"My silence is just a sign I'm hurt."

After her mother dies , 15 year old Paige becomes a cold,depressed suicidal teen.She's bullied at her school to the point of her jumping of the top.But when she's stopped by 16 year old,Colin she discovers the secrets of her past and what is soon to happen.When Paige starts having weird nightmares the two find out someone is not who they appear to be.

         ** "It's so hard to answer the question what's wrong when nothing is right."**

I would rather not talk about my life since it all turned upside down 6 years ago when my mother died in a plane crash. She was on her way to Germany when something went wrong with the engines.The way she died gives me another reason to hate life even more, something cold and and mechanical can kill someone living and breathing. I live with my dad Gabe now, a 40 something year old, dark haired man.I wouldn't say he is a bad father but sometimes I blame him for my Mom's death even though it's completely irrational.I untangle myself from the nets of yet another frightening nightmare the one where I'm running from what looks to be a shadowy man.I wake up in a sweat,the digital clock displayed 6:30.I got out of bed and looked out the window,it was raining lightly and single drops had splaterred onto my window making me nostalgic, remebering my old house which I loved because it had so many memories but for some unknown reason we had to leave.I walked to the bathroom, took a cold shower,brushed my not so perfect teeth,put my black,stringy hair in a simple ponytail like I usually do and got dressed in my black pleated skirt and a black and white blouse ,which I hated so I put on my black hoodie to hide it and my face.I walked down the stairs, Gabe wasn't awake yet,I ate some dry toast and slipped through the door.The rain was still drizzling,I sticked my hands into my pockets and started walking to schol which was like 15 minutes away.I arrived at school at 7:18,42 minutes early.I looked up at gigantic black gates with our school crest on it which was a blue and white shield with a moon,a trophy and a black horse.The campus was rich with greenery, adorned with towering oaks which showed its long standing history. The school chapel stood proud, gazing over the oval that lay before it.The rain had eased up and the sun was coming out,it's golden light shone upon the wet grass giving a beautiful appearance.I entered the noisy hallway filled with annoying nerds,snooby bitches and asshole jocks and then there are the teachers who pretend everything is right when they know everything's not.Just as I thought I was in the clear Victoria and her friends, Michaelia and Rachel walked down the hall toward me,they stopped in front of me,they had on more makeup than Lady Gaga,Victoria whipped her perfect blond hair and let out a scoff of disgust obviously offended I wasn't wearing the latest fashion trends "Look who decided not to kill herself over the weekend,it's Paige."she said in her irritating voice."Shut up!" I screamed."Sorry I don't take orders from animals." she replied in a singsong voice,she then slapped me in the face,I fell to the ground.The trio laughed at me from above "Out of over 100,000 sperm you were the fastest?" Rachel remarked before they walked away,I picked my self up,I knew Victoria's hand left an imprint,I could feel the burning spot on my face.Everyone was looking but no one said anything,I walked away quickly.The hallway seemed to go on forever, the shiny green tiles loomed in front of me.  Nausea bubbled up in me as wafts of perfume, sweat and stale food assailed me. I finally made it to the classroom safe but my thoughts  bounced through my head. Granger came in and began the already horrible day with a 2 hour Physics lecture.The day went on terribly,more insults from Victoria and her crew and more rejection from society.I walked home like I usually do.When I arrived I was greeted at the door by Gabe. "Hi honey,how was school?" he asked in his voice which was actually pretty annnoying.I pushed pass him and headed upstairs to my room.From behind me I could hear him say "Is something wrong?" he asked from downstairs."No!" I shouted before slamming my door shut.I took a shower and put on a holey sweatshirt and a Denim shorts and went to bed to begin another night of horrifying nightmares.

                            "They tell you to be yourself then they judge you."

The nightmare began like this, I'm in a place that looks like school the weird thing is the campus is covered in dead bodies.I continued walking,stepping over bodies then I came up onto this one with it's head covered in a bag,I stooped down and took the bag off , when I did the face that looked back at me was my own. I woke up breathing heavily,it was 6:45,I got ready for school and left before Gabe waked up.The morning was chilly,I saw the dull gray clouds covering the city as if to try to put a veil of obscurity over all of its inhabitants . When I arrived I was greeted by boisterous students all crowding to see something on the wall "Look there she is!" some kid shouted while pointing at me.All eyes were on me,then everyone started laughing.I pushed through the crowd to see what was on the wall. It was a picture of me with some words on it which read "Paige is a suicidal whore,let's help her kill herself."I tore down the poster and stuffed it in my pocket. There were some snickers and some remarks like "Why dosen't she just die?" someone said.There were more laughs,I ran away from the scene before I could start crying in front of anyone.I ran to my sanctuary,the top of the school ,the  place where there is no pain. "I hate myself more and more everyday.I can't stand looking in the mirror.I can't stand living anymore.Suicide is the only way to escape all this hate and suffering.I climbed up to the edge of the building and looked at the ground from 30 feet above."Why live and suffer when I can die and not feel a thing?" I asked myself."Because you've got to be strong." a voice came from behind me.I turned around, he had coffee brown hair that fell over his pale white face and covered his intense blue eyes.His nose and chin were perfect and he had a little stubble. He was smiling at me and I saw his pearly white teeth that hid behind his so kissable lips."Umm,who are you?" I asked when I was finished admiring his beauty.He came closer and said "First you have to come down from there." He came up to me and lifted me with rock hard,muscular arms that ran up the sleeves of his red and black Plaid shirt.He put me down in front of me and said "I'm Colin." he said in a smooth  voice "This is my first day here."  "I'm Paige.Paige Cambell." I introduced myself  "Nice to meet you Paige.Can I ask why were you going to jump from a 30 foot building?"He asked me in a curious voice I turned and said "I dont want to talk about it." I ran down the stairs to head to class but he caught up with me "You can't let them get to you.Youve got to fight." he said "What do you know?If it weren't for you I would've been in a better place than here now!" I shouted with tears building up in my eyes but I turned away so he couldn't see them."If I didn't save you,you'd be dead!" he said in a loud voice."Exactly!" I shouted before running to my class. When I entered the class there were some snickers but I just ignored them and sat in my seat on which the words bitch,die and suicidal whore were written.During Math I couldn't help but think about Colin."He's definetly older than me.Why does he care if I die or not,I barely even know him." I thought to myself.When school ended it as raining,I walked home in the pouring rain.When I reached my doorway I was soaking wet.I opened the door,Gabe wasn't home and I was kinda  happy for that.I heated up some left over lasagna,ate and did my Biology homework before going to bed at 7.