new year new me, no. you tell me to change who i am, it’s a new year. you tell me to change the way i dress, it’s not appealing to you so i have to change, no guys will ever look at you if you act like that, if you wear that. you tell me i’m to vulnerable. but at least i have emotion. at least i live in a world where i don’t have to pretend i care. where i don’t have to please everyone because i’m my own person. screw you and your opinions, you tell me im too vulnerable , maybe it’s because when i was three my mother was beaten in front of me, maybe it’s because i was raped when i was 7 maybe it’s because my mom killed herself two months later, maybe it’s because every day i walk into school feeling like someone is going to hurt me, maybe it’s because in today’s society i don’t feel safe, not in school, not in my home, and not in my skin. I DONT FEEL SAFE IN MY FREAKING SKIN, why do i feel like this? maybe it’s because your too selfish to ask how i am once in a while, maybe it’s because i lose every single person in close to in this world. maybe it’s because no one in my life knows how to stay, or maybe it’s because “i’m to vulnerable”. i don’t know though, new year new me right ? i’m supposed to hide my feelings right? i’m supposed to pretend everything is going great right? because it’s a new year and i can’t be human if i act the way i feel inside.