BLACKBIRD ON A CARDBOARD TOBOGGAN
Chapter 1
Lol! I get a kick out of the "Meet Me" option. Kinda makes me fell like Pavlov's dog. (needless to say I don't have it)
One quick proviso. I don’t want you to waist your valuable time reading this if you are a jock or if you consider jocks the epitome of manhood. You will not find him here my darling. I am not that man. ( not withstanding I might snap most of them in half with my natural, god given brutish force ....Ha! I kid you)
Seriously!! On our date you would say Wow! Look at those ceiling tiles!! . Soooo.... geometric!. I would say “Isn’t it amazing how they coordinate with the floor......soooo... trianglular”!!!!! .......and so on....
All I’m saying it would be a night not to remember!!
However...dot, dot , dot...
For those few courageous souls..., for the strong, independent, ferociously intelligent, savagely beautiful ,and deliciously enigmatic women out there ,graceful gazelles in the wilderness of online dating lifting their heads,twitching delicate pointy ears to the heady sounds of knuckle dragging male gorillas squealing and grunting in the valley. Morning has come! The haze is lifting! A ray of honey dipped sunlight filters through the ominous canopy , drifting like a fine Irish lace across the hairy backed primates. Then, miraculously, a solitary gorilla's suddenly, ever so slowly, starts to stand upright, manlike, scratching his happy parts, and there is the faintest glimmer of ...dare I say ...intelligence in his eyes.. a miraculous evolutionary moment to which you have born witness .....
Please select your response below from Option 1 or Option 2
Option 1. Ok, who is the patronizing a....h.ole .. and maybe he should take a Pepsi moment and go ...f..... k himself ,
Option 2. What an dashing, sartorially attired, roguishly handsome, devilishly intelligent man.I must have his children.
Please submit your selection upon completion.
Note: Your Essays on “ Why Waterboarding On A First Date Is Not Appropriate “ are due Wednesday .
I indeed hope the world (and this rather Machiavellian site) are treating you like the absolute Goddess that you are!
You choose!
Anyone who makes a living charging you for helping you reach your potential, hasn't reached their potential.
Realizing there is nothing to compare yourself with should be a glorious moment. It means you are an original.
Beauty is better than truth. It is a sweet elixir and intoxicant. I would rather be bathed in beauty than endure the coarse wire scrub brush of truth.
Such a delectable array of choices life offers. Such a smorgasbord of goodies with it's mile long salad bar bursting with colourful fresh everythings!!! All that is required is an appetite
A small child enjoys a favourite blanket. An old man a favourite memory.
The longest and highest wall is not the one you build, but the one you imagine.
One can speak from no higher authority than one's self. First, however, one must have some acquaintance with this illustrious individual.
The truth isn’t out there. It was just a ruse to boost ticket sales.
The ever so virtuous highlighting of our fellow man’s ineptitude’s ,in subtle,albeit powerful ways harness the human soul.
The only lasting cruelty one perpetuates is on oneself.
He was homeless . He drank a bit. His old straw cowboy hat was tipped forward like a real cowboy , proudly shielding his bloodshot eyes from the sun. He had hawked his guitar so he could buy dinner. He still had his empty guitar case leaning on the city bench beside him where he sat. The case was the one thing he would never hawk. Inside there was nothing , other than a gift from a passerby. A bottle of Jack Daniels and ...possibly....hope.
Heart break, is the result of keeping that which is nearest and dearest to the heart at arms length.
C
There is a great deal of cheerful banter. A welcome salve for the hemorrhaging , blistering and scars and open weeping soresof those plagued with the need to question everything .
In a can of mixed nuts he always ate the cashews first because they are soft and sweet. He could have stopped mixed nuts but he feared it would rob him of his only feeling of conquest.
I have double locks on my doors. There is nothing to steal. I just don't want the robbers to know that.
The word atheist is a word that need never have been conceived. There is no need for the word, any more than a special word would be needed for…lets say…." Not liking having one's brains scooped
out of their skull like warm creamery butter". Simply stated, it is presumed that might be the case. we presume the obvious.
Don't be offended by anything the atheist says. Rather, take pity. He has devoted his entire life to (looking for)something he doesn't believe in.
Gathering impression is rather like collecting butterflies. They die the moment you capture them.
Graffiti is a visual razor blade slicing through melodrama and false sentimentality oof a completely sedated middle class. It is hemlock in the lemonade of social norms.
A solitary blue flower grows outside my window in a sea of bright green leaves and grey sunlight. Such rebellion! Such insistence on beauty! It is humbling (to me) and a heroism that goes largely unacknowledged .
Eloquence can easily mask deceit (Deceit is no match for eloquence) Harmony and rhymn can easily override an absence of objective truth. This is the secret sauce of all successful politician, grifters and cult leaders.
During the competition to see who could, between dinners of fish tartar and pinot Grigio demonstate the most moral indignation and outrage constituents languished for basic human necessities and a sense of dignity.
The ears enjoy a sweet parade of sound and harmonies and joyfully share that sweetness with the heart. Truth is just a bystander, a destitute and ragged onlooker sitting in the park, watching the parade go by.
When you get to the end of the rope make sure you leave enough for a noose. Not to use. Just as a comforting option.
During this time of exploding heads and people setting their hair on fire, the parade of moral indignation is starting to look more like a cheap traveling carnival than the evening news.
The art to defending any specious claim, is quite simply to sound imperious and at the same moment wise and consensual, even though, in point of fact, one is utterly out to lunch. (Kind of like that for example )
If grasping and accepting a concept requires such torturous straining of logic, necessitating endless arcane references, and, where, suddenly for some unexplained reason, poetic licence, no matter how ancient and respected the source, is suddenly proof of something, endless caveats, and scuttling of a swath of axioms and self evident truths, then one is forced to ask one's self, not even, regarding the truth of the concept, for it is not yet even at truth's doorstep, but, only if the concept is nothing more than a fragile apriori ideology whose seemingly intellectually muscular presentation is steroidal and without and core strength. And until such concept can be offered with some degree or elegance and organic resonance (ie better understood), and dare I say, simplicity , it will remain an mildly interesting intellectual artifact, an odd gizmo , titillating primarily to its owners and a few hangers on who wish desperately and with all their hearts to see themselves as thinkers .
A deeply evil man who has great mastery of words is more dangerous than the hydrogen bomb.
Realizing there is nothing to compare yourself with should be a glorious moment. It means you are an original.
Anyone who makes a living charging you for helping you reach your potential, hasn't reached their potential.
Indoctrination, the act of turning people into something they where not meant to be is necromancy. It is a dark art.
Beauty is better than truth. It is a sweet elixir and intoxicant. I would rather be bathed in beauty than endure the coarse wire scrub brush of truth.
I am less interested in what you do than what you say. I know you lie but your lies are so heartfelt I find myself convinced of you. Further to that, I have no use for what you do.
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Beheading is the most humane form of execution. Severing the organ that transmits pain in a single instant from the organs that experience it. Ingenious !!
one need. only 'think" deeply on this rather terse statement, too feel its truth
The ancients knew intuitively that granit was a better repository and preserver of information than silicon and plastic .Clearly ,we are slow learners.
Like a horse with a bit in his mouth and blinders on , our solecistic educational system gently or aggressively points us in the direction it wants us to go, then with the sharpest spurs gouges our ribs to set us on a gallop towards the cliff and our destruction.
We fear the man who is his own authority and ridicule the man who is not. How then do we move forward.
If I could prevail upon you to say nothing, if you would do me that singular kindness, I could enjoy this wonderful sense I have of you , I could savour the sweet essence of you, for a few more blissful moments.
Of the vast spectrum of longing, that brilliant rainbow when and where all is seemingly exquisite and pristine, and when just beneath, there is a seething dry , odourless darkness to which there is no evidence of a door, no apparent exit. I have always believed we are indeed captives of ourselves rather than each other and most assuredly of any god.
Such a delectable array of choices life offers. Such a smorgasbord of goodies with it's mile long salad bar bursting with colourful fresh everythings!!! All that is required is an appetite.
A small child enjoys a favourite blanket. An old man a favourite memory.
I am tempted to love. I am tempted in love only to realize I no longer have it's language or it's posture.
The longest and highest wall is not the one you build, but the one you imagine.
After the desire to be loved, , To perish is the most cherished of human desires. Those who deny this lie. Or, they are in a hypnotic state. It can't be otherwise.
One can speak from no higher authority than one's self. First, however, one must know who that is.
Enjoying A half finished glass of brandy left after dinner, when one wakes, in the middle of the night is likEe turning to one's lover who is sleeping ,still rosy and flush and delicately swollen from making love earlier in the night, to make love to her, deeply and passionately again. So delicious. So sweet.
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We are shadow boxers.There is no enemy .Of this I am doubtless.
I was no ability to draw whatsoever, least of all conclusions.
I can not dream and my wakefulness is fading quietly into itself . I am stranded, shipwrecked on the Isle of Perpetuity..
At the moment one is terminal , and the surgeons have left the operating room,
standing in the hall outside, peeling off their bloody rubber gloves and , betraying only the tiniest hint of personal failure regarding the death of their patient, quickly recover, and begin to jauntily talking about their summer homes and trophy wives, it would be comforting to think one's angels in all their simple beauty have come to discharge their celestial duties and to consult with one on what future options and adventures one would like to consider.
The "scientists"and those who believe in eugenics could best accomplish their end of improving humanities genetic pool, by submitting themselves as the ideal and first and only entrants . (specimens for extermination)( being it's first and only and last volunteers. (victims, entrees ..)
The "scientists" and those who believe in eugenics could best accomplish their goal of improving humanities genetic pools by submitting themselves as the ideal first and only specimens suitable for extermination.
The scientists and those who believe in eugenics should be the first to go.
( I would think this, in and of itself, would achieve the tidy outcome they envision)
The tidy outcome envisioned by eugenics scientists and their followers could be fully realized by making sure they where the first to go.
The great promise embodied by eugenics could best and completely be realized by making sure those who believe in it are the first to go. It is hard to imagine a more wholistic and complete sanitization of the human gene pool.
This is perfect solution to improving humanities gene pool. (Humanities gene pool would best be improved by deleting them from it)
There are those who seem to be less an expression of God's loving creative nature than of His flatulence.
The cool evening breeze is preferable to the glare of a hot afternoon sun. In more than one way I often sense my inner vampire.
Prayers, the supplication of small children and old fools, are like twinkling stars in the night that vanish unanswered like soap bubbles by daybreak. the break of day
Prayers, like blowing soap bubbles....boomerangs should be whispered with a cheerful heart.
Prayers, while a balm for the soul, are ice water (napalm) to the intellect. Belief and faith
are temporary carnival workers, irresponsible itinerates , hardly dependable placebos, falsely steeling the will, of the will, in realms of actual accomplishment.
I am weary now. My soul leaks out into the world through my eyes and pushes out through my skin, anxious and impatient with this old carcass. I have gathered up my cards, closed my accounts. I am overly friendly to people I do not know.One must say hello to everything. One must arrive in the moment unencumbered, sweetly broken and complete. An asian man dressed as a chicken plays drums on plastic buckets. He is meaning now. He is transcendence. I shall climb into his music. I embrace his madness. I am his madness. I drink his madness.
The most charming aspect of being Canadian is one doesn't need to be.
Asexuality means everything can be left to the imagination.
With you, hardly a minute goes by that doesn't feel like a day.
He argued that, to exist, a thing must occupy time and space. Virtually everything I care about doesn't.
Nothing that exists within time and space would matter without everything that does not.
The air was thick and sound seemed to stand still in it,
From time to time one needs to take a lover, if only to remind oneself of solitude's bliss. (of the excstasy of solitude)
I could draw myself up into a small room with a window and feel more joy than amongst many.
It is tiresome, the bleating and the inane . I will savour it
Save, periodic moments of guarded tenderness, and stringing words together like sequins on the cheap suit of day to day life, he felt catatonic.... emotionally speaking .
Poets write the worst novels imaginable. The sprinter on the one hundred yard dash is no competition on a one mile run for the long distance runner. But dear god, the great poet, like the sprinter, is so much more exciting.(fun to watch)
There are a thousand novelists for every great poet. And novelists are only great to the extent that they are poets.
Bells and whistles, and the little shiny bits where the only thing that held his attention. As though the meaning of a thing was secretly hidden in them, albeit in plain sight.
The drift
Popular culture is product made by idiots for idiots.(It is a moronic fait accompli) One feeds the other, like a dog , eating it's own shit. (The metaphor doesn't work, but I don't care. I get off on the imagery.)
The beauty of popular culture is that is made by idiots for idiots. There is one hundred percent consumption. There's is no waist. Great art on the other hands is appreciated by few.
When one gets tired of everything, and suicide seems like the most fun thing to do, meaning , seems to lift it's head, a budding rose with a fragrance , a sleeping ghost, wanting and waiting to be enjoyed.
In recovering that which has been lost and forgotten, the essence of that thing or person can be suddenly realized.
Peril and passion are the opposite views from the same window. Peril looking in. Passion looking out.
Notwithstanding,one's source code, thoughts, being none local materialism is a nonstarter.
He awoke, groggy . His eyelashes where stuck together with fairy cement. ....
In addition to the aliens that harvest my DNA, there is a far more insidious race of one legged aliens that surreptitiously harvest single socks from my dryer. So that, at work, I am driven to distraction, hurling murderous and jealous epithets atmy smartly (turned out) co-ordinated co-workers. Thus seeding division amongst humanity
Buggery is like flower arrangement. I am not sure in what way. I just like the juxtaposition.
Buggery is an opportunity to turns someone else ass into a salad bar.
Buggery is great because you get to turn someone else's ass into your own private party.
Buggery, along with it's rather distinct advantage of producing no mulling and puking infants, is a refreshingly elegant rear approach to social intercourse. (albeit from the rear)
When love dies, poetry is born.
Poetry blooms from the death of love.
The first Blow Job was probably more of a practical matter, initiated to relieve an overly(bloated and painful) plump nut sack. The entertainment part was understood at a later date so that women wandered around , gazing at the cavemen's crotchs, hoping to be of service.
The first blow job ever given (Going forward it most likely became a joyful/......
so that cave women would wander around, longingly, looking under their husbands loin cloths, hoping to be of service.
Obesity is a glorious expression of utter indifference to the puny pretentions and peccadilloes of social predjudices . and social predjudices, Fitness and its boring advocates. Want a little encouragement to slash your wrists. Spend some time with a fitness instructor.
and peccadilloes the slight offences....
I am reminded of this every time I talk to a fitness instructor and they start discussing push ups.
I may indeed want to fuck one of these little twerps so long as (they don't start talking about push ups half way through my orgasm)they shut the fuck up. Im selfish that way.
Neglect is an underrated virtue. A garden's true beauty is revealed when it is abandoned. When the weeds wrap themselves around the delicate tubers, the sweet smelling roses and the daffodils, when the dandilions stand tall with their long dangerous pointy spines anxious to make one bleed. This is the beauty of the garden. This is it's truth. Relationships are not better, and most likely the same.
Neglect is underrated.Neglect eventually reveals a garden's , and a childs ,true beauty.
Disgust is like dung laced fertilizer. It is a nutrient the brings change to blossom. It is the nutrient the nourish the blossom of change.
It is a nutrient, nourishing the blossom of change.
I love the alcohol marinated atheist. He may ruin a nice walk in the park of religious idiocy but in no way does he change the weather.
Women are not more......... than menIf men where the one's who had babies , instead of women, women would be opening doors for men, walking around commando, smoking cigars and approaching like they where in an ongoing cock rodeo.
Contrary to what one often hears, women are every bit as interested in and have a desire for casual sex as men. If men where the ones who bore children, women would walk around with no panties and view all of mankind as one big cock rodeo.
(and view all men as potential candidates for the ultimate cock rodeo.)
Long before I was hurdled like some teenager's spit ball, through the sweet and ever so warm and inviting birth canal I think it was unclear to those who are in the position to make such decisions(like a dive off a very high cliff into shallow water) whether I should enter the world feet or head first.(metaphorically speaking)
The advantage of marrying a pornstar is that there is no possiblily of infidelity. It would just be moonlighting.
The advantage of marrying a pornstar is that her inevitable infidelity could simply be viewed as moonlighting.
The upside of marrying a pornstar, beyond the obvious is that her (inevitable) eventual infidelity could be viewed as innocent moonlighting.
(God isn't really all that mysterious)
The mystery of God is not that mysterious. He knows abandonment and neglect are the perfect teachers.
Faschism sees perfectionism when it looks in the mirror. Faschism is perfectionism's evil twin.
Ugliness is rarely self aware.
When you blow out the candles on your ninety-ninth birthday there is no need to keep your wish a secret. No-body cares. They already know what your wish is. (Suspense isn't really why you are still around) Suspense is clearly not the reason you have kept showing up.
The very brilliant and the utterly stupid are most frequently bored. The average intelligence sees intrigue where this is none.
The only person that has ever walked the earth that is deserving of sainthood is Mr. Rogers. And even then it would have been an insulting and degrading recognition.
I know of no-one truly worthy of trust. Human nature , being what it is , is at best an emotional carnivore. It feeds on perceived weakness, a tree upon which trust is low hanging, fleshy fruit.
The universal failure of marriage as an institution suggests that it is antiquated and that it should be terminated as a social norm. What is needed is a series of customizable alternatives , all legal in their nature, designed to the specific needs and personalities, circumstances of people desirous of union, and also where procreation is treated as an exception rather than a rule (with the perk of) including and not limited to voluntary, handsomely remunerated castration.
Fast approaching the point of no return, it would be worthwhile asking oneself if what lies ahead is any better than what one is leaving.(Like a new lover or a better job, there may be hidden horrors) The latter is assumed however the non linear nature of progress may mean passing the point of no return is retrograde. A backwards progression.
(In light of your current behaviour )Given your current behaviour I (am awarding you, at least temporainously , with the rather dubious distinction of being the least of my concerns) have demoted you to the being the very least of my concerns. You (perhaps unwittingly have)- and for that I make some small allowance, however not enough to not have exceeded my bullshit threshold, quotaexceed my bullshit threshold. (quota) So for now, in my already small world of tea cups and crumpets and petty predudjudes you too are personal non-grata.
No amount of open hatred matches the horror brought about by counterfeit hypocritical expressions of love and acceptance cloaking deep predjudices , hypocracy and secret strategies for elimination. extermination. I fear the latter is what we now face. -are confronted with ) The proverbial wolves in sheeps clothing are the keepers of.....) Wolves are safeguarding the hen house. The cow is being fattened for slaughter.
If love is what binds people together then for me it was,similar to those fancy matching His and Hers towels, a rope with noose with His and Hers nooses on both ends. (his and hers). with (nooses on each end) two nooses, one at each end from which they both hang. I would rather not be bound by anything.
If love is what binds people together then for me it was a rope with a hangman's noose on both ends, like His and Hers bath towels.
Of all his squandered affections, none was so sorely regretted than that which he gave to
I love the atheist. The zeal with which he pisses on the parade of religious idiocy is matched only by his own profound irrationality and consequent idiocy. , and perhaps exceeded by its own embedded idiocy.
It was written in some book or the other that love is patient and kind. I see very little evidence of this. Quite to the contrary.
To ask for nothing while wanting everything is feminine imbroglio and confounding to the more rudimentary mind of the male species.
I am mindful of love but to it I am not obedient. It is quick to make a fool of a man and that , I must insist, is my job.
Nothing, save the rather effective tool of passive aggression,.... "Weaponized Silence" if you will, moves a man more closely to the brink of battery (distraction and madness),(for all the sweetness bound up in his heart he would not so even dream) so lacking is he in the finer and infinitely more lethal weapons of psychological warfare.
Dare I say, you are disappointed in the absence of passion in me. But I assure you I seethe with passion. You simply cannot see the forest for the ducks, my darling.
Age, like autumn leaves falling , just before winter has a kind of beauty, and at the same time, the sap dries up and an approaching pending barrenness, one can almost, but not quite, live with.
Lust, the delicious , sloppy desert life offers , becomes (fastidious)tidy and respectable as one ages. The wide sticky puddle on the sheets disappears. A couple of Kleenex tissues suffice. (and it's just like nothing happened)
There is an indictment with which humanity is unjustly burdened. (One could be specific to explain this, but in no way would that capture the essence and depth of the suspicion) So born in a cave, chained to a wall, in the darkness we know no better. A piece of dry bread then becomes humanity's heaven.
It's unlikely. I speak of nothing in particular. It just feels like the right attitude. (like the appropriate response to this absurdity. )
Mr Rogers was a Republican. That says it all. I have to die now.
Bitterness is the hidden side of anger. It hides because it is vulnerable.
Words are spirits. With carefully curation they show themselves to us. They speak directly to the heart.
It wasn't until I lost everything that I realized
how great it was having stuff.
Under a microscope the detritus of the human body hardly encourages lusty behaviour. Luckily we are impressionistic creatures. We see very little, and even then we see what we wish to see. (or what we imagine that we see)
There is no great wisdom to be gained as a result of age.. Children frequently confound the aged with their instinctive understanding of things.
The rather frosty reception was mutually felt and hardly regrettable. There had been enough time, enough water that had passed under the bridge that they where comfortable
in their mutual and cordial indifference.
He would lie in wait, like a coiled rattlesnake during most social interaction. Buried in the laughter and guffawing where the sound of his tail rattling. He was always prepared to strike!
Your dilemma is akin to the inclination to swat flies with one's hands. Either way you loose.
His white knuckled and tenuous belief in irrational efficacy of faith
There is no-one quite so tedious as the one who insists on the efficacy of faith.
From what little I know of you such is sufficient.
I am merely excusing myself from the conversation. It is less likely than it is likely that we are in agreement. I will leave that up to what appears to be your rather colourful and intransigent imagination.
My opinion is of less importance than yours. Your opinions seem magical and potentially lethal.
The likelihood of love being re-ignited is
entirely unlikely without the kindling of near insistent tenderness fanned by a the warmest off shore breeze of utter and complete amnesia.
The likelihood of love. being re-ignited is entirely unlikely unless rekindled with new and near insistent (kindling of near insistent tenderness ) fanned by a strong warm off shore breeze of utter and complete amnesia. tenderness and fanned with amnesia.
Love is re-ignited only with a good supply of dry kindling vigorously fanned by a strong, warm off shore breeze (gust)of amnesia.
On the rarest of occasion when debate changes anyones mind about anything it is because people involved are on the clock, and it is a point of business or law. Someone wins, someone looses , or someone dies. Otherwise no-one is convinced of anything that challenges their most sacred and coddled prejudices.
Any portrait of worth is a portrait of the heart, irregardless of the face described.
The only portrait of worth is of the heart.
I describe the heart. It is a still life. It is a threshold, through which things pass. It does not change. It realizes everything.
The heart is a threshold though which events come and go. It only bears witness to that which is neither good nor bad.
The heart is a threshold through which events pass.
The heart is the sponge of our existence.
Nobody is chosen. We, each of us, decide for ourselves who we will be.
Everything anyone thought the learned, they already always knew. It is not so much "what" one learns, it is "that"one learns that is consequential.
Doubt gives wings to expression. Like a plane, it is the resistance that gives an idea flight.
The absence of doubt is the absence of beauty.
The man who authorized the murder of millions seems so normal, so banal with his thick spectacles and calm demeanour.(Why is this aways such a constant source of surprise) This is exactly the point.
The essence of things, like eau du cologne
is obvious and at the same time invisible.
When all else fails, bail!!
The wind was at his back, but the sun was in his face, consequently he never knew where he was going , but he sure got there fast.
The crucible of man is other men. It is a feedback loop.
Blood and soil. A very nice gardening strategy. Every fall they harvest a nice crop of hatred. An idea they might consider, for a change, is using their own children's blood to nourish and moisten the soil , instead of mine.
Maybe each and every human being is the beginning, the seed of a future universe. Maybe our consciousness is an embryo, and like a the seed of a Sequoia tree. will expand and grow trillions of times so as to eventually create and embrace lovingly and administer with perfect wisdom a vast new autonomous universe that is populated with trillions upon trillions of new seedling consciousness's who will eventually do the same.
While every kindness may not necessarily returned, (even more so)it still best ennobles the heart of origin. Why consult with hired hands when I own the ranch.
The only prayer I make is to myself. Why consult with hired hands when I own the ranch.
I can no longer look beyond myself with prayer and supplication. Why would I so limit possibilities.
Piety is like rat poison. It kills rats
Piety is poison
While one teaspoon full of piety is not lethal, disolved into a cup of sound reason a perfectly intelligent person can be made to speak gibberish.
While in a perpetual state of disarray , there was an underlying order to things. What appeared to be random, often was, but random according to a subtle underlying rational. (like perennial flowers, deeply rooted regardless of how chaotic they may seem while in full bloom. )
I cannot accept your sadness lest I relinquish mine. This is the essence of selfishness.
The likelihood of love
He had a tidy, simple little mind. Neatness was his principal preoccupation.
His future was assured, rather like the pair of turkeys the farmer fattens up for Thanksgiving dinner, lovingly named Peas and Carrots.
His breath was rancid. Roses wilted in his presence.
You have only to seek out another's blessings to devour yourself with an incalculable smallness of person. Another's blessing is worthless to the self defined and fully realized.
Marriage is not and never was a sacred institution. It is a business and inheritance contract. People should feel free to leave it anytime they feel the need to grow beyond it.
Permanence. An odd concept for which there is no molecular evidence and that has no footing in reality.
Cat burglars k
Heart break, is the result of keeping that which is nearest and dearest to the heart at arms length.
Anyone who makes a living charging you for helping you reach your potential, hasn't reached their potential.
Realizing there is nothing to compare yourself with should be a glorious moment. It means you are an original.
Beauty is better than truth. It is a sweet elixir and intoxicant. I would rather be bathed in beauty than endure the coarse wire scrub brush of truth.
Such a delectable array of choices life offers. Such a smorgasbord of goodies with it's mile long salad bar bursting with colourful fresh everythings!!! All that is required is an appetite.
A small child enjoys a favourite blanket. An old man a favourite memory.
I am tempted to love. I am tempted in love only to realize I no longer have it's language or it's posture.
The longest and highest wall is not the one you build, but the one you imagine.
After the desire to be loved, , To perish is the most cherished of human desires. Those who deny this lie. Or, they are in a hypnotic state. It can't be otherwise.
One can speak from no higher authority than one's self. First, however, one must know who that is.
If love is what binds people together then for me it was a rope with a hangman's noose on both ends, like His and Hers bath towels.
While all may worthy of love, I know of no-one truly worthy of trust. Human nature , being what it is , is at best an emotional carnivore. It feeds on perceived weakness, a tree upon which trust is low hanging, fleshy fruit.
I am less interested in what you do than what you say. I know you lie but your lies are so heartfelt I find myself convinced of you. My interest in what you do is voyeuristic and fleeting.
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If I could prevail upon you to say nothing, if you would do me that singular kindness, I could enjoy this wonderful sense I have of you , I could savour the sweet essence of you, for a few more blissful moments.
Enjoying A half finished glass of brandy left after dinner, when one wakes, in the middle of the night is likEe turning to one's lover who is sleeping ,still rosy and flush and delicately swollen from making love earlier in the night, to make love to her, deeply and passionately again. So delicious.Some of the alchohol my have evaporated but that makes the residue so much sweeter.
In recovering that which has been lost and forgotten, the essence of that thing or person can be suddenly realized.
Peril and passion are the opposite views from the same window. Peril looking in. Passion looking out.
God isn't really all that mysterious.
He just knows abandonment and neglect are the perfect teachers.
Once taught to feel nothing,
The Sannakji, raw octopus is best eaten while still squirming kills about six people a year attaching themselves to the throat while being swallowed. The delicious Ackee of West Africa. However with it's of creamy texture and mild taste , if picked before fully ripening can cause vomiting hypoglycaemia and death. The butternut squash or ratatouille on the other hand create no greivance of the body. How then can we hold these innocent creatures guilty of cruelty, given their seed of birth, to separate levels of accountability .
The Holy Trinity a little theological rzamataz
theatrical
I left you not due to anything you did, rather to become who I needed to be.
People believe a lot of different things about each other, when in fact they do not know nothing about each other. Most of man's inhumanity to man stem from this truth.
Travel cures bigotry.
Divorce should be manditory. Marriage should be long enough to nurture children to young adulthood, and then terminated.
Humans must evolve .Marriage Beyond a certain point, generally speaking marriage is antithetical to spiritual growth.,regardless how good its few surviving participants feel about it.
People block their own natural evolution and in a sense die, for the sake of an antiquated institution.
Somewhere between sacred and profane,
On the sliding rule of sacred and profane, he was where tedium meets temptation.
All are held to account,(however it is on the donor system). We self audit. however it is a self reckoning. (however it well be a self auditing) (there are no otherlings) ( however it is by oneself utterly,)
I have invented a creature. It is an "Otherling". Basically it is all that is not me.
The limit of my understanding is the limit of my action. Action however precedes understanding. This is my core dichotomy
I am terminal. Ohh, for an incurable disease!!
Transplant organ. rare blood type
To the man clinging to life, with a rare blood type awaiting a transplant organ, the priests talk of immortality must seem like a tasteless and cruel side show.
metier ineptitude immortality
If such could be one's ultimate metier, moment to moment discovery, I should be
quite pleased with this.
If moment to moment discover could be one's ultimate metier, I should be quite pleased with this.
The ever so virtuous highlighting of our fellow man's ineptitudes in subtle , powerful ways harnesses the human soul.
We are what we remember. Nothing more.
I am what I remember. Nothing more.
Age is great if I could just leave out the getting old part.
The only lasting cruelty one perpetuates is on one's self.
From what spare moments that I might cobble together from this excruciatingly mundane sojourn surreptitious passed off to us as "Life"I would necessarily tart them up in cheap finery, beads ,low cut gown, pencil skirts, perfume and hosiery and send them out into the streets of my oh so meandering and poorly little streets of my consciousness to due chicanery, to be grifters, to play havoc lest we fall prey to the horrid symmetries of wrist slashing of order
He was amongst that group of individuals who, regardless of where they are, a room, a forest, drifting on the open ocean , always feels confined. It was more a state of consciousness than of being.
His guitar case was empty. He had pawned it to eat. The empty guitar case did however, have a full bottle of
Johnn Walkers . Hope was not completely lost.
He both hated and missed that mindless chatter of his fellow travellers on the express bus to work in the morning. It formed a kind of wall, a buttress of sorts . Sometimes one needs to invent an enemy to know who one really is.
The truth isn't out there.That was just a ruse to boost ticket sales.
The holograph at it's best could be a portable heaven. One could narrate to your smart phone a description of heaven as you would like it to be. The phone would project the hologram around you instantaneously. Nice idea , but a real data vampire.
...but it kinda defeated the purpose.
The dawn of civilization. God waking up beside Mother Earth after a night of heavy drinking.. no condom, no birth control pills.. with God still wearing her leopard skin skirt as a hat...a one night stand that went sideways. only to realize that he had a talent for writing science fiction and mellow drama.
(conceived)
After a night of heavy drinking, God woke up beside Mother Earth, with her leopard skin mini skirt on his head He was that kind of man, She was that kind of woman.
Its hard to tell if you that wants to be here, or me that doesn't, or if it's vice versa.
Somedays he wanted to be there and she didn't. Other days it was vice versa.
I have been broken by love. I have all the pieces . I just don't know how they go back together.
Ouiga
#1 "Secrecy”
"She had a difficult type of beauty. Like that of a pomegranate. She had a thin, sinuous dark skin,
....resistive, beneath ,which lie countless succulent sweet red seeds. Each seed meticulously buried
in their own bitter tasting hive of secrecy . Each morsel demanding of one’s attention...each morse
l crying out to be individually unwrapped .”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#2 "The Embrace"
to me
“The Embrace"
"While I can not hold you in my arms, my heart can still embrace you, releasing me of old demons. And I am better for it.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#3 “Sadly”
to me
“Sadly ,tenderness, like diamonds is expressed sparingly, lest the market get flooded and its value decline."
#4 "Sumo Wrestler"
to me
“Sumo Wrestler"
Faith, and Evidence are like two opposing Sumo wrestlers, each trying to give the other a world class wedgie, as they bulldoze each other out of the ring.Evidence generally looses and has the sore, blistered crotch to prove it.
I have no more energy for this battle . I’ve decided to take the short end of the money and go down in the Ninth.
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#5 "The Scoundrel"
to me
“The Scoundrel"
"I take the drunken scoundrel over the mystic any day. If you gave someone a pair of shoes, what would you rather they do? Put them up on a shelf and stare at them lovingly every day of their life, or wear the living crap out of them.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#6 "Lunch Date With Ex, Round 2"
to me
"Utterly and perhaps deliberately lacking in forgiveness, a schowling intransigence moved across his face as he listened to his ex's suspiciously cheerful and specious account of her recent activities.
The one who claims to love everyone, is the one you should trust the least.
I am no where near done, however my body seems to have run the course.
Human nature seeks an elixir, a magic bullet. Our God nature, on the other hand, prefers to knock back a few more doubles and see where the evening goes.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#7 "Underpants”
to me
"I distrust shyness. These people are emotional Trojan horses. There have dark ruminatings that appear suddenly, bristling with spears and daggers and bayonets slicing the air, just at the very moment when I am walking around my apartment in my underpants having a nice cup of tea. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#8 "Excessive Sincerity Produces Gag Reflex "
to me
"Is it possible two people in love find it impossible to be joyful in each other's presence. Their history too troubled, their passions too conflicted, their minds too vigorous with revenge. Perhaps it is the memory of touching in ways that one touches no other. That they conceived life together . I think for this there is no placebo, no medicine. They should die of love. It would be just or even then, only a matter of time.”
Copyright 2019
#9 "The Masochist "
to me
“The Masochist"
"You have flicked away the near green scab of my longing . And so I bleed again. What infection can I hope for. What lovely bacteria and filth will you smear upon my open wounds, so that I may relive loss, and show off fresh weeping sores.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#10 "His Favourite Excuse For Doing Nothing"
to me
"It is best to belong to nothing. Neither wife, children, country, church , province or state. Deny all claims to your being. Divest yourself of everything .Dress oddly.Hide nothing. And, most importantly, do not teach. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#11 "The New Appendage"
to me
"To want nothing is to be liberated. You start to feel a warmth like an ocean breeze emanating from your back. It is the sprouting of wings.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#12 "Mothballs "
"Your cagy silence , while it has not convinced me of your indifference, has more, in my mind, likelihood to be a strategy, a subtle provocation so that you might unfold my heart as you once did, a little wrinkled now perhaps, frowsy smelling save the eau du mothballs to romp again in the fragrant fields and gardens of old passions. It would be lovely where you not clinically mad . You so handily revive me from my restless sleep, like a gunslinger with your six shooters slung low on your sprawling hips, while I , yawning , lusty heart still faintly beating when so little can happen now, for many years have passed..... it is almost too late for us.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#13 "God, like us
God, like us, can only act in his own interest. It’s fractal.
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#14 "Youth"
to me
"You may very well be young, your stride long and athletic, your skin blotchy , your mind soft as mango,your loins plumb, your genitalia directional and gravity defying, a succulent fruit governing your every thought , word and movement. Youth is, however, a small campfire that glows brightly in the drunken night, that by morning is smouldering embers, and by noon cold grey dust. Don't stake too much on it. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#15 "The Two Way Mirror That Doesn't Fool Criminals "
to me
"You already know the horrors that you are capable of and how little stands between you and full enactment. You have already abandoned the murder scene. You participate in the drama while at the same time you watch the goings on from behind a two way mirror. It may very well have some entertainment value but has little to do with where you are heading.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#16 "Night Out With The Boys "
to me
Night Out With The Boys
"Then, as he was dragging his tired and broken ass towards what appeared to be an inescapable conclusion, there appeared an array of various beings, some angels, some above the angels sitting up to a bar, and it was to all appearances happy hour. The bar keep between shaking martinis and pouring stout ale was himself an avalanche of off colour jokes. Laughing, looking over their shoulder they seemed to know him so well that he was hardly acknowledged, beyond, " Pour a Guiness for the old fuck face there” . It was at that moment that he felt the mouldy canopy of human flesh being lifted from him. The next morning he woke up on a sunny beach, laying on his back, feeling the sun radiating red against his crusty eyelids. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#17 "horrifying pharmacist”
"I have the most horrifying pharmacist. She is satanic. She refuses to give
me all my favourite prescriptions earlier than my health plan allows. I wait until the late evening pharmacist
starts his shift. He is weak and I can manipulate him to get sleeping pills and other stuff that helps me make time go away.
I do however like the fruit and vegetable stand in my neighbourhood. The Korean gentleman who owns it can't speak a lick of English. It's perfect! We nod and smile a lot to each other when I buy is dried mango and pistachio nuts and heads of lettuce. I wish all my relationships could be so deliciously simple .”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#18 "Untitled 2”
"I silently judge everyone. It is an involuntary impulse, like breathing, born out of the frothy and tumultuous depths of a rather capricious and fragile self esteem.”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#19 "Valiant ineptitude”
to me
"The ever so virtuous highlighting of our fellow man's ineptitude does, in subtle , and extremely powerful ways harnesses the human soul.”
Copyright 2019
#20 "Untitled 4”
"On the sliding rule of sacred to profane, he was, approximately speaking, where tedium meets temptation. “
Copyright 2018 Derek Houghton
SOEMS FOUR
#1 "Meat Flavoured Apples"
"While all are worthy of love, very few are worthy of absolute trust. Human nature , being what it is,is carnivorous. It feeds on perceived weakness, a tree upon which trust is low hanging, fleshy fruit. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#2 "Untitled 6”
"Love is a spider web. Fly into it, and it will bind your wings so that you can not escape And then, it will proceed, calmly, to suck out your brains,”
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#3 "Answer To Prayer"
"How can one’s prayers be answered if there is no right answer?
And would it be too disturbing, to consider, that the notion of a right answer about anything, is ,itself, misguided”
Copyright 2020 Derek Houghton
#4 "Regarding Women"
to me
"A smooth neck, is a woman's true glory. A woman's neck, more than any life line on the hand ,reveals in its smooth line or its first s glorious wrinkle, the delicacy of her heart. For upon it her finely chiseled head, tapered chin and large feline eyes are mounted, like a glorious work of art, perfectly imperfect. Her neck asks to be kissed, like a rosary and tenderly caressed. I will do so. It would be my pleasure. “
Copyright 2020 Derek Houghton
#5 "Descent Into Madness”
"You travel in dangerous circles. Now, you ask that I follow you. I am actually fool enough to consider the offer.We will however need weapons of the sharp intimidating kind. The kind of weapons so frightening that we would never have to use them. Weapons, the mere sight of which , the mere thought of the horror and devastation our fine weapons would l bring upon the heads of those who would even think of thwarting our efforts are the class of weapons that we need. Do you have weapons like this? Weapons that guarantee no blood will ever be shed. I want your adventure but I want weapons, the mere site of which would inspire such paralizing fear and trepidation, such foreboding, the mere sight of which would induce such a cold sweat, such profound uneasiness, that our enemies will not only fear us, but willingly had over all that they have, all their abundance, and pledge their future harvest and all that they cherish to us, you half for you and half for me. .Would'nt that be grand!! Let us indeed do as others have done before us. Let Words be our weapon. Let the grandeur of language be our bright and gleaming word. Let us hone fine speeches with fine words and rhetorical splendour For against this , there is no weapon that can defend for only words harness their hearts to our bright carriage and duly enslave the enemy, to put golden bits in their mouths and contribute to our fabulous and greedy purpose.”
Copyright 2020 Derek Houghton
#6 "Insomniac”
"Insomnia!! Humping me like a crack hoar tonight. Not even a gentle kiss. Sleep , my true lover is in the kitchen making late night French Toast. She has no jealousy and for years has rejected a threesome”.
Copyright 2020 Derek Houghton
#7 "The Scourge"
"Perfect symmetry, an uniteruped beat in a song, flawless rhyme, impeccable character are the forerunners to all boredom. It is right not to pursue such things. It is good to avoid their menace.”
Copyright 2019 Derek HoughtonSoem
#8 "Belligerence"
"I don't know her any more. My ex. Too many years have passed I don't remember how tall she was or what her feet look like. Or her voice. Its been thirteen years , eight months, thirteen hours and thirty two minutes since she left. Now she calls, annually. It seems cold when she speaks or when warm, artificially so, like she is selling Insurance or Girl Guide Cookies. It is off putting.She asked if I am seeing anyone. Translation. Am I fucking. I say no, but I keep the tone unconvincing, like a child that wants the door let half open at night . I am capable of rushing to judgement ,but, I resisted the urge, only to hear her out. None of my hither to, carefully cultivated magnanimity ,that sweet goodness I am so known for, goodness I have honed and practiced and prided myself in over recent years , is brought to bear on this conversation. Rather, I I become, I revert back to exactly who I used to be when married to her, precisely. The man she left. It is like I want her to know that what she hated in me the most is what I loved in me the most, no,..... what I cherished most in, and my depth of commitment to that persona like a diamond inlayed into ancient sedimented rock.Granite. Cold, inaccessible,expensive. I wanted her to know, contrary to what she would like to believe, that she inspired no change whatsoever in me, (even though in truth, marriage, children and the premature conclusion of that life , and the loss of her love, the loss of her sex, made me a different man.) I would never give her that satisfaction. I don't aspire to that level of honesty. .I want her to, ever so deeply, ever so profoundly, know how wrong she was about me , about life in general. even thought she was right. I I want her to know that the mountain didn't move. Not now, Not never , not nohow! I believe, most likely in error, that, when sex denied, licence is immediately awarded to a man for the worst kind of behaviour and snarky belligerence. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#9 "The Singularity"
"Robots are wondering if humans will ever achieve consciousness and any sense of morality. “
Copyright 2019 Derek Houghton
#10 “From the other room”
I notice sometimes the things that you do
like an angel movin’ from room to room
Im on the sofa day dreaming' as Im known to do
thinkin' on the day I met you
Ive always made up rules as I go along
pretendin' some wise man from long ago
gave me a vision, a voice I heard
and only you know its me foolin'
myself all along
as you move from room to room
like an angel, putting books back on the shelf
dustin' a counter, pulling' back window shades
I notice sometimes the things that you say
moving room to room as your soft hips sway
and thinking to myself things coulda gone
any which way
I text you a message just some fool thing
I will say
like I love you baby, hope your planning' to stay
From the other room I see the lamp light
the soft paisley curtains, my old coat hung
on the back of the chair
and as Im lookin you pass through my vision
your hair tied back like a pending storm
and from the other room
I hear you on the phone talking about
baking and night school stuff that you do
and I so thankful as I look from the other room
that is you that is there,
and baby , hoping your planning' to stay
From the other room,
there's a lot a man can see
the dog in there sleeping,
a warm pot of tea
the frost on the window
the smell of your girls perfume
some days every thing is a little sweeter
from another room
Its almost time, and that's all right
had some time to look around
had some time to fight
had some time to get it wrong
so lucky there was once I got it right
but that's another story
we can save for another night
Copyright 2020 Derek Houghton’s
#11 "This is for the next soem”
We now have a controllable collection of writing which will help me coordinate publishing.