Two Best friends that grew up together, they know everything about each other but Arden one big dark secret which lead her final destination. When Iris found out that her best friends is gone, she realized that she couldn’t go on anymore. When will she discover her biggest, deepest, darkest secret when Arden thought that would never revealed.

My mind gone dizzy after I found out what actually happened.

My best friend is gone.

She’s gone forever.

What happens now?

Will I ever go through this?

    My head is pounding and million of question running through my head and all of them still remain unanswered. Her mom gave me her book but I don’t want to read it because it would brings back the old memories that we had together. I just I’m not ready for this but if I need to know what happened to her, she would told me that she suffered but she didn’t she disappeared like she never existed.

The book is calling me out for me to read it and face the truth of her suffering that I haven’t knew yet. I should’ve noticed on the first day of sophomore year in high school. The way she acted toward to me it felt like she was being distant and she was quiet to me but she still cared about me.

        My mind was tempted to read her book that contained what she lived with all of these years and never told me about it. My instinct tells me I should find out. 

I don’t want to regret reading her book.

       I don’t want to feel bad, or not knowing that she had this all along.

My mind tells me otherwise, but instead reading it, I put the away in the box. I close my eyes and dream where we started sophomore year, when my best friend was there for me.

Until one day everything falls apart…

Until I lost the half of me…

Arden…

I groaned as I woke up this morning only to hear the ringing of my phone as I got three text messages from my best friend Arden. The thing about her that we knew each other for so long and I am glad that I have her because I don’t know what would I do without her.

I opened the text messages and read:

Besties: Yo Dimwit wake up I need a ride to school <3

Another text messages from her:

Besties: Stop dreaming, about making out with Louis and, it never going to happen honey!

The final text messages from her, which I find it hilarious:

Besties: You’ll be fucked up if I find you in the room French kissing your pillow… So you better get out of your damn bed and get ready before I take a picture of you making out with your pillow :)

    By the time I finished reading the text I was already out of bed and heading to the shower to do my normal routines. As I hop out of the shower I wrapped my body with my maroon towel. I walk up to the mirror and look into my bright grey eyes with icy blue rims. The facts I really never liked my eyes color because I always felt like unnatural. Also the freckle on the bridge on my nose and my cheeks makes me feel self-conscious.

    I get started on my make-up because I normally go for the natural make-up on with eyeliner, nude eye shadows, mascara, and lip balm. Once I’m satisfied with my look I redo my light brown hair in a messy bun and I opened my door as I walked out of the bathroom. I was about to open my door but I heard one of my brothers Zane shouting out my name.

“Iris, have you seen my diamond earrings?”

“Shit be a little quiet asshole, mom and dad are sleeping.”

“Oh my bad.” He lowered his voice.

“The earrings are in the bathroom Zane.”

“Thank you Iris and don’t call me an asshole.”

“Okay whatever you say asshole.”

He rolls his eyes at me as he walk toward to the bathroom to search his earrings. I went into my room to decide which outfits that I should wear today.

    After fifteen minutes of deciding which outfits that I should wear today which is a plain maroon oversized sweater with skinny black jeans and my black combat boots. I grab my British flag backpack and sprayed on “Amber Romance” from Victoria’s Secret and put on deodorant. I ran downstairs while my three other brothers are fighting for the last piece of cinnamon rolls. I decided to go with the light breakfast this morning so I went to grab an apple and took the car key to my car. I texted Arden to see if she’s ready then she replies quickly saying that she been waiting for an hour. I look at the time in my phone but school starts in 40 minutes. I texted her I’m on my way.

    I walk out of the house and into my beated up black jeep CJ4. I drove to Arden’s house to pick her up and as she was walking out of the door I noticed that we are wearing almost the same outfit. She’s wearing light blue oversized sweater that hung on her slim figure with black leather jeans that fitted her legs and brown combat boot with lace untied, but the only differences is that we are wearing the different colors and she curled her black hair into loose curls. Her maroon Jan-sport backpack hung on her left shoulder as she gave me a death glare with her bright emerald eyes.

“Dude! I asked you to pick me up an hour ago!”

“I was asleep at that time and plus why were you texting me like six- thirty in the morning?”

She paused for a second, as she opens her mouth to say something but no words comes out.

“I stand corrected.” I smirked

“Whatever dude, Now drive me to school peasant.”

   I laughed at her choice of words I started the car and on the way to school I noticed a little different about Arden because she seems a bit quiet and slightly pale but it could means that It’s cold outside and plus it’s December. I asked her a question to make sure that she is okay.

“ Hey Ar, are you okay? You seems quite pale and not to mention you also have been quiet on the ride way to school.”

“Yeah, Yeah I’m okay it’s just that I’m tired.” She looks out of the window.

    It just bothers me that she is hiding something but she didn’t want me to find out but I left it alone anyway. While I was driving I couldn’t help but to think what Arden is trying to hide from me but I hope it’s nothing too important. As the thoughts of Arden hiding something from me grew bigger, the familiar road started to fade in as we head to school. Arden and I are a sophomore in high school but we are not that popular at least. We do get a few attentions but it’s better to stay low. As for me I’m not dating anyone, I do have a crush but he is way out of my league. As for Arden she is not dating anyone, because she said she don’t’ want to date but she will never know that she might get one.

As we parked at Westside High school parking lots, Arden got out of the car and seed walking quickly which is very unusual of her because she never acted like that. I thought it’s probably a one-time thing but things will get better tomorrow but as for today, it’s time to face a place called hellhole and see what they have stored in for me.

During lunch Arden and I decided to sit together on the table that we usually sit since we first came here. She started talking to me like nothing happened this morning.

“Hey peasant how’s your day so far?”

“So far so good…” I grinned.

“Do you know that Louis is planning to ask you out for Winter Ball?”

“Shut up! Don’t fuck with me dude…”

“I’m not and I swear on my doggy’s grave that he might asking you out for Winter Ball.”

I sit there shocked that Louis might ask me out to the dance and then I felt waves of happiness then suddenly I felt nervous.

“What if he didn’t ask me out, I wonder what happened if he didn’t ask?”

“Well he must been stupid if he didn’t ask you out…”

“I mean look at him he must be a popular guy in high school."

Arden turns her head to Louis quizzically then back at me with a poker face.

“He is just a guy, who happens to be the captain of the football team.”

    I nodded and sighed but I believe she is right but half of me disagree with her but it’s time to face the truth. He is the captain of the football team and I’m just a girl who is undecided who is unsure about her future.

I shook my head then smile at her as stood up and started to put my tray away and ignore the thoughts that goes through my head. I walk back to the table and sit down with Arden, then I notice Louis was looking at me with his hazel eyes.

‘No way, he can’t be looking at me. He must’ve been looking at someone else behind me.’

I shook my head and refuse to look at him but decided to look behind me.

‘Oh yeah it’s a girl which happened to be Acela, The biggest slut of all time.’

I turn my head toward to Arden and shook my head and having an unbelievable look on my face as I ran to the bathroom. I cover my face with my long sleeves sweater and I push the door that lead out of the cafeteria room and into the hallway. I heard footsteps behind me but I ignored it anyway and headed to the bathroom.

I went the farthest corner bathroom stall, I ran into it and lock the door. I put my hands on my face, so many thoughts cross my mind. It was too much for me to handle and I can’t take it anymore, my back was against the wall as I began to slide down the wall, crying in my hands.

Why does this have to be this way?

I heard footsteps coming toward to the stall I’m in as I heard a familiar voice.

“Iris, are you okay? Please come out of the stall… For me?”

Arden voice rings through my mind and I stood up but didn’t open the door.

“Why Arden? Why are you hiding something from me?” I whispered.

“Iris I have nothing to hide! What are you talking about?” She shouted at me, which that don’t happen before.

“Jesus, why are you screaming at me? That’s so unlike you.” I sobbed but manage to take a breath.

“I’m sorry I just have a really hard day, Forgive me?” she said quietly.

“I will if you tell me what you are hiding from me.” I stated.

“ I promise you, I have nothing to hide and I just have a bad day, just help me to get through it please?”

I knew this is not the answer but I will let it slide one time but if this actually happens again I will find out one way or another.

“Okay I forgive you.” I sighed

I open the stall door and ran into my best friend’s arms as she wraps her arms around me. I will find out one way or another no matter what.

She looks at me and she held out her hand for me gesturing me to grab it. I walked toward to her and put my hand in hers.

“Maybe it’s too soon I guess?” She whispered to me.

“Yeah maybe it is, plus I knew he wasn’t going to ask me out anyway.”

“Iris you never know, maybe you are doubting yourself.”

Arden looks at me straight in the eyes. Wow I never knew she was that serious.

Then Arden speaks up.

“If he never ask you out, don’t worry I’ll go with you if you want me to.”

I smiled knowing that best friend cares about me. She smiles showing her pearly white teeth.

“Thank you Arden, I really appreciated.”

“No problem, I’m just helping out my best friend.”

We laugh together as we walked out of the bathroom and into the hallway. As we arrive to the cafeteria together, we went to our table and sit down until I hear a manly voice intruding my thoughts.

“Hey Iris.”

   I look behind me and Louis is behind me. His hazel eyes bore deeply into my grey eyes and I felt like he can read me like an open book. His tan complexion made the light on his skin so he looks shiny like a Ken doll. His light brown curls stood out his overall look. Plus the best things about him are his height and his lean body.

“Oh hey Louis…” I spoke up

“Um…” He pauses due to the Bimbo coming in our way.

“Hey cutie, what are you doing tonight?” Acela said in a screechy voice.

     Meet Acela, The number one whore in school. Acela and I used to be good friends and lived close to each other also Arden and I used to hang out with her. The thing happened to our friendship is popularity of course. She used to have medium length dirty blond hair with brown eyes and she had a good figure. The popularity took over her and instead of her dressing up as a hipster she became a bleach blond bimbo wearing shorts short and V-neck that shows off her enormous melon boobs and heels that look like it could break your ankles just by walking in them. I swear to my Grandpa’s grave, that Acela receives a plastic surgery to make her look a lot plastic. Oh yeah no wonder she looks so fake.

“Nothing, actually.” Louis responded.

I look at Louis in disgrace.

‘Is he going for Acela this time?What’s next? Is he going to ask her out to the dance?’ I thought to myself.

“Great! I will come over to your place at six.” She winked at her.

    I look at Arden who was still there with wide eyes and her mouth opened and she looks pissed. I mouthed to her to meet me out to the hallway. She nodded her head in confirmed that she understood what I said to her. Without a glance I walk straight out of the cafeteria with Arden with by my side. I kept a straight face so I won’t cause a commotion and Arden grabbed my hand and squeeze it tight, to let me know that she is here next to me.

            As we walked out of the cafeteria and into the hallway, I started breaking down and many things has gone to blank and suddenly I felt nauseous. I ran to the bathroom and gone into one of the stalls and puke in the toilet. My best friend ran and held my hair while I was puking.

“Dude, you need to go to the clinic now!” Her voice is full of worries.

“No, I’m fine I can handle this.” I gasped for breath.

“I’m taking you to the clinic whatever you like it or not.” She gave me the angry eyes in her bright emerald green eyes.

      Then I started mumbling in protest and my brain became jumble and I can’t think what I was doing. My eyes began closing as I squirmed out of her hold and protest but my head bang on the toilet seat and I let the calming sleep overtakes me.