Rejection

It’s so hard to find my way

When I don’t know where to turn

I’m so very very tired

I always seem to crash and burn

Everything seems to reject me

I’m never quite make the grade

There’s always someone else better

Always something better made

Even when I tried to get into heaven

It seems they too sent me back

You don’t quite make it up here either

Go back down and have another crack

But I am so burnt out and weary

And my heart is shattered beyond repair

I’m so tired of not being good enough

How much more am I supposed to bear

I really don’t know what to do

I feel numb and dead inside

When not even death seems to want me

I am nothing, with nowhere to hide

Rachel Melcer

Angels

Will the Angel of death hear me

As I call for her to come

Will she come and pay me a visit

And release me to the sun

Let me step out of the darkness

Let me step away from the pain

To leave this place of suffering

For I have failed in this game

For there are winners and there are loser

In this game we do call life

And some of us break under the pressure

And lose our strength and will to fight

But alas she does deny me

In my request that I have made

Because I continue to wake up

I guess my game is not fully played

But perhaps I’ve seen this wrong

Perhaps it’s not really a game

Perhaps it’s about growth and expansion

And I’ve focussed too much on the pain

For the Angel of death is still an Angel

And her wisdom is so very vast

My thinking just needed some adjusting

For futures are bright when not stuck in the past

Rachel Melcer

2016

It’s that time of year

When we all reflect on the past

2016 – You suck

Thank God you didn’t last

And it’s not just me

I’ve seen it all around

It’s been hard on so many

A smile not often found

A year that’s been filled with change

With heartache, loss and despair

So many of us have fallen

Or sunk wearily into our chair

So many of us have struggled

So many tears have been shed

As we’ve stumbled through this year

Trying hard to keep a clear head

But it did bring many of us together

And so many have stood strong by my side

And listened to my many offloads

And held my hands as I’ve cried

And this have been my positive

Through this truly crappy time

The beautiful people who’ve touched my life

Held so dear to this heart of mine

So goodbye 2016

And lets bring in this new year

To finding ourselves and having some fun

For brighter days are now here

Rachel Melcer