Fear of failing myself and not being successful is common for someone to have , I used to think that those were my biggest and really important fears were and something I could continue to strive off,
My biggest fear is not being able to be the change, because although I'm just one person, if i have to be the first one then so be it, but if I can't be the change for myself for others for my future then I think I could crumble, im not setting myself up for failure, nor do I expect someone to cheer me on and believe in me as long as I believe that I could do it, i will, because all it takes is a strong mind, a determined one.
I think it's crazy that people can drop you as if you were nothing but at the same time, because I understand what that's like I can't blame them, and you shouldn't either.
If someone decides to keep you in their life or not that is completely up to them, I mean we are always told the grass is greener on the other side, but what exactly does that mean?, are we guaranteed that things will be better or that doors will continuously be opened to us, ? I'm sure if that was the case we'd all be able to let things go rather rapidly than we normally do today, or am I missing the picture here?
Maybe it's not that things are better and brighter on the other side, maybe it's darker but in a way because of the darkness we are more eager to find the brighter side and it's continuously keeping us on our toes?, what if that's the point, I mean bad things that have happened to most of us and that has been part of our growth, it's made us who we are til this day, or do you not think so?, then why do problems exist?.
I don't think it's just because, I don't think it's for a reason but I believe that it is for a purpose.
Life isn't just a because, life wasnt granted to us just because we were created and that was it, no, there's more to it, there's more to life.
I know we all have our ups and downs, our breaking points , we all have our different beliefs but just Generally speaking on life we really aren't that different, we all want to be heard, we all want to share things, and I know we all want to be lifted and for some to be the lifters, I know it's hard being the lifter, but being lifted can be just as hard because a lot of us lose motivation, we feel like we lose purpose to this world after one failure and that's perfectly fine because it was never meant to be easy, it was meant to be hard.
Again because it was meant to teach us something, it was meant to make us stronger. We are supposed to value those lessons, people will always come and go, but trust me just like how there are greater things for you out there, there's greater things out there for them.
Sometimes we are someone's weight meaning instead of lifting them we are weighing them down instead of lifting them as we too are being lifted , sometimes we are the problem and we have to accept it and that's why we let go of people.
So maybe the grass is darker on the other side, maybe its pristine beauty makes you feel like you can't do it but you can.
Don't let yourself be weighed by your own actions or for holding onto someone.
I always say this. If you ever need to talk you can reach me on Snapchat @misskdp ,of. Course tell me where you cam from.
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