Blogs From Beyond
Blogs From Beyond
Glossary:
pdoc-psychiatrist
tdoc-therapist
MIL-mother-in-law
SIL-sister-in-law
BIL-brother-in-law
sz-schizophrenia
bp-bipolar
MI-mental illness
sa, sza- schizoaffective
DBSA-Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance
NAMI-National Alliance for Mental Illness
dx-diagnosis
rx-prescription
ssdi-social security disability insurance
Introduction
I don't feel like posting because I'm paranoid little people in my computer are following me around... Please don't answer if you are going to put winks in your response. It scares me that it's a secret message.
I re-read the words I had wrote in 10/2004. It scared me to realize how bad I had become. As, I read through my posts/blogs it became evident I had been more symptomatic for a longer period of time than I had thought. Unfortunately, some of the posts were lost to archiving so this is my attempt to record some so I can save them.
Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2004 9:20 am Post subject: Re: The story of lorib |
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My experience with MI |
Forum: The Medicine Cabinet Posted: Sun Mar 07, 2004 11:02 am Subject: Re: What meds do you take? |
200 mg lamictal |
Forum: Self-Maintenance & Self-Management Posted: Sun Mar 07, 2004 11:04 am Subject: Re: SUNDAY WEIGH IN..... |
I've lost all the weight I gained after I started taking meds. |
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Posted: Fri Apr 23, 2004 8:38 am Post subject: Update on me (reposted from DBSA) M |
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I was diagnosed BPII after a psychotic episode last July where I had visual and auditory hallucinations and became very paranoid. I was put on risperdal and zoloft and started having racing thoughts, which led to the diagnosis. |
Posted: Mon May 10, 2004 8:17 am Post subject: Re: Bipolar Depression |
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I'm having trouble identifying my depression because I have a lot of anxiety and have energy with mania and depression |
Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2004 7:39 am Post subject: Re: How good are you at self-monitoring? |
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I told my pdoc that I can't enjoy feeling good, because I'm worrying that I'll get manic and lose control. First off, he said some people enjoy mania and don't want it to stop, but it isn't pleasant for me. He told me to live in the present and gave me some signs, for me in particular, to look for (I'm not a happy manic. I'm irritable, paranoid, psychotic) like: little sleep and still energized, irritability, people being cautious around me and thinking others are going to harm me. |
Posted: Fri Jul 23, 2004 10:41 am Post subject: Re: Talking to yourself? |
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I go over what I'm going to say before I speak, a lot. I do have a running dialogue in my head. |
Posted: Thu Sep 02, 2004 1:24 pm Post subject: Re: Any of you get bossy with your pdoc? |
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After I was diagnosed I was still irritable and not thinking clearly. I was having circular thinking, but I didn't know how to describe it. |
Posted: Sun Sep 05, 2004 12:03 am Post subject: Re: Do you suffer from memory loss? |
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I've been having problems with concentration lately. I don't know why |
Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2004 7:46 am Post subject: Re: diagnostic criteria for bipolar and related disorder.... |
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Posted: Wed Sep 08, 2004 8:06 am Post subject: Not feeling well |
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I don't feel "right". My pdoc told me to call if I was paranoid, anxious or irritable. I'm none of those things. |
Posted: Sun Sep 19, 2004 8:33 pm Post subject: Decompensate and also abilify? |
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I’ve been depressed. I'm doing a little better, but I get overwhelmed easily. |
Posted: Mon Sep 20, 2004 1:41 pm Post subject: Re: hypomanic |
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I don't know if this will help any because I have dysphoric hypomanias. I go from feeling good to impulsive to anxious/irritable to paranoid. |
Posted: Sun Oct 10, 2004 8:38 am Post subject: Anxiety meds? (SSRI's cause mania) |
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I have a lot of anxiety to the point where it interferes with my daily life. I think I disassociate in social situations and decompensate when under stress. I tend to isolate. I've had auditory hallucinations and my pdoc says anxiety can cause them. |
Posted: Tue Oct 12, 2004 6:05 pm Post subject: Re: what kind of support do you need from loved ones when mi |
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I try to resist isolating and stay around everyone even if I'm just "there". |
Posted: Wed Oct 13, 2004 10:20 pm Post subject: Overly cautious? |
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Posted: Fri Oct 22, 2004 9:41 am Post subject: Feeling misunderstood |
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I don't feel like posting because I'm paranoid little people in my computer are following me around. I feel like no one understands me and are ignoring me. I'm not doing well. I don't feel like I have anything to contribute. I think being on the computer makes me worse, so I'm only on briefly. |
Posted: Mon Oct 25, 2004 11:53 am Post subject: Re: Feeling misunderstood |