As i watched the rain pour, i focused on the droplets racing eachother down on the other side of the window. It was peaceful, but I wasn't at peace. My mind often drifted, into the unknown. 

Numb. All i felt was numb. To emotional pain. Love was just a word. Not a feeling. Not anymore. I often thought about you, thought about what we could have been. A life together was all i wanted. & you were willing to dive into the unknown with me. Then, you dived alone. Pushing me away. & you sunk. Suffocating. I could see the pain in your eyes. Even though you were the one drowning. You killed me. 

I woke up, after our fight. After you said you wouldn't leave. But you did. & i was so mentally & emotionally drained & hurt. Hurt from your words. The words spoken from a liar. Yet they still had meaning to me.