Nights I prayed for you to take my soul

I laid awake praying something would happen

where I would never have to live this life again.

Constantly being afraid of the unknown.

Asking what might take my soul? 

Will it be you? 

Or will it be someone behind my closet door

Hiding and waiting. 

When will this bad luck end?

Will it be years? Will it be tomorrow

What will happen? 

Will I take to the waters?

Will I take to the knife? 

Will I feel the pain

My friend

A quiet one.

So courageouse and tough. 

Be strong when I am gone

I fear you will choose the same as I

When I leave, it will be ok.

I will be safe. I will be ok.

I won't have to text you my dad 

I will never cry again. 

You have never seen my tears and I hope you never will. 

I'll miss you. 

I'm sorry. I was selfish. For once in my life.

I thought of myself. A sin for myself to commit. 

I'm glad you stopped to chat, but I'm gone now. 

I love you and this is a sweet end.

Your my angel 

I seek your guidance. 

Never will I wonder where I get it?

The kind and gold heart. 

The heart that broke many times before

Its not your fault. 

Grow old and stay strong

Your love encourages all. 

At least it did me. 

I am just hurting. I'm being selfish. 

I know, but I had to go. 

This life wasn't mine to live.