Hi. I'm Ivy Shadow, I'm sixteen years old and I have secrets. A lot of them. And I guess you are now my safe spot. A little place I can tell my thoughts and no one will find out.
My secrets are dark, darker than most would think possible of a girl like me. I mean I'm still practically a child. But that hasn't stopped me thinking them and finding them.
I decided to write in you because my secrets are weighing me down. Becoming heavier and heavier the longer I hold on to them. I need a place for them to go, so I can push ahead.
I only live by three rules.
1. Always keep moving
2. Make everything seem normal, especially when there not.
3. When found: run. As hard and as fast as I can.
If your wondering what I'm running from, I can't tell you because I don't know. All I know is if I'm caught I'll be silenced. Permanently.
And if anyone is reading this and you get a sense of déjà vu: Run. Close this book as fast as you can and run. Once you start to remember they'll come for you. So run.
That was my problem. I started to remember, which was when the hunt began. That was why I started running.
September 3rd 2016
Wait. No I'm not going to write that down. I'm not some girly girl that's going to be talking about how cute some guy is, I'm going to be putting my secrets in here. So that's the last time I put that down.
Anyway when I woke up this morning it was the first day in my new school. What just because I'm in constant danger doesn't mean I can't try to have at least part of a normal life. I've moved around a lot since I started to remember, besides, that's when the dreams came. Well there're more like nightmares filled with demons and murder. The murder in the nightmares is always mine. Translation: I'm watching myself get murdered day after day. But last night the dream was different. It happened like this: I'm running down a dark alleyway until I reach a dead end. Typically I would watch myself die about now but instead of dying without seeing the murderers face, the hood that usually covers its face falls away to reveal that the murderer is me. Suddenly I'm watching from a different perspective and I see my victim. I raise my gun and put a bullet through her head.
I feel as though I've met her before, but where?
What's happening to me?
Wow that school is full of idiots . I mean seriously I didn't know they made that many. It's like they were created in a factory or something.As the new girl I was targeted immediately which is a given. Me kicking their butts and surprising them by doing so, also a given.
But today was the worst day in a long time flashback wise. I forgot I haven't written about them yet. I'll do my best to explain.
So ever since the murder of parents I've started to remember these...things. I honestly don't know what to call them. First they were just dreams I would only get at a certain time in the night. But then they started happening during the day. It was horrible because I never knew when I would get another one. Each one ended the same: an ear piercing scream followed by blood red eyes pearing out of the darkness and a pool of blood on the floor. Then I would wake up from that trance screaming and covered in blood. I would get so scared that I would spontaneously bleed.
I'm just realising the full extent of my dark side. I'm a very strange girl. It's to bad I don't have anyone. Well no one apart from the other kids in the orphanage. Speaking of that I'll write another time, if little Izzy sees me with you she won't stop with question time. I'll write again tomorrow.
September 4th 2016
You have no idea how close I was to punching Venessa Daniels today. She's the leader of the popular squad in school. Wanna know what she looks like? Easy: the devil in designer clothes including the tail, horns and red skin. Not a proper description? Well tough, it's true.
Her and her minions were picking on Alex prince today, which really annoyed me. Alex was the only one who was nice to me yesterday, her and her friends are awesome. There're also super smart.
Speaking of Alex, I'm supposed to meet her and the others at her house. We've been put in a group for an English assignment.
I know it's been kinda short but this is all I really want to write today.
Until next time.