The pitter patter the constant sound motion rhythm it looks so peaceful yet so rough down down it goes colliding mingling with one stream of water after the other creates a sound Rush a complete rush as the water mingle together in the orchestra and a symphony the noise that causes you to stop and listen this is the sound of water so relaxing to the ears makes you melt away all the stress in your body seems to just ease with the rhythm of the noise that pounds in your eardrums there’s something mystical about water sitting there being near it and looking at it it looks so free so mesmerizing without care the ripples the waves all of it it just remind you how you should be with life not take life so controlling can’t control anything it just happens you have to go with the flow and thus be at ease and rested whatever comes your way and have control of your reactions to what’s happening to you and around you and direct and channel your energy in a positive way waterfalls have a way of teaching us about life sit by a waterfall and just watch the water see what lesson you can learn by just looking at it seeing how is just so free falling and there’s no controlling it just flows and goes this is how we are to be with life and we take it this way please choose to understand that we don’t control anything just be at rest in peace with everything that happened to us and choose our reactions to it this is the only place we have controls reactions so listen to the sound of water close your eyes let it teach you

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Someone is sneezing someone is coughing every turn you know there are germs as a child Mommy’s always wipe your hands with the sanitizer right remember that remember to stay away from people that are sick she said but did you know there’s another type of germ that is floating around it is called the flu no I’m not talking about the flu but I’m talking about the flu it is that attitude that we catch everybody has a flu bug they carry around with them it can be sour they can be positive can be negative they can be downright ugly people don’t care what kind of germs they carry around they don’t wash their hands every day they carry germs on their minds bad experiences devastating memory sad days abusive memories as a child trauma losing a loved one all these are germs you need to wash your hands every day so that we can not be sick all the time with these bad bugs and we can walk around and be mostly healthy and emotionally well let’s get rid of the flu Shall we

You stand in the middle in the open people are staring at you feel out of place and you are because you don’t understand anything that is being spoken around you you’re in a foreign land everyone is speaking in a dialect it sounds like heaven too your ears kind of sharp a little low you kind of Smile as you look at each person’s speaking as if to say that you don’t understand them you find a couple sitting at a table and they are talking in their language you decide to go up to each person say hello, and that you speak English they decide that it is lovely that you want to sit with them they speak english too you decide that instead of speaking English you will like to learn a few of their own words they are so happy and amused that you want to be in their circle and learn they are more than happy to teach you you try to speak the words you struggle love it they laugh and you laugh 2 you have communicated through laughter this is the Beautiful art of learning a new language you can connect with laughter start there then you continue to learn gets better and better with each step learning and you have learned the new language this is the beauty of diversity as well

Sometimes we shall hear people tell us to just suck it up what is that really mean suck it up who came out with that phrase anyway when you look at a waterfall you see water it’s gushing out when you see a baby who gets hurt they cry that gush out emotion how are we supposed to suck up emotion this is not healthy for a human to do if you feel pain it’s okay to cry if you feel sad it’s okay to talk about it and let it out if your angry find a creative way to express your anger words are powerful don’t use your hands to hit use creative techniques to release emotion abstract art poetry singing music creating rap music there’s all kinds of techniques to use to release emotion we are emotional creatures safley essential that we learn how to release our emotions in a healthy way this is the brain’s way of letting us know how to treat our bodies release your emotions today laughter is an essential emotion 30 minutes of laughter is like aerobic exercise for the body so laugh a lot loneliness people die from loneliness 80% of people die from loneliness so get a friend learn how to communicate try to talk to people more often surround yourself with people that understand you that love you care about you express yourself that’s the bottom line

You get out of bed you don’t know what to do you look around the room you know you have to get dressed why not wear the best outfit in your closet show up for your life every single day by looking the best in the beginning of the day because you’re going to go through the day and you’re going to look for worse and worse so why not start out looking the best take a nice shower and make sure you smell really really fresh and clean make sure your teeth are sparkly White that’s a good idea we’re all raised as having these routines as children I think it’s programming routine they help us to stay focused and on track maybe your routine can be to go to the gym and exercise workout or to get a coffee or hot chocolate with a friend in the morning or to write a nice letter to your partner before you leave or making love with your partner it could be a variety of things but we function better when we have a routine or something that jump start our day in the morning that way we have something that makes us feel familiar routines help with people that have depression I began having a routine and I started to become way more organized and focused and not looking at my emotions to direct every little thing I did this help me get out of my depression rut so try having a routine try to write the schedule out for yourself something visible that you can see everyday work on it yourself but it does work for me.

Look up at the ceiling fan it seems to be going a little slower today you realize you’re not feeling tired just for nothing it’s the beginning of another week this is always the hardest day for you to drag your body out of the Thundering covers you have no one there to jump on you and tell you get up let’s go all you have is an old rickety alarm clock that doesn’t seem to work in fact you don’t even care if it works or not because you don’t even like to get out of bed anymore this is what is come to you didn’t realize it was just this bad yet who’s going to call you to tell you good morning whos going to tell you they’re happy to see you you don’t even have the energy to think that far in advance it’s like going up on roller coaster you hear the sound of the tracks as you go up up up up and you’re anticipating the fall down into utter ecstasy and excitement here on the roller coaster and you can’t get off your about to hit the peak which is Monday but depression you feel like your already at the bottom trying to make your way back up to the top of the ride of life but you’re not surprised because you can deal with this for some time now look in the mirror try to make your face look a little alive it’s difficult to see the lines on your face they show up story you don’t like to look in the mirror it’s just too much for you to handle so you keep mirrors away makes you feel better about yourself depression sucks

It’s been 2 days the door has been locked you’ve been in your room sadness is like a covering around you you stare at the White Walls you’re trying to imagine what it’s like to feel like that to be invisible to just exist to be there you cry your eyes are wet with tears you just lay there and toss and turn your not tired you just don’t feel like getting out of the bed your body feels like a million pounds heavy surrounded by sadness someone knocks on the door you don’t even want to hear the sound of your own voice go away you say in a whisper but you have to go to work right so you get up and get dressed and you reach for your favorite thing your dark sunglasses

You feel a sadness come over you don’t try to understand the sadness keep moving try to keep yourself moving and stay busy maybe solve a math problem use different parts of your brain maybe play a game on your cell phone try to jumpstart your brain in different areas to try to distract it from focusing on the sadness that is overwhelming your body at that moment in time our brains are wired to respond to how emotional we are so if you feel sadness come over you don’t try to analyze the sadness instead get yourself moving and get really busy to try to distract yourself from focusing on the overwhelming feeling of dread sadness despair doubt all of that try to distract your mind from focusing and analyzing the feeling that’s coming over your body this will help too shock your system into functioning and be a more analytical and not emotional it’ll allow your brain to use the other side of itself so you don’t become more sad and more depressed

Eyes open slowly the house looks gloomy you peer out the window it looks gray the clouds are not there a soft sadness and instills the air outside is it going to rain or storm this morning you wonder a slow and steady Rumble Pierces the soft Morning Dew of air you started here drops coming down it is about to storm the rumble comes and goes as you lie in the bed listening to the rumbles coming from your bedroom window you Sigh and roll over this has you not wanting to leave your bedroom window you Sigh and lie over again it is relaxing to lie in the grey sound and feeling of the thunderstorm in the wee hours of the morning thunder storms can be relaxing too you know

eems like another day has come and gone you begin to reminisce about all the things that happened that day you sigh and you scratch your head you realize you have a little bit of tension in your forehead you look around you nobody seems to notice but you have tension all inside of your body what happened today what did you do you begin to ask yourself questions you’re in tune with yourself this is good continue to be that way all of a sudden everything you can see it dizzy you feel like you’re spinning around and around this is you this is life you’re going from one stop to the next one circumstance to the next one emotional place to the next making stops in your mind stops of fear stops with anguish stops of depression stops of loneliness stops of Happiness stops of joy this is your journey through life and you continue to be a passenger in your own life as you look outside of the windows of this ride of your life you see lots of scenery you see people that give up they commit suicide kill themselves you’re not going to get off on that stop no that’s not you you continue to drive you see some stops for people are gossiping and be betraying others you’re not getting off on that stop either that’s not you to continue to ride because this is your life this is the ride of your life and just like the song says the wheels on the bus go round and round and all life happens while you ride so continue to ride and don’t get off until it’s your time how do you know when your time is simply by staying in tune to your inner self staying focused on your mental health this is how you know who you are what you are and we will become because the wheels on the bus will continue to go round and round your life activity will continue to happen and the only control you have how you react to the scenery and the various stops that this bus makes in life and you cannot get off so sit tight and enjoy the journey

Going through life and walking slow you come across Terrain you’re walking on land you’re on planet Earth you come across terrain of different kinds of Trials different kinds of problems but you keep walking occasionally you get a rock in your shoe what happens when you get a rock in your shoe the journey becomes a little bit more difficult if you can begin to limp a little bit more what is the rock the rock can be a death of a loved one that can be mental hospitalization it can mean attempted suicide it can be your desire to give up it can be deep dark days of depression where you lay in bed and lose sleep it can be a break in a relationship can be a heart ache and hurt issue It can be a health problem that you have to live with for the rest of your life this is called The Rock in your shoe but you can’t stop walking through life you have to keep moving even though you feel the discomfort this is called being brave everybody has to be brave at some point in their life because we’re all walking on planet Earth and bad things happen to good people life is not fair so just continue to walk with The Rock in your shoe

There are many relationships where It can go kind of sour but when you look into your Lover’s Eyes what do you see do you see the person that has followed you through many problems who’s been there for you who has been your best partner companion in life what do you see many of us have dogs they say a dog is a man’s best friend dogs can sense things that other people cannot that is why they’re called mans best friend so when you’re tempted to look around and compare your relationship to other people remember to look at your partner and remember that they know the deepest and most inner parts of yourself so be content and Love the One You’re With

You’re strong always have been strong everybody looks to you for advice they look to you to be the strong pillar in the midst of the storm the house is about to fall but what are you supposed to do when you’re about to fall yourself your an inner deep person you keep all your feelings to yourself nobody understands you you don’t have anyone to talk to but God about your deepest struggles about your deepest fears you are a mask of strength but you really are a very weak person can’t handle a lot but you do it because you love other people and you don’t want to see them afraid so you put more on yourself than you realize you can handle what happens when you become obviously weak to yourself mentally weak this is where you need to ask for help this is very difficult to do but it must be done whether you realize it or not because just like a broken pillar you can crack and it would be impossible to fix because it could be a break a bad break maybe somewhere in the middle that won’t be able to be repaired again so get the help that you need and don’t be afraid to ask for help because even pillars can fall sometimes

You look around you don’t even know what to do all you know is that you’re tired of breathing the pain is just too great to Bear you know you have people that say they love you but it’s falls on deaf ears all you hear is the beating of your own heart and even that songs to devastating for you to bear you want to die but you’re too young and you don’t want to wait you want to be in control of your own destiny so you decide you want to kill yourself this is called suicide one person commits suicide every 10 seconds this is an epidemic and continues to be an epidemic what you don’t know is you are creating a generational curse on yourself and your children once you commit suicide other people will remember that you gave up and they will come to a hard point in their life and they will remember what you did and then we’ll do the same thing so don’t create a generational curse over your bloodline and your closest Circle choose to continue to carry on and do the best you can but don’t kill yourself suicide never stops being suicide

Your feet moving quickly across the cement you have a pep in your step the air moves past your face as you walk swiftly through the breeze the sound of people talking walking past you moving faster and faster with each passing step energy in this kind of life when you get out and jump up and go there gives purpose and meaning to life we look at the swamps more where crocodiles live and work is a very quiet and water is very stagnant and slow and that’s where the crocodiles like to lay around it’s kind of a lifestyle is drudgery they are lazy very sad there’s no movement there’s no activity no action there’s power in motion so get up and move depression can only live in a stagnant environment so move around walk go quickly do things quickly to get out of the stagnant of the horrible situation of depression it’s hard but it will come with time

Tight also small you are so nervous you have waited all your life for this moment should you undress yourself wait no but maybe let me see what does he do first okay I guess you should do it too then lie down and wait or what now questions dancing in your head you lie down legs apart the soft feel of something enters your body should you stiffen or just relax just relax you decide you have lost your virginity

Where’s my shirt a feel a tug on your arm you slowly open your eyes and realize your daughter is pulling on your arm you have been awakened from a dream in the night the dreams that you dream are like floating bubbles you can’t remember everything about them and the more you wake up it’s like you’re slowly popping those bubbles and they’re getting more and more distant from memory this is what it’s like to have dreams in the night you scratch your head to try to remember but you cannot almost like you’ve been on a distant vacation on a distant memory Far Far Away these are the dreams in the night then you can begin to float on soft clouds with cotton back to sleep you go you close your eyes maybe the dream is good so good that you want to go back to it but you can’t find those memories you can’t find where you left off so you just eventually eventually shrug your shoulders mentally and close your eyes and slowly relax because the bottom line is you cannot control the dreams in the night dreams in the night is your way of getting away on mini mini small vacation your mind’s way of releasing all the anguish maybe pain or even fears that you may feel but you cannot express your mind has a way of manifesting it through your subconscious this is a very delicate area of the Mind where only your deepest thoughts are exploited these things have a dream in the night

You feel a sadness come over you don’t try to understand the sadness keep moving try to keep yourself moving and stay busy maybe solve a math problem use different parts of your brain maybe play a game on your cell phone try to jumpstart your brain in different areas to try to distract it from focusing on the sadness that is overwhelming your body at that moment in time our brains are wired to respond to how emotional we are so if you feel sadness come over you don’t try to analyze the sadness instead get yourself moving and get really busy to try to distract yourself from focusing on the overwhelming feeling of dread sadness despair doubt all of that try to distract your mind from focusing and analyzing the feeling that’s coming over your body this will help too shock your system into functioning and be a more analytical and not emotional it’ll allow your brain to use the other side of itself so you don’t become more sad and more depressed

You fall down you break your hip you suffer from depression you have a headache that won’t go away you get in a car accident have multiple injuries what happens they put you on a drug you take the medication you fall down you bring your head you suffer from depression you have a headache that won’t go away you get in a car accident have multiple injuries what happens they put you on a trunk you take the medication you look around the world seems more calm were peaceful your pain is not there anymore you like this feeling you go to the doctor he asked you how are you feeling you like this feeling of euphoria being on the medication you look him in the eye and try to be as honest you can but you cannot you ask for a refill he gives it to you you take it home and you begin to add a little bit of alcohol to heighten the effect of the medication before you know it you’re going back over and over again to get medication until your doctor says no Then you begin to look for it in other ways it’s become an opioid addiction your children notice a difference in your behavior but you just blow it off next thing you know you’re on the couch you can’t get up and take a shower you’re drinking alcohol and taking medication you have an opioid addiction you need to get help and get it quickly your children are crying watching you change and suffer please help yourself

Have you ever lost a dog or puppy when you were a child you know that sinking feeling you get when you’re running around calling their names you begin to sniff wipe your tears pacing looking calling their name can’t find them you’re a little what do you know you have a knot in your stomach began to be sad you go to sleep that night thinking about that puppy that precious little animal that you love so dear you cry in the night thinking where could they be in the alley getting hurt somewhere then you realize as you get older the same feeling happens to you again when you lose a loved one you’re searching for them deep inside of your thoughts you run around the crevices of your heart looking for a memories of that person you never want them to leave they are lost just like the little puppy you have when you were little this is the loss of a loved one you’re experiencing it all over again just in an adult body this is sad

ometimes you just don’t feel like smiling sometimes you just don’t you feel like looking at another person smile and makes you feel even worse the look of a happy person can actually make you even more depressed as you realize the ultimate deprivation and horribleness of your own state of being this is really a sad state to be in but the power of laughter is absolutely amazing you know that yourself as you have laughed at yourself many times Maybe by accident or maybe with a friend or maybe you can remember a time that you burst into laughter with someone else how it made you feel text you on an instant vacation just laughing you’re all born laughing babies like to laugh that’s the first thing that happens when they communicate they let out a little giggle starts with a little smile then it turns into a giggle and everyone is so excited for that laugh the same way we laugh with depression we surprised our own selves with the joy that we feel when we actually open ourselves up to this experience of unity with humanities like a mini vacation

You stand in the middle in the open people are staring at you feel out of place and you are because you don’t understand anything that is being spoken around you you’re in a foreign land everyone is speaking in a dialect it sounds like heaven too your ears kind of sharp a little low you kind of Smile as you look at each person’s speaking as if to say that you don’t understand them you find a couple sitting at a table and they are talking in their language you decide to go up to each person say hello, and that you speak English they decide that it is lovely that you want to sit with them they speak english too you decide that instead of speaking English you will like to learn a few of their own words they are so happy and amused that you want to be in their circle and learn they are more than happy to teach you you try to speak the words you struggle love it they laugh and you laugh 2 you have communicated through laughter this is the Beautiful art of learning a new language you can connect with laughter start there then you continue to learn gets better and better with each step learning and you have learned the new language this is the beauty of diversity as well

The pitter patter the constant sound motion rhythm it looks so peaceful yet so rough down down it goes colliding mingling with one stream of water after the other creates a sound Rush a complete rush as the water mingle together in the orchestra and a symphony the noise that causes you to stop and listen this is the sound of water so relaxing to the ears makes you melt away all the stress in your body seems to just ease with the rhythm of the noise that pounds in your eardrums there’s something mystical about water sitting there being near it and looking at it it looks so free so mesmerizing without care the ripples the waves all of it it just remind you how you should be with life not take life so controlling can’t control anything it just happens you have to go with the flow and thus be at ease and rested whatever comes your way and have control of your reactions to what’s happening to you and around you and direct and channel your energy in a positive way waterfalls have a way of teaching us about life sit by a waterfall and just watch the water see what lesson you can learn by just looking at it seeing how is just so free falling and there’s no controlling it just flows and goes this is how we are to be with life and we take it this way please choose to understand that we don’t control anything just be at rest in peace with everything that happened to us and choose our reactions to it this is the only place we have controls reactions so listen to the sound of water close your eyes let it teach you

There are a lot of things in life that you need a license for a license to drive in a license to drink in a license to get married when you look at people’s faces what do you see walk down your local Street and try to catch the eyes of people that are walking by their eyes are avoiding you why is that why are we ashamed to look at each other’s faces is there such a void and coldness that we built up such a wall that we can’t even acknowledge the person that’s walking right beside us are we so afraid of what’s happening in our society that we are just like ice cubes brushing each other as we passed one another’s existence we live in a world where people are hurting and suffering silently even though there’s more technology and more people being born every second of every day we continue to thrive in a cold environment have you ever just stopped and looked at your environment and wonder why this is happening and ask yourself are we happy I’ve been truly happy the thing is you don’t need a license to be happy happiness is something that comes when you choose to channel your energies in a positive way and in a way that will increase your focus on the positive and it’s all about your reactions to things that you can choose to react to things in a good way then you can choose to wire your brain for happiness you don’t need a license to be happy just choose your reactions to what’s happening to you life is 90% of how you react to it and 10% of what happens to you

You look around you the first thing you noticed is that there are people staring at you do you have something on your nose you wonder is there something wrong with what you’re wearing you don’t know so you continue to act as if you don’t notice then someone says something out of the blue you look up to see someone saying you’re sitting in my seat you didn’t even know they were assigned seats in the movie theater you’re a good person you don’t want to cause any problems so you kindly and politely say okay no problem I’ll move my seat you look up and realize this person is jealous of you

Everybody knows that the devil is the father of Lies so what are you to do when someone looks you in the eye and tell us you something your heart is beating faster and faster and you believe them because everybody wants to believe things that are positive and things that they want to believe even children are this way of you promised them that you’re going to do something they believe you it’s just an innate for us to believe other people what are you do when someone looks you in the eye lovingly and tells you and promises you something as an adult and you put your entire heart and soul into what they tell you and then it turns out to be a lie this is deceitful but it happens to many of us this is hurtful it is a sore on Humanity a cut uncut the deep cut in the heart of humanity that people lie and are deceptive to one another where did this come from this blood sucking life taking devastating experience leaves many people without hope in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation there are many hearts out there hurting because of lies and deception don’t let your mouth speak anything but the truth because the truth is what really sets people free in the end

Nerves on edge voice feels a bit more strain for some reason why are you so nervous you like to sing write all the black walls in the microphone in front of you makes your entire body tense up until a lot of tension you decide to try to breathe in and out and just try to relax just think only the best thoughts and positivity can muster up this takes a lot of energy but you are determined to do it because you don’t want to waste your time and money you open your mouth and begin to sing a beautiful Melody

Stomach in knots every time everytime something goes right All eyes on me when things go bad people look for a way to transfer all the negative feelings onto me why you have issues to like everyone else does why do you want me to be mostly looked at when I have all the issues to make yourself feel better of course I began to take slow breaths everywhere I turn you are a shadow of a past or a mistake that I’ve done stop using me as a black sheep you have issues to look at yourself for once please

eyes are working speeches good you can actually walk now your seizures are better what is happening all the sudden you are more stressed why maybe it was better to be sick because you didn’t care about people’s bad attitude they’re trying to control your life the way you were feeling you were so caught up in trying to make it through another day that was your main focus and plan for your life everything else was an important so maybe cancer was a gift it taught you about what really matters in life

What is that another sharp pain my eyes widen as I try to figure out why it is happening again I take a deep breath as if to release the pain throbbing in my head I’m living with a brain tumor inside it’s quite a monster sometimes as it’s quiet then I can make loud screams like it does now as long as I don’t bother it it doesn’t bother me but we have to learn how to get along

Knots in stomach my heart is hurting aching I grab my chest and try to swallow what is happening to me I grab onto papers anything to distract the pain the pain of utter shock despair disappointment sorrow and woe I can’t think straight my eyes are flooded with tears why did I allow myself to get so deep into the situation anyway no back-up plan or nothing this is not like me I like control how did I end up out of control I put my whole life emotions on the line and got completely disappointed I look at pictures of myself happy and try to make sense of all this what now anger tears then more sobbing I have a broken heart

Tiny hands baby feet smiling so sweetly your heart is awake and alive you feel so soft inside the babies mouth is small yet also delicate you are a mother now the soft scent of New Life lingers in the air your man kisses your forehead wet it was but now it is not you have brought new life into the world you are a family

A nice flutter hits the air and the sweet scent of Trials being over has come to your senses your survive the test many people nodded their head at you they thought you would never rise up again but look at God now the knife Cuts deep into your belly you’re in another trial and predicament the tenseness begin to surface but you just remember to take deep slow breaths you cant come away from your inner self it is called peace

A soft gentle breeze hits your face only you can fill it’s wetness along with the rain of your deepest darkest fears the voices seem to be louder this time you plug your ears and complete despair when will they stop people are looking at you harder and you feel more naked than ever before you aren’t being born again into this life and into a presence of Eternal being a being that transpires all the feelings that human can feel in bodily form so can you stop the rain no you cannot so just get out your emotional cover and get ready for the next on coming emotional upheaval you cannot stop the rain welcome to mental illness

Stand Tall be proud of your body it is your temple it is sacred don’t look around you your temple is unique special not like anyone elses don’t judge me look at yourself my body is designed to house my personality my passions my inhibitions my longings my desires my cravings and everything creative about me leave me alone

Try to login to the internet no connection try to make a call disconnection try to get access to money lost password you are trapped controlled everwhere you turn someone’s there to lock you in what to do just give up no that’s not your style at all so you just breathe and keep fighting don’t ever settle for less you keep pushing and pushing and persist this is natural for you you thrive under pressure and resistance diamonds are created under pressure so shine like a diamond

Eyes Wide Open dancing at the rhythm of a sexy ass as he moves utter Bliss inside and bite my hand to stop a burst of pleasure from escaped in my warm moist lips I begin to blush he turns to me looks deep into my eyes he seems to be reading my own thoughts and I’m sorry to sweat and be completely lost in the moment my heart is beating 1,000 miles per hour he just Smiles the energy is calm.

My eyes are overwhelmed with love you look deeply into my soul you speak with your smile your lips are singing Sweet Melody of Love Forever After I rub my eyes to see if I’m Dreaming you’re still standing there so open-hearted and loving dear sweet lover my heart my passion my everything my one and only

Spitting hissing slapping yelling pointing of fingers all this venom so poisonous where is its source who taught this to them werent we born so pure so innocent so loving so pure so kind and impartial to all now we throw stones and look at the color of skin whatever happened how did this germ of racism in infest and fester our human species you duck as a bullet whizzes past your head you’re staring into the dark eyes of racism

A stab in the heart a blast of the head from a gun so sudden so unexpected I thought things were fine but they were not i am like a rug something has come from under me I can only stare into the dark now it is quiet I can feel my tears on my face they sound like thunder all my life flashing before my eyes I was given months to live and I feel like I have already died emotionally rape is too good word for this the ultimate betrayal of trust is divorce

Moans groans cries of Despair the pounding of waves creaking noise all around is that my language I hear baby screaming the stench of harsh order stings the belly of hell where are we going in this dark place of Hell the white ghost just beat us to pieces flesh peeling off my black skin festering wounds yellow pus on Deck we jump ship death is our Bitter Sweet Escape women’s screaming as the ghosts tears her to pieces in sexual gratification what is that monster following in his dark belly of hell it looks hungry I may jump like everyone else why not he is eating them why not me too I run and take a leap only to be pulled back by a white gold teeth yellow and eyes dark hairy bearded bad breath others and growls slaps me to the ground and cause me n***** is this my new name I try to stand only to be smashed down with a hard object that is on the ghost foot what is that thing and makes noises as he walks in them he kicks with them my brothers and sisters in the stomach this white ghost is mean we are his enemy but why

Stupid I’m not playing with you anymore he sniffs wipes his face why is he being attacked he’s a nice boy listen to parents goes to class on time but he has become a Target kids spit go and call him names he has many of them bullies

Kisses touches a gentle caress a softball just to let you know how much you are needed this is the gentle enough to reminders you need to know how much your children love you so you keep going with your life and to never ever give up on life no matter how hard things get you’re a parent and your kids love you no matter what you do or how life beats you up so just roll the punches And The Beat Goes On

Sound of steps in the hallway I wipe my brow my heart beats faster to try to must make sense of this place all dressed in blue why are we floating we look like ghosts everyone is in a trance we are drugged welcome to the mental hospital

So dark and distant empty space pierces the Deep a tear Falls another sad day has begun night is over sweat has been poured out pillow wet who to turn to now what to do and how so many unanswered questions in the spiral of confusion in anguish. depression sucks

As children mommy told us don’t take the cookies out the cookie jar everybody was huddled around the cookie jar after mommy bake the cookies as we grow older is a lot of opportunities for us to take cookies out the cookie jar a lot of us are thinking like that that we don’t want to take chances you know our brains are designed to protect us have you ever had an idea to do something and then the next thing you know you don’t want to do it anymore that is your brains job to protect you from disappointment so never trust your brain you need to train your brain to take risk and to do above-average everything so if you feel fear that is your sign to act and do it don’t step away do it fear is your indicator to do something the brain is designed to protect you from failure so take the Cookie Out the Cookie Jar

The sound of a baby crying for its mother a woman sits there on a park bench she looks across her eyes looks sad what is the matter her womb is empty she can’t have a baby longing inside of her is yearning and she watches the child walk to his mother and call her name she calls her mommy a tear begins to form in her eye how much she longs to hear that voice spoken to her a small still voice calling her mommy she touches her stomach imagining it being full of life it is empty this is the yearning of every woman to bring life into the world but she cannot she suffers from infertility

Sneaky like a snake the cells multiply they gather in one area why the brain no one knows it fails to go to any other part of the body except the brain this is a strange process in the body these cells are very very particular they like to attack the brain the brain cells why are they attacking our brain this is devastating the brain is the main heart beat of the body you get brain cancer basically you have to look at your life and really realize this may just be the end but you have to fight because the mind is a powerful thing as a man thinketh so is he so you have the driver seat to this disease by how you treat and react to it and treat it so never give up keep fighting this is the power of controlling the body is taking over the brain so fight and fight hard.

You shrug your shoulders nobody seems to care you look around nobody seems to look back you go to the mountains go to the lowest Valley people they don’t communicate effectively but you you are a treasure House of insightful information your view of the world is different than others the way you see things how you view life your children your husband mother your father your grandparents everyone is affecting you and giving off some kind of a Vibe of emotional frequency in your world you get a paper you find a pen you begin to think what kind of world do I live in her all these people are affecting me questions begin to flood your brain pen goes to paper and you begin to write you are a poet

Water we all play in water as children there is something about water that makes us feel safe Comfort you like to play have fun but as we older the water is not so often at the swimming pool we often find ourselves wiping water from our own beautiful precious delicate cheeks life is not what we thought it was going to be a lot of Sorrow a lot of pain bit of heartache what’s happened to us now we dance in the waterfalls of our own teardrops

The energy the quietness the Stillness between two people that have just met in a moment’s time the universe standstill as they gaze into one another’s eyes a feeling of longing is building between the two as their lips meet goes very slow the world seems to pause and stand still there is complete silence but the gentle touch of Two Souls meeting just two lips is the music that creates a symphony of emotion between two people that have never known each other an entire lifetime and is called the kiss

ou look around you see cars you see people you see children playing you look up in the sky you see clouds you see the sun see the birds I really seems to be so busy you stand isolated alone you think to yourself am I really existing in this busy World why do I feel so isolated so alone you look to your hands you wiggle then you are alive yet you feel so not alive you take a sigh a breath to breathe in the fresh Cool Breeze to your nostrils you have a deep deep desire and longing for someone to understand you for some to know what you’re going through so you close your eyes and you do what you’re always taught to do you say a prayer all the sudden you began to feel a little better you start to feel understood to be understood as a basic need of every human being on the planet even for people who go through depression

The clouds look a bit more blue today darkish blue the covers are heavy you see as you move them out of the way and it’s time to get up what are you going to do are you going to die do you want to kill yourself today or will you choose to live and fight through another heavy day of terminal and emotional Oblivion that churns inside of your darkest places of your heart that no one understands but you depression has become a way of life but you don’t know how to get out your suffering you’re hurting no one understands this let you what now

The Gentle Touch of your niece or nephew on your arm saying I love you Auntie I love you Uncle the smile of a stranger as you pass by in the street the song Cool Breeze that folds your hair on a windy day the Sun that kisses your forehead when you seem to be a little bit down the taste of ice cream the gentle Whisper of a loved one in your ear at night before you go to bed a hug tender look of gratitude a thank you all of these are seen as life’s Little Blessings when you suffer from depression

People they lie people they gossip people they speak lies people speak about others The Power of Words is always been realized over the course of nature what you speak you become what are you saying to yourself every day when you wake up in the morning what is the first thing that comes into your head are you aware of what you’re thinking or are you just letting any old thing come in out the power of words in your mind are even more important research shows that what you think you become so the first thought that comes in your head in the morning is usually how your day goes so the Power of Words P stands for persistent be persistent and your desire to overcome negative words in your head o stands for overcoming overcome your desire to be negative W stands for words make sure your words are positive e stands for every everyday make sure you are practicing until this becomes a perfect habit for you R stands for repetition do it everyday it takes 6 times to become a habit we are creatures of habit so keep practicing and make it repetitious to make your words powerful and positive everyday as a man thinketh so is he

The hurt the pain that Agony the feeling of being lost alone in a hot desert Sandy place in your brain parched thirsty no water in sight this is the feeling of being depressed your feet are heavy as you look ahead you think there’s water there’s none we get there it’s just a mirage you see you look around you can’t talk your mouth is full of sand no one understands you what to do the pain is so intense so deep you can’t express it so you need to see it this is where the knife comes into the picture take the knife and you begin to cut the sight of blood makes you realize you are alive you can actually see the pain that gives you some sort of relief this is such a sad state to be in but you can’t help yourself people look at you wonder if you’re okay you can’t tell them your secret but it’s coming out scars this scar means that something was trying to hurt you but it didn’t

You can do it mom and dad always told you this or maybe they didn’t maybe somebody said they believed and you may be a teacher or could be somebody why do these just seem to go away as time goes by in the voices of your nothing or you are just such a stupid person or you’ll never amount to anything those voices began to shout louder why is that why are we more prone to hear the mean bad voices and we are to hear the good encouraging of lifting ones we need to reach hannelore energy and our mind to the positive messages that were given to us as little children and raise the volume of those voices and lower the volumes of the voices that were negative this is amazing energy in this practice this is learning how to love yourself

What is the first thing that happens when a baby is born they breathe they gasp air and in the huge scream then take the first breath of life this is the same way we are as people we need other people we need to be surrounded by certain stimuli to awaken our inner senses and sense the belonging I like to call it the breath of life it’s a way of inhaling oxygen into our soul into our spirit depression deprives us of that Breath of Life become alienated we can’t breathe they suffocate our ourselves in the space of tight loneliness and despair are you going to become more self-loathing you don’t love yourself anymore you don’t feel the need to be involved with anyone anymore we cut ourselves off from communicating with others to resort to painful mechanisms and ways of coping with our sadness and alienation from a mean and the devastating experience of depression.

There is an arch on your face it can go up and it can go down everyday you choose which direction it will go sometimes is driven by your emotion sometimes sometimes by loneliness sometimes by sadness many times by Joy other times by anguish this upside down shape on your face is a constant roadmap to your surroundings it tells people how to respond to you how to receive you what reactions to give to you it is the roadmap to your personality to your heart how you feel about the world how you feel about your life how you feel about things your lover will read this map to gain access to the deepest parts of you because they love you so much so remember they have a road map on your face it is called the upside down arch. Your mouth.

A soft touch a kiss on the neck a tender look in the eye a caring touch on the lower back acai someone gently telling you I love you and stroking your hair a kiss on the lips dark candlelight dinner someone there to hold your hand as you walk through the park some of the shoulder you can lean your head on sometimes silence between two people is the best intimacy that can be felt my whole world of suffering this is the power of intimacy

Looking deeply inside of myself I now realize that I’ve gone to something that probably no one has ever even wanted to talk about something that has traumatized me for the rest of my life something that I will look in the mirror everyday and look at myself wondering did I really go through what I went through this is called mental illness I was always a happy normal person until 2017 I walked out of my college and had a seizure they found a cyst on my right frontal lobe this is my first experience with mental illness it was a tumor on my brain it was affecting the way I saw the world how i communicated with other people how i responded to other people I cried I mourned my identity for quite some time that I had to come to terms with the fact that this tumor was not going to go away and I had to live with the fact that I have mental illness mental illness should not be a stigma and should be something that should be talked about and freely spoken about people should feel free to get the help that they need and support that they need to overcome this epidemic in our society

Looking deeply inside of myself I now realize that I’ve gone to something that probably no one has ever even wanted to talk about something that has traumatized me for the rest of my life something that I will look in the mirror everyday and look at myself wondering did I really go through what I went through this is called mental illness I was always a happy normal person until 2017 I walked out of my college and had a seizure they found a cyst on my right frontal lobe this is my first experience with mental illness it was a tumor on my brain it was affecting the way I saw the world how i communicated with other people how i responded to other people I cried I mourned my identity for quite some time that I had to come to terms with the fact that this tumor was not going to go away and I had to live with the fact that I have mental illness mental illness should not be a stigma and should be something that should be talked about and freely spoken about people should feel free to get the help that they need and support that they need to overcome this epidemic in our society

Strong a leader someone that knows how to get the job done our hearts are hurting Senator as we watch you go through this term in this battle for the fight of your life your wife so sweet so loving your daughter so caring so generous your son so supportive your whole Community is supporting you Senator McCain as we watch you fight the fight of your life brain cancer all those cells that are in your head are planning to attack and destroy but there are no Force against our support for you senator McCain we know you will make it out of this and you have left a mark on Humanity that we remain with us forever and ever our hearts and prayers are with you.