Counting calories more than clocks count hours

Shrinking fast like a magician turning themselves into the bud of a rose and waiting waiting waiting to bloom

So painfully unaware of how

So painfully sure by starving the steam

Trying to live off of sun and never allowing roots to drink water

Flower bud sways in the breeze gently

Flower bud sways in the breeze but it hurts

Flower bud sways in the breeze and as it reaches the ground slowly it's sure of only two things death and they want to look skinny in the funeral dress.

Flower buds cannot bloom without water you say to yourself

You force your mind into tricks

Believing with your full heart there's enough to last you if you have only one raindrop

Stuffing raindrops to not get caught

Hoping a farmer will avoiding watering your spot

Crying and watering yourself with salt and tears

Wondering if your tears are enough

How many calories are in one tear drop?

Realizing it's gone so far

Realizing you're half way to the ground

Realizing you don't know how to go back now

And as you look down

All they wish to tell you is more about the reason that you are here

Push you closer to the ground

Flower bud doesn't know why they do this

Knows they'll never bloom this way

Flower buds need water

Flower buds need sun

Flower buds need roots

Flower buds need love

Flower bud can take steps

Baby steps

Careful steps

Find help taking steps

To find their way to bloom.