The Zilch Manifesto
Visions Arabesque
Visions Arabesque Sometimes.... and thoughts and memories tumble like warm sunshine through lacy branches and when that happens, who am I to deny them voice? Mind-images wreathed in purple smoke epiphanies’ in halo’d glow Autumnal whispers in tones of yesterday merge with Winter’s crystalline appearance… footsteps echo in the swell of time that surging ebb and flow that defies reasoning… … the flow of decades meander behind me an endless and well-trodden road… Where did time go? And did I use it well? Who can truly tell when so much seems left undone. Visions arabesque woven in intricate tapestries the curly-haired child I no longer know morphed with ungainly grace into the aging crone I see in puddled reflections memories superimposed over fragile fantasies intermingled fragrances… rain & sunshine… stormy rum… earthy sandalwood the calming scent of euphoric hemp baby-breath-innocence man-sweat-intoxicants blended aromas of life in recall… Revelation in retrospect contemplation bearing no resemblance to the young-girl-dreams of days gone by… hard-won insight carries the crushing bruises of sanity lost in a world gone mad. And yet… where there is dark, so shall there be light from confusion clarity is born… nights reeking of stale bar smoke dissipate in the untainted desert breeze abject loneliness fades embraced by valleys verdant boarders and in moments of sunset solitude I make peace with myself.
Don't for a moment think... you have picked up an ordinary book;
That would be a mistake.
A Ramble On Life and Fear
.... Life is seldom how we dream it
so we change our dreams
adapt our thoughts
learn and evolve.
And through it all we battle our fears;
Real… imagined… minuscule… monumental…. We all have them…
hidden and not so hidden, fears.
I know my fears well; we have been intimate companions for many decades.
I fear time, and the very real fact that one’s time does indeed run out
and may, probably will, run out before I’m finished with living.
I don’t fear death… why fear something that is inevitable, but I do fear it coming too soon… before I am ready;
I fear it will arrive before I have another grand adventure
before I know the thrill of true adventure again.
I fear I’ll never again live with the sweet joy of being closely connected
with nature and the natural earth.
I fear I will never find my verdant mountain.
That my strength will fail me
and I become a burden to those who see me as the strong one.
I fear I’ll cause pain to those I love as they are forced
to watch me wither and die
And I fear the confusion and pain
in their hearts as they say their last good byes.
Time is my greatest fear.
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We uncover truths that lift the confusion a little
and deepen it… confounding our sense of “is”
unbalancing our equilibrium
shaking the foundations our parents instilled in us;
don’t blame them, but do give credit if credit is due…
they are only human … and believe it or not harbour inner doubts too.
There is a certain measure of strength that comes with commitment;
committing to a set of ideals or morals
committing to rejecting
the popular mindset of the mainstream…
committing to renounce pain
and not let emotional pain scar the soul….
All that being said, the growing and evolving through pain and confusion,
where has that taken me? Where am I in life?
Do have love? Yes, love of family and friends.
Do I have joy? Yes, every time I know they are happy. But...
.... Life is seldom how we dream it
so we change our dreams
adapt our thoughts
learn and evolve.
Or something like that.....
Stone-Washed Truisms
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Now this is not the end.
It is not even the beginning of the end.
But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.
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Blinded by the harsh reality
layered into each waking moment
I cling to stone-washed truisms
any scrap
of ancient wisdom
I can find…
… not always easy though
to believe the empires of the future
are the empires of the mind….
I read once, I recall it now
as I dwell on
impossible futures
where peace reigns
and telemarketers
are outlawed
that It is always wise to look ahead
but difficult to look further than you can see…
… and that is true of me
for my envisioned destiny
is not the one I see unfold
before me…
Such are the substance of my dreams
unattainable visions
I don’t know how to actualize
how does one create miracles of life
… feed universal vibrations
or write the mantra
that calls rainbow warriors
to stand strong in global unity -
- no more attainable
then Restraining the Elements
or holding a lovers breath
in cupped hands…
I do not toy with visions
of glory days –
- where rainbows outshine
rain-washed grey…
… I envision hands joined
across ocean and land
united with Nature
in tune with the seasons
not the clock-on-clock-off
regime of product and demand
and stop-light timetables…
… a future with heart & soul;
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No, this is not the end.
It is not even the beginning of the end.
But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.
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