Discovering The World
Chapter 1
Do you ever wonder , what would happen if you were gone ?
If you were never born ..
Do you ever just wonder ?
I do , I been thinking for months how would it be if I was just gone for a while and people didn't care .
I would love just to die
Nobody cared about me just when I'm hurt , right that's funny ?
But I'm not going to laugh and cry and shut down or say whatever and keep going , I hate how my life has just been a living hell
Eveytime in the hallway I see you walking with your friends laughing the way I look or the way I do the things I do how funny was that to you ?
Can I just never be happy ?
I'm giving high school a chance for a life time I know I am going to see the girls that hurted me but it's ok I just wanna move away from this world and see everyone not caring
I know if your reading these you would want me to get help
Because I'm " suicidal " but I don't want help because if I get help then I'm " pussy " last time I got help it led me from walking in the hallways alone
It's real nice having friends who will have your back from day one
All the " friends " I had were the ones who would make fun of me the way I look .
Today after school I picked my phone and looked at the time my dad wasn't home either my mom I graved a belt and tied it to my neck as hard as I could and I couldn't breath for minutes I though maybe this was the end , but then you hear a knock o the door and I just stopped and took the belt off and just opened the door and ignored .
Hearing my mom telling me "hurry up child " while I watch my brother throw the trash and I go lock myself up and just think these thoughts I think everyday , how could people like us hurt someone like me ?
We all ask but we never have a answer , we just discover the world .
Chapter 2
Chapter 2
It doesn't matter , none of this does but does it to you ?
We all ask questions and we all want answers but we can never find them easily or do we ?
Today we gather our questions and know we answer them , will it be easy or hard to find them lets find out !
How could a person like me write a book like this , you may ask ?
I write this book to get my thoughts and feelings out , I always loved writing and letting it out but if I ever speak then I'm always wrong but if I'm not speaking everyone thinks that's everything is fine nothing will happen unless someone is hurt that's when they want you , isn't it sad how society is ?
How if I post something happy no one likes but if I'm sad they love it , so glad to see everyone happy in the hallways looking around with their friends while they left one out , the one who is always helping , the one who is always there for them , who will they have when I'm gone ?
Will they do the same like me ? We may never know , my plans are giving life 20 chances everyday I will write how I feel if I keep being depressed what is better kelp being sad or just dissapear
Everyone will be happy when I'm gone .