Under Attack and Dodging the Shrapnel
Introduction
The human race is an arsenal of anger and revenge, whether it be on fields of war, the streets, or within the home. My anthology of poems express my experiences of life, witnessed first hand when working within disadvantaged communities.
The final poem in Part 1; Exodus Of A Viking, is a mythological one,written in 2011 under my former pen name of Poppy Moss.
Part 1: Battlefields
War
Beneath the sickle-moon you crawl
through dense undergrowth.
Seeing yet unseen;
stalking your prey.
Preparing to kill or be killed
in the name of victory and honor;
for your Government and country.
Whilst the facilitators of war sit
in luxurious surroundings.
Their remit, to debate.
Make decisions that will affect your fate
not theirs.
You face death.
The worst they can expect, is
to fall out of grace with
the public.
Making way for other facilitators
to take their place and
condemn you to die.
on grounds of slaughter.
Where they ought to be.
not you.
After all, it was their decision
to go to war.
Up Close Not Personal
The weapon of your face
targets mine.
You aim to shatter my being;
splinter my mind.
Steaming vapor's of hate
spew from nostrils flared.
Snarls break the silence,
teeth are bared.
Steel-blue shards of ice
like arrows fly, from
eyes unwavering yet
hiding fears.
When we are dead, others
will shed the tears.
We didn't want this
never-ending war game.
We were thrust into the abyss,
to proclaim our Government's fame.
Camouflage
When at war you paint
your face, to hide
from the enemy.
At home, washed clean
of camouflage, you smile;
to hide your fears from me.
Freedom Fighters
Warriors of a darker kind.
Hooded, stained, to disguise
their identities.
Trained to rescue prisoners from
hostage situations, oil-stations,
zones of war.
Territories where genocide and
revolutions reign.
They scrutinize the sitrep
then advance.
Not speaking; signalling
one to the other.
Shrewd in their quest to
answer the plea to free
those in distress and,
dispose of the enemy.
Sidewinders among a
nest of vipers.
Skirting the blood-red sands of war
and when it's o'er,
returning to the normality of home.
Secreting their camouflage away,
until the arrival of another
war-filled day.
Exodus
Crushed, maimed, pushed and targeted.
Refugees head for the border.
Fleeing their homes, a place,
where they should feel safe.
Instead, thousands are dead;
others dying, lying at their
countrymen's feet.
Brothers, sisters, children,
hide and wait with weaponry.
Followers of a Dictator who,
orders them to attack their brethren,
seal their fate.
to kill those who oppose his regime.
Aftermath
Rattling, roaring rumblings;
shake me, wake me
from my sleep.
Memories collide, I'm stumbling
into thoughts so dark and deep.
I'm hearing loud explosions.
I'm fighting in the war.
I can't handle this exposure.
I'm feeling insecure.
The sound of guns, bombs and weaponry,
penetrate my mind.
Threatening my life, my sanity.
Myself I cannot find.
I'm told it's post-war syndrome,
searing through my head.
Prior to this I'd never known ,
what its like to be the walking dead.
Exodus Of A Viking
When death called was your entry
to Asgard made swift,
by burning upon a pyre;
or did the Valkyrie claim you
on blood-red meadows of war?
Did the High One Odin greet you
from his golden throne in Valhalla,
or did Huginn and Muninn betray you;
forbidding entry there?
When death called did Mighty Thor rumble by,
in his goat drawn chariot?
Was he armed with thunderbolts and Mjolinik,
to herald your coming to the gods and
warn humans of your imminent death?
Before death called did Frey,
bestow peace and fertility upon your home,
or did your life stay barren;
rejected by the God's duality?
When you entered Valhalla was it
through an arch during the night?
Did you dine on pork and mead,
with Odin and the slain?
Did you sup bright drink from the stoups
handed out by the Valkyrie?
If Valhalla claimed you at daylight;
did Odin urge you to join the violent armies
of the dead, fighting in Asgard's meadows,
outside the hall?
Will you be there at Ragnorak,
when the gods too face their destiny?
Will you witness death call to them,
as it called to you?
Part 2: On Home Ground
Dominion
On the day I had a
python wrapped around my neck;
I realized you had a
stranglehold on me.
Hypnotized by the
stealth of the tarantula
that traversed my palm, I
thought of the harm you'd
caused; with your devious ways, the
twists and turns of your lies.
You interwove the intricate pattern
of our lives into a web so taut
I couldn't breathe.
De-oxygenated, my individuality
was squeezed from me; I became
an extension of you.
When I watched the
Goshawk perched on my wrist,
tilt its head, stare back at me,
flap its wings and fly; I
recognized, I too could be free.
So I fled away from ownership,
and your continuous tyranny.
Shot Down
Your spitfire mouth shoots
words of wrath into the room.
Zoom, you go, leaving a
vapor trail of venom
floating in the air.
You never did care.
It seems your ploy
was to bleed me dry.
You've lost the game,
now go in shame and
play with another toy.
Reject
When I was fifteen I was your reject;
below the standard that you required.
Now I'm thirty-two, you view me in
a different light and you
expect me to be flattered and forget
the hate you fired within me.
Seeing you now I realize,
how blessed I am to be free.
Unsullied by your puffed up pomposity.
You've aged beyond your years.
Today, I am the prize you
will never have. You are
the reject now, so
go lose yourself in tears.
Detached
He stands motionless;
detached from outside contact.
Discarded words of love
amble through the air.
Shoddy, meaningless words
that attempt to gain entry
into a mind consumed with hate.
A labyrinth of disjointed thoughts.
Bullets of anger turned upon himself.
He detests everything he represents;
what he has become,in the name of love.
He is a vessel drained of content,
tarnished, cracked, rejected,by
the one he loved. Displaced in favor of
a nobler trophy. Now she returns, tired
of her new toy. Her pleas of forgiveness
melt into nothingness. She kneels before
his rigid form. He wavers and yearns for
her fidelity, knows that it will never be.
A game she plays in the name of love.
He releases himself from her clutch, and leaves.
Love is lost.
Crossed Line
Invisible yet I know its there;
so how come you ignore it?
It's not difficult to comprehend;
so why do you step o'er it?
You don't cross the line
when its painted on a
pitch or other places.
At traffic lights you stop at red;
with me you just go crazy.
Respect is what I ask of you;
is that an ask too far?
The line is there,
you know it is.
Don't cross it or we're through.
Raptor
A raptor in human form.
Devouring the essence of
my being and extracting
all emotion from me.
Your pestilent presence
twisted my mind.
Molded my body into a golem.
Weakened I was unable to resist
your demands.
You discarded me, flung
me on to the streets. I was
destroyed by depravity and
the lust of men like you.
I was your means of survival.
A money machine to
provide you with a
luxurious lifestyle,
while I starved.
Now I've escaped from
your talons of greed.
Fallen victim to
another pestilence.
Dying, I will soon be free.
Burned
Teenage years have disappeared;
flown by with youthful dreams.
Ambitions lost in flames that seared;
and promoted pain-racked screams.
Like the tin roof upon our shed;
my skin is rugose and scarred.
Your heart is empty, love has fled.
I'm imperfect now and marred.
You remain at my bedside;
yet it is quite clear,
I see your urge to run and hide;
to travel far away from here.
Your apathy to my situation,
is evident to see.
I've endured your former degradation,
this stance is new to me.
Your wedding ring has been removed,
a clear, unspoken sign; I'm
not the man that you once loved;
your marriage vows are in decline.
I could make it easy for you;
be clement and pretend,
that I've become indifferent too
and I want our love to end.
It's not for me to decide our fate,
I will leave it up to you.
Whilst lying in my bed I'll wait
and pray your love stays true.
Magnolia Bare
Stripped of dignity, magnolia bare;
free from adornment, trinket less,
alone.
Roughened , snarled edges, plaster- swirled walls,
hallmarked with fingerprints of grime.
Patches of unfinished paintwork, peeled away;
like the armor of your toughened skin,
hiding years of poverty and the pain of being alone;
in this your home.
Yet still you smile, stand tall and proud,
honing your wit..
Challenging non-believers who say you cannot succeed;
when they in truth are failures.
Hiding behind their credit-card barriers,
building mountains of debt.
Secreting treasures in their Aladdin's Cave.
Hoarding everything, owning nothing.
Taking, never giving.
Showing disdain for those who struggle to survive,
in their world of gain.
A world you refuse to enter.
Remain steadfast in your self-belief.
Time is on your side.
When their house of cards tumble around them;
they will hold the joker and you the ace.
Clutch it close to your heart, safe in the knowledge
you will reach your goal.
Yet those who sneered will be;
stripped of dignity, magnolia bare.
Free of adornment. trinket less,
alone.
Living in a home with roughened, snarled edges and plaster-swirled walls.
Hallmarked with fingerprints of grime and patches of
unfinished paintwork peeled away.
Without the armor of a toughened skin, they will not survive their years of
poverty and pain, in their new home.
Skin Deep
The tarpaulin of your skin
once taut, unscathed; is
now a landscape of scars, tattoos, criss-cross cuts
to camouflage what lies beneath;
the pain of living with abuse.
At the touch of a blade,
red rivulets stream.
Trapped between two nowhere's, you
dream of freedom from fear.
Yearn for youth and pain to pass.
A brief spell of relief as
you watch the flow;
feel the waspish sting of the cut
soon to be hidden from view.
It is a secret, known only by you.