A Broken Heart
Introduction
"Let your pain rest on paper, not in your heart..."
The day I felt my heart break, I didn’t know it at the time but I had actually been set upon the very first step of a long journey towards self-discovery and awakening. This path would not be easy, rather full of hardship! Fierce pain and numerous struggles of the heart and mind that would push me to emotional extremes I had never thought possible. My writing became the primary tool with which I built myself anew. Poetry streaming from every feeling, thought and memory that met me at each crossroads. The good, the bad and even the downright ugly all found their way onto paper, and by putting all this energy down, getting that inner struggle out of my being I was able to view my convoluted mash of feeling and deeply troubled thoughts from a place more calm and to maintain an objective distance. It became a workshop in which I crafted my new found clarity and inner peace. So this book is a collection of all my earliest poems that I began writing after suffering rejection at the hands of my first love, and right through the depths of my turmoil to move past the pain and anguish. It charts my evolution from when new lovers would come and then as quickly go, with my many successes and setbacks included. Finally it tells of my awakening moment, of letting go of the pain, the suffering and the anxiety by setting my heart free from it’s needless restraints and conditions. If you have ever been (or maybe still are) upon this difficult journey then I hope this book helps in some way to provide a few insights that may even help you with your own experience.
Best wishes
Westley
Cursed
Why are you being like this?
Did I do something wrong?
When did our sweetest aria heartfelt,
become a screaming warrior song?
All my secrets divulged with candour
unto your loyal and kindred soul,
are now betrayed by this vicious animus
that seeks to shut me out in the cold!
All my welcoming calls that beckon you,
are consumed by a brutal stillness.
And true messages stained with passion,
meet an evasive, uncaring cruelness!
Am I so wrong to ask for your heart?
Am I so wrong to cling to your word?
Did I venture more into dreamland
and tales far beyond the absurd?
But all I ever really asked
was to see you once in a while.
Yet instead you leave me cursed,
by lonely memories of your smile.
Defeat
What’s the matter, did I scare you?
Did honesty tremble your childish earth!
Did my shameless display of palpable emotion
strike terror into your unripened heart?
Did my words of clear intention,
drive madness through your little mind.
Just as warm signs of love and affection,
did harass and startle you blind!
Was it the sight of my devotion advancing
which provoked your frantic retreat?
Until your implicit refusal to face me,
left us crushed by enduring defeat!