I let your words in my head and take it to heart. I feel your breath on my neck as you whisper words of hate instead of love. I can hear my heart beat so fast scared if you use your fist instead of your words. I can feel the clenching of my heart every time your close it scares me to a point where I just wanna lay in a ditch and cry. I can hear the laughter clear in my mind, my own conscious laughing at the fact I am weak. I cried, I hoped, I wished that I could have a life where I can really breathe properly. Where I can laugh at a joke that doesn’t hurt. Where I can finally say I am free from you and my pain.
These words, I can’t express, all inside my head making it hard for me to hold on to what I have left of me. I scream, I feel, I leave and I take all this pain. But for what? Why do I take this pain? When I could put it aside and face the world like a normal happy person. That is because I’m not. My life is crashing down on me giving me no choice but to look and stare at what’s in front of me. FEAR, HURT, PAIN and the only thing left is a little love I have exotic to my heart opening a little light to my dark soul.
If this is the end for everyone, why am I here waiting? If this is the end for everyone, why am I still hoping? If this is the end for everyone, why am I still watching? If this the end for everyone, why am here listening? If this is the end for everyone, why am I still here crying? because this is the end, I am waiting for my end yet to be coming, because this is the end I am hoping for something with less pain, because this is the end I am here watching my every move, because this is the end I am here listening to my screams. I am here crying for what I have now and nothing better.