Love cages you.Makes you  always careful always safe you protect and trust  never letting go of that one true love .when it leaves you you burn I lost him that one day he asked me if I would ever let him know all my secrets I said I do not trust him ,more lies

.The pain it gives you to watch your loved one walk away . I saw anger on his face it burns .I See not only anger but hurt and confusion .I wish he would understand I longed to tell him the truth but I could not bring myself to do it if I did I might not be able to convince myself I am not what I really am evil and cruel .My mother so stupidly fell in love with a man one who was filled with evil he caved in to the hurt the pain just like I did I can not be broken free ever .I think that .when I see someone smile my burn does not leave me it ignites I feel like i am on fire that one smile.  I try to hide I cringe away from he idea of loving again of smiling without the one that I truly love i feel like I am betraying him by even thinking about having friends and even being happy .I want to hide, not be noticed at all .But no matter were I go everyone looks at the pain and anguish in my eyes .They ask me if I am ok I want to run ,hide scream and kick but I know that won't get me anywhere I try not to yell but my voice becomes more rough as I say "I am fine it is more and more painful lying to someone who bothered to stop and try to help you . 

 I am Lucy my heart was shattered by the on I loved I am half Angel half  Demons I have been alive for over 290 years and still look 17 .