Life Right Now

 

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As life goes on, time flies’ bye, and if I had to say that the last 5 years have been a waste of time, I wouldn't be lying. I would even be exaggerating at all. I have done sweet fuck all, translate that into proper English, I have done nothing. Fuck all, Nada or completely nothing at all. Whatever language you speak that’s got to give you an idea of what I'm trying to say. If not, not to worry let’s keep going. I have no time to waste. I'm on edge, and I’m almost about to fall off it. I have fallen of the edge a few years ago but, unfortunately, I didn't fall hard enough so here. I am once again trying to get as much emotion out before the cliff gives way. I don't want to fall, if I had to be an honest as I could, but I see no need to keep breathing anymore. 

So, what do I do? I'm really trying hard to answer that question you know. Don't get me wrong I have had people tell me what I need to do, how to do it and what I will achieve from the advice if I motivate myself to work hard at it and keep going. I’ll be honest the knowing is the easy part. The doing is what I'm finding is the hardest part of all. Why? Well I never used to be like this. I was a person who couldn't stay in the one spot unless I was playing games or watching a movie. Then I’d still shake a leg or kick my foot to a beat. These days I barely have enough energy to lift the remote control and put on a movie. Believe me Lazy isn't a word, that could describe the lack of motivation I endure at the moment. It is beyond a fucking joke, no shit. 

Think what you like, say what you will, but you have no fucking idea unless you have had similar setbacks or even worse setbacks than I have had to experience at such a young age. Ill be honest my experience isn't even that bad when you compare it to others. I'm talking about me right so fuck everyone else this is my story. This is a story about my emotions and my life experiences that have brought me to sitting here right now. These days there is a lot of people who talk to much about other peoples way of life or even problems they face and they talk like they know how to overcome the emotional rollercoaster and talk about how they would not be effected at all. I call these fuck wits the professional talker who talks a lot in order to make themselves look and even feel better. 

Well I used to laugh at people who would use anxiety as an excuse. So I'd say shit to them like, get over it and smoke a joint. Today I feel so bad  for making the silly  judgement towards people with really bad anxiety. I experienced my first major attack last week and I tell you what. I wanted to kill everybody even myself. I couldn't believe what I was going through. The pacing up and down the hall, smoking cigarettes like there going out of fashion, not knowing what to do and becoming frustrated by it. After I had calmed down I sat there for a moment then looked back at all the times I misjudged friends and their anxiety attacks. I tell you what, I felt like a fuck head and was embarrassed. So I messaged those friends and apologised. They all laughed out loud and said, 

I told you Eckie that you had no idea until you experience it yourself. They weren’t wrong. Anybody that has an opinion about a disorder or diagnoses should learn to ask more questions first instead of stating opinions and thoughts. It’s true that you have no fucking idea until you experience it for yourself no matter what you think. There is so many people on earth today suffering with all these disorders that have been diagnosed by doctors then prescribed medication for it. In my opinion it is a joke to see how common anxiety is throughout the world. If you can't see anything wrong with that then you have a major problem. If your one to say that’s life these days that’s how it is well baa baa to you. 

Stay blinded and uneducated like a sheep in the paddock. If you’re the type to go with the flow and live the way life is being dictated to us then by all means you do that but don't let us hear your ignorant complaints about the government taxes and or the prices of goods and even how low your wages are low. If you really had any brains, you would do something about it. Don't even ask me what things are needed to be done. Because when I say the things that need to be practised, I'll get responses that are just so fucking stupid and ignorant such as, we can't do that Eckie you must be on drugs. We can't do that, humans can't live that way anymore, shit like Oh Eckie your so unrealistic you really need to start growing up and acting your age. So, I won't even mention any of the things that I know need to be done to gain power and have our say actually acknowledged and even followed because most people have got something just as stupid as I have to say. So, shit will never change. 

Here, I'll give you one example alright, just for the fuck of it. Everybody needs to stop shopping at all major retailers, food and clothing for at least a year or two, even possibly only work half the amount you work and stop driving to work as well. Let’s overcrowd the public transport for a laugh. let’s see what metro trains do the hey. Go catch, hunt meat if you like meat and also you can grow your own veggies. Oh yeah ok I hear all you lazy fucks whingeing already. Watch the economy fuck up and then governments drop prices on everything begging us to go and shop again, leaving us with the power and the final say. Everyone is too scared, too dumb to try so we just keep getting ripped off by the governments more and more every year and why should they stop when we do nothing about it. If you don't let you neighbour steel your shit, then why allow the governments to. Everyone is full of talk these days.

I like to say humans today got a lot more bark than bite. Hate me for being honest and open but it's true. who in their right mind would disagree? Oh, ok who in their right mind would say shit like I do. Ok that’s fair well does it take somebody who isn't all there to notice what needs to be done if life on earth would be more enjoyable and most probably fair for the majority and not a minority like it is at the moment in 2019. What can I say? The world is full of fuckwits, dickheads, cocksuckers, and a lot of no brainers who just follow the person next to them. I am also amongst these groups because I can't find anyone with balls as big as mine who would act on orders that will change the world. now don’t one hundred of you put your hands up. I need about 50,000 people to do what needs to be done here in Australia then on to the rest of the world.

In Australia at the moment the prices for cigarettes have just gone up almost $16 for a packet of 40 cigarettes. Like what the fuck. Why? Ok So these are some of the answers people have given me. 1. Because the government wants people to stop smoking. 2. Because the government are spending too much money on cancer patients who smoked all their lives. 3. The government just wants to make a shit load more revenue this year. In my opinion all answers are decent and very accepting. Let’s not be rational here ok. 

If the government really wanted us to stop, they would just take them of the shelves and stop selling them. Who cares about the people? Crime linked to cigarettes is going to rise at least 35% now anyway. How many junkies do you think can pay $56 for 40 cigarettes or $30 for a packet of 20? Either way something bad will happen so fuck it take cigarettes of the shelf. I'm a cigarette smoker and that’s my opinion. Ill vape for a year. I want to give up anyway. fuck smoking cigarettes. I'd rather smoke weed. why has petrol got a 51% tax amount of the actual price we pay at the bowser. Why is it everything that we need on a daily basis has a fucking ridiculous tax amount on it and we just sit there saying jack shit. Half the products we need are way overpriced anyway. If you disagree well good on you. not everyone makes over $120,00 a year around here ok and you can stick your rich opinions up your ass and your fucking bitch mums as well. 

How rude. What, I'm rude. We are all rude. Who is anyone to comment on the way anyone lives right? Drama queens who have to be-little others in order to feel good. There is a few of them around here without throwing out names. Look I might be emotional on the way life is dictated to us, but I have a fair point and a common opinion as well. All I ask is that if you people want changes it won't happen if you don’t make these dramatic changes and stick by them as a team as a nation as one group of motivated people who will make changes. I'm over hearing people talk shit about the system. talk shit about our wages. Talk shit about the cost of living. Talk shit about the amount of taxes we pay. talk shit about everything their live experiences but when asked to join up and fix the problems, the common excuses start pouring out like no tomorrow. 

I say no more if you think a little different after reading that then good for you and I hope you start to make changes. If your still living life as you are well good luck to you and your next 10 generations of babies. because if earth is still the planet, we live on then god help the people of the time. I'm so glad I will be long gone. Why are we spending money where money shouldn’t be spent? For an example. Do we really need to explore space? If so why. The excuse because we are explorers isn’t good enough for me. If the reason isn’t anything of the sort that we are looking for another planet to transport everyone on earth to then I am sorry that’s not good enough so the money can be spent on building houses for those who need it. So many billions are wasted on shit like space exploration. 

Fuck me dead we haven’t explored our oceans yet and you want to explore space. I’m sorry I’m not a fuckwit gullible person that believes any word you say about space exploration. The black budget uses for secret planes and whatever else. I mean how fuckin stupid is the human race. The ones running the world are smart. To smart as the majority of the population can’t do anything but accept being dictated to and just go on with out even questioning what our tax money is being spent on space. If its out fucking tax payers money you bunch of fucking crooks then we the people should say what it will be spent on ok.. How much clearer than that can I say it to you. Open your eyes people. Make some changes. We need to knock out the power people and replace them completely. Eliminate their whole blood line and make sure there is none left. The world needs new leaders and we need it now.

I will end my emotion expressions right here and say that I will bve back with more issues on life on earth today in a novel titled Life Right Now. I want to say please understand that this short story is written as it is said in conversation so if you choose to judge the way of the writting I can only say to you that, Thanks for reading my opinions on life right now but I really have no care for what you think of the style or level of writting you may think this work stands at. All this what we see and do and also use today will not exist in years to come. Nor will we humans. So I can only hope that thousands of years from now my work will give a slight insite to the way life was lived on earth today. I really don't care what you think. So fuck of and have a nice day. 

 

 

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