Am I going insane ? What's this feeling. I'm going insane ! 

All of a sudden I can hear every thought. feel every emotion , I see things people right next to me can't even imagine to see. 

When I leave my house I swear I can smell Tomorrow's rain drops

As soon as my feet touches the ground I sense every vibration in the world!

Why do I feel like this...

3 weeks ago I tried to jump off London bridge. My life was literally hell

i have no significant other , i have no kids , i have no business. I'm the black sheep in my dysfunctional family 

I'm alone 

all alone. 

Ever since I was put on this earth I've always questioned things. 

Why am I here to be all alone, my whole life people have in and out. No one is stable every friendship , relationship is just temporary everything is temporary. 

Then boom I had this thirst for curiosity and knowledge I began going even deeper with my thoughts

These thoughts were running across my head like neurons 

this was all I could think about 

Who put me here 

Why ? How ? 

How did I come here ?

How did I become this person ?

I don't even feel human 

Who said I'm human ? 

What makes a human ? 

Most importantly 

WHAT IS LIFE ?!