gets better. But I couldn't.

His parents got home and his dad was the one who found him. The paramedics took him away in one of those infamous zip up bags.

"I'll tell you my story since I know yours." I said nudging Sam's arm. He turned to me and smiled.

"I'd like that."

"So coffee on Thursday?" I smiled. He laughed. We walked out of his house. He turned around and looked at it.

"I feel so... free." He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

"C'mon." I said and we walked away from his life. The life that gave him pain and agony. We went past his school and I looked at Sam. He was stopped, staring.

"You want to go in." He just nodded. We walked to his locker.

"I hate this hallway." He said.

"Yeah me too." I said looking around at the ceiling. He looked at me to the ceiling and back a couple of times. He figured it out.

"You're Taylor Caniff?" He asked. I just smiled.

"I'm guessing you know the story." I said. He nodded.

"Let's get out of here." I said and we left. We walked away from the worst place in Sam's life.

From the minute I started following the story of this depressed teen who shared the same locker I had so long ago, I had never seen him happy. To be honest I had only heard him speak a couple of times. To see him this happy and, ironic as it sounds, alive made me happy.

"I'm so excited Cleo." Shawn said we laid on his bed.

"I am too. I hope you make it." I said smiling. He was auditioning for The X-Factor tomorrow and I was going with. Which was why I was at his house at one in the morning. We've been best friends for ever and I'm scared I'm gonna lose him.

"What if I win? What if in a year I'm touring with someone like Ed Sheeran?" Of course cause that's his favorite artist. Ed Sheeran.

"What if you don't make it to the audition because you overslept?" I asked sarcastically. He chuckled. "I'm serious Shawn. We need to go to bed. It's now... 1:26. You need to get as much sleep as possible. Go to bed loser." I told him. He smiled at me.

"Okay, just for you Cleo. Just for you." He said rolling onto his side.

"Goodnight Cleo." He said.

"Goodnight goofball." I giggled. I heard him laugh a little.

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We woke up to Ed Sheeran's Sing. I really like that song.

"Come on Cleo, get up." Shawn said nudging me. I just pulled the covers up to my chin and rolled over.

"Cleo." He whined.

"No." I said. I cleared my throat. Stupid morning voice.

"I'll make you breakfast. I'll go right now and make you breakfast if you promise to be up in five minutes." He said kneeling in front of me. I looked at him. He was pretty close to my face.

"Fine." I whispered. He got up and ran downstairs. I checked my phone and since I was at Shawn's house I didn't have any texts. When I'm at home I wake up to a million texts from him and a bored Shawn sitting in my room. He usually can't wait for me to wake up so he comes over. I slowly sat up. I looked at the time.

4:32 am.

Jesus Christ this is way to early. No wonder it's still dark out. I walked downstairs to see Shawn making pancakes, bacon, and eggs.

"Shawn I fucking love you." I whisper yelled jumping on him seeing as his family was still asleep. He laughed and hugged me back.

"You better." He replied. I flicked his nose.

"Jesus Christ that took a lot of energy. My head is pounding and my heart is racing." I laughed. He turned around with genuine concern on his face.

"Are you okay?" He asked coming over to me. You know his eyes are very beautiful. Why have I never noticed this before?

"Yeah I'm good. You know me." I said. He looked me in the eyes for a second then went to finish making breakfast. We ate and laughed, even though we tried to be quiet. Key word, tried.

"Okay we should go get dressed now." Shawn said when he was done.

"I CALL THE BATHROOM FIRST." I got up and ran up the stairs. I heard his footsteps behind me. Halfway down the hall to his room he caught me. He picked me up from behind around the waist and spun me around. I was trying to keep my laughing quiet. He put me down behind him and kept going to his room.

"God dammit Shawn." I whispered. I ran into his room to see him grabbing clothes. We were both still laughing. I grabbed my clothes and ran to the bathroom. We both hit the doorframe at the same time and fell in a heap of laughter.

"God dammit Cleo." He sputtered out. I just laughed harder. As all of this was happening we were still trying to be quiet.

I got up first and slowly closed the door. I could hear him laughing and cursing at me. I took my shower and got dressed. I came out of the bathroom and walked into his room.

"My parents are awake now. We have to leave in an hour." Shawn told me. It was 5:47. Oh geez. I put my pajamas in my bag and started brushing my hair. When he was done with his shower I was sitting on his bed on my phone. We got ready in a comfortable silence.

"Alright let's go people." Shawn's mom yelled. We all got in the car and started towards the venue. It was about a three hour drive. We got there and Shawn was really nervous.

"Shawn you'll do fine. You're probably going to win the whole thing." I said. He just chuckled.

"Yeah, okay." He said sarcastically. He performed great and the judges loved him.

He was through.

He came backstage to us.

"That was awesome." He said breathing hard.

"Shawn can I talk to you?" I asked, he shook his head yes, and we walked away from most of the people.

"Don't you dare forget me." I said and I already started tearing up.

"Cleo you'll always be my best friend. I could never forget you." For some reason that sent a pain shooting through my chest.

"Just remember I'll always be your biggest fan. No matter how many screaming girls say they are your biggest fan, they won't compare to me. I'll always be your biggest fan." A tear fell, and few more. He reached up and wiped them away with his thumbs. He pulled me into a hug.

"You'll always be my biggest fan." He repeated. I lost it then. I sobbed into his shoulder as he rubbed my back and whispered sweet nothings in my ear.

I finally calmed down and pulled away. He had to go up to the room they assigned him so we were leaving. The car ride home we texted until he was too tired. We got home and they let me sleep in his bed. I cried knowing that he could forget me and he wouldn't be home for a long time.

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"HEY COME ON IT'S THE FINALES." I yelled. My parents came in and sat down. My brother just yelled back, "I don't care." Shawn was one of the last three contestants. He better win. We barely got to text because he was so busy and he already had a growing fanbase. They went on and on and it was finally time to announce the winner.

"And the winner is... SHAWN MENDES." The guy yelled. Shawn's face was priceless. I missed him so bad. I wished I could be there with his family but I had to stay home.

Shawn went on to tour with Austin Mahone and then his own tour. But the night I'll never forget was a show during his tour. We had stopped texting all together. He had forgotten me. That show was the best.

"Okay this next song was written for a very special girl. She knows exactly who she is. This is, Biggest Fan." He sang this for the first time at the concert I went to. I just started bawling in the middle of the screaming girls. He hadn't forgotten me.

I was always his biggest fan.