Im so angry and hurt, i could literally bang my head in to a wall and become soothed. The pain kills me that much. I really do not understand why i have to deal with his immaturity, stubborness and carelessness. I know that i love him, and i know i want to spend my entire life with him, but the damage he commits to my heart is just too much for me to handle. 

An entire two years, is what i spent with him, and in that time i told him everything about me and he did the same. I trusted him more then i trusted my ownself. My love for him was so strong, i did everything just to make him happy. I gave him all the attention in the world, i bought him everything i thought he would love to have, i made sure that when i was near him, i didnt waste a second. I was filled with romantic behaviour and love, but that was not the case for him. 

I just felt as if i did not mean anything to him, in his eyes i felt like nothing. I had to do everything first in this stupid relationship, and it made me feel alone, even if he was there the whole time. I called him first, i messaged him first, i would speak to him at school, first. I would walk him to his classes, i bought him so many gifts, i ensured he was happy at all times. He was taking taking and taking, and i just wished he gave back in return. I am the one thats supposed to be sustained with the feeling of being loved and cared for; at the end of the day i am the female in the 'relationship'.

 It was one of the worst feelings any soul could breathe in. I endured the pain day by day, but as my heart burnt and the ashes flew away, my sadness and sorrow within me boiled and turned into anger. My affection became depression and i did not tolerate anymore of his childish behaviour. Everytime i spoke to him, we just had to argue, almost as if it was mandatory.  

I hated it, because everysingle time i saw him, i felt all different emotions just cramped inside of me