I'm going to die. I know it.
Well, I'm either going to die of depression or kill myself- so basically suicide.
I'm unhappy because... oh I don't know, for so many reasons.
1) I'm left out ALL the time and my freinds are closer with each other than they are with me so if I kill myself they wouldn't notice. If they did, they wouldn't care either. They don't seem to care if I slink off so what's the difference?
That's the point, there's not one.
2) Nobody lets me speak- because of course, nobody cares what I have to say. I can't get a word in with Jasmine or Isla around each other.
3) I wish people would like me.
Today was even worse.
One of my freinds- Isla was all over the other one-jasmine and she was supposed to be speaking to both of us but she went:
"So , jasmine- and you." And then blah de blah de blah...
Ok... so now I'm just 'you'.
So yeah, I'm seriously considering killing myself. Or leaving school.
That would be a safer option.
The only trouble is, if I did that I'll still remember it and their happiness together without me.
Perhaps I should kill myself then.
Have you ever thought of dying though?
No feeling. No depression
Yes I'm going to kill myself.
I've felt left out and miserable ever since I'd started this stupid friendship group and after months of considering, I think I might quit it.
Or kill myself.
No one could forget that suggestion.
I hope you all understand my situation and how miserable I am. It probably sounds quite petty and childish but it's actually really upsetting and distressing me.
'Jasmine', 'Isla' I hope you're reading this and feel bad because you should do.
You so, so, should.