These are poems that I have written during almost every emotional state of my life. When I was growing up, I had been through many difficult times and writing seemed to be the only thing that would alleviate some of the depression. You can tell that I was younger, as you read through all of them, but you are also able to tell how I felt when I wrote them.
I sit here filled with confusion tonight,
Feeling some anger, sadness, frustration, and fright.
What do I do? How do I stop the pain that dwells inside?
Should I pray? Call someone? Would it better if I just died?
How would it help if I spoke with God? Would He even speak back?
Would he tell me what to do or list all of the "good" characteristics that I lacked?
Would it smart to let a friend into my world of insanity?
Could I get some help? Could I even make them see?
But dying... now, that really sounds like the plan.
I wouldn't have to worry any more. I would make my last stand.
I shrug my shoulders and fall asleep.
I guess I will wait until tomorrow until I take that leap.
I feel my eyes light up when I think of your face.
As I remember moments with you, my heart starts to race.
You are the only one who can make it beat fast and slow, at the same time;
The only one who could ever turn my problems into rhyme.
'Special' is the word that best describes you and me.
Listening to each others' thoughts and helping each other with life's insanity.
I think about you every night and all day.
I wonder what we would be like if neither of us ran away.
I am still here and I always will be.
I will be here to hold you when you ... finally... see me.