Grief, Pain, Hurt
First taste of pain
It's pain that's firing in my soul
It's blemishing and hot
It's hurt anew
I can't scream
I can't even shout out
In fear of being hurt even more
I want to cry
In hope of washing out the past
But I'll stay strong
Won't let my pain show
It's a matter of streghth
It's a matter of weakness
The weak don't live only the strong do
And I want to live
I want to see a day when my pains better
I want to see the day when my pain is no more
Missed but never forgotten
I was young
And you were younger
I watched you die
You slumped to the floor
I cried out, but couldn't get nearer
I had to leave her
Please forgive me
I liked to think I watch over her from the clouds
Even though she was on better grounds
I'd look at the sky and tell her to brush her teeth and bathe
And I'd pretend she said Ok Big Sissy
I grieve I had lost my only friend
I miss her until this day
I won't forget
And I want revenge
The story never told
It was full of sin
Please forgive me little sister
Suicide, miss, and bliss
I stood at the cliff and peered over it for a while
I compemated if anyone would miss me
I thought of my sister
My so great hero
If I jumped I be with her
I took a step forward
And then a step back
What was holding me to the floor
What little did I have to look for
I hated my mother
I hated my father
You were the only one I loved
Since I never had any friends
I stepped forward
I made my mind
I remember screaming and then a bliss
And my sister was saying
Welcome sis