- A Millennium Without love -

 

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Immortality: A Gift & A Curse

 I was born to a mundane mother in Rio De Janeiro in 1759, my father is a greatly feared demon..often idolised as the Christian devil Lucifer or 'satan'. A few years after I was born in 1764 my mother realised what my cat-like eyes meant..what it made me-and what my father had to have been to create me...I was not the son of the Angel she fell in love with, instead I was a demon child; an abomination. Shortly after the discovery of my true heritage, my mother Gweneviere (I cannot remember if she had a last name, it's been many centuries since then-almost a millennium) committed suicide, she couldn't bear the thought that she bore the son of a shapeshifting demon. I am 800 years old give or take a few hundred years, my name is Eugene Lavern-I am a warlock and i am immortal...when mortals, like mundanes (normal humans) depict immortality it's usually a romance where a mortal chooses immortality to be with their lover forever; but being immortal isn't beautiful..you watch the people you cherish age and die and there's nothing you can do about it. I've never been in love before. It would be too painful to watch someone who is that close to me wither away before my eyes...the short 70 or 80 years they live for will go in the blink of an eye and I'll be alone again....sometimes I sit in my garden outside my London townhouse and watch the flowers-I envy them..why? Because life is always easier to endure when you know there will be an end to the pain...flowers live and share their beauty and then they die-it's peaceful, it's normal..I never asked to walk this earth for eternity...I want to fall in love, and I want to grow old next to the love of my life while we watch the world go by-I'm bisexual so you'd think it would be easy to find a lover-but I don't want just any lover...I want someone who will actually love me, not because I have money (immortals live forever so we have eternity to acquire wealth) or because I have magic...is that really too much to ask for? I've closed myself off to love for so long and I've been waiting for someone special to come along and pull the walls around my heart down..I've been waiting so long. Well, I think that's enough of a walk down memory lane-I'm in London and it's 2021 and it's a Thursday..

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A small crack of sunlight broke through the heavy crimson curtains, I woke to the feeling of warm light on my face...it's a fairly pleasant way to wake up. I mean it would be if I had a reason to wake up. I shook my head rather violently to clear the rest of the memories I was flooded with during sleep, I put on a smile and slipped out of bed-I stumbled over to my large antique wardrobe and chose an outfit for today, after searching for a few minutes I settled for a royal blue patterned vest with a fluffy white blouse underneath and black skinny jeans...Oh! And my fabulous black ankle boots-my favourite-they had a slight heel on them and almost comfortable enough to sleep in; ok, ready for another day-I practically skipped into the spare room and opened up a portal-it had an eerie purple-blue glow, but I'm used to it by now; after centuries of portal travel. As I stepped through the portal as I focused on my destination. Ok I have to admit even centuries of portalling doesn't take away the queasyness of momentarily slipping into non-existence, but hey, I'd like to think it's safe than those flying contraptions the mundanes call aeroplanes...I walked around New York and then my eyes fell on my favourite little coffee shop Java Jones; I went in and ordered my usual (a chocolate-caramel frappuchino with fresh whipped cream on top), paid the barista and left with my steaming drink to sit on the bench outside, I was sipping my slightly too hot coffee and staring blankly at the people walking past me, when I heard a masculine scream-I jolted and looked around for the source of the sound while also trying to ignore the singeing of boiling coffee-and then I saw a young man, lying in the middle of the road, seemingly unconscious. I jumped up-coffee abandoned and ran to his side...he was barely breathing.."get back, give him space I'm a doctor" I commanded the bystanders, they immediately backed away...'Wow am I that convincing? Anyway, I lied because this boy would not survive if taken to a mundane hospital..so I gathered the limp boy in my arms and opened a portal back to my townhouse in London, the mundanes won't remember anything that just happened, I casted an enchantment before I stepped into the portal...they won't remember seeing a dying young man in the arms of a 'doctor' that stepped through a strange doorway and disappeared-gotta keep a low profile, I really like that coffee shop..' Moments later we were in the spare room of my house and the boys pulse had weakened-it was so faint it was almost impossible to notice. I carried him to the lounge room and opened my spell book-hurriedly I searched for a healing spell, I don't know why but I couldn't let this young man die, with his dark hair and porcelain skin and some noticeable toned muscles.....'Dammit Eugene concentrate!', after a few moments my hands found the page I was looking for and I muttered the spell so fast you'd think it was my life on the line, a few moments later his breathing evened out but his eyes were still clenched shut, 'cmon, cmon, don't die...stay with me' a few minutes later I started give up, certain that I had failed to save this boys life..my eyes filled with tears 'Why the hell are you crying over a total stranger, seriously Eugene'  suddenly the boy gasped and jolted up right "Woah! Woah! Your ok, your safe, your alright, calm down, shhhhhh" then he raised his head and looked blankly at me, he looked like he didn't really see me..more like he was just looking for where the voice came from..and that's when I really saw the boy, like I really looked at him..committing every feature to memory; burnt brown hair, porcelain skin, eyes so blue they could only be described as oceanic...but it was the words that came out of his mouth that really struck me as surprised..."Your a Warlock.." he breathed...it wasn't a question it was a statement, he said it like it was a fact, like he had solid proof..'how? How does this boy know what I am?' I snapped myself out of my internal turmoil and my mind entered defence mode "I don't know what your talking about young man...you must be mistaken" i responded coldly, "don't lie to me, your eyes are a dead give away..also I could feel the magic you used to heal me, it was strong which can only mean that your a Warlock" he said matter-a-factly 'Eugene, get out of here...this is suspicious, how can he even see your eyes? Their glamoured...invisible to mundanes...! And he FELT your magic? He isn't human! Get back! Danger!'  "How can you see my eyes? Their glamoured. No mundanes can see them. And only supernatural creatures have the ability to sense magic. So, what. Are. You?" I said boldly, there's no way he's leaving till he gives me an answer, I don't need people who know my true identity lurking in the city, as an immortal I have many enemies (some of which are also immortal, like the Vampires), the boy in front of me seemed stunned by my question, he looked almost nervous "w-w-wh-at ar-e you-ou t-alk-king a-abo-out??" He stuttered anxiously, "haha very convincing..I don't believe-" I stopped and raised my eyebrow at him, and his cheeks flushed with the most delectable cherry red "Alec, short for Alexander..." he muttered sheepishly, then he nibbled on his plump bottom lip 'oh angelll, that lip bite...' I felt blood begin to head south when I spotted his teeth on his lip....shaking the erotic images out of my mind I rose to my feet and went to shake his hand "nice to meet you Alexander, I'm Eugene" I said in a formal tone. "Formal, why are you being formal Eugene it's not the 1800's anymore-Wrong century!" I ignored the annoying little voice in my head and continued the conversation, "look Alexander, you have nothing to fear of me, I know you are not a mundane, your something else..why don't you tell me?" I questioned lightly, "I-i-i can't. I'm sorry" he snapped, then out of the corner of my eye I saw a little furball run into the room, "oh hello my little baby!" I greeted my little kitten as I gathered him up into my arms, "aaaah what's that? And why are you holding it?" Alexander asked 'woah woah woah back it up! He doesn't know what a fucking cat is?' I burst out laughing "you don't" *giggle* "know what a" *fit of giggles* "cat is??" *more uncontrollable laughter*, Alexander looked very uncomfortable "a cat? Uhhhh yeah, a cat, yeah haha of course I know what a cat is!" I heard his voice stammer 'strange, what kind of supernatural creature would be foreign to human ways, not know basics about animals, like a cat...cmon that's not normal. Ok so something that lives Off of land maybe? Oh...wait.....' I had an idea, I walked out of the room towards the kitchen and as expected Alexander followed quickly behind me, I heard him stumbling...'almost as if he doesn't know how to use his legs..', as I reached the kitchen I got a glass and filled it with water and put it on the bench next to Alexander, he shrunk back away from it.."here have a drink, you must be thirsty, you almost died.." I said thoughtfully, "NO!....no I fine thanks!" Alexander practically screamed, and then just like before my cat came dashing into the kitchen "oh look the chairman is back!" I smiled "the chairman??" Alexander questioned curiously "that's his name, Chairman Meow" I replied, this boy is so amusing...and then all of a sudden Chairman jumped up onto the bench and spilled the glass of water all over the floor and onto Alexander, he looked scared and when he looked up at me his eyes glowed an aquamarine colour, and I mean glowed...'I've only seen those eyes once before...but it can't be possible there hasn't been any since about 375 years ago....' and while I was silently musing, Alexander ran out of the room, stumbling on his way..I followed him and saw him duck into the first door he passed-my bedroom-and I heard a loud 'thump!' from behind the closed door, I opened the door and was greeted by the sight of a shirtless Alexander with a glistening turquoise tail....he turned around and met my gaze and he had tear streaks down his face, "Alexander...you're a...you're a merman?" I thought out loud, I didn't need to ask the answer was right in front of me...but I felt like I needed a confirmation, "yes! I am. And now you know. And I'm not supposed to show anyone this side of me, and I'm also stuck like this on dry land...do u have any idea what will happen to me if I don't get into water....????" He ranted, he spoke so loud, I swear the words came at my like knives, 'what does he mean happen to him, get back to water?...what?...o...no...by the angel no." "You'll die? Won't you?...I thought that was just myth.." i was scared for him, "yes I'll die Eugene, I need water, NOW!" He sobbed..then I had an idea, the ocean is miles away...so...water, "Alec, does it have to be salt water. Or just water" I said hurriedly. "Just water, why?" He snapped "I've got a bath, don't ask I know you don't know what that is but they have water." I explained. I walked over and picked him up, 'FUCK he was heavy, all the extra weight of the goddamned tail.' And he started thrashing in my arms "woah what are you doing?! Eugene! Put me down!" He commanded, I smiled "no, I'm taking you to water, stop moving your heavy enough as it is!" I barked back. Moments later we had crossed the corridor and enter my large bathroom, I put Alec down in the bathtub and with a snap of my fingers filled the bathtub with Luke warm water, "better?" I asked, "ahhhh yes, it's so warm, the ocean is never this warm. Thank you" he grinned, and then drifted slowly into sleep..I left the bathroom and let him sleep. The little merman had quite the adventure today, got hit by a car, travelled by portal, had a bath, met a cat...I laughed  to myself an adventure is an understatement....but now that I think about it. Why was this Merman on land in the first place, he knows nothing about human ways or culture, which is probably why he got hit by the car in the first place, I have to find out what he's doing here. I hate to admit it, but I think this innocent blue eyed merman has stumbled his way into my heart...something no man, or woman has been able to do in over seven hundred years.

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Moonstruck

 I woke up to a strangely quite house, no traffic outside, no warm sunlight in my eyes and no Chairman meow sitting on my head, I almost believed that yesterday was a dream-except the only noise cutting through the unfamiliar silence was a splashing noise...then I heard a voice, "EUGENE GET ME OUT OF THIS DREADFUL CONTAINMENT DEVICE!!" Alec screamed, 'containment device? Oh my goodness this is entertaining' I could almost convince myself he was a banshee if it weren't for the fact that I've seen his gorgeous tail. "No need to yell sweet pea, I'll be right there!" I said breathlessly, it was hard to keep the amusement out of my voice "what the hell is a sweet pea?" Alec asked as I wandered into the ensuite, 'oh goodness me, he is so innocent-I wonder how it would be to take away his innocence' I quickly shake my head to rid myself of the thoughts, wouldn't want my dear merman to read it on my face-I would hate to scare him away before our first date; I smirked, "nothing Alec, just a nickname'' I said coyly, he looked even more confused "you do know what a nickname is, right?" I asked stunned, "of course I know what a nickname is, what do you think I am?"  Alec looked annoyed, "coming from the one who didn't know what a cat is..." I let my words drift, because I noticed something that was disturbing; "Alec look at your scales, and your marks...", merpeople have runic tattoos and they glow a gold colour with a dust like texture, it only happens during a full moon...the moon affects the tides and therefore manipulates sea creatures behaviour, Alec looked very confused as he looked down at the now glowing runic tattoos covering his upper body, "what's happening to me, why am I glowing, what are these marks??" He whimpered..."you don't know what the marks mean??" I asked stupified 'that could only mean....' "Alec how old are you?" He looked stunned by the sudden change in my tone, "I'm 18 why?" He sounded scared, "when did you turn 18, Alexander?" If he says what I think he's going to say, things are going to get very intense by sundown.."I turned 18 about 4 days ago, why?" 'Crap! This is his first full moon as a mature merman.' Remember how I told you the moon affects sea creature behaviours? Well the first full moon for a mature merperson is know as the 'mating moon', if they're around someone who they are interested in emotionally, a golden mating ribbon appears around their wrist and they will feel an incontrollable desire to seduce that person. I looked down at his wrist and it was smooth skin, I know I shouldn't be disappointed but I couldn't stop the small wave of sadness that went through me. "We need to get you out of the bath, you've been in there for almost a day..common I'll help you out" I spoke as I approached him, "ok, just watch my fins..I'm a bit cramped up." He instructed me in a husky tone, 'wait, husky? Tone...', i carefully took hold of his wrists, and as our skin touched a I felt a small spark kindle in the small distance between us, I looked up and my gaze was met by his oceanic eyes and as out eyes met his eyes flashed that spectacular aquamarine glow that is unique to merpeople. We didn't speak as I lifted him out of the bath and dried him off, when he had his human legs back, I abruptly noticed he was completely naked, and all I could see was smooth pale skin with glowing runic marks...'gosh he was gorgeous' I was brought back to reality by his voice, which sounded like it was resonating through water, it echoed..."Eugene, Eugene..look at me" he echoed, I looked up and the first thing I noticed was his eyes, they were glowing again, "Alec we should get you some clothes, you'll get a chill if you stand around naked" I gulped, trying hard not to let my eyes rest on his manhood. "But I'm comfortable, are you uncomfortable?" He asked as if he already knew the answer, 'damnnn where did all this confidence come from??' Ok I need to tell him about the moon thing now before this goes somewhere he may regret, "Alec, I'm not sure if your aware. But the first full moon a merperson experiences after the turn 18, is know as a mating moon, it makes you want to, you know." I said without stuttering, surprisingly. He flushed red, as he heard my words and realised what I meant, while he was stuck in thought I went a retrieved some clothing for him, and came back into the ensuite, at the sound of my approaching footsteps his head snapped up and he smiled shyly, I walked over and passed him the clothing, "put these on Alexander, I'll wait in the bedroom." I instructed him "thank you" he replied sweetly. I left the bathroom without gazing back at the naked man behind me, for fear that I may not be able to control myself. A few minutes later, I heard the bathroom door slide open and Alec waltzed out, obviously in an uplifted mood, I mean he just spent the night in water so of course he feels giddy. "How are you feeling Alec?" He smiled "fine, I'm feeling fine", i was about to suggest some breakfast when he suddenly appeared next to me and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled us together, before I had time to think I felt warm, soft lips crash against my own-I resisted at first but his hands tightened at the small of my back and one hand slipped into my hair a tugged gently, I couldn't contain the moan that escaped my lips, and Alec taking advantage of my open mouth slipped his tongue past my lips and began exploring the roof of my mouth, I quickly mirrored his actions and soon we were in a fight for dominance, and the only noise to be heard was our laboured breathing and the sounds of our greedy kisses, I felt something against the backs of my knees and fell backward-realising it was my bed, Alec fell with me and landed on me, I felt his muscular chest against my own and I could feel his manhood harder against my thigh, and then I realised where this was going.."Alec, stop, wait wait, it's just the moon making you do this" I huffed breathlessly, I so did not want to tell him to stop, but taking advantage of him wouldn't get me anywhere, "please, please Eugene i want this" he whimpered, I took a deep breath, "let's go get some breakfast" I said as I got off my bed and untangled myself from his arms, only then did I look outside and realise it was already getting dark, wow I guess we were making out for quite a while, the sun will be setting within the next couple hours, "ok make that dinner." I quickly corrected, I walked towards the kitchen and could hear Alec behind me, his breathing still elevated from our make-out session, when we were both seated in the love seat just outside the kitchen I counjured up some Chinese take-out and we sat quietly eating our noodles and chow mien, when we were finished eating Alec was dozing off so I cleaned up and carried the young merman to the bedroom, the bed was still disheveled from before-and I placed him down and pulled the sheets over him. I sat down with a book, against the window chair and started reading one of my favourite novels, something about a vampire falling in love with this girl, and it was so incorrect-vampires do not sparkle, who wrote this? I couldn't contain my laughter "Stephanie mayor? Meyer?" I spoke to myself, goodness these people need help. And then I heard a groan come from the bed and saw Alec shifting uncomfortably, he looked very pale and even in pain..I looked outside to see the moon had already begun to rise, "SHIT!" I jumped up and ran toward Alec, he needs water, merpeople can't spend full moons outside of water or they become human! I grabbed Alec, and he whimpered in my arms, "where are you taking me?" He asked breathlessly, his body was clammy and he had sweat beads on his forehead, "I'm taking you to the swimming pool, you need water" I responded distractedly, moments later we reached the pool, and the moonlight was glistening off its iridescent surface, casting wavering blue lines over the floor, as I neared the water, Alec's runes lit up and his eyes snapped open, he all but jumped into the water, the water bubbled around him, I couldn't see him..."ALEC!"....no response "ALEXANDER ARE YOU OK?!?", it seemed like hours but it was really only seconds later that his head surfaced above the water and the bubbling stopped, he looked at me and I could see he was in pain, trying to keep himself above the water, I jumped in to the water with a "SPLASH!" and took the merman in my arms and swam with him to the edge of the pool, he grabbed on and I relaxed a little bit, "Alec are you ok? What's happening?" I ran my hand down his back, and as our skin connected there was a angelic gold glow from his left wrist, I looked down and saw a golden band of dust appear around his wrist, 'his mating ribbon?, that means....' I was thinking to myself, when Alec looked up at me and his eyes were again, glowing that aquamarine Color that I've grow so fond of, but now they had a hint of gold near the iris, "what's this band thing on my wrist?" He asked curiously, "it's your mating ribbon" I replied astounded...as I spoke Alec doubled over in pain and started crying, "Alec? What's wrong?" He was scaring me, "it hurts, my body hurts" he whimpered, 'it's happening Eugene, you know the only way you can take away his pain... if you love him, help him' suddenly he looked at me, "please! Please make it stop, it hurts" he begged me, with tears in his eyes..."Alec, the only way to stop this pain, is to mate with the person that your mating ribbon appeared for, it's kind of like a ritual, a bonding ceremony-and since it's your first mating moon, it means your a virgin, I don't want to push you into anything your not ready for, Alexander, I love you, and I've never felt this way before..." I poured my heart out to the weeping man in front of me, "Eugene I don't care about my virginity, please just make this pain stop, I'll do anything! Just PLEASE!" He was begging me with so much force, I felt compelled to comply with his every desire, I'm unsure whether it was my own desire urging my onward or if his magic was subconsciously luring me toward him, but either way-I gave in, without thinking I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him with so much passion it would have knocked him off his feet, if it weren't for the fact that we were in water AND he had a tail, I pulled away and I had the irresistible urge to kiss his mating ribbon, and as I did Alec let out a pleased moan, and it sent tingles straight through my body, and I felt my body react in ways it's never done before, and it felt incredible..as my lips left his wrist, there was a blinding blue glow from beneath the surface of the water, and when it subsided Alec was in the water with a completely human body-he slipped under the water, and I realised he didn't know how to swim with human legs 'the irony, I'm saving a merman from possibly drowning' I grasped him and pulled him towards the shallow water, I straddled his waist and realised he was naked and is hard-on was pressing into me, we both let out a surprised moan, I was pleased to see the pleasure all over Alec's face, "please.please don't stop Eugene" the words came out in one breath and slightly slurred, but I obeyed my new lover and I grinned against him, and as he let out a moan of pure ecstasy I brought our lips together with so much force I could taste blood, and I slipped my tongue inside the warm embrace of his mouth and was met with his welcoming tongue, we kissed for what seemed like hours, with our lower bodies meeting with increasingly demanding movements, "Eugene please, please, I can't take anymore, please I need this." He begged me, "how do you want to do this?" I asked, and he looked at me confused "what do you mean?" He asked, "I'm assuming you know how gay sex works, do you want to be bottom or top?" I asked, god I wish there was a way to do this that wasn't so awkward. "Umm I guess, I mean I'll probably try both, but I guess I'll go bottom first. Since I don't know what to do, you take the lead" he said determinedly, "are you sure? Bottom hurts the first time" I needed to confirm, before continuing, "yes, Eugene I want you inside me" he spoke quickly, and his face flushed red as he realised what he said, I moaned from the desperation written on every one of his facial features, I brought our lips back together and we continued peacefully, before I laid him down and kissed slowly and sensually down his torso, I reached his navel, and glanced up for permission-I was greeted by a swift nod, and I took him into my mouth slowly..."ahhhhh Eugene" he moaned, and bucked his hips up, we continued like that for a while and then I brought my mouth away from his member with a 'pop!'. "darling, this will be easier if we move..." i gazed at him and he simply nodded in agreement, so I picked him up and carried him to the outdoor couch that was just outside the pool, and dropped him down with a 'phoomp', and he smirked up at me knowingly, I snapped my fingers and conjured my favourite brand of lube from my bedside table and coated my fingers generously, I looked at him and he nodded encouragingly and I pressed my fingers to his entrance gently, and he tensed almost Immediately, "shhhh calm down sweet pea, it will feel better if you relax, it only hurts for a short while, but it feels amazing after, I promise" I cooed in an attempt to soothe his nerves, when I felt his muscles relax I pushed past his entrance with one finger and pressed onward until I was up to my knuckle and Alec let out a pained cry, after a few moments Alec open his eyes and nodded for me to continue, I slowly began moving my finger, and soon Alec was moaning without the slightest urge to control himself, "ahhhhhh Eugene, yes, please, more, faster, harder!!" He commanded me, and I willingly obeyed, I removed my finger and quickly plunged back in with two fingers, and Alec screamed my name "EUGENE!!!", I heard no pain in his voice, only pleasure, which surprised me as most people found two fingers painful at first, but I didn't argue I just pumped my fingers into him roughly and curled my fingers in search of that spot inside him, and after a few moments of searching, he bucked his hips against my fingers and let out a desperate moan, "OH MY GOD, EUGENE, AHHHH" I saw his face scrunch up in pleasure, and I noticed rather painfully that my pants were becoming increasingly restrictive, so I snapped my spare hand and made clothing disappear, I haven't the slightest idea where I just magically sent my clothes, but I hope I can find them-that shirt was from Armani, Alec's desperate voice brought me back to the present, I really need to stop zoning out, "EUGENE, I NEED YOUUUU," he cried "please! Now!" He begged me shamelessly, and I was too aroused to press the point, so I removed my fingers, and Alec let out a displeased sound and the sudden emptiness, and I positioned myself at his entrance, and pushed myself into Alec slowly, it was painful to go so slow, but I didn't want to hurt my little merman. After a few seconds our hips met, and I was buried deep inside the warmth that was Alec, and I looked up at my lover to see if he was ok, and he opened his eyes and a single tear slipped down his cheek, "shhhhh it's ok, it will feel better, I won't move until you say you're ok to continue" I assured him, and he smiled lovingly up at me, after a few minutes I felt Alec relax around me, and he nodded for me to continue, so I slowly withdrew and slammed myself all the way back in, and Alec let out the most beautiful sound I've ever heard....

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We continued like that for a while, and then I felt a familiar feeling deep in my abdomen, I felt my muscles tighten, and I sped up my thrusts, and I felt Alec tighten around me..."Eugene! I-I'm g-gonna!! Ahhh" Alec tried to speak but was overwhelmed by all the new sensations coursing through him, "I know Alec-ahh-me t-too" I cried..after a few more desperate thrusts I felt Alec's body tighten around me and Alec screamed my name as he rode out his orgasm, moments later my thrusts were falling out of rythym and I let go deep inside Alec. And we both cried each others name as we rode out our orgasms. I rolled off of Alec and landed on the couch next to him, we were both sweaty and tired, I rested my head on his shoulder "I love you Alec" I breathed shakily "I love you too, thank you, it doesn't hurt anymore." He sounded happy, I knew he was talking about the pain of the full moon instead of the pain of our mind blowing sex. "Anytime darling" I mumbled and we both drifted off into a quiet and blissful sleep, under the stars, with the water reflecting the moonlight against our glistening bodies....everything was perfect, but that was all about to change....

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