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Dear Diary,

I'm fighting with myself, my habits I've carried, my whole childhood needs to diminish with the right intentions, Im scared that somehow the pieces of my past will catch up to me and my new mind set will either corrupt itself with deep inflictions or accept the energy of negativity from what it was and let it pass on.

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"Brook! Come here I need to talk to you sweetie." I knew she was trynna sweet talk me into something because she always called me brook when she did.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"What you want from me now?" I said that with the biggest attitude. She only wants me when she wants me to do something.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Brookieee" she said smiling at me, "I have a friend coming over." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

"So? What that got to do with me." I was still saying with an attitude.

"Come on Brookie just do it for me." Tears started to roll down her eyes. "He said he'd beat me to death if you didn't, please!" ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"And what about all the other niggas! They was gone beat you if I didn't have sex with them either?" You shouldn't have been messing with them niggas in the first. place!"⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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I grabbed my keys and was about to head out the door but as soon as I opened the door I seen this huge man standing right outside the door.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

"So you must be Brooklyn right?" He was checking me up and down and I was starting to get creeped out. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

"And you are?" I was starting to get impatient and scared aab!

"Im Chris. I thought your mother told you about me?" ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"I came to talk to you, so you not going nowhere until I get what I asked for." He smirked at me and pulled my chin up. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"So this is what you do? You rape little girls and think it's okay. That is no okay!" I was crying by then. 

"You want me baby you just don't know that yet." He smirked again and grabbed my hand. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Let me go!" I kicked him in his shit and I ran upstairs into my room and locked my door. I had to find a way out of here.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Girl you better open this door!" He yelled. I could here my momma crying begging me to open the door too. But I didn't. I kept trying to think of way out the window without hurting myself.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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I heard him prying on the door as I was trying to get out the window but it was too late.. He got the door opened.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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He licked his lips. "Now you bout to get what you was asking for." He threw me on the bed and took off my clothes while my own mother held me down. And then he raped me.. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

After he was done he covered me up and told me sweet dreams. I layed there lifelessly in the bed crying as my body ached. I needed to get away.

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"Get up it's time for school" my momma said with a bitchy ass attitude.

"Kiss my ass" I mumbled as I got out of bed.

"What you said?" She was talking like she was bout to do something and Ain een care nomo! It's bout time I fought back. She's been doing me wrong for the last 16 years and im sick of it! 

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"I said kiss. My. Black. Ass. You got that? I hope you burn in hell." I walked up so close to her our nose could touch.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"So you wanna be grown now huh? You can get out my house then! GET THE FUCK OUT." No biggie. Ain wanna stay there anyways.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"I'll be glad too. I'll just get MY shit and then I'll go." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"I bought allll this! None of this is YOUR shit! So you can take what you got on and ride out!" ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"And every nigga you wanted me to fuck since I was 11 I had sex with. For you! Because I love you! But you don't love me. You only care bout Yoself. I can't wait til one of these niggas beat you to death. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

When I said that, she slapped me in my face. I slapped her back and then we started throwing punches. I punched her in her jaw and she passed out. I hurried and put outfits, sleeping clothes, and other things I needed in my nikes duffel bag, grabbed the keys to my Camaro and left. I texted Kayla and asked her if I could freshen up at her place because I was bleeding. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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Me: Kayla can I come freshen up at ya house.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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Kayla👭🔐: you know you can.why ask 😂⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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Me: I still ain't wanna just barge in you know.. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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Kayla👭🔐: yeah I understand but what's wrong at your house? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

Me: I'll explain when I get there.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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Kayla👭🔐: okay. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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When I pulled up in the driveway Kayla was already outside waiting for me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Brugh! What the fuck happened to yo face! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Me and Cassandra got into a fight" I said while walking inside the house. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

"You mean your mom?" She was scratching her head confused.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"No I mean Cassandra." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Well- why? Is it because of her try-" I cut her off before she could say it and just nodded. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Well let me help you. I'll go get some peroxide." She looked like she wanted to cry but I didn't need anyone to feel sorry for me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Kay don't feel sorry for me. It's because of my stupidness." I said looking down.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Don't blame yourself for that! That's her fault not yours! You are more than welcome to stay here for however long you want. You don't have to go back there." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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I ignored the statement. "Im just gonna go take a bath so we can go to school."⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Okay brook. Just think about what I said." She said with a sincere look. 

"Okay." I simply replied.

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I took a 20 minute shower and then just let the water hit my face while I cleared my mind. When I got out I put on a Batman vintage Logo sweatshirt, acid washed high waisted pants, my wolf grey retro 3s, and some accessories. I let my hair stay wet and wavy. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Brook you ready?" She said impatiently. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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I opened the door. "Im all set." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

She smiled at me and gave me a hug. "I love you girl you're so strong."

I smiled. "Somebody has to." 

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When we got to school we met up with Bri and Peyton. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"What happened to you eye?!" Peyton said worried.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"It's no biggie. Im alright." I said trying to fake a smile on my face.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Do we need to fuck somebody up??" She was reaching in her purse like she had a gun.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"You mean yall. Im too pretty for all that." Bri said nonchalantly. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Bri shut the fuck up" Kayla said while giving Her a death look.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Yall lets just go before the bell rings." I was tryna change the subject before they started arguing and shit went down.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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When we got in class Mr.Howard stopped me.

"Brooklyn what happened to your face?" He sounded worried but it wasn't his business what the fuck was wrong with me. He always wanna be in somebody's business.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Nothing. dang!" I said with a bad attitude. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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"Are you getting abused at home? Is it from all those men your mom has at her house?" He whispered to me.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

"Fuck you!" I yelled as I started to walk back out of the school. Fuck this.

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