Brennen Lindsey is a picture perfect science of a scene to the open eyes of anyone who sees her and in real time she can flip that front well. 

    You can't tell who she is unless you know her in the real time of her space! See the beauty of Brennen is overlapped with many personalities and the sores of them!

    A rupture of depression running into bipolar runs together in her and it's not easily to open! Nor say!

    In her work as a beauty revolver she is poised and on her game! No one knows except close family and dear friends.

    It's a trap of incessant thinking from others of complete strangers or known so called friends that will see her '' Differently '' as if she is the plague! LOL! Really!

  It's the pose and classy girl of her! The beauty skips it along in her sunshine! Yet! She can't be fully open! Not yet! 

Days are hurtful for her if she goes manic into a spree of maybe buying nine hundred dollar jimmy choo shoes or over drinking her favorite wine! Brennen knows the limitations.

 It's the control shop of the ship that gets her! Today as she thinks of this at a coffee shop in town waiting for a dinner guest she is on edge! But chooses to sip her frozen Capp mocha! Can she be completely complicated? Yes to that answer. 

As she sits waiting she thinks I could take a fun run around the cute midtown shop. Cause runners run in the safe spot also! Yet she won't! She is looks cute in her pink and black workout outfit and hair pulled back. 

Brennen gets the nerves starting to flow Ellen isn't here and shes ready to Go! So she gets up and picks up her coffee! Walking out the door! As her cell rings. 

It's Ellen! She was stuck in a meeting! "Brennen I am on the way please wait" meeting ran long!  " ok! She says! 

Brennen waited and Ellen made her way to the cafe!!!

She was way on edge and wanted Sex bad but settled for coffee!!! Ellen her friend just did not know! 

There was almost a hotel key in her hand an hour before! Really for real and if the handsome guy had stayed minutes more! It would have been the way they locked eyes!

Ellen being late saved Brennen! 

     She hates to take meds so like what do they do! Brennen thinks as she is taking her lithium! Many doses she has missed and manic behavior has been the talk now.

She feels fine! Yet Brennen knows she can bend over the bridge soon! Yet she has a fashion show to work in feeling this manic! How can she do it?

Today is Saturday and she lays in bed! No feeling to wanna go out or be in huge company. Still it's the morning there is a job she has.

 It can't be ignored and soon the calls will be coming from the salon from Eva Dianna! The boss but Brennen best friend!

 Yet! Her body won't move and she is trying with the white sheet cover over her head thinking! But there is no excuse to make  for this!

Brennen slowly gets up and it's past 8:30 am! Just move faster she tells herself! You can do it Brennen! She yells out!!!! 

Going to run her shower! She don't wanna be! But gotta be! Right!

     It's right at 10:15 am on a Wednesday morning! Brennen is ready! But yet she is still on her orange round sofa!!! Just sitting nothing else! In her black heels ready to go!

     Except she can't move! Her body is paralyzed and she is telling herself "move " and the body she carries won't!

     As she gets to reaching for her phone to call Eva! It suddenly rings and it's Eva!

     Brennen " your not here are you ok? " you stuck again? Just sit there I am coming! Eva tells her! Ok Brennen says quietly low shaking!

What's going on she says to herself!

She wonders had it been two days since her anxiety meds and lithium!!! ???? Question marks come to her mind!! Hard!!

 In the first place she didn't want to be bipolar! Brennen really thought the doctor was playing a joke on her! And there was going to be a big SIKE balloon coming her way!

  Yet! she was and all she wanted to do in hearing that at that moment was imaginary see herself shooting her ( for real ) cause she had died! Inside her! The second thing was to eat the biggest red velvet cupcake with vanilla cream cheese icing and gain twenty pounds. 

But! See none of those was going to help so she came to see bipolar was here and in the now is how this is going to affect her! 

Brennen had taken up psychology in college as a minor and kinda laughed at the meaning of bipolar!  For she wasn't that! That is not her NO!!! In that time she was trying to be too perfect!

There was no true to her and Brennen lied many moons to herself! Losing her own respect of herself. Different wasn't her then!

Today in this moment she can't lie to the real her and loves to be transparent for it's a release! Still being bipolar scares her! 

 It's a dream her mind talks as she can't move off the sofa. She wants to wake up and this be that dream! No it's real and shocking! She is paralyzed in Anxiety! 

Tears roll down her pretty face! So Brennen lays down on the orange sofa curling up in a tight fetal position still crying in her black heels at 12:30 noon! 

She can't move so she lays there! The phone has rung over twenty times and her body is in an anxiety stuck. 

5 pm noon! The orange sofa is still yet occupied by Brennen! Many times she tried to move but could not! Fear took the mind in her! She was hungry but could not get to the kitchen to make a sandwich.

  Wanted water and needed her house phone! Cause as she could not move her cell phone died yet she was numb! Done!

If there had been a gun near her Brennen would have pulled the trigger! She was fed up being bipolar! 

She wonders when she can let go of this sofa. Her life is not this sofa! And it hurts her too bad this way.

Stress is and has risen in the neck of Brennen. It's like fires in her neck burning! The room begins spinning and Brennen loses her balance as she tries to stand up!

  She wants water and she is calling for help!!! Screaming! Help Me! But no one hears her! 

 On the floor in tears and pain Brennen attempts to crawl to the table grabbing her purse to get her cell and call 911! 

Soaked in sweat and heart in anxiety Brennen says to the operator " help me please " screaming! 

The operator hears the pain and says "baby they on the way."